squeamish bag he was reborn

"Brother Nan, why did you come here? It's a big wind..." Qin Mian held a simple food box in his hand, and didn't notice Shen Tiannan's strangeness for a while.

"It's okay, just walk around. Xiaoqin, I'm almost ready to be discharged from the hospital. Don't run here from now on. You're already busy with work." Shen Tiannan's legs and feet were inconvenient, and he had recuperated on the bed for a long time. Today was the first time he went to the field. walk.

Qin Mian hummed casually, but didn't take it to heart. He didn't realize that something was wrong with his brother-in-law until they were having dinner together.

He sighed silently in his heart, and naturally knew why.Looking at Shen Tiannan's current appearance and thinking of his high spirits when he was young, he felt even more uncomfortable.

And a little guilty.

"Brother Nan, you need to recover from your illness first. This is not something to worry about. Xiaoyou..." Qin Mian changed the subject and said, "I saw him two days ago and told him about you. It will take a few days This kid is coming to see you."

"He still has feelings for you."

He spoke easily, but in the end Shen Tiannan laughed helplessly several times.

"I saw him today."

"Look, I'll just say, this kid!" Qin Mian was a little surprised, but he was more happy in his heart.

"Not here to see me."

Shen Tiannan suppressed the soreness of his nose: "Xiaoyou, why are you so thin..." Halfway through his words, he thought of the way his son ignored him just now, and he couldn't suppress the pain in his heart any longer.

It took a long time before he wiped away his tears and regained his composure. He said with a smile, "I'm letting you see a joke, Xiao Qin. Half of his body is buried in the ground. Why are you still crying?"

Qin Mian's eyes were red: "Let's stop saying those words, I know you feel uncomfortable."

A man reaches middle age, loses his son and wife, lives alone in the world, and even his only blood hates him to the bone, how can he not feel uncomfortable in his heart?

"I'm sorry for them. I have no right to ask Xiaoyou to recognize me."

Shen Tiannan gradually calmed down, recalling the happy time of a family of four in his mind, it just felt like a dream in his previous life.

When you wake up from the dream, there is nothing left.

"You don't have anything to be sorry for. If you want to say sorry, our Qin family is sorry for you. My sister..." Qin Mian's nose soured and he didn't say anything. Everyone is gone, so what's the point of saying it now.

"Brother, tell Qi You what happened back then, the living are the most important, or else...or you..."

He didn't finish his sentence, but both of them understood what he meant. If they didn't say it, their father and son would never have a day in their life to sit together and have a good talk.

Shen Tiannan didn't know, but the day he made his decision, he never thought of saying it.He shook his head and changed the subject: "When I saw him today, there was a young man next to him. He was clean and white. They seemed to have a good relationship."

"The kid finally made a friend."

"It should be Song Yuan, Xiaoyou is at the same table. I have taken him for a while. This kid is very good." Qin Mian said, thinking of that meeting, and told him with a smile. Shen Tiannan listened to the feeling in his heart. The discomfort has also subsided a lot.

At least Xiaoyou will have someone to talk to in the future.

Shen Qiyou walked forward by himself, his face was still expressionless, but the faster and faster pace still exposed his inner unrest.

He thought he didn't care, but after seeing that person, he still felt uncontrollable anger in his heart.He obviously did something wrong, he obviously did something unforgivable, why can he act like nothing happened?

He even wondered what kind of mood that person was talking to him.

Guilt or fear and anxiety.

There was a sound of stomping footsteps behind him, a little anxious and almost trotting. Shen Qiyou didn't pay attention to being immersed in the dark vortex until he heard a thump, followed by a familiar voice.

With obvious crying and gasping sounds.

Almost instantly he stopped and looked back, it was Song Yuan.

Because he was running too fast, he didn't notice the raised stone under his feet. The little pitiful little boy who stepped on it, sprained his foot and hit the electric pole was unlucky. Looking at the person who finally looked back at him, the grievance in his heart suddenly couldn't stop. live.

"I called you several times...you ignored me."

"You're walking too fast...I've been running...and I haven't caught up with you."

