I really did a fake scene with my ex-boyfriend in a love variety show

Luo Nian was probably really tired, so he fell asleep after enduring it.

Sheng Jingyan looked at him for a while, reached out to hug him and put him aside, put his injured hand on the pillow, got up and went out with his mobile phone.

Xiao Wei hadn't left yet, seeing him coming out, she hurriedly said, "Mr. Luo, is everything okay?"

"It's okay, go and rest." Sheng Jingyan sat on the ridge of the field, the night was already dark, and even the sound of insects had weakened.

The show was a live broadcast, and it hadn't been edited yet, but fans would usually record the screen. He opened Weibo and searched for Luo Nian's name, and a lot of videos immediately popped up. He found the part where Luo Nian was cooking today and clicked on it.

Luo Nian was holding the knife normally at first, but then he started to look out from time to time, and his expression was very tense, which was very different from his usual gentle appearance, as if he was enduring something.

Four cameras were fixed in the kitchen, trying to shoot perfectly from all angles, but the live broadcast usually uses the main camera to shoot his face, and the sound of chopping vegetables is very loud. Sheng Jingyan felt that if he got the camera, he would definitely be able to see the tight veins .

Sheng Jingyan couldn't help laughing, seeing him so angry talking to others?

He thought that Luo Nian didn't fluctuate at all, Sheng Jingyan continued to look down, the sound of the blade on the cutting board became louder and louder, Luo Nian frowned and even his eyes changed a bit, and the next second suddenly cut hand.

Sheng Jingyan's heart flinched sharply. Although he knew about the wound, he was still shocked when he saw it with his own eyes.

Luo Nian's eyes flickered, he threw away the knife and took his hand to find the medicine box, he took out the bandage and bit one end in his mouth, after the bleeding stopped, he bandaged it awkwardly, looked back at him, took off the glove and put it on again.

He was really afraid of finding out by himself.

Sheng Jingyan knew that Luo Nian was afraid of him. When the two first got together, he took care of Luo Nian a lot, spanking and reprimanding him a lot. Although there were some interesting reasons, Luo Nian was also really confused, often made mistakes, and was very angry. His heart hurts.

When he had just chased him down, Luo Nian almost put half his life in it to help his classmate. He was afraid that he would find out and asked Professor Zhou to hide it from him, but he only learned about it from his classmate when he went to deliver something.

He was so angry that he dragged people to the swimming pool behind the rock climbing platform, kicked open the door of the locker room and made everyone get out, pressed Luo Nian and beat his ass, since then he behaved a lot, what's the matter Everyone knows to talk to him.

I haven't seen him for several years now, and he forgot again.

Sheng Jingyan endured his anger and heartache and turned off the phone. The grass he was sitting on looked like a head with its hair cut off, and it was probably the blood dripping from the emergency treatment of Luo Nian.

Sheng Jingyan propped his head on one hand, got up helplessly and suddenly remembered something, he once made a very abnormal move when he was apologizing, he put his hands together and asked him to tie and beat him.

Sheng Jingyan looked back at the simple room. That night when he kissed Luo Nian, he slapped him. At that time, he didn't think much about it. He just thought it was a forced kiss, but now it seems that it might not be the case.

Why did Luo Nian let him tie him up?

When people are extremely flustered and helpless, they will do some subconscious things to escape, just like ostriches will bury themselves in the sand, some people will run away, Luo Nian seems to be... apologizing.

Sheng Jingyan sat down again, sorting out Luo Nian's abnormalities from the beginning. He often apologized, and he always seemed to owe something in front of him. In addition, Mu Hua said that he would blame himself for all mistakes, and he also I didn't think much about it, I just thought about pampering and loving slowly, one day he won't be so frightened.

He suddenly remembered something, when he met Luo Nian for the first time, Guo Zhao tied his hands with a tie, and when he was struggling, he opened Guo Zhao with a wine bottle.

Sheng Jingyan's heart trembled violently, and a bad premonition slowly grew.

