make zero with tears

【One more get rid of the shadow】

This is where Father Fu works.At this time, the school gate was closed tightly, and the students inside were all in class.Only a few scattered classes have physical education classes on the playground.

Fu Xinglin took Cui Zhannan for a walk around the sidewalk outside the county high school.

There are not many people in the small county, and the pace of life is surprisingly slow, especially compared with the bustling metropolis of City B, this place is like another world.For Cui Zhannan, it was quite interesting.

It is around three or four o'clock in the afternoon, there are no people on the street, and the circle around the school is quite quiet.The fence wall of the school is full of various trees and flowering branches climbing on the fence. At this time, flower buds have emerged.Cui Zhannan reached out and touched it lightly.

"This is a rose flower." Fu Xinglin said, "It will bloom after a while."

Cui Zhannan raised his eyebrows, and gently plucked the tender and delicate flowers with his fingers: "The environment where uncle works is pretty good, there are so many green plants." As he spoke, he glanced at Fu Xinglin, "You used to go to school here too ?"

Fu Xinglin nodded with a "hmm".

"Then you must have been very popular when you were in school, right?" Cui Zhannan grinned, reaching out his hand and touching Fu Xinglin's smooth face like a hooligan, "There must be many girls writing love letters to you, right?"

Fu Xinglin patted his salty pig's hand away: "Everyone is focused on studying, no one is as boring as you said."

"I don't believe it."

In fact, what Fu Xinglin said was really true.It's just that it's not the reason he said that there were no girls chasing him when he was in school, but because his father was there, and many people dared not talk to him.What's more, Fu Xinglin's personality is cold, many girls don't dare to talk to him even if they like him.

The two slipped away for a while, and they were a little hungry by dinner time.As early as when he was going out, Fu Xinglin asked his mother not to prepare meals for the two of them, they would eat in the county town.So when Cui Zhannan was clamoring and hungry while touching his flat belly, Fu Xinglin took him to a cold noodle shop near the school.

"I used to come here to eat cold noodles when I was in school. Their taste is good, you can try it." Fu Xinglin put the broken disposable chopsticks in Cui Zhannan's hand, and then pulled a few napkins very naturally Wipe down the tabletop.

Cui Zhannan looked around the small shop.The store is not big, but it is clean and tidy.There are not many styles on the menu, and the prices are the lowest he has ever seen before.In fact, Cui Zhannan is quite hypocritical. Many problems are suspected of princely disease, and he is very picky about food and environment.But the feeling here is different from what he imagined.

When he thought that Fu Xinglin, who was still a kid in his teens, had eaten here before, he felt an indescribable satisfaction and happiness in his heart.

After the cold face came, Cui Zhannan was unconsciously surprised.

"Such a big bowl?"

"There are a lot of dishes here in the Northeast, so I stopped you just now when you wanted to order other dishes. If you order too much, the two of us will definitely not be able to finish it." While speaking, Fu Xinglin pushed the chicken rack on the table to Cui Zhannan In front of him, "Try this, the special snack of our place is mixed with chicken. I gave you the sweet and sour one, and I put a little bit of spicy one in. How about it?"

Cui Zhannan looked at the food on the table, swallowed unconsciously, and suddenly felt his index finger twitch, and he dropped the chopsticks unceremoniously.

It was already slightly dark when the two of them came out of the shop after eating.

Cui Zhannan found that his appetite had increased visibly since he came to Zhu County.If this goes on like this, he will definitely grow flesh, and he is a little depressed.

Cui Zhannan's stomach is not very good, eating too much is prone to indigestion, even if Fu Xinglin kept watching, he didn't stop.Seeing that he was unwell, Fu Xinglin had no choice but to accompany him to continue strolling in the county streets to help him digest.

"Is it still uncomfortable?" Fu Xinglin touched his stomach.

Cui Zhannan hurriedly avoided it, and said uncomfortably, "It's much better."

Fu Xinglin looked at him and smiled: "What are you hiding? What haven't we done? Why are you still shy?"

Cui Zhannan found that since it got dark, Fu Xinglin seemed to be much bolder, and sometimes he would touch him while walking on the street.It's really... The true nature of a man is undoubtedly revealed.

"Who is shy?" Cui Zhannan rolled his eyes at him, "I don't want you to touch me."

"What? Can you still get pregnant?"

"..." Cui Zhannan wanted to kick him, but he was reluctant, and finally gritted his teeth angrily, "I'll touch your abs after I get back from training."

