The doctor said I can only eat soft rice

The emperor cared about him and cared about him.

This cognition made Jin Zhu feel incredible.

When he was determined to die and he didn't care about himself, the emperor who should have regarded him as an enemy actually cared about him.

Jin Zhu intentionally sat by the window to blow the wind, deliberately let the tea cool before drinking, intentionally sat on the couch every night until dawn.

He abused his body in various ways.

It is to seek death, but also to know how much the emperor cares about him, and how long he can care about him.

The emperor's reaction was more intense than Jinzhu thought, and the emperor's determination and patience were also stronger than he thought.

In order for him to sleep well, the emperor even came to his room and slept with him.

The emperor hugged him, and the hot body temperature was transmitted to him through contact, making him lose his ability to think.

He has endured countless heart-piercing cold nights alone, but this is the first time he has been enveloped by such warmth.

He... is greedy for such warmth.

For a moment, Jin Zhu's desire to die was shaken.

He wanted to just sink into it and live like this for the rest of his life.

Is it really possible to live like this for a lifetime?

Although I don't know why the emperor brought him back to the Chaoyang Palace to ground him, but the Chaoyang Palace is the emperor's bedroom, and the emperor can't ground him there forever.

Rather than being forced to lose it in the future, it is better to end it cruelly.

After the emperor said that he could walk around the palace, Jin Zhu quietly left the palace servants who followed him and went to the coldest place in the palace.

He sat in the lake pavilion surrounded by water, the cold air entered his body, and his limbs and bones ached.

He told himself in his heart that if he endured for a while, he would be free soon.

While thinking about this, he kept looking sideways at the direction of the imperial study room, even though his neck was stiff, he didn't change his posture.

Jin Zhu knew that the emperor would not come.

The new year has just passed, and the government affairs are busy. The emperor has to be busy in the imperial study until very late every day. He doesn't have time to find someone who can't leave the palace after all.

But he couldn't help but look forward to it.

What if... the emperor came?

Then he will not seek death.

I am confined to the Chaoyang Palace, and will not leave without His Majesty's order.

When his consciousness was lost, Jin Zhu saw a touch of bright yellow running towards him in the flying snow.

Just like back then, he wiped off the blood stained on his hands, and walked into the cold palace alone, looking for the only remaining prince.

The prince who had grown into a young boy threw himself into his arms, hugged his waist tightly, and said, "Uncle Wang, I'm afraid".

Now, he was embraced by the fully grown emperor, who used his body to shield him from the wind and snow, and said in a trembling voice, "Uncle Wang, don't be afraid."

After being taken back that time, Jin Zhu was ill for a long time, sometimes sober and sometimes confused.

Every time he wakes up, he can see the figure of the emperor.

Sometimes the emperor sat in front of the table and reviewed the memorial, sometimes the emperor watched him from the side of his couch, and sometimes the emperor lay beside him and fell asleep.

The emperor did this for him, and it would be a lie to say that he was impassive.

Jinzhu has decided to live for a while longer.

It's just that he still doesn't understand why the emperor doesn't let him die, why he cares so much about him.

He asked the emperor, but the emperor didn't answer him, but told him...

Jin Zhu still remembers how fast his heart was beating, and his whole body was trembling, not because of anger or fear, but because of excitement.

It was also at that time that he realized what kind of feelings he had for the emperor.

It is not only the love and care for the children who have grown up in their own care, nor the sympathy for the former opponents, nor the respect and admiration for the Mingjun who is about to create a prosperous world.

He... loves him.

He cared about the emperor's attitude and was greedy for the warmth the emperor gave him, all because of the word "love".

Feeling unacceptable, going deeper.

The emperor asked him to hate him, but Jin Zhu couldn't hate him.

He had to close his eyes all the time to prevent the emperor from seeing the love in his eyes.

In the days that followed, the emperor still slept with him, but he rarely did what he did that day, and there was a vague sense of respect as a guest.