He took out his mobile phone to think for a while, and still made a call, but there was no answer, and he called the other party twice before answering, with an impatient expression on his face: "What are you doing, are you sick from calling in the middle of the night?"

"Why don't I ask you if I'm not sick, I don't talk nonsense and ask you something."

"Qingyan, who is it?" came a slightly lower voice of a young boy, panting slightly tremblingly: "You pick it up, maybe there is something important, I'll get you some water to drink."

Lu Qingyan said unhappily: "There is a fart."

Sheng Jingyan knew what he was doing as soon as he heard it, and he didn't have the slightest sense of guilt that disturbed people's dreams, "For your own good, indulge in lust and hurt your body."

"I am willing to die on him, are you sick?" Lu Qingyan took two sips of the water handed over by the young man, pinched the young man with one hand and said lightly: "Tell me and let me listen."

Sheng Jingyan roughly gathered his guesses in his heart, omitted the name and told Lu Qingyan in detail, the other party was silent for a long time after listening.

"Has a hoarse voice? Let you go to bed less, and you will die in bed sooner or later."

"Sheng Jingyan, are you an idiot?" Lu Qingyan scolded him, and didn't have the heart to continue doing it. He asked the boy to sleep first and then put on some clothes to get up. "According to what you said, he should have serious mental problems."

"Have a mental problem? Is it serious?" Sheng Jingyan asked in a louder voice.

Lu Qingyan said: "First of all, you said that he was afraid of being tied up, but when he made a mistake, he asked you to be tied up and beaten, which proves that he has been tied up and beaten more than once, and people will have a reaction to one thing. It does not happen overnight, it must go through a long period of hints, establishment, punishment and other means, for example, after a prisoner has experienced rape for several years, he will subconsciously react as long as he hears the prison bell."

"He will blame himself for his mistakes, which is a conditioned reflex caused by indoctrination for a long time. He thinks that the pain he endures is because of his own mistakes. The mental state is the most in your circle. Not as popular as a newcomer, the long-term criticism of black fans and the double hint of reality, over time he felt that it was really his acting skills that were not good enough."

Sheng Jingyan frowned and said nothing. There are indeed many people in such a situation. Even Yue Lang felt that he was not good enough for a while, and wanted to quit the circle. He sang by his ears for three days before regaining his confidence.

Lu Qingyan added: "Have you ever heard of BDS/M? One of them is called domination and submission. Through language education and various specific methods such as whips, punishments are imposed, and a kind of behavior that will be punished will be gradually established. , Obedient will get the consciousness reflection of reward.”

"He didn't have such a reaction. He even hurt people when he was tied up. It can't be this kind of conscious reflex." Sheng Jingyan can be sure that Luo Nian is not a soft persimmon to be kneaded.

Lu Qingyan said: "Just to give you an example to tell you that he should have suffered such injuries and tell you the reason why he asked you to be tied up. He wants you to calm down. There is a benchmark in his consciousness, as long as he is tied up and beaten. His biggest punishment. Is there anything he is more afraid of?"

Sheng Jingyan's heart clenched, he couldn't even breathe, "He's afraid I'll ignore him."

Lu Qingyan pondered for a moment, and said: "He is afraid that you will ignore him. Apart from liking you, there should be a bigger reason. You said that he has been abused and abused by all his relatives since he was a child, but in his consciousness he is most dependent on these things. People. He is afraid of being abandoned and ignored, so he is willing to choose the pain that those people give him. For example, if you lock a cat in a box that is not seen from the sun, even if you keep beating it, it will still get close to you, because Your beating equals attention."

Sheng Jingyan: "Is there a way to remedy this?"

Lu Qingyan: "It's hard to say, mental illness is different from physical illness, even if the body is terminally ill, there is a way to overcome it, but mental illness often changes quickly and is unpredictable, so we can only take it slowly and constantly build up new consciousness for him. "

"How to build it?"