These days, I have been busy abroad and have no time to exercise. After returning to China, I will be fed into piglets by Fu's mother.Not to mention the abdominal muscles, Cui Zhannan felt that he would have fat on his waist if he went on like this.

Fu Xinglin approached with a smile and said in a low voice, "I'll take you to exercise at night and help you get back."

Cui Zhannan was startled, and he knew what Fu Xinglin was talking about when he saw Fu Xinglin winking.He snorted and said, "Don't you know that aerobic exercise loses muscle? Every time I do it with you, I feel that my muscle lines are much thinner."

Fu Xinglin: "..."

As they walked, they came to a residential area.There are a few old and dilapidated buildings scattered here, which looks a bit desolate compared to the county town.In fact, they have traveled quite a distance. Compared with Fu Xinglin's house, one is in the easternmost part of the county, and the other is in the westernmost part. It takes four to five or 10 minutes to drive.

He found Fu Xinglin stopped in his tracks.

The street lights here are relatively dim, so Cui Zhannan couldn't see the expression on Fu Xinglin's face clearly for a while.He just looked at the piece of old and small, stood silently without speaking.

"what happened?"

Fu Xinglin pointed to the old residential area in front of him: "I used to live there."

Cui Zhannan suddenly "thumped" in his heart.

After Fu Xinglin finished this sentence, there was no more to say. He just looked into the distance blankly.

Cui Zhannan walked a little closer, and gently held Fu Xinglin's wrist.

After a long silence, Fu Xinglin said again: "Brother Nan, there is something I want to tell you."

Cui Zhannan took a tight breath.

"I never told you why I used to hate gays so much, I..."

"Xinglin," Cui Zhannan felt the slight tremor of the boy's wrist in his palm, and suddenly stepped forward to gently hug Fu Xinglin, and whispered in his ear: "If you don't want to say it, we won't say it."

Fu Xinglin's eyes changed slightly, and he was silent for a few seconds: "You know?"

"Ah."

Fu Xinglin was silent for a while: "My mother told you?"

"Ah."

"She must have been crying then?"

Cui Zhannan kept stroking the back of Fu Xinglin's head gently with his big hand: "It's over, let's not think about it, okay?"

Fu Xinglin raised his hand to hold Cui Zhannan's waist, gently pushed him away, and looked into his eyes without blinking: "Brother Nan, I'm fine."

Cui Zhannan carefully looked into Fu Xinglin's eyes.There was peace in the boy's eyes, like a lake without waves, deep and quiet.Cui Zhannan wasn't sure if he really didn't care anymore, but at least for now, his mood was stable.

Cui Zhannan grabbed his hand and held it in his palm, then lowered his eyes: "I'm sorry, I treated you like that before, you..."

"Hush—" Fu Xinglin pulled out a hand and gently pressed his raised index finger on the man's lips, "You didn't know anything at that time, so you don't need to apologize."

Cui Zhannan looked into his eyes and hesitated to speak.

Fu Xinglin smiled. He took Cui Zhannan's hand and walked into the old residential area, and said slowly as he walked: "I was only 13 years old at the time, and this incident really had a great impact on me. It took a long time I don’t want to think about the time, and I even paralyzed myself to forget everything. At that time, my mother took me to the provincial capital to see a psychiatrist, but it didn’t help.”

Cui Zhannan clenched Fu Xinglin's hand in distress, wishing he could go back to the past to protect that little Fu Xinglin.

Fu Xinglin couldn't help but smile when he noticed the strength in the man's hand, and held him back.

"Later, our family moved, so we stayed away from this place. I deliberately didn't think about these things, and my life seemed to return to normal. Then one day, when I came home from school, I vaguely heard my parents in the house Quarreling. I secretly hid by the window to watch, they didn't know what they were talking about, my mother was crying all the time, and my father also had a heavy expression on his face. I only found out later that it was because the bastard who molested me came out." Fu Xinglin Pulled his lower lip, "My parents immediately called the police after my accident. The bastard lived in this area, and the police found him without much effort. But the relevant laws were not perfect at that time, and the incident happened There is no surveillance in the lot, and there is no evidence, so the bastard came out after less than a year."

After the words finished, Fu Xinglin was silent for a few seconds, and said flatly, "At that time, I thought, why doesn't he die?"

Cui Zhannan looked at him without blinking: "Then what happened after that?"

