deep blue

Holidays are short, especially for students.

Meng Yinan and the others only had two days off on weekends. They couldn't rest much after eating out, and started doing their homework when they got home.

It was almost the end of the semester, and the exam was due not long after the vacation was accepted. It was the last placement test for junior high school and the last big event of this semester.

Naturally, Meng Yinan didn't dare to slack off. Putting away the sticky laziness of not wanting to do homework before, he devoted himself to the sea of ​​questions again, listened to the class every day, wrote a lot of papers, and strived to make greater progress. Don't let Mu who taught him how to write the questions Zhanxi was disappointed.

The festive atmosphere quickly dissipated and faded amid intense study.

In the week after the festival, Mu Ting was the most leisurely person in the family, but he didn't have leisure for a long time. After finishing the affairs in Lincheng, he booked a flight ticket to leave.

Before departure, Mu Ting chose a Saturday night, taking advantage of the absence of classes the next day, he took his younger brothers out for dinner.He also wished the two of them success in the final exam in advance, and said that he would go home for the Spring Festival in a month. He was looking forward to it and would wait at home in advance.

Meng Yinan didn't react at first, but later found out that they were looking for Mu Ting instead of Mu Ting returning to Lincheng.

He asked Mu Zhanxi and got an affirmative answer.

Meng Yinan realized that maybe the new year was the first reunion of this reorganized family, and he would definitely see Meng Du at that time.

At the same time, Meng Yinan did not have the qualifications and rights to say nothing.He is the smallest, the most marginal, the least vocal, and the least willful character in this family.

Therefore, suddenly there is no expectation for the New Year.

But these are not urgent matters, even if they see Meng Du during the Chinese New Year, it will be more than a month later.

Meng Yinan told himself not to think about it.

But soon he didn't have the heart to care about Meng Du, he encountered other things and distracted his attention.

After Mu Ting left, life went back to what it was before, busy and calm.

But soon Meng Yinan discovered that he was the only one without waves, and Fu Yun, who was sitting next to him less than a foot away, was caught in a peachy storm.

Since the end of the New Year's Day holiday and returning to school, Meng Yinan felt that something was wrong with the delivery.

For example, he spends more time in a daze in class, his mind wanders for no reason, and after class, he will always hold his mobile phone and talk to people, with a shy smile on his face, and sometimes his cheeks will turn red...etc.

At first, Meng Yinan naively thought that he had a fever, so he touched it with his hand, but it was only his cheeks that were hot, not to the extent of a fever.

Fu Yun might also find it strange, and looked at Meng Yinan hesitantly for a while, and finally said with a strange expression that the weather was too cold recently and he didn't cover the quilt at night.

Meng Yinan was a little worried, and asked him if he wanted to go to the infirmary to rest, Fu Yun was silent for a while, and finally showed a look that wanted to laugh but didn't dare to laugh, and said no, and said Meng Yinan was cute.

Meng Yinan failed to understand his expression, and also ignored the cutie.

In short, after that day, my luck was much better, I was more focused in class, and I didn’t use my mobile phone for too long occasionally. I also told Meng Yinan to study hard, and I will sit at the same table next semester, and I will be admitted to the first class together. .

Meng Yinan nodded and said yes.It was only when he was sick for a few days with minor pain and discomfort, and he returned to normal when he recovered, so he didn't pay much attention to it.

A month later, they ushered in the final exam.

Meng Yinan performed very well in the exams, and practiced a lot of questions at ordinary times. In the end, he and Fu Yun squeezed into the top [-] of the grade without any suspense, and became a member of the first class.

The rankings of the two are almost the same, one is 28 and the other is 29. They are listed on the top [-] list one after the other. They are considered to be in the middle of the class, which is good news.

Meng Yinan reported it to Mu Zhanxi as if offering a treasure.

He was praised several times, saying that he worked hard and was very smart, and that he was supposed to be like this.Meng Yinan was happy about this for a long time.

After the final exam, the third grade of junior high school did not have winter vacation immediately like other grades, but took an extra week of classes according to the previous semester schedule.

