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Fu Xinglin found that since He Kaiwen and Liu Zheng came to eat at home last time, Cui Zhannan had become a little cold towards him.

In fact, this change is very inconspicuous. If he hadn't put all his thoughts on Cui Zhannan and watched his every move all the time, he might not have noticed it.

But in fact, he couldn't grasp any conclusive evidence.He just felt that during this period of time, Cui Zhannan's frequency of sending him messages had decreased, and his work seemed to be suddenly busy.

Some time ago, the two wished they could stick together every day, just like conjoined twins.But in recent days, Cui Zhannan seems to have gone out more often to socialize, often coming back very late at night.

Fu Xinglin made dinner several times without waiting for him to come home.

Because of this, the two had a little friction.Fu Xinglin just expressed his dissatisfaction tactfully, and persuaded Cui Zhannan not to work so hard and tired, and wanted him to allocate more time to himself besides work.

But Cui Zhannan said with a smile: "If I don't suffer more while I'm young and work harder, this company will be successful sooner or later."

It seems to be deliberately raising the bar.He had never spoken to him like that before.

"I didn't tell you to sit idle and do nothing. It's okay to work hard, but it must be moderate. Tell yourself how many times have you gone home for dinner in the past half a month? Which one is not drunk? Come back drunk? I understand that you want to pay more for your career, but you also need to pay attention to your health. Otherwise, when you get old and sick, what is the use of having more money? "

Cui Zhannan didn't seem to care much about Fu Xinglin's words of concern, and even seemed a little impatient from his expression.Looking at him like this, Fu Xinglin felt as uncomfortable as a thorn in his head.

He couldn't tell what it was like, but he just knew that Cui Zhannan had changed.

"Okay, okay, I understand." Cui Zhannan waved his hand perfunctorily.

Fu Xinglin pursed his lips and looked at him. After a moment of silence, he said, "Brother Nan, don't you think we spend too little time together?"

Fu Xinglin actually doesn't like his mother-in-law's behavior very much, but he can't control it.He just felt uneasy and terrified. Looking at Cui Zhannan's familiar face, he felt that they were drifting away.

The feeling of being unable to catch Cui Zhannan became clearer and clearer, and he was afraid.

Cui Zhannan frowned slightly, he looked up at Fu Xinglin, and said helplessly: "Xinglin, our life is not all about love and love, there is also work and family. I may be a little busy at work recently, but It should be fine after a while. And isn’t your company also in its infancy recently? You can also rest assured to be busy with your work. We are also independent individuals from each other outside of our relationship.”

Fu Xinglin looked into his eyes without blinking, but didn't speak.

Cui Zhannan slowly clenched his hands behind his back, he straightened his back and said with a natural expression: "Xinglin, a relationship can be maintained for a long time and stably, not by sticking together every day. A relationship always has different stages, and We have different things to do at each stage. In fact, managing a relationship is a long-term thing..."

"Brother Nan, are you getting tired of me?"

Cui Zhannan was startled, and immediately shook his head: "Of course not, what are you thinking?"

Fu Xinglin stiffened his neck, and his whole body was tense: "Then why are you treating me badly all of a sudden?"

For a moment, Cui Zhannan didn't know how to answer.He thought he didn't show it, but he didn't expect Fu Xinglin to be so keen and aware of the change in his attitude.

Actually... Cui Zhannan did it on purpose.

Ever since He Kaiwen casually said that last time, he kept thinking about what happened with Fu Xinglin from the time they met to now.He was actually not surprised that he liked Fu Xinglin, he was just surprised that his liking for him would last for so long.And what made him even more unbelievable for a while was that what made him fall in love with Fu Xinglin was not a steady stream of freshness, but a... deeper feeling.

He doesn't like all the changes in his life that are out of control.

He instinctively rejects anything that puts him in a passive position.Perhaps it was because he was bitten by a snake for ten years and was afraid of well ropes, so he didn't dare to express his feelings without reservation.Because he always feels that good people are not rewarded.

From the moment he handed over the decision to others, all tragedies were doomed.He felt that he must be completely unlucky.

So he wanted to stop as soon as possible before it was too late.It's just that seeing Fu Xinglin's injured and wronged expression at this moment, he still can't bear it, and still wants to follow his heart to hug him and comfort him...

"I didn't treat you badly..." Cui Zhannan sighed helplessly in his heart, stepped forward and gently touched Fu Xinglin's ear with his hand, "What are you thinking?"

Fu Xinglin stood there motionless, just looking at Cui Zhannan.After a long silence, he suddenly said, "Are you angry?"

Cui Zhannan was startled: "Angry? Why are you angry?"

"Last time, I didn't promise you. So you've been angry with me, haven't you?"