Shen Qiyou instantly became at a loss, and walked up to him quickly, seeing a small piece of red skin on his forehead, his heart suddenly twisted, he didn't know that Song Yuan came back with him.

"Does it hurt?"

Song Yuan subconsciously said: "It hurts so much, I feel like my head was blown away just now."

Shen Qiyou answered him very seriously: "I didn't fly, but I'm fine."

Hearing what he said, the teary man curled up his lips and laughed again. With a smile, the tears couldn't be held back, and slid down his cheeks, looking extremely pitiful.

"sorry."

"It won't be like this again."

Shen Qiyou looked at those tears and said suddenly.

Song Yuan wiped his face: "Why did you suddenly say sorry? It's not you who hurt me."

"Because I didn't hear you calling me, you wouldn't bump your head if I waited for you."

Song Yuan hissed in a low voice because of the pain on his forehead and was a little anxious when he heard the words, "No, it's because I didn't say hello to you in advance, and you didn't know I was coming."

After leaving the hospital, the two separated. On the way home, Song Yuan thought of the love letter and Shen Qiyou's obviously wrong emotions, so he came back to look for him after thinking about it.He asked the head teacher for Shen Qiyou's address, and not long after getting out of the car, he saw a familiar figure and followed him all the way until now.

"Why are you here?"

Song Yuan's voice was very soft: "Because I have something to give you, I forgot before."

Shen Qiyou stretched out his hand without saying a word, but Song Yuan didn't want to give it to him now, he looked up at the blush at the end of the person's eyes, and said with some grievance in his voice: "Don't you invite me to sit at home? I just hit my head and sprained my foot."

As soon as he finished speaking, the tall boy squatted down, and when Song Yuan realized, Shen Qiyou had already lifted up his trousers.

The warm and unfamiliar touch from the ankle made Song Yuan retract his toes uncontrollably.

"Does it hurt badly?"

Song Yuan shook his head honestly, it really didn't hurt that much, so Shen Qiyou stood up.

"Shen Qiyou, you haven't answered me yet?" Song Yuan sniffed and looked at people eagerly.

"Well, take you there."

"I have medicine there."

"I don't need to apply medicine, and it didn't bleed or break the skin. It hurt when I first touched it, but it's all right now."

Shen Qiyou was noncommittal and only hummed lightly.

Now that he has caught up with the person, Song Yuan also relaxes and tells Shen Qiyou the embarrassing thing he just did on the road: "I followed you around several corners, and every time I just finished one, you went to the next one. There is a I turned in the wrong direction and walked into a small alley, guess what I saw?"

Shen Qiyou replied sternly: "What?"

"A big black dog, up to my waist, very fat, with a big mouth. I have never seen such a fierce dog. At that time, I didn't know that I was going wrong, so I wanted to go further, and then he Called at me, and came to grab my trousers."

"I thought he was going to bite me, and I was too scared to move."

Song Yuan blushed with embarrassment when he said this, "It turned out that it just rubbed against me and circled around me before running away."

"I suddenly felt that it wasn't fierce at all, it was quite cute."

Shen Qiyou listened quietly the whole time, and after a while he opened his mouth and said, "Are you afraid?"

Song Yuan shook his head: "...not afraid."

"Liar." He said indifferently, his heart was entangled in Song Yuan's words.He had never been to this kind of place, lost his way with people he didn't know, and had to face a vicious dog with his trouser legs in his mouth alone.This time it was lucky, but what if he met a dog that could really bite?

He is so afraid of pain, how could he not be afraid.

Shen Qiyou knew that these had nothing to do with him, but he still felt guilty about it.

If only he could have noticed Sung Won then.

Then he will not be afraid.

Song Yuan grunted and told the truth: "Well, I was really scared at the time." After he finished speaking, he felt that he should save his image in Shen Qiyou's heart and added: "But if they don't bite, even if they grow up It's fierce and nothing to be afraid of. I'm not afraid of everything..."

"There are dogs where I live, they will bite people, are you afraid?" Shen Qiyou suddenly stopped and looked at people and said.