Their final exam was a few days earlier than that of the high school, so after Meng Yinan finished the exam, Mu Zhanxi was still preparing for the exam. Like last semester, he had to add extra classes and adjust the end of school time.

In order to prevent being targeted again, after discussing with Fu Yun, he decided to go to Xu Zhirong's studio every day, and wait there until Mu Zhanxi and the others finished school.

At that time, it was almost the holiday, so Meng Yinan didn't feel much. As the new year approached, the thought of meeting Meng Du greatly weakened his good mood.

He thought it was a very strange state of mind.

Just like when I was a child, I hid the things I liked more and more, and kept Meng Du from knowing.It seemed that Meng Du understood his thoughts and would see through him and get hold of him, making Meng Yinan feel oppressed and suffocated under the control of others.

And the life with Mu Zhanxi is the most beloved thing that Meng Yinan wants to hide most.

If he was really under the same roof with Meng Du, he would not be able to change into the usual Meng Yinan who obediently followed behind Mu Zhanxi.

It was this that made Meng Yinan not only in a bad mood, but also a little irritable.

Like many days and nights when he wanted to leave Mengdu before, he desperately wanted to grow up a little bit, to grow up a little bit, to become a bird with wings, to live independently, and to fly to vast and boundless places.

In contrast to him, the mood for shipping seems to have been running high.

Fu Yun has been doing a lot of unconscious little moves recently, and he looks cute and cute, and he no longer shares the puppy Tang Duoduo with Meng Yinan, but it is more similar to the time before the exam when he was in a daze for no reason.

Meng Yinan observed him for two days. On the afternoon of the third day, when Fu Yun was in a daze in front of the easel in the studio, Meng Yinan felt the desire to ask questions.

After all, at this time, he couldn't be so stupid as to think that Fu Yun had a minor illness, which affected his condition.

When Fu Yun heard Meng Yinan's question, he probably really regarded him as a friend. He first said, "I thought you couldn't see it", and then took Meng Yinan's arm, and whispered in his ear: " I kissed him."

"Who?" Meng Yinan was a little confused, and responded, "Tang—"

Being pressed down by Fu Yun, he couldn't read the name completely.

"Why did you say it?" Fu Yun's cheeks were flushed, and he secretly glanced at the door of the studio where he was, and heaved a sigh of relief, "I told you secretly, don't let others hear it."

Meng Yinan lowered his voice and said yes.

He belatedly thought, so that's the case, and all the strangeness of this shipment can also be explained.

Fu Yun briefly described the ins and outs of losing his first kiss, and it started when Cao Xi got married and returned home.

He said that he still wanted to play that day, so he went to Tang Lingyi's house to watch a movie. Of course, it wasn't the two of them. Afterwards, we ate fried chicken together and picked out a horror movie.

It's not such a wonderful plot, and it's often played on TV. They quarreled very late, and at the end they felt a little scared, and everyone huddled together and fell asleep.

After waking up, he was staggering, and Fu Yun was sticking to Tang Lingyi at the time, and when he became dazed, he accidentally kissed the corner of his mouth, which led to a very serious love affair.

Fu Yun groaned and covered his face: "I thought I was going to die."

Meng Yinan also felt a little hot when he heard it. He had never thought about this before, and he didn't know what to say at this time. He asked if he had been discovered, and when he got the answer, he comforted him: "It should be nothing if you haven't been discovered." thing."

"But I don't think I've been discovered," Fu put his cold hand against his cheek, trying to cool down, and then looked at Meng Yinan with bright eyes, "It's just a light blow, lighter than a mosquito bite."

The two looked at each other, suddenly felt that this metaphor was a bit strange, and laughed together.

"Anyway, I'm very embarrassed." Fu Yun was a little disappointed. "Actually, I would feel terrible if he knew about it, but he didn't know and I kind of wanted him to know. Let's see what the reaction would be."

Meng Yinan didn't know at which point he was poked, but he felt a little nervous in his heart. He thought it was understandable and nodded.

"But he doesn't like me, so it's better not to know."