Lu Qingyan thought for a while, "What is your usual way of communicating? When did he listen to you the most?"

"...When you are punished."

Lu Qingyan sighed: "You are really nothing."

Sheng Jingyan: "It's the same with you. To become a teacher in order to attract men, you're a fool."

Lu Qingyan said: "He lacked family affection since he was a child. You not only played the role of boyfriend to him, but also played the role of 'father'. Your control and control have an absolute sense of security for him. You can Simply understanding him as a dom who needs others to give him instructions and control his behavior is a huge concern for him."

Sheng Jingyan used his mobile phone to check what dom is, and immediately took a deep breath: "Lu Qingyan, it's a big loss that you didn't go to your place for the anti-pornography campaign, you are such a coward."

"I'm happy to flirt with you, don't be prudish with me, don't you want to treat him like this?"

Sheng Jingyan looked at the domination and submission, the whip and the master above, and silently scrolled down the next page, "You have to treat him like this all the time? Even if he needs my control, he doesn't have to use this method, right?"

Lu Qingyan said: "Who told you to use this method, I just gave you an example to tell him his personality and possible causes. Diagnosis of mental illness is a very complicated process of analysis, and you can only speculate based on your words. Even if he has this tendency, you don't have to use this method, you just need to give him more signals like 'you are under my control' at ordinary times."

Sheng Jingyan pondered for a moment, roughly understood what Lu Qingyan meant, and continued to ask him about the topic.

After Lu Qingyan finished listening, he paused for a longer time this time, "My dear, you... are really sick."

Sheng Jingyan said that he had that disease together, and suppressed the upset and anxiety in his heart: "Could it be the cause of the disease? I heard that the disease can't control my emotions, I don't know."

Lu Qingyan said: "Of course there is, but I think today's incident may not be due to illness. A tree grows in an extremely depressed state. If you suddenly release it, it will feel that the branch it stretched out is wrong. , will hurt others, it will want to shrink back, this kind of comparison has a great impact on him.”

"We normal people will choose to explode when we have a bad temper. Some people will vent to the closest people, some people will swear on the Internet, and some people will go to sports. There are different ways, but his choice is Depressed, and then told himself that it was his fault, in the long run he will have a great panic over a little emotion."

Sheng Jingyan recalled Luo Nian's usual appearance, "He is usually normal, when he is happy."

"You also said that when he was happy, at that time he felt safe and would not affect others, but there is one problem you may need to pay attention to." Lu Qingyan thought for a while, and said tactfully: "His possessive desire for you Maybe a little higher than others."

"Possessiveness?" Sheng Jingyan didn't see it at all. No, he did have a strong possessiveness. When facing Yue Lang, he knew that his nephew didn't feel anything, and Shang Yu didn't threaten him, so he behaved normally. It's normal.

That time Nie Zhenzhen slapped the table hard and scolded her when he was saving someone, Sheng Jingyan didn't think much about it at the time, he just thought he was in a hurry, today he said a few more words to Su Xu, Luo Nian's eyes The look almost kills.

Sheng Jingyan had mixed feelings in his heart, and asked again: "But he apologized quickly, hid his wounds, and didn't show or express his possessiveness in front of me. Are you reliable?"

Lu Qingyan almost wanted to hang up the phone, "Call me in the middle of the night, I'm unreliable, you pick me up?"

"Okay, you say."

Lu Qingyan said angrily: "Have you ever heard of a kind of person? The name is Bingjiao."

"What's delicate? The delicateness of a medicine jar?" Sheng Jingyan was at a loss.

Lu Qingyan: "It's okay to surf the Internet, what Bingjiao means is, forget it, it probably means that his possessiveness is so serious that if you laugh with others or talk to others a lot, he will think you are cheating."

Sheng Jingyan was silent for a long time, Lu Qingyan felt that he might have been frightened, and just wanted to comfort him when he heard the expectant sigh: "Will he imprison me?"

"Why didn't the anti-pornography find you as its spokesman?"