Jin Zhu didn't know the reason, guessed that the experience that day was not good enough, or the emperor was tired of him.

His status was embarrassing, and the emperor didn't want to get close to him. Naturally, he couldn't take the initiative to approach him, so he adjusted his attitude accordingly and kept a distance from the emperor.

But he just kept it for half a day before he was dragged onto the couch by the emperor, filling all the distance.

After repeating this several times, Jin Zhu discovered that the emperor didn't like being too close to him.

Once he showed closeness, the emperor would deliberately keep a distance from him,

And when he behaved indifferently, the emperor would favor him instead.

Could it be... the emperor likes the type who wants to greet and refuse?

·

After Chi Ruanfan made arrangements for relief after the disaster, he returned to Chaoyang Palace, and it was already midnight.

Jin Zhu didn't know if he hadn't slept or was awakened by the sound of him entering the palace.

When Chi Ruanfan entered the room, Jin Zhu was lying on the couch, looking at him with dark eyes.

Looking at Jin Zhu's figure huddled under the quilt, Chi Ruanfan felt a little rejoiced.

At least the other party knew to put on the quilt, instead of wearing an underwear and sitting until dawn.

"Uncle Wang rest first, I'll come right after I take a bath." Chi Ruanfan stood far away at the door.

He just came back from the outside, with the wind and snow chill all over his body, he couldn't just contact the regent like this.

"En." Jin Zhu subconsciously responded.

Immediately, he realized that he was too obedient, and the emperor liked to fight against him. Only in that way could the emperor's interest in conquest be aroused.

Therefore, Jin Zhu said with a straight face on purpose:

"If you don't sleep, Your Majesty, don't come here again."

He stared nervously at the emperor's expression, and slightly clenched his hands under the quilt, fearing that the emperor would really leave all the way.

Chi Ruanfan's complexion changed slightly.

If you don't let him come, you can take the opportunity to ruin your body, right?

He will never let Jin Zhu get what he wants.

Chi Ruanfan almost didn't even take a shower, and just bullied him.

In the end, reason prevailed, he endured it, said "you wait for me", and strode towards the side hall where the bathing pool is located.

After warming his whole body, Chi Ruanfan came back with a sullen face, and lay down beside Jin Zhu.

He stretched out his arms to hug Jinzhu with an undeniable strength.

Jin Zhu lowered her head slightly, as if she wanted to get into his warm embrace, but she didn't know what to think, and stopped again.

Chi Ruanfan was afraid that Jinzhu would die again, seeing that he really didn't want to endure the humiliation, he immediately hugged Jinzhu into his arms, and grabbed the back of his head, forcing him to face himself.

He leaned over and kissed Jin Zhu until he was almost suffocated before letting him go.

Chi Ruanfan rubbed Jinzhu's lips with his fingertips, and said in a low voice:

"Uncle Wang, be good, huh?"

The last "hmm" was low and hoarse, with a slightly rising ending, with a hint of warning, which made half of Jin Zhu's body go numb.

He closed his eyes to prevent the emperor from seeing the emotion in his eyes.

In Chi Ruanfan's eyes, this action was nothing but resistance.

Chi Ruanfan was worried.

He needs the regent to hate him more, only in this way can the regent have the will to survive.

But he didn't want the regent to hate him, they should be in love.

Eventually the idea of ​​the regent hating him prevailed.

You have to be alive to love.

So, under Jinzhu's forbearable "resistance", Chi Ruanfan forced Jinzhu to feel him.

Chi Ruanfan also knew that the pressure should not be too tight, there must be some hope for others.

He asked for water to scrub the two of them carefully, then hugged Jinzhu and said:

"If Uncle Wang is bored in the Chaoyang Palace, follow me to the Imperial Study Room tomorrow."

Jin Zhu opened his eyes, a trace of surprise flashed in them.

Asked in a low voice: "Your Majesty, do you want me to serve you in the imperial study, or..."

