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For tonight's meal, You Xiaofan sat hard all night, with a stiff expression from the beginning to the end, but no one mentioned the words related to marriage. It seemed that it was just an ordinary dinner of two families. Then they went home separately.

On the way home, You Xiaofan turned on the phone, but couldn't see what she wanted, and felt so depressed that she could hardly breathe, wishing she could jump out of the car immediately and run to someone's side.

But when I think about it, she is now sandwiched between the fillings of a sandwich, and she can only please the soft sides. If the left and right biscuits each have their own ideas, she will eventually fall, making it a mess The endgame in one place.

My heart was already in great pain, but I still couldn't get understanding. The more I thought about it, the angrier I became, so I jumped out of WeChat and put my phone back in my bag.

After a few days, once You Xiaofan's anger dissipated, the longing gradually occupied her whole heart. She would just stare at the phone in a daze all day when she couldn't see anyone. Every time the screen turned on, she held hope, and then Disappointment after experience.

Speaking of which, this was the most serious quarrel between them. Jiang Keyi is not the kind of person with a strong temper. Seeing her so angry that day, he must have accumulated a lot of dissatisfaction, and he found an outlet to vent it all at once.

People who have always been inactive on social media seem to disappear in hiding. You Xiaofan liked Jiang Keyi before, but now he hates her. I don't know if she is doing well, but I want to know what she is thinking.

You Xiaofan had no choice but to go to Moments to update the news every day, hoping to see Jiang Keyi leave a message below one day.

A few days later, You Xiaofan felt that she was almost tormented by longing, and the energy in her bones had already evaporated. If this continued, her soul would soon rot, and in the end, only an empty shell was left .

During this period of time, she raised her self-esteem so high, held her reserve so tightly, and there was no extra hand to reach out to hug her lover. She didn't get more joy in this way, but there were more and more blank parts, and life began. become meaningless.

Rather than being tortured with dignity, it is better to pursue her happiness with a cheeky face.

I made up my mind in 1 minute, but it took me half a day to write and delete the information. In the end, only a few words were changed, and the content was similar.

"Jiang Keyi, I don't want to be like this again, let's come out and talk, shall we? "

The message was sent, and there was no response after waiting for a long time.

She wrote a few more messages in the past, and the tone changed from unhappy to caring, and finally full of anxiety. Looking at their chat records, You Xiaofan always felt that this account seemed to have been abandoned.

No one answered the phone call, her scalp was numb, her back suddenly felt chilly, and the bad feeling became clearer and stronger, she changed her clothes and was ready to go out.

"Fanfan, where are you going? Didn't you say afternoon tea is delicious? Zhuang Xu will be here soon."

You Xiaofan was already anxious, these few words suddenly exploded like cold water poured into high-temperature oil, and her emotions suddenly lost control, as if she had become another person, with a voice that was almost roaring. Feng Yuning quarreled.

"Zhuang Xu Zhuang Xu Zhuang Xu all the time! I hate this name! I have said so many times that I don't like him, why do you have to force me to be with him! What do you want to do to me? Are you happy when you are driven to death?!"

Feng Yuning didn't know when she stepped on a landmine, this burst of explosion made her feel dumbfounded, and when she realized it, You Xiaofan had already run away angrily.

The speed of the taxi was the same as usual, but You Xiaofan felt that it was driving slowly like a snail, and kept urging the driver to drive faster.

She ran to Jiang Keyi's house panting, the moment she touched the doorknob, her beating heart seemed to burst out, her palms were already sweating a lot, the feeling of fear soared to the top of her head, her legs below her It started to go limp a bit.

Her current situation is vulnerable, and if those bad premonitions are really fulfilled, she doesn't know if she can bear it.

With trembling hands, she pushed open the door and walked into the dark room. She couldn't wait to turn on the lights in the room, but there was no one in sight.

"Jiang Keyi, come out, don't scare me, please, I beg you to come out quickly..."

You Xiaofan stood in the living room crying, the sound dissipated in the dead space, her call could not be answered, she searched the whole room, and finally found Jiang Keyi's cell phone on the table in the study , underneath is a piece of densely packed letter paper.

【Meeting you is the best thing in my life, but my appearance disrupted your pace and made a woman who could have lived a happy married life off the normal track.

It's not easy to go down this road, I have no choice, because I like women by nature, but you are different, I shouldn't drag you down, so I decided to let go.

I believe you love me a lot and I believe you will turn against your family just to be with me, but that's not what I want, and you won't actually be happy, it's like an endless battle, no one If you are willing to quit, this kind of tossing will only continue indefinitely, and in the end it will hurt everyone.

You can't choose your family, and you can't separate your flesh and blood. My parents are gone, and what is left to me are some irreparable regrets. I can understand the feelings of being a parent, and I can also understand the feelings of being a child, destroying your relationship. , I feel deeply guilty, maybe leaving is the relief for you and me.

My dear, forget about me and live your life again, no matter whether we will meet again in the future, I only hope you can be happy. 】

"Jiang Keyi, you are a big bastard! Super big bastard!!"

"How can you make up your own mind, let go if you say let go, I hate you, I hate you to death, come out, come out quickly!!!"

You Xiaofan excitedly pinched the letter paper into a ball in his hand, and shouted vigorously in the study alone, but no matter how much she cried, only the cold air responded to her, and she felt her legs go limp and sat on the ground, Lie down and twitch.

She cried until she was drowsy, she seemed to lose consciousness for a while, and she didn't know whether she was fainted from crying or tired from crying. When she woke up, the sky outside the window was already dark.

