squeamish bag he was reborn

Shen Qiyou has never been so close to others before, the person in his arms is tightly pulling his clothes, trembling like a dehydrated fish.

This appearance is not at all the pain of falling down as he thought, but he is afraid.

Rather, he was terrified.

He pursed his lips and felt the warm touch and his whole body froze. The water stains on his chest flooded with scalding heat. After a while, he raised his hand and patted the sobbing person's face strangely. back.

"never mind."

"Don't be afraid."

The voice was as deep as ever, and no emotions could be heard, but it had the power to comfort people in the dark.

After a while, the person in his arms gradually stopped shaking, but still whimpered softly, like a wounded animal cub.After an unknown amount of time, the crying also stopped, but because the crying time was too long, she was still panting slightly.

Shen Qiyou raised his hand again and slowly landed on the thin back, patting it again and again until the person in his arms slowly raised his head.

It only lifted for a moment, then lowered again, with its head hanging down like a little quail.

"thanks……"

"Go out first."

Song Yuan was interrupted by Shen Qiyou before he finished speaking, he sniffed and thought about it.It was only when he got up that he realized that he was almost buried in the opponent's arms just now, and it was not a comfortable position, his legs were curled up and felt numb and swollen under the pressure.

Fortunately, at least he put on his clothes the moment the lights went out.

"Can you get up?"

Shen Qiyou was still half squatting, looking down at the person sitting on the ground.

Song Yuan nodded, he patted his numb leg and stood up with difficulty.But the stamina of the numb legs reached the extreme the moment he stood up, as if the soles of his feet were being pricked by tiny needles, and he wobbled for a long time before he could stand firmly.

"Can you go?"

In the darkness, Shen Qiyou silently lowered his raised hand, and asked again.

"I can." Song Yuan's face was burning hot, and the fear gradually faded away, followed by boundless shame and embarrassment.

When Shen Qiyou said this, it was like a special reminder, and the scene of him throwing himself into his arms couldn't help but come to mind.

It's embarrassing to cry for so long.

Song Yuan knew the reason why he reacted like that the moment he saw Shen Qiyou, it was almost his instinctive reaction, at that moment he completely regarded him as Gu Nian'an from his previous life.

This person was his umbrella when he was afraid, and when he hid in his arms, he couldn't think of those terrible nightmares.

Song Yuan was afraid of the dark, to the point of dying.

He is afraid of the kind of darkness that cannot be seen with even the slightest light, especially in a closed space, which is a kind of ptsd.But if there is a little bit of light, his fear will be reduced a lot, and at most he will be a little uneasy.

In his previous life, after Gu Nian'an knew that he was afraid of the dark, he tried many methods and went to a psychiatrist, but with little success.In the end, the environment around him could only be prevented from suddenly falling into darkness, and many small night lights were installed in the bedroom.

But what Song Yuan didn't tell Gu Nian'an was that there were times when he wasn't afraid of the dark, and he wouldn't when he was around.

There are lights on in the corridor, and there is also a little light in the room through the windows.Shen Qiyou fumbled out a small flashlight, turned it on and placed it on the table, it became much brighter.

"The lights will be turned off at eleven o'clock." Shen Qiyou paused and said, "I forgot to remind you."

Song Yuan shook his head and said in a hoarse voice, "It's okay, I forgot the time myself." After he finished speaking, he glanced at Shen Qiyou and quickly lowered his head.

He didn't know how to explain to him what he looked like just now.

"There are no ghosts in this world." Shen Qiyou said abruptly, after thinking about it, he added, "At least not now."

Song Yuan was stunned for a moment, wondering why the other party would mention this, and then he said, "Indeed, although many people say that they have encountered supernatural phenomena, in fact, those can be explained by science. For example, will-o'-the-wisps..."

Shen Qiyou listened to a bunch of scientific explanations about will-o'-the-wisps, looked at the serious person and said slowly: "That's not what I meant."

"Oh."

Song Yuan responded in a low voice, feeling a little embarrassed when he thought of the long-winded speeches he had just said.Shen Qiyou was still hesitant to speak, it took Song Yuan a long time to understand what he just said.

Shen Qiyou thought he did that because he was afraid of ghosts.

When many people suddenly fall into darkness, they will think about some horror movies and novels they have read, just to scare themselves.The dark night will magnify these fears, it is reasonable for Shen Qiyou to think so.

"No, I'm not afraid of ghosts, but...afraid of the dark." Song Yuan felt embarrassed after speaking. He felt that a boy's fear of the dark was far more outrageous than his fear of ghosts.

Besides, even if they are afraid of the dark, few people can be as afraid as he is.

"Yeah." Shen Qiyou hummed lightly and then said, "After that, you wash first."

Song Yuan's eyes widened in surprise when he heard his indifferent answer, and the other party didn't even ask the reason. "Don't you think...it's weird? A boy is afraid of the dark, and he's afraid of being like that..."

Shen Qiyou looked at the disturbed person with a calm expression, and his tone of voice was the same as usual, "There is no rule that boys cannot be afraid of the dark, and everyone's degree of fear cannot be generalized."

