squeamish bag he was reborn

why would you say so? "

Song Yuan's heart was shocked by Shen Qiyou's resolute words, redness spread on his cheeks, and then he let out a few meaningless murmurs and said - "...how do you know?"

"I know."

Shen Qiyou held the other person's hand that was unconsciously clutching the sheet and said word by word: "There will be no one else except you."

"Is that so sure?" Song Yuan's voice contained a smile, obviously he was very happy, but he added: "If I hadn't come to you, maybe you would have fallen in love with someone..."

"will not."

"Only you."

Shen Qiyou looked very serious: "Because I am him, so I know."

Song Yuan is the only person who can make him fall in love with him when he was young, who can make him love him for so many years and still miss him, and who can make him dare not confess his feelings even if the other party is by his side.

This is an unquestionable thing.

"Oh, that's it. Didn't you just say that you are you and he is him?"

"Is it me or him now?"

Song Yuan's eyes are full of smiles but he hasn't got to the bottom of his eyes. If you look carefully, you can find the sadness hidden inside.

Shen Qiyou got stuck immediately, he naturally knew that Song Yuan was making fun of what he said just now.He didn't know what to say, so he looked at the person intently without blinking, and then said in a low voice: "I like you."

"No matter who I am, I like you."

He was no longer stingy about expressing his love for the boy, he wondered if he and Song Yuan would have had a different ending if he had been braver in his previous life.

"Shen Qiyou..."

Song Yuan called out his name in a low voice and buried him in his arms again, feeling a throbbing pain in his heart.

He thought of Shen Qiyou's answer, and the scenes of getting along with Gu Nian'an were played back in his memory one by one. At this moment, he realized belatedly that Gu Nian'an actually liked him.

Those cherished and special things that are hidden in the daily life, only now when I look back, I realize that the love has already been revealed.

Gu Nian'an is the one he likes.

He was also the one who made him miss Bai Yueguang who had been hiding in his heart for so many years.

But he was too slow to notice.

And this person never expressed his heart until he left this world.

Song Yuan held back the uncontrollable tears that were about to flow again, the past can no longer be recalled, and now the person he is holding can make up for these shortcomings.

He thought so, but the hands that hugged Shen Qiyou still involuntarily increased their strength.

He called his name again and again, as if those regrets would not happen.

"I'm here."

Shen Qiyou probably guessed what the young man was thinking, and let him hug him with such strength that it hurts, and patted him on the back with his hands again and again.

The two hugged like this for a long time before Song Yuan raised his head and kissed his chin before he could speak.

The voice was still a little muffled: "It's all your fault."

"Well, blame me."

Song Yuan bent his lips again: "Don't you ask me what I blame you?"

Shen Qiyou is as good as a follower: "Then what do you blame me for?"

Song Yuan suddenly couldn't laugh or cry, and the pain that was deliberately suppressed also eased a lot: "It's your fault for changing the name."

"If it wasn't for this name, you wouldn't have been sad for so long, and you would have been jealous of yourself for a long time."

This time Shen Qiyou didn't answer for a long time, Song Yuanxin suddenly mentioned it, a little annoyed that he said something wrong, he must have encountered something very bad to change his name.

"Did I say the wrong thing?" He thought and asked the same way, and then kissed the corner of the other's lips, as if apologizing or comforting.

"No."

Realizing that his silence had misunderstood the young man, Shen Qiyou was thinking about how to explain it. After thinking about it, he got up and got out of bed, opened the locked drawer and took out a small box.

"I should know...why the name change."

The "he" was swallowed back into his stomach.

Shen Qiyou opened the old box, inside were some gadgets that were also old, and there was also a paper crane that had turned yellow.He took out a photo and handed it to Song Yuan, with a hoarse voice: "He is my younger brother."

"It's called Shen Qi'an."

In the photo, there is a smiling little boy who looks quite similar to Shen Qiyou, and he is holding a younger boy in his hand, who is only at the age of babbling. Missing half of a baby tooth.

It is the same person as the one that Song Yuan accidentally saw at the head of Shen Qiyou's bed in the dormitory.

It was a warm and loving scene, but his heart suddenly sank.

He didn't even want Shen Qiyou to talk about the next thing.

"Xiao An is no longer here."

Shen Qiyou didn't have much sad expression on his face, but his voice was unbelievably hoarse, "I was gone when I was four years old."

"My mother's surname is Gu."

Shen Qiyou didn't speak any more, and there was no need for too much explanation, the name Gu Nian'an was already easy to understand.

Nian An Nian An, what he misses is his younger brother who unfortunately died early.

Therefore, he changed the name.

Song Yuan's heart throbbed with pain again, he hugged him in his arms just like Shen Qiyou comforted him just now, and stroked his back with his hand, "Brother, why..."

He stopped halfway through his words, it was tantamount to adding salt to Shen Qiyou's wound.

"There was a car accident."

Shen Qiyou hugged the person in his arms tightly, and the warmth from his warm chest almost melted him, allowing him to draw enough courage and strength from it to speak out the next words.

"It wasn't supposed to happen."

