After three years of reconciliation, the emperor regretted

I cried and cried, got drunk, and the next day even with a splitting headache and swollen eyes, I still insisted on going to Shangshuge to sit in town.

"My lord, let's take a day off. The prime ministers are all dealing with the border war in Shangshu Pavilion. If it's not good enough, isn't there still the current emperor? It's just a day off, and he won't be on a business trip." Qingwu rubbed warm water on Chu Jingrong's face, His tone couldn't hide his distress.

As the emperor's teacher, Chu Jingrong's life has always been luxurious, although it is not extravagant, it is also meticulous and thoughtful.

After coming to the palace, it was okay at first, the young master didn't want to see the prince, and his life was still the same as before.

But in the few months before the prince left, they ate and slept together, facing each other day and night...

In just a few months, Qingwu watched his young master become more delicate at a speed visible to the naked eye. The prince protected him like an eyeball, and he was much more considerate than him as a slave.

He obviously has an incomparably noble status, and he has no experience in serving others before, so how can he be so considerate?

Maybe if you love someone deeply, you can really do that!

Qingwu sighed softly, it's fine now, it's inappropriate for him to serve him back.

"I still have to go." Chu Jingrong's voice was a little hoarse, which was the aftereffect of drunkenness.

Soldiers are fighting and killing outside, and there can be no mistakes in the supply of food and grass in the rear, and the transportation of weapons.

It's not that Chu Jingrong didn't believe in the abilities of the courtiers of the Great Zhou Kingdom, nor would he doubt Xiao Yiheng's concern for his younger brother, but if he didn't find something to do, life would be even more difficult.

It's not that he never thought of chasing directly to the border to see Xiao Yunyan.

But as far as the relationship between the two of them is currently difficult to break the ice, Xiao Yunyan doesn't even answer his letters, and even asks civil servants to write the battle reports, and doesn't leave him with a single thought. Will he really be happy to see him?

It is a big taboo for generals to lead troops to fight, and it is taboo to have turmoil in their mood. Chu Jingrong didn't want to add trouble to Xiao Yunyan.

Moreover, Chu Jingrong could vaguely feel that Xiao Yunyan went to the border this time with a heart of redemption.

The emperor could have ruled the Great Zhou for a hundred years and ensured the prosperity of the Great Zhou, but because of his proposal to marry him, Chu Jingrong spoke harshly, and since then broke off his friendship with the Xiao family.

Having lost a blessing, and coincided with the invasion of the enemy country, Xiao Yunyan went to the battlefield this time to make himself a new blessing.

Loyalty, benevolence, and responsibility are more important than life. Chu Jingrong came to this conclusion when he first saw Xiao Yunyan, so he focused on teaching him martial arts, art of war, loyalty to the emperor and patriotism.

But now, Chu Jingrong regretted it, he taught Xiao Yunyan so well, why did he teach Xiao Yunyan so well?

While Chu Jingrong was thinking wildly, Qingwu stood behind Chu Jingrong and put on a crown for his son.

Qingwu's attack was not light enough, and it hurt Chu Jingrong a bit, but he didn't say anything more, because Qingwu's serving method has not changed, it is him who has changed...

Did not listen to Qingwu's persuasion, Chu Jingrong still went to Shangshu Pavilion, but he wore a veil on his head, he didn't want his embarrassed appearance to fall into the eyes of others, especially Xiao Yiheng's.

Whenever a messenger returned to the palace from beyond the Great Wall, Chu Jingrong would ask him to take a letter back with him.

The content of the letter is not complicated, just a few words and a line of poetry.

"Acacia loves each other and knows when, at this time and night it's embarrassing."

"This feeling can be regarded as a memory, but it was already at a loss."

"Yu Shenyan is far away from the end of the world, and I believe in the pain of parting in the world."

According to different seasons, each letter will contain a flower, sometimes it is red bean, sometimes it is acacia, crabapple...

But after sending out letters one after another, they all disappeared in the end, and there was no news from them.

Is this the feeling of not being responded to?

Xiao Yunyan, is it because of the wrong things I have done to you that you have to take revenge one by one before you can be reconciled?

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Every winter, Chu Jingrong's body, which is afraid of the cold, is as cold as ice, but lying on the bed is like lying in a sarcophagus.

In the coming year, spring will return to the earth, and everything will recover. Seeing the twin swallows on Liangtou and the mandarin ducks playing in the water, I feel even more bitter.

Days passed day by day, and finally after two and a half years, Xia Jun surrendered and the border was stabilized.

When Chu Jingrong received the news, his heart was both joyful and sour, so complicated that he couldn't explain it clearly.

Now that the border is safe, the soldiers can return to the imperial