"Ah."

Song Yuan quickly responded and lowered his head, trying to suppress the sudden feeling of grievance and sourness in his heart, his heart was aching with the pressure of his full swelled emotions.

Gu Nian'an said those words to him once, no one stipulated that boys should not be afraid of the dark.There is no malicious laughter and malicious inquiries, let alone naked disgust and contempt.

Song Yuan thought he didn't care about those malicious things, but after being taken care of in such a proper way, the sadness that was suppressed and hidden in his heart became a deep grievance.

There is no real empathy but understanding is precious enough.

Song Yuan regained his composure and glanced at the time, it was getting late, and he would have morning self-study tomorrow, so he wouldn't be able to sleep for long at this hour.

"Shen Qiyou, I'm fine now... It's just that it was too dark just now, go to bed quickly, I have to get up early tomorrow."

Shen Qiyou hummed and walked towards the bed, while Song Yuan changed into pajamas again and lay down on the bed.

This was the first time he lived in the school, the bed was very hard, even with a thick mattress, he still felt a bit uncomfortable, and he lay on the bed with his eyes closed for a long time, but he still didn't feel sleepy at all.

He turned sideways and looked in Shen Qiyou's direction, wondering if he was asleep.He watched silently for a while, this scene reminded Song Yuan of the state he got along with Gu Nian'an at the beginning.

At that time, they were also like this, sleeping opposite each other on the same bed.

Gu Nian'an suffers from severe insomnia, Song Yuan told him when he saw him for the second time, and also bluntly said that he saved him only because he liked his voice.

To be precise, it's because of his singing voice.

He said listening to his voice helped him sleep.

No matter how much Song Yuan thought, he couldn't think that it was because of this reason that he saved himself.

But he was also relieved.

When he moved into Gu's house, there were many rumors that he became the canary that Gu Nian'an raised in the tavern to warm the bed, but what they didn't know was that his canary only sang and didn't warm the bed.

At that time, it was not sure when Gu Nian'an would fall asleep, Song Yuan played his role very conscientiously, built a small bed in the bedroom, and only slept when someone fell asleep.

In the first few days, his voice was hoarse, but later Gu Nian'an fell asleep a lot faster, and he gradually got used to it.

Later, after the two got acquainted, the two of them lay directly on the same bed.

No one felt that there was anything wrong.

Song Yuan thought of calling Shen Qiyou's name, and tentatively said good night.After a while, a hoarse voice came, saying the same sentence, and Song Yuan felt a pain in his heart again.

Maybe his insomnia has been there since now.

"Shen Qiyou, why is your voice hoarse?" Song Yuan didn't mention the fact that he couldn't sleep. You can't think about things like insomnia. The more you think about it, the more you can't sleep. You can talk about something else to divert your attention.

After a long time, the other party didn't answer and Song Yuan didn't care, and when he was about to say something else, he heard Shen Qiyou coughing lightly, followed by a voice that couldn't be softer.

"Talking too much."

Song Yuan didn't expect this answer, and laughed out loud because he said this ironic reason in a serious manner.

He thought of what Qiao Qiao had told him before, that there were no more than five people in No. [-] Middle School who had spoken to him.He thought it was too exaggerated at first, but now it seems that it should be true.

Shen Qiyou really doesn't like talking to people, so much so that his voice became hoarse today because of "talking too much".

But he seemed to only be talking to himself.

Song Yuan curled his lips and said with a smile, "It's okay, just talk more in the future, would you like some water?"

Shen Qiyou refused.

The dormitory fell into silence again, and there was no sound outside. Most of the students were already asleep at this point.

Song Yuan still didn't feel sleepy, he was very troubled thinking about Shen Qiyou's insomnia, the sound insulation in the dormitory was not good, even if he could hold back his shame and insisted on singing to Shen Qiyou to lull him to sleep, he would definitely be called a nuisance.

He sighed and thought about the question he had always wanted to know but forgot to ask for various reasons.Since Gu Nian'an's age in his previous life was false, he wanted to know how old Shen Qiyou is now.

"17." Shen Qiyou said in a hoarse voice.

Song Yuan was a little surprised and asked what month his birthday was.

"December fifteen."

Song Yuan hummed, thinking that at least the birthday was the same as in his previous life, but then he realized another fact.

His birthday is in July.

Shen Qiyou is actually younger than him!

He suddenly felt overwhelmed and felt a little depressed.It's fine if he's not much older than him, but he didn't expect the other party to be younger than him.

It's a pity...it's a pity that Gu Nian'an asked him to call him his brother!

This person...why, why is this.

Song Yuan's face was blushing with embarrassment, he didn't know what he was angry about, but even if he was angry, it had nothing to do with Shen Qiyou.Thinking of this, he turned his back on the person very honestly.

Shen Qiyou watched his actions hesitate to speak, frowned and wondered if he didn't like this date.

However, the boy who turned his back didn't bother him for a long time, he only turned around after a while and murmured resentfully.

"Liar liar."

The author has something to say:

Xiao Shen: Brother, listen to me...

Yuan Yuan: Stop talking