She got up and sat up, feeling like she had a dream, but the letter paper was still in her hand, she felt a bit confused, a little confused whether it was a dream or reality.

She hoped that this was just a dream, could Jiang Keyi just go out and come back home later, she would just wait here until she appeared.

She sat in a daze in a daze, as if she suddenly lost her senses, as if this body did not belong to her, her out-of-body soul kept floating, drifting far but could not find a resting place, feeling tired and desperate, thinking Then unconsciously shed two lines of tears.

The mobile phone in the bag rang many times, You Xiaofan seemed to be unable to hear it, Jiang Keyi did not take the mobile phone away, she was looking through the photo album in the mobile phone all night, it turns out that there are many photos of them together, all of them are saved In the other party's mobile phone.

Where did Jiang Keyi go?

At this time, her head was a little clearer, and she suddenly remembered her major. Jiang Keyi's mobile phone was left behind, but the computer was not taken away. Maybe some clues could be found from these places.

After she had hope, she felt refreshed, walked to the computer with her mobile phone, and turned on the computer.

Even if it is deleted history or data, she has a way to restore them. Thanks to the current technology, if she puts together the information she finds, she might be able to find out where Jiang Keyi is.

Who would have thought that Jiang Keyi didn't leave any traces of his mobile phone or computer, no matter how powerful You Xiaofan's skills in this area are, he still can't match someone's prophet.

The little flame of hope was also extinguished. It seemed that Jiang Keyi had made up his mind after eating the weight, and I am afraid that he would never come back again.

When Feng Yuning saw You Xiaofan came home unscathed, her heart was in a ball, and she finally found the end of the thread, and it was slowly untied, and the feeling that had been tied tightly all night finally relaxed. .

"Fanfan, why didn't you answer the phone, Zhuang Xu and I looked for you everywhere, where did you go..."

When she approached her daughter, Feng Yuning was startled when she saw that face. Her face was haggard, and her eyes were swollen, but the clear eyes were as red as a rabbit at this moment. It seems that the degree of sadness is no less than that When grandma was lying in the intensive care unit.

"What happened? Who bullied you?"

Two words made the tear glands suddenly become active again, You Xiaofan didn't say anything, tears flowed down like a river breaking its embankment, Feng Yuning's high-quality clothes didn't have time to absorb water, and a large area of ​​his shoulders was wet all of a sudden.

Seeing that she looks so inseparable, she was bullied by the man she loves. Feng Yuning hugged her daughter distressedly, thinking that she had broken up with her several times before, but she had never seen her cry like this. Will it hurt so badly?

After that day, You Xiaofan started to have a high fever continuously, and she was still a little bit conscious and insisted on refusing to go to the hospital. Feng Tanning had no choice but to invite the doctor over. After taking the medicine for a few days, she became groggy and fell asleep at home like this. a few days.

After recovering from illness, the first thing You Xiaofan wanted to do was to run to Jiang Keyi's house and wait impatiently.

She searched the whole room and found that there were not many clothes taken away, thinking that Jiang Keyi must not have run very far, nor would he leave for too long.

Although this idea is a bit naive, when people are in the desert of despair, even if it is a green phantom, people will follow it without doubt, believing that the oasis is not far away.

She buys some vegetables and cooks every day, filling the whole room with the aroma of the food, just like when she was at work, Jiang Keyi often cooked dinner and waited for her to come back to enjoy it together. This feeling is like returning to the time when they were together Happy hours, as if nothing had changed.

Every day, You Xiaofan wrote a lot of messages and sent them to Jiang Keyi's mobile phone. She looked at the screen of the mobile phone, and the unread messages one after another were like flesh and blood scraped from her heart. They were deep and profound. Painful thoughts converted into written narratives.

That day she was tired from crying again, not long after she fell asleep, she seemed to hear movement outside the door, in her dream she saw someone open the door, unexpectedly it was Jiang Keyi who walked in, she wept with joy, and immediately got up from the sofa He ran over, and when he got closer, he turned into another person's face.

"Girl, girl..."

Hearing this voice, it was very close, as if someone really came into the house, You Xiaofan slowly opened his eyes, saw the face of a strange woman, and was confused for a while, recently he couldn't tell whether it was a dream or reality, She looked at him numbly, unable to respond.

"Girl, are you a tenant? Miss Zhao asked me to come and clean the house regularly, and I'll tell you."

Miss Zhao means Zhao Ningxue, right?

A woman who ran away from home was still concerned about the hygiene of the house, and even asked someone to find an hour to help her clean the house regularly, what a thoughtful thought!

You Xiaofan sat in a daze for a long while, always feeling weird in his heart, as if some details had been overlooked.

Recently, her mind is not very flexible. Things that used to be as simple as lifting a finger for her now take a long time to figure out.

ah?By the way, it's Zhao Ningxue!

Thinking of this, she got up suddenly, and ran out of the house like a whirlwind. The cleaning aunt turned her head and disappeared.

She left in such a hurry that she didn't even have time to explain. Auntie thought that young people nowadays would not be able to communicate without a screen, but she seemed to be used to it. Instead, she thought that the house is so tidy and clean, so why should I start?

The author has something to say:

Jiang Keyi left without saying goodbye, and making such a decision was not impulsive because of anger.

Ever since knowing You Xiaofan's background, she has felt inferior to her identity from time to time, often lacks a sense of security, and has lost her job, and her confidence has been shattered by the things around her. She is already vulnerable to a single blow.

The quarrel that day was nothing but the last straw that broke the camel's back, ironing her will to leave.

No matter how good she is, she still has a weak and bad side. She is not perfect, and escaping is her best way to heal.