Fu Xinglin lowered his eyes: "Later, I began to exercise, participate in various sports, and learn relevant legal knowledge. Finally, on a rainy night in my second year of high school, I guarded him near his house. He seemed to be drunk. Liquor. I put a sack on his head, dragged him into an alley, and beat him up. I didn't kill him, but every punch was calculated, and I finally spared him. Because I know, He is an old bachelor who lives alone. Even if he dies outside, no one will know. Later, after a while, I heard that a beggar in the neighborhood broke his leg because he had no money for medical treatment, and finally died. I think, this person should be him."

Cui Zhannan didn't say a word the whole time, he just stared into Fu Xinglin's eyes and listened quietly to him.

Fu Xinglin pulled his lower lip, and smiled a little coldly: "Since then, my knot has been slowly unraveled. I am free."

Cui Zhannan felt extremely distressed.He sighed softly, wrapped his arms around the boy's shoulders and patted his back lightly: "It's all over."

"Brother Nan, aren't you afraid of me?" Fu Xinglin's body stiffened, "Don't you think I'm scary? Don't you think I'm an extreme and violent lunatic in my bones?"

"No." Cui Zhannan let go of his shoulders and looked at him, "I only think that my star is very brave. He didn't back down, was not destroyed by bad guys, but fought against everything that was unfair. He was very dazzling, let I like it better."

Fu Xinglin's eyes were moist for a moment: "Really?"

Cui Zhannan smiled faintly: "Really."

Fu Xinglin sniffed, took Cui Zhannan's hand and walked for a while, and then the two stopped in front of an alley.The alley was dark and long, like a suspension bridge with no end in sight.

Cui Zhannan looked at him: "This is it?"

When he got here, Fu Xinglin's body began to tremble uncontrollably.But his eyes are still firm and resolute.

"Ah."

Cui Zhannan was silent for a few seconds, then suddenly turned around and held Fu Xinglin's face and kissed him deeply.Fu Xinglin stared blankly at Cui Zhannan.

Cui Zhannan smiled: "If you think of this in the future, I hope you will remember the kiss just now."

The boy's moist eye sockets instantly turned red, and in the darkness, a crystal teardrop fell silently.He suddenly spread his arms around the man in front of him, buried his face in his shoulder and said in a low voice, "Brother Nan, do you know? Your appearance is the reason for me to get rid of this shadow completely."

【Second Correction Palace Empress】

Even though he only stayed in Luo County for two days, Cui Zhannan felt that the hearts of the two of them seemed to be closer than ever before.He has never felt this way before, this kind of... the feeling of intersecting with a person's soul and giving each other their sincerity.It's like... It's like treating the other person as another self in this world.

They will trust each other and understand each other.It was a feeling that one plus one was greater than two.

Cui Zhannan suddenly felt that Ms. Chen Shuzhen was right.There is nothing terrible about really liking someone and developing a long-term relationship. On the contrary, the novel experience it brings fascinates him.

But Cui Zhannan also knew in his heart that the reason was not just that he had settled down to a serious relationship, but the more important reason was that this object was Fu Xinglin.Everything was just right, and the right time, place and people made this relationship possible.

They planned to go back after leaving that old and broken village.It was not easy to take a taxi at this time, and they waited for a while on the side of the road before waiting for a taxi.

There are no serious buses in this small county, only two or three trips, but one trip to Fu Xinglin's house doesn't even exist.Most people here are used to taking a taxi when traveling. Of course, taking a taxi here is much cheaper than in City B, starting at only five yuan.

While waiting for the car, the two held hands all the time.They stood together, so close that it was hard to see that the two hands under the sleeves were clasped without looking carefully.Fu Xinglin likes this kind of secret friendship with Cui Zhannan in public, which makes him feel that the unique Cui Zhannan belongs to him alone.

And now Cui Zhannan is also at the time of love, and he enjoys this little sweetness just like Fu Xinglin.

However, God may not be able to see this young couple showing their affection. Just when their affection was growing, the cell phone in Cui Zhannan's trousers pocket suddenly rang.

Cui Zhannan didn't think too much, he took it out and was ready to pick it up.However, at this time, both of them saw the caller ID on the screen.

The sweet smile on Fu Xinglin's face faded a bit, and a pair of beautiful black and white eyes fixedly looked at the word "Shu Jianlin", then he narrowed his eyes slightly and said nothing.

Cui Zhannan was also taken aback for a moment, never expecting that it would be Shu Jianlin calling.He didn't dare to look at Fu Xinglin's expression now, he gritted his teeth and hung up, and put the phone back into his trouser pocket.