"If you know, maybe you won't want to play with me anymore." Fu Yun said again.

Meng Yinan has little social experience, and sometimes subconsciously "put himself in the shoes" to perceive a certain emotion, so he compared himself with Mu Zhanxi and made a small substitution.

Of course, he doesn't think that his feelings for Mu Zhanxi are the same as Fu Yun's. He is just doing a simulation. After all, the person with the best relationship with him among all human beings is Mu Zhanxi.

Before the substitution, Meng Yinan only sympathized with Fu Yun for such an embarrassing situation. Although he didn't know what to say, he could comfort him not to think too much.

But after substituting in, thinking that Mu Zhanxi would always be embarrassed by a misunderstanding, so he didn't want to stay with him and cut off contact with him, Meng Yinan suddenly felt that the sky was about to collapse.

It's not that he did something wrong. If he still suffers this kind of punishment, it would be too miserable.

Meng Yinan almost subconsciously thought that if this happened, he would never tell Mu Zhanxi.Don't say even if you kill him.

Xu Shi's expression deteriorated visibly to the naked eye, and Fu Yun asked him what's wrong.

Meng Yinan told Fu Yun frankly that he had substituted it, and felt terrible.

Fu Yun blinked: "With whom? Brother Mu?"

Meng Yinan nodded, and shared the result of comparing his intimate relationship with all human beings with Fuyun as an explanation, saying that he couldn't find anyone else who was more suitable to simulate this role.

Fu Yun seemed to find it very interesting: "Our relationship is also very good, why don't you substitute me?"

Meng Yinan thought for a while, and showed an unacceptable expression.It is unacceptable to accidentally kiss the delivery, and the face is distorted just thinking about it.

Fu Yun couldn't help laughing: "Do you want to dislike me so much?"

He asked, "Do you like Mu Ge?" Without waiting for Meng Yinan to reply, he said, "He is such a good Alpha, of course there are many people who like him, not one of you is missing."

Meng Yinan was a little stunned after hearing this, and thought to Fu Yun's words in his heart, yes, I'm not bad either.

"Then do you like that?" Fu Yun asked.

Meng Yinan hesitated: "Maybe not?"

"Do you want to get close to him? Hugs, and kisses."

Meng Yinan thought about it and felt that there was something close. As for the latter two, he had never thought about it.

At this time, Meng Yinan no longer wanted to discuss what kind of topic he liked about Mu Zhanxi.

He has figured it out before, no matter what gender he is, as long as Mu Zhanxi likes it and doesn't reject it, then he can become that gender, even an Omega that he doesn't like very much.

He thought that in this way, Mu Zhanxi would not find someone else to accompany him, and just let Meng Yinan accompany him. After all, Mu Zhanxi was very kind to Meng Yinan, and probably would not hurt him easily.

They will always maintain the current relationship, always maintain a balance.

That's fine, no need to worry about other complicated things.

But Fu Yun's words are not over: "But someone like him should find a very suitable Omega." It's a bit like encouraging himself, Fu Yun said to himself, "Alpha must be looking for Omega, no need Don't worry, don't worry."

Then Meng Yinan suddenly realized the blind spot in his previous thinking.

No matter what gender he becomes, Mu Zhanxi likes it or not, but why does Mu Zhanxi live with his younger brother all the time?If what Mu Zhanxi wanted was someone he could kiss and have sex with, and someone he could marry, then what did all this have to do with Meng Yinan?

Meng Yinan couldn't be satisfied.

Even if Meng Yinan becomes an Omega, he is just a younger brother.

Just like Mu Zhanxi and Mu Ting are also good brothers, but they live in two places and only see each other once in half a year.

Then there is a high probability that Meng Yinan will become like this.

After growing up, they went their separate ways, only rushing back to a place to get together during the holidays, having reunion meals, simple greetings, and gradually becoming not very close relatives.After the festival is over, they will get on a plane and scatter to places where no one and no one can reach.

……

Thinking of this, Meng Yinan suddenly felt as if something had stepped on his heart lightly.

Not too painful, but very uncomfortable for him.