Chi Ruanfan wanted to feed candied dates to the regent, but he was not planning to knock it down with another stick, so he hurriedly said:

"What are you thinking, I asked you to help organize the memorial."

Saying that, in order to maintain the image of a villain, Chi Ruanfan pinched Jinzhu's chin and said:

"Uncle Wang is obedient, and I promise not to treat you like this outside Chaoyang Palace, otherwise..."

Chi Ruanfan stopped on purpose, leaving Jin Zhu enough room for imagination.

Jin Zhu really thought a lot uncontrollably, the dream was full of scenes where the emperor wanted him in the imperial study.

But when he woke up, it became clear that this couldn't happen.

The emperor is very serious about government affairs, and it is impossible to do that kind of thing in the imperial study, unless he angers the emperor to the extreme, and the emperor is so angry that he will punish him immediately.

"Uncle Wang is in a good mood?" Seeing the smile in Jin Zhu's eyes, Chi Ruanfan couldn't help asking.

Jin Zhu hurriedly suppresses her smile.

After staying by the emperor's side for too long, he forgot to restrain himself.

Chi Ruanfan didn't care, and sighed slightly:

"Just going to the imperial study can make Uncle Wang so happy."

If it wasn't for their current relationship, Chi Ruanfan really wanted to hand over all the memorials and government affairs to the regent.

Listening to the emperor's words, Jin Zhu knew that the intimacy tonight was gone.

But he couldn't say that he only laughed because he thought of "cleaning up" with the emperor, so he could only follow the emperor's words:

"It is the duty of the minister to share the worries of His Majesty."

Chi Ruanfan only thought that he had given this "candied date" correctly, so he wrapped the brocade bamboo tightly with fox fur in a happy mood, and took him to the imperial study.

Chi Ruanfan handed over all the memorials to Jinzhu, while he himself sat behind the case and watched Jinzhu organize the memorials.

Jin Zhu looked at the piles of memorials in front of him for a while, then couldn't help but look up at the emperor, and asked doubtfully:

"Your Majesty trusts me so much?"

"Naturally." Chi Ruanfan said with a smile.

The regent may take action against him and his courtiers who are loyal to him, but he will never take action against the people of the world and the country.

This is enough.

As for the inexplicable horror of the courtiers entering the imperial study and seeing the queen regent, Chi Ruanfan didn't care.

Under the joint support of Chi Ruanfan and Jin Zhu, the two lived in harmony for five months.

It's Jinzhu's birthday.

As soon as Chi Ruanfan came to court, he went to the imperial dining room to cook longevity noodles.

This is a habit he developed in his previous life. Whenever the regent's birthday, he would cook a bowl of longevity noodles.

Sometimes it is done by the imperial dining room, and sometimes he does it himself.

When people are old, they want nothing but longevity.

It's a pity that in the last life, the regent still left one step ahead of him.

Chi Ruanfan raised his hand and rubbed his eyes blurred by the steam, waved away the chief eunuch who came over, and scooped up the noodles himself.

Put the noodles into the food box, hand it over to the accompanying eunuch, and return to Chaoyang Hall.

"Uncle Wang, come and taste the longevity noodles I made."

Entering Chaoyang Hall, Chi Ruanfan took out the noodles and shouted into the room.

Jin Zhu got up early.

He didn't see the emperor coming back for a long time, he was hesitating whether to take him to the imperial study after the emperor came down, or go there by himself, when he saw the emperor coming from the direction of the imperial dining room, and brought back...longevity noodles?

Jin Zhu was a little surprised, "Your Majesty, still remember that today is my birthday?"

He hardly ever celebrated his birthday, and even when he was at the height of his power, he never held a birthday party.

Only in the year when he brought the emperor back from the cold palace, the little emperor found out about his birthday from nowhere, and on that day he came to the imperial study with a food box and ate a bowl of longevity noodles with him.