He closed his eyes and recalled masochistically: "My father was supposed to pick him up that day."

"He didn't go. Xiaoan waited for a long time but he didn't find anyone. He went home alone..." He didn't say the next words, but anyone can guess what happened to the four-year-old child .

Shen Qiyou's calm voice could no longer be maintained, he almost tremblingly said: "Song Yuan, do you know why he didn't go on time that day?"

"He's cheating."

"With his lover."

"When Xiao'an had an accident, he was with another woman..." Shen Qiyou couldn't continue, he felt sick because of the father he had always admired since he was a child.

That person cheated and indirectly caused Xiao An to stop at the day when she was four years old forever.

And the paper crane he promised to give to his younger brother was never sent out again.

In the countless days that followed, he made many paper cranes, but the child who pestered him for paper cranes never appeared again.

He didn't dare to think about how scared and painful his younger brother was at that time. Such a fresh life turned into a pile of dry bones in the blink of an eye, and he was forced to stop his journey in the world before he could enjoy the beauty of this world.

And all the warm pictures in the past have turned into shattered and broken glass slag, and the once sweet family of four has become a phantom, leaving only naked irony.

Shen Qiyou didn't know the truth of the matter at first.

He only knew that his young brother had left him forever, and his mother was not that hysterical at first, she would hold herself and cry, and suppress her grief to prepare meals for herself and take care of everything.

She said, Qi You, mother only has you as a treasure.

You have to be good.

His father didn't look like he didn't hear from him later, he would hug the mother and son, and the three of them would cuddle tightly together, Shen Qiyou thought, even if it was difficult, they would get through it.

But in fact, the mother became more and more depressed day by day, she began to quarrel violently with her father, and gradually ignored Xiao Qiyou, and more often she just hugged the picture of her younger brother and wept silently.

Until one day when she and her father had the most intense outbreak, Shen Qiyou hadn't seen that man for a long time since then.

And his mother was a different person.

Indifference, ignorance, the woman who once said that you should be good, later used the most vicious words to curse the treasure she once held in her hand.

Shen Qiyou didn't know the reason, he thought it was because he wasn't doing well enough, he thought, as long as he was more obedient and listened to his mother, she wouldn't be like this.

But what he got in return was even more unbearable treatment.

Not allowed to speak, not allowed to cry, and later he was not allowed to appear in front of his mother.

He was shut up in the house and never saw the light of day.

He gradually turned into a puppet who couldn't speak or laugh, he hated himself deeply, he was a child hated by his mother, he was very bad.

It was not until his mother's deathbed that he finally heard the truth of the matter.

It was the father who betrayed their family.

He indirectly killed his brother.

As for her mother, the woman who was once pampered like a princess by that man, her almost cleanliness-like loyalty to love made her unable to tolerate his betrayal.

Similarly, what she couldn't tolerate was Shen Qiyou who was bleeding from that man.

She's disgusted that she once had a child with someone who betrayed her.He has become the existence that his mother hates the most, and he always reminds her of what kind of stain there is in her pure and flawless life.

She hated him, even with his children.

Xiao An lost his life, he can be forgiven, and will be forever missed by his mother.

And he's alive, so he can't.

Shen Qiyou finished talking about these unbearable past events almost calmly, the scars that might never heal were still oozing blood, but this time he had someone to lick his wounds.

Song Yuan's eyes were red, and he tried his best to suppress the tears in his eyes, but the pain in his heart seemed to tear him apart. After all, he couldn't hold back the tears, and hugged Shen Qiyou into his arms, his voice choked: "I don't want to, Qi You, we don't want to..."

"It's not your fault, no, you're not wrong...it's their bad, they're not good, they're not good at all..."

"Qi You, just cry out when you're sad, it's okay, I'm here, I've been here..."

He choked up and couldn't say a complete sentence when he called his name, and the pain in his heart made him feel as if he was suffocating.

Qi You, Qi An, were given names of good wishes by their parents when they were born.It's just that one was not able to live safely in the world, and the other lost all blessings at a very early age.

I grew up alone.

Song Yuan finally understood the reason for his reticence, and also clearly understood that under the cover of the skin, the inside of this person was already covered in cuts and blood.

His Shen Qiyou really encountered too much suffering.

"No more, Qi You, I will never make you sad again."

Song Yuan's voice was hoarse, and he murmured these words over and over again.

When Shen Qiyou raised his eyes again, his face had regained his composure, but the ends of his eyes were slightly red.He took the crying man back into his arms, and wiped his tears skillfully.

"It's okay, I'm fine."

"Song Yuan, I know, it's over."

He used to confine himself to the past, and felt that there was no interest in life, and that all people and things were dull.If it weren't for his mother's last words to let him live well, Shen Qiyou would not let himself have such a long life.

The last request of the woman who put him in a desperate situation was to let him live well. He should hate her, but when he knew the truth, he only felt sad.

He hated her, but also loved her.

For so many years, Shen Qiyou lived like a walking dead relying on these words.

Until he met Song Yuan.

Life has meaning again.

He thought that every day after meeting this person was his new life.