When Fu Xinglin said this, Cui Zhannan seemed to suddenly think of something, and immediately blushed.

"No, I'm not that careful."

Fu Xinglin didn't believe it, he thought it must be because of this.So he tightened his lips, stretched out his hands to gently wrap around Cui Zhannan's waist, buried his face in Cui Zhannan's shoulder, and said in a muffled voice: "It's a big deal, I just promise you everything today, don't be indifferent to me anymore." Ignore me."

Cui Zhannan couldn't laugh or cry.He thinks that Fu Xinglin is really cute, so cute...he can't bear to alienate him on purpose.Cui Zhannan is still the same as when he first met him, as long as he sees him, he wants to get close to him, and even his gloomy mood will instantly improve just because he sees Fu Xinglin smiling at him.

"Brother Nan, it's not that I don't like being with you...I'm just not used to it," Fu Xinglin said in a low voice, and he stumbled because of shyness when he spoke, "Give me some time, give me more time." Can you be patient?"

Cui Zhannan sighed and hugged the boy in his arms tightly.Such a good boy, how could he be willing to push him out?Forget it, let's take a step at a time.He, Cui Zhannan, has never been a coward, so he has nothing to be afraid of, and he doesn't think he can stumble again with his current skills.He just wants to follow his own mind.

Cui Zhannan smiled and stroked the boy's soft hair with his big hand: "You sent this to your door on your own initiative, I won't be polite to you."

Fu Xinglin didn't speak, but hugged Cui Zhannan's waist even tighter.

Actually, the reason for Cui Zhannan's sudden indifference towards him... this is just Fu Xinglin's guess.

Since the incident at the swimming pool that day, there has been an additional activity in their lives that Fu Xinglin is not very good at.Regarding this matter, Fu Xinglin was actually very contradictory and painful.On the one hand, he is very eager to have close contact with Cui Zhannan, but on the other hand, he can't control his psychological rejection.He admitted that Cui Zhannan is really good at it, physically Fu Xinglin can't lie to himself, Cui Zhannan really did what he said, and it also gave Fu Xinglin a different experience.But he still couldn't pass his psychological level.

He will always repel, even loathe himself.This feeling tortured him every moment and made him very uncomfortable.He is a person with very tenacious willpower and outstanding endurance. If it was someone else, he might have been tortured and collapsed by himself, but he can still stand here until now, which is enough to prove how strong his heart is.But his inner strength does not mean that he will not feel uncomfortable.

His previous 20 years of life were too ordinary and monotonous.The first frivolous, unrestrained and radiant person he met in his life was Cui Zhannan.

They were together before he could fully follow Cui Zhannan's pace, and they broke through the last boundary before he got used to the new love life.Everything is developing much faster than he expected, so even though he accepts it on the surface, it is not the case in his heart.

He fell in love for the first time, and he subverted his 20-year cognition and three views to fall in love with a man. After more than a month after the relationship was established, he directly progressed to the adult stage.It felt like a small farmer from the countryside seeing a rapidly developing metropolis. Apart from joy, he was actually more confused, helpless and frightened.

This may be the instinct of self-preservation of animals, he will always subconsciously resist the intimacy with Cui Zhannan.He felt as if this was the only way he could temporarily gain control over his emotions and reason.

So even though the two had already done it, but because of Fu Xinglin's deliberate avoidance, the number of times was actually not many.And Cui Zhannan seems to be particularly keen on this...

As time goes by, it seems that something has changed.Enthusiasm is a thing that will slowly fade in disappointment after disappointment.He is not wooden, so he can feel Cui Zhannan's emotional changes.

But now, Fu Xinglin felt very ashamed of his behavior of compromising and sacrificing to tie Cui Zhannan.Like a woman, he wants to tie up a man with this kind of thing...

He hated himself, but he didn't know what to do.Cui Zhannan is too elusive.

He is like a gust of wind, after blowing people's hearts into chaos, but there is no trace, he is so chic that he seems to have no nostalgia for anything.But Fu Xinglin didn't allow it, he didn't allow such a thing to happen.

Even if Cui Zhannan is a gust of wind that cannot be grasped, he will use all means to trap him and let him stay by his side with peace of mind.

Falling in love with Cui Zhannan and deciding to be with him is like embarking on a journey of no return for Fu Xinglin.He doesn't know what the end is, he only knows that he can never let go of this person.

So even if it makes him uncomfortable, even if he sacrifices something, he doesn't care.

After this day, the relationship between the two seems to have warmed up again, and the state of each other seems to have returned to the original state.But Fu Xinglin knew that once some doubts and suspicions arise, they cannot be eliminated.

He knew that their future would not be smooth sailing.