Fu Xinglin felt funny looking at Cui Zhannan's nonchalant appearance, but he had to say that Cui Zhannan's behavior just now pleased him, so he deliberately pretended not to see it and didn't mention anything.

After a while, an empty taxi drove over, Fu Xinglin waved to stop, the two got into the back seat, and the car drove in the direction of Fu's house.

However, less than 2 minutes after the car started, Cui Zhannan's cell phone rang again.This time Cui Zhannan felt that the cold sweat on his forehead was about to come down.Even with his upper body stiff like that, he didn't intend to take out his phone.At this moment, his left hand was still being held by Fu Xinglin who was sitting on the left.

Fu Xinglin only felt that the man's palms seemed to be sweating, and he didn't know whether it was hot or guilty.

Cui Zhannan didn't answer the phone for a long time, Shu Jianlin didn't stop as if he was deliberately against Cui Zhannan.Later, the driver in the front row couldn't listen anymore, and looked at the two people in the rear seat through the rearview mirror: "Both, is the phone ringing?"

Cui Zhannan didn't dare to turn his head to look at Fu Xinglin.He bit the bullet and took out the mobile phone in his trouser pocket with difficulty with his right hand, and was about to hang up without even looking at it.

At this time Fu Xinglin said: "Go ahead, see what he has to say, turn on the speaker."

Cui Zhannan glanced at Fu Xinglin.The boy's expression was calm, but his eyes were a little cold when he looked at the phone screen.This kid, no matter in tone or demeanor, is just like a lady in the palace.

Cui Zhannan felt funny at his strange idea, but he couldn't laugh at this situation.So he said dryly: "It must be nothing serious, and it will make you angry if you pick it up. I'll hang up."

"Go ahead, I trust you." Fu Xinglin looked straight into Cui Zhannan's eyes, with an attitude that Cui Zhannan could not refuse.

Cui Zhannan hesitated for a moment, and finally connected through the call bravely, and turned on the speakerphone under Fu Xinglin's gaze: "Hello?"

"You've answered my call. What's the matter? Isn't it convenient for Fu Xinglin to be by your side?"

"..." Cui Zhannan noticed that the curvature of Fu Xinglin's jaw line seemed to be much colder in an instant.

"Why don't you speak?"

Cui Zhannan unconsciously picked the phone case with his right index finger: "What's the matter with calling me?"

"I just wanted to ask if you found Fu Xinglin. Now it seems that you should have found it. Are you reconciled?"

"……Um."

"That's good, otherwise I'd be a sinner."

"Just this matter?" Cui Zhannan looked at Fu Xinglin's increasingly ugly face, and wished he could hang up the phone quickly.

However, the person on the phone was silent for a few seconds this time, and then he smiled lightly: "Xiao Nan, I may have fallen this time."

Cui Zhannan's eyebrows twitched: "What do you mean?"

"The box office of "Infinite" is not very good, I may have to lose money this time."

Cui Zhannan was silent for a few seconds, and then sighed deeply: "I advised you not to vote for this film at the beginning. Art films are not popular now, and no matter how good the script is, it's useless if it doesn't make money...do you pay a lot?"

"I almost lost all the money I earned in the past few years." Shu Jianlin pretended to be relaxed and smiled, "These years have been for nothing."

Cui Zhannan didn't know what to say for a while.He glanced at Fu Xinglin, saw that his expression was calm, and gently squeezed his hand to reassure him.

So Cui Zhannan thought for a moment and said, "Do you need my help?"

This time, Shu Jianlin was silent for a long time, and then said with some difficulty: "I need money to fill the hole now. Reality shows are the most profitable now, but I used to put most of my energy on filming. The resources for variety shows are not very good, and there are very few. I... heard that your company is going to sponsor a variety show on Channel XX, right? Can... can I have the cheek to ask you to put me in it?"

After Shu Jianlin finished speaking, the people on both ends of the phone fell silent.Cui Zhannan was in trouble for a while.

It's not that he doesn't want to do this favor, nor is it that this favor is difficult to do.After all, he is the real power holder of the Yuemei Group, so it is not difficult to parachute an artist into a variety show sponsored by his own brand.He hesitated for other reasons.

Cui Zhannan thought farther.

In the entertainment industry, there are a lot of dirty things that can't be put on the table.On the surface, he put Shu Jianlin in, but the people in the circle don't necessarily think so.Coupled with the fact that the two had had some sort of scandal before, maybe others would misunderstand that the relationship between him and Shu Jianlin was impure.