Sheng Jingyan: "Speak seriously."

Lu Qingyan couldn't help but rolled his eyes, and continued to say: "There should be a part of the reason for his illness. This is not my professional field. I can't estimate it specifically. From a psychological point of view, this kind of person is very afraid of losing That's why you apologize quickly, but Luo Nian's apology should also add some of his own circle, so this situation should repeat."

After Lu Qingyan finished speaking, he sincerely reminded him: "You should be very tired when you are with such a person. According to what you said, he has no way to control himself, so..."

Sheng Jingyan said, "I'm not tired."

Lu Qingyan was taken aback, "Huh?"

Sheng Jingyan pondered for a moment, and asked, "You mean that as long as I give him enough security and control instructions, he will get better over time, is that so?"

"You can say that, but there is no guarantee that you will be cured. You know, we psychiatrists generally..."

Sheng Jingyan interrupted him: "That's enough, as long as there is a way."

"Although you understand that this time will be very long, and it may be useless, are you not afraid?"

Sheng Jingyan let out a sigh of relief, looked up at the sky full of stars, and said, "Take it as finding a boyfriend with a bad personality. In such a situation, he must be more difficult than me."

"Lu Qingyan."

"Ok?"

"I gotta love him."

Lu Qingyan was taken aback for a moment, and just wanted to say that you love him, so he liked to say something to me, are you sick?But the words came to the tip of the tongue all of a sudden.

In fact, everyone has more or less mental illness, but most people will not affect their lives. Even if it affects them, there is nothing they can do. The most painful thing is the patient himself.

If possible, they are the ones who most want to climb ashore to see the sun, not the viewers on the shore.

"Okay, hang up."

Lu Qingyan looked at the call that was cut off quickly, and at his extremely calm heart. When he returned to the room and saw the young man who had fallen asleep peacefully, he couldn't help cursing: "What an idiot."

Sheng Jingyan sat on the ridge of the field, thought over and over again Lu Qingyan's words, crushed them, put them together and swallowed them, and put together a blood-stained, brittle Luo Nian.

He raised his hand and slapped himself, abrupt and terrifying in the silent night.

During the five years since we broke up, if he ever asked someone to investigate Luo Nian, don't worry about his broken dignity, and don't let him bear so much alone.

Sheng Jingyan propped his head in his hands, regret almost drowning him.

With Luo Nian's temperament, how could he tell him that he was sick? He was afraid that it would be too late. He said that he broke up because he was afraid that he would see himself like that and hurt him.

Sheng Jingyan raised his head to force back the soreness in his eyes, and made another call. This time, the other party answered very quickly, probably still busy with those medical papers that he couldn't even read, and he was obviously retired.

"Call me so late, what's the matter?"

Sheng Jingyan said: "Grandpa, do you have Lu He's contact information if I ask you personally?"

"Have."

"Okay, you can send it to me."

"Why are you looking for him?" Professor Zhou knew his grandson too well, so he didn't have the slightest sense of integrity, so he probably had something wrong with his words.

"Ask about Luo Nian."

Professor Zhou got angry when he heard it, "Why ask him about it? My old man is so embarrassing that he insists on dropping out of school and going to Vanity Fair with you to fool around, don't ask!"

Sheng Jingyan: "Okay, don't ask, and don't let him call you grandpa in the future."

Professor Zhou was silent for a long time, "Are you serious?"

"if not?"

Professor Zhou was silent for a long time again, and said stiffly: "Do I care if he calls me grandpa! Little bastard is not up to snuff at all! It's all caused by you, don't think I didn't watch that variety show, it's immoral! You... Next Zhou brought him home for dinner, it's your grandma's birthday, and then I'll teach him a lesson!"

Sheng Jingyan was startled, and then smiled: "It's almost done, treat my wife better, and prepare a red envelope, a bigger one."

Professor Zhou hung up the phone directly, and after a few minutes, Lu He's WeChat business card was pushed over.

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