"Not afraid." Song Yuan replied without thinking.

"I didn't lie to you this time, because you're right by my side. There's nothing to be afraid of."

The place where Shen Qiyou lived was a very old community, and he had to go through seven or eight alleys. Song Yuan followed him and walked unhurriedly, looking curiously at the old and mottled walls covered with creepers.

The life in the alley is very strong, and this season is getting hotter every day. Some residents moved small stools to enjoy the coolness in the alley, eating melon seeds, and a few gray-haired old people were still holding cattail fans.A half-grown boy leaning against the wall was wearing ripped pants and had colorful hair on top of his head. He lowered his head and held a mobile phone to fight in the game. He was educated by his elders and instead of talking back, he acted like a baby at the old man.

It looks a little cute that doesn't match the image.

Song Yuan glanced at his hair curiously, inexplicably feeling that even a young man like this is not ugly.

"Brother Shen!"

"you're back!"

When the young man saw someone he was familiar with, he immediately shouted enthusiastically, and ran up to Shen Qiyou excitedly, his hair was trembling because of his movements, like a feather duster, regardless of the game.

This is obviously a great temptation for a person with a very low point of laughter. Song Yuan suppressed his laughter and immediately looked away, fearing that it would be impolite to laugh out loud.

Shen Qiyou gave a low hum and didn't talk to the boy anymore, but the boy kept talking non-stop, even telling how many cubs his family's Cuihua had been coaxed by the scumbag to give birth to.

This time Song Yuan really couldn't hold back a smile, and the young man realized that there was someone behind him, brother Shen, which was a bit strange.

"who are you?"

"I'm Song Yuan." Song Yuan thought he had been caught, and subconsciously looked at Shen Qiyou who was obviously familiar with the young man.

"He's my deskmate." Shen Qiyou said lightly.

Song Yuan pursed his lips and corrected him: "I'm still his good friend."

The young man who was originally happy when he heard this sentence frowned suddenly, and his voice became louder: "Brother Shen, why are you..., have you forgotten the past?"

"He is not."

Shen Qiyou interrupted him and didn't say anything more, indicating that he didn't understand, so Song Yuan followed him.

When the boy wanted to say something more, he was stopped by the woman who was enjoying the shade in the alley, "People don't want to talk to you, why do you go up every day? How many times have I told you, don't talk to him..."

"Mom, stop talking, it's annoying!"

Song Yuan walked behind and vaguely heard the conversation between the mother and the son, pursing his lips in displeasure, which reminded him of those people who spoke ill of Gu Nian'an to him in his previous life.

He doesn't like people who make a definition without knowing someone.

He was thinking about something and didn't notice his feet. He accidentally stepped into a puddle. The puddle was not too shallow and there was black mud in it.Song Yuan felt depressed for a while and was trying to lift his foot, but he saw something out of the corner of his eye, and immediately squatted down.

When Shen Qiyou noticed that there were no footsteps behind him, he turned around and saw Song Yuan squatting, with his head buried in his knees and shoulders shrugged.One foot was covered with black mud, which was particularly glaring on the white shoes.

His first reaction was to walk over and pull him up, but he stopped suddenly.

An unprecedented feeling surrounded his heart in an instant.

Let him become timid and hesitant.

It is an inferiority complex born from the bottom of my heart.

He hadn't noticed it when he was in school, but when he got here, he suddenly realized that there was a gap between them.

Like the mud on Song Yuan's feet.

The difference between clouds and mud.

This is where he has lived for 17 years, and he has watched the place change from its beauty to its dilapidated state.The old and dilapidated neighborhoods, the low alleys, and even the roads are full of potholes, and there are piles of garbage thrown by whoever throws it in the corners, exuding a bad smell.

This is his place, but Song Yuan doesn't belong here.

The young man with beautiful eyebrows is out of place in such a dilapidated alley.

Shen Qiyou lowered his eyes to look at the young man who was still not moving, and a burst of fear suddenly rose in his heart. Is he crying?Still regretting in my heart, why did I come to such a place.