If it was in the past, Cui Zhannan would not have cared about these things. Anyway, he is a single man, and he is full of gossip news.But now... now he already has Fu Xinglin.

Although he used to play pretty in his private life, his thinking is still relatively traditional.He felt that a person who has a lover should not let himself fall into such rumors again, this is an obligation.What's more, Fu Xinglin already cared about what happened between him and Shu Jianlin. If he did this, it would be like stabbing Fu Xinglin in the heart.

He can't do it.

So Cui Zhannan thought for a moment and said, "I'm sorry to see Lin, I may not be able to help you with this."

Cui Zhannan glanced at Fu Xinglin, and then continued: "I told you before that Xinglin minds if I contact you. If I do you this favor, he must feel uncomfortable. So... sorry, please understand."

After Cui Zhannan finished speaking, Fu Xinglin couldn't help but stared at him blankly.

The person on the phone did not answer immediately, and there was a long silence.Time passed bit by bit, and even the driver in front of him pricked up his ears and dared not speak out, for fear of missing the big gossip.

After a long time, Shu Jianlin's slightly hoarse voice came from the phone: "Well, I see. I'm sorry for causing you trouble. Then I will find a relationship by myself, thank you."

After hanging up the phone, the two didn't speak for a long time.The driver was still waiting for the next sentence, but when the place arrived, the two got out of the car one after the other.The master couldn't help but sighed in disappointment.

In front of them was the gate of the Fu family, but neither of them planned to go in.They just stood there on the dark country road, looking at each other.

"Xinglin," Cui Zhannan was the first to speak, "I know you are very concerned about the past between me and Shu Jianlin. I did not think carefully before. I will pay more attention to it in the future. Let's not mention this matter today. ?"

Because the two would quarrel every time Shu Jianlin was mentioned, so now the word "Shu Jianlin" seemed like a curse to Cui Zhannan, and he was afraid.Today Shu saw that Lin suddenly called and made such a request, so Fu Xinglin knew without thinking that Fu Xinglin was going to be angry.Therefore, Cui Zhannan felt that it would be better to act first before this kid got angry, which should be able to effectively avoid a quarrel that hurt feelings.

However, Fu Xinglin's reaction was somewhat unexpected.He was not angry, on the contrary, he smiled slightly at him.

He said, "Brother Nan, I believe in you."

He used to be suspicious because he didn't have confidence in their relationship, because he didn't trust Cui Zhannan.But it's different now.What's more, Cui Zhannan's performance was very good just now, Fu Xinglin was not only not angry, but also felt sweet in his heart.

"Brother Nan, I used to be a little... I was looking for trouble. Anyway, we will be fine in the future, and I believe you." After a pause, "I heard it just now, although I don't know how big your investment is. The amount, but to make Shu Jianlin beg you, I think it should be a very big loss. Although I still hate him, I can't fight against him, it's not good."

Cui Zhannan's eyes became brighter and brighter, he felt that Fu Xinglin was completely different.He can't tell what has changed, anyway, the more you look at it, the more rare it is.

"This time...you can help him once. But! Only this time. Let him deal with anything he encounters in the future, and you are not allowed to take care of it. "

Cui Zhannan also smiled: "Are you serious? Are you not jealous?"

Fu Xinglin curled his lips: "How could it be possible not to be jealous? But I'm not so narrow-minded, one size counts for one size. Anyway, you are mine, and I don't care about these trivial matters with him."

Cui Zhannan was overjoyed, and held Fu Xinglin's face in his arms and kissed him: "Why are our stars so cute? I like you so much..."

A trace of shyness appeared on Fu Xinglin's face, and he pursed his lips and smiled.

Cui Zhannan hugged Fu Xinglin tightly, and said in a low voice: "I have already spoken to Shu Jianlin, and he has already decided to let go. So you don't have to worry, nothing will happen between me and him. Ordinary friendship, I assure you."

Fu Xinglin nodded with a "hmm", thinking that Shu Jianlin was not the kind of person who would give up lightly.He could tell at a glance that he never thought of letting go of Cui Zhannan, and was still waiting for them to break up.

But Fu Xinglin would never tell Cui Zhannan, and he would never let Shu Jianlin fulfill his wish.

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PS: I saw a little cutie asking if I want to write about Liu Zheng and Zhai Yufan, but I have no plans yet.Do you want to see it?If there are more people who want to see it, I will write it.If you want to watch it, just say "want to watch" in the comment area, and I will write if there are more than five people.