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He knew early on that Fu Xinglin was coming to Yuemei today, so Cui Zhannan specially dressed himself up and put on his favorite suit, looking as luxurious and beautiful as an ancient European prince.

He was looking forward to seeing Fu Xinglin.It can even be said that during this period of time, he was looking forward to seeing Fu Xinglin every day, and wanted him to be within his sight all the time.

When the call came from the front desk, he even got a little excited, his facial features stretched out instantly, the joy and enthusiasm were so real.He thought, he really liked Fu Xinglin a little bit.

But when he excitedly left the office and was about to go downstairs, he saw a person outside the office that he never expected to appear here——Shu Jianlin.

At that time Shu saw that Lin Zheng raised his hand as if he was about to knock on the door, but before his hand could fall, the door was opened from the inside.And this pair of old lovers who had been separated for a long time met in such a way that they were caught off guard.

Both of them were stunned, especially Cui Zhannan, the astonishment and surprise were completely written on their faces.

In the end, Shu Jianlin was the first to return to normal.He withdrew his hand, looked at the man in front of him and smiled faintly, then said a word softly: "Hi."

Cui Zhannan unconsciously pursed his lips, looked at him quietly with calm eyes, and did not speak.

Shu Jianlin didn't seem to be embarrassed by this, he just shrugged his shoulders and said calmly: "Aren't you going to invite me into your office?"

Just as Cui Zhannan opened his mouth to say something, he found someone in the cubicle behind Shu Jianlin looking over his head.At that moment, the wrinkles between Cui Zhannan's eyebrows seemed to deepen even more. He took a deep breath and then let it out slowly, and said in a deep voice, "Come in."

After speaking, he turned around and went back to the office first, without the joy and anticipation on his face.And Shu Jianlin's bright and gentle eyes dimmed for a moment when he turned around, and followed Cui Zhannan in silence.

As soon as he returned to the office, Cui Zhannan didn't even look at Shu Jianlin, so he picked up the phone on his desk and called Secretary Zhao Yi:

"Secretary Zhao, you send someone at the front desk to take Xinglin to the finance department first, remember, don't let him go, bring him up after receiving the money."

On the phone, Zhao Yi replied, "Okay."

After a short pause, Cui Zhannan added: "Also, those in the cubicle outside my office, if there is nothing important, you can arrange to go out and do some other work first, and call them back after half an hour."

This time Zhao Yi paused for a while, and then replied as usual: "Okay."

After hanging up the phone, Cui Zhannan found that Shu Jianlin had walked to the bookshelf very naturally and began to look through the books he put on it, with a skillful and natural appearance that didn't seem to regard himself as an outsider at all.

Cui Zhannan looked at Shu Jianlin quietly.

Since the two broke up ugly that year, Cui Zhannan has never seen him, not once, except on the screen for so many years.Seeing you again after so many years, the sourness that was buried in the bottom of my heart was revealed again, occupying his whole heart for a while.

Shu Jianlin...has changed.He is more mature now than when he was a teenager.The childishness has faded, and the brows and eyes are full of calm demeanor and humility.

Cui Zhannan's gaze followed Shu Jianlin's figure, and he said softly, "Did you come to see me?"

Shu Jianlin stopped his movements and turned around from the bookshelf, looking at him quietly from a distance.

Cui Zhannan only felt irritated in his heart: "I'm very busy, and I have other things to do. If you don't have anything urgent, I'll leave first, and you can contact my secretary later..."

"I just want to come and see you," Shu Jianlin Wen said, "no other meaning."

Cui Zhannan looked at Shu Jianlin silently, looking at his familiar yet unfamiliar face, and felt that everything that happened in the past seemed like yesterday.To this day, he can still remember what they did and what they said.

He thought he had forgotten it long ago, but it turns out...he just sealed this memory in the deepest part of his heart, and he didn't want to dig it out.

He never forgot, never forgot.

How could he forget.

"I don't think it's necessary for us to meet, and I don't need you to come and see," Cui Zhannan looked at Shu Jianlin with his dark eyes, "If you have any work matters, you can contact Zou directly." Manager, he is solely responsible for your endorsement project. Or you don’t have to use it yourself, and it’s the same to let your agent handle it for you.”

Shu Jianlin smiled lightly: "You also know that I can just go to Manager Zou for work. So, I didn't come to you because of work at all."

"Then what's your reason?" Cui Zhannan looked straight at him, not avoiding the collision with his eyes.

On the contrary, Shu saw that Lin was startled, and then smiled faintly: "I just think that there is no need for us to be like enemies..."

Cui Zhannan didn't speak, but fell silent.

In fact, what Shu Jianlin said was right, they should not fight each other like enemies.They just talked about a failed relationship when they were young and frivolous, that's all.He Cui Zhannan can be friends with every ex, there is no reason why Shu Jianlin can't.

In this way, it seems like he cares about Shu Jianlin so much.He never has.