A noble boy who is afraid of pain and darkness, a person who grows up surrounded by love, even afraid of ugly things.He thought he must be unhappy because of the mud on his feet.

Even bored.

It came after him, like he had a huge panic about having the dog grab his pant leg.

Will he stop following him because of this?

Is he no longer needed.

Shen Qiyou was silent. As time passed, the sudden sense of inferiority in his heart became more and more serious. He seemed to have fallen into a strange circle of thinking, and he couldn't help thinking deeply when a thought came up.The pit is so shallow, it would be very easy for Song Yuan to stand up.

But he didn't.

He maintained the same posture as before and buried his head even lower.

Shen Qiyou could even hear faint sobs.

He finally took a step forward and then walked faster, because he realized that even if Song Yuan would alienate him because of this, even if he would see disgust and disgust on that face that would smile every time he saw him, he would not be able to Put up with the man crying in front of his eyes.

"Song Yuan."

Shen Qiyou walked up to the boy who was still squatting, called his name, and made mental preparations.

"what?"

Song Yuan didn't raise his head and continued with the movement of his hands. He pulled carefully with his hands and pulled out the last fragile root system from the soil to end this extremely difficult and dangerous project.

Shen Qiyou squatted down after seeing the boy's movements clearly.

It just so happened that Song Yuan raised his head at the moment he squatted down, and the two looked at each other unexpectedly. Shen Qiyou looked at the person in front of him with dimples, and his heart beat abnormally fast.

From such a close distance, he could even see clearly the boy's distinct eyelashes, and a faint mole hidden at the end of his brow, without the disgust and unhappiness he thought.The young man with beautiful eyebrows and eyes like a little sun still smiled at him as always.

"Shen Qiyou, look, I just dug it out, isn't it pretty?"

What he held in his hand was a small lavender flower with a light pink edge, a small bud was dotted on several green leaves, and the root system was still covered with dark black soil.And Song Yuan just held it carefully with those slender white hands, and even splashed mud on the tip of his nose.

"nice."

Shen Qiyou's voice was a little low and hoarse, he looked at the black spot on the tip of his nose, stretched out his hand and gently wiped it away, and the young man's face became clean again.

His movements were quick, Song Yuan looked at him puzzled, Shen Qiyou showed him the bit of mud on his fingertips, Song Yuan felt a little embarrassed immediately.

He is such a big man, he can still throw mud on his face, but he looked at the little flower in his hand, and felt that he was not very mature at first.

"You... are here to dig this flower?"

Song Yuan also felt very naive when he said this, his voice was a little low: "Yeah, I accidentally stepped into a puddle, and then I looked down and saw this little flower, isn't it fate? I just thought Dig him out, dig him out—"

"Give it to you."

Song Yuan blushed and added the second half of the sentence.

At this moment, Shen Qiyou's heart seemed to jump out of his chest, looking at the young man's flushed face, the sourness in his heart seemed to overwhelm him.

How can there be such a good person.

He was ashamed of what he had just thought.

He self-servingly drew a clear boundary between the young man and him. Because of unwarranted misunderstandings, he was thinking wildly, and even thought of the young man in a different way, while Song Yuan was so serious about putting himself in the mud for He dug up a flower.

A flower growing out of the mud.

So easily broke the barriers he built.

"Shen Qiyou?"

Song Yuan looked at the silent person and waved his hand in front of him, but forgot that he still had mud on his hand, and by the time he saw the mud spots on the other's fair face, it was already too late.

Somehow, seeing Shen Qiyou like this, Song Yuan suddenly laughed out loud, he thought it was pretty good, but that little bit of mud made him feel a little smokey.

But he wiped off the mud after watching for a moment, stood up and stretched out his hand towards him.

"Shen Qiyou, go home."

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Scene: Yuanyuan squatting and digging flowers

Xiao Shen: Low self-esteem and sadness, did he cry, did he not want me anymore, and wrote a small composition of [-] words, and finally came to the conclusion that liking someone starts with low self-esteem

Yuan Yuan: I found a beautiful flower, I am happy, I want to give it to my favorite Mr. Gu