Yes, he didn't, he never took Shu Jianlin seriously.Shu Jianlin is just the most common stroke in his colorful love history, and the only special thing is probably because Shu Jianlin is his first man in the true sense, so he treats him differently.But he is no longer a 17-year-old boy who can eat and drink without thinking of life and death for the sake of love. He has already started his own life without Shu Jianlin, and he has a lot. mind.

Yes, he shouldn't.

That's not him, Cui Zhannan, he should be free and easy, playing with the world, not what he is like now... like a poor guy who has been trapped by love for many years and can't get out.

Shu Jianlin's expression was still elegant and modest, and even that smile made people feel comfortable physically and mentally.His appearance is the type that no matter who looks at it, he will feel comfortable.Cui Zhannan thought, maybe that was how he was attracted unconsciously at the beginning, and now he found sadly that even now, he didn't dare to look directly at Shu Jianlin's face for a long time.

Because of this face, it is still attractive to him.

Shu Jianlin didn't regard himself as an outsider at all, and sat on the chair opposite the desk, leaning on the table with his elbows and looking at Cui Zhannan with a gentle voice, "I haven't seen you for so many years, I didn't expect you to do so well in your career." It worked, which is great."

Cui Zhannan pulled his lower lip stiffly: "Thank you."

"When did you return home?"

Cui Zhannan was startled, and looked at him: "Do you know that I have gone abroad?"

At that moment, Cui Zhannan caught the flash of panic in Shu Jianlin's eyes.He heard Shu Jianlin reply: "Oh, I overheard Hu Qi talking about it once."

Hu Qi was their common high school classmate, and their relationship was also very good at that time.It would not be surprising if Shu Jianlin learned about it from Hu Qi.

After forcing himself to let go of his grievances, Cui Zhannan was able to hold back the emotions in his heart and talk to Shu Jianlin calmly.They briefly talked about what happened in the past few years, but most of them were innocuous things.It's as if they're really just old friends who haven't seen each other in years, rather than... an ex who broke up and broke up ugly.

What Shu Jianlin said about his experience in these years was actually Cui Zhannan's knowledge of it on TV and the Internet before, so after listening to it, he didn't find it novel or surprising.It's just that my heart is still empty, as if... something is missing.

After all, they are not teenagers anymore, they won't be that emotional, no matter how much emotion they feel in their hearts, they won't show it on their faces.

At first Cui Zhannan was very wary of Shu Jianlin, always feeling that his deliberate approach had no good intentions.He was really scared by Shu Jianlin, even if he saw him, he would feel physically uncomfortable.But the fact is that Shu Jianlin seems to really only come to seek peace.

Cui Zhannan felt a little lost when he realized this, but he couldn't tell why he was lost.Does he hope that Shu Jianlin can't let go of that relationship like him?Maybe.

Maybe this loss is just a kind of psychological imbalance...

Cui Zhannan looked at Shu Jianlin's handsome mature face with sharp edges and corners, and gradually realized that he was no longer the boy in his memory who was so indistinguishable from male and female that made his heart flutter.Maybe the boy he never forgets, whom he loves and hates, has completely disappeared from this world. He only exists in his memory and will never appear again.

Maybe he should learn from Shu Jianlin, and he should let go of everything earlier.They are all men, and they are all successful men who are almost 30 years old. They are already adults.

It shouldn't be so naive anymore.

Shu Jianlin only stayed here for a short while before leaving, it seemed that he really didn't intend to "harass" Cui Zhannan.Just before leaving, Shu Jianlin made a request:

"Anan, can I... give you a hug?"

Cui Zhannan was startled: "Why?"

It's weird and strange for two men to hug each other, not to mention that they are both gays, and even gays who have had adulterous affairs before.A hug or something... always makes people feel ambiguous.

Shu Jianlin Wenyan smiled lightly: "Don't worry, I just... I am... very happy to finally see you and reconcile with you after being separated for so many years. If you mind, then just pretend I didn't say anything. "

Cui Zhannan looked at Shu Jianlin quietly, was silent for a moment, then stepped forward in a strange way and hugged Shu Jianlin gently.

It's a hug between a friend that's completely clean without any erotic taste.He could feel that Shu Jianlin's body stiffened for a moment, then relaxed, and then raised his arms to gently wrap around him.

It was a warm hug that even made people want to cry, and it was also a hug that two people owed each other for more than ten years.It seemed that at this moment, both of them remembered the sweet and sad past, so no one proposed to end the hug for a while.

And at this moment, the door of the office suddenly made a loud "bang".

Both Cui Zhannan and Shu Jianlin were taken aback, and immediately separated and looked in the direction of the sound in a little panic.

Cui Zhannan opened his eyes wide for a moment: "Xinglin?!"

Shu Jianlin glanced at Cui Zhannan, then at the angry but unreal boy, and suddenly raised his eyebrows slightly.

However, Fu Xinglin seemed to only have Cui Zhannan in his eyes. He looked at Cui Zhannan viciously like an enemy, and gritted his teeth: "Cui Zhannan, do you want to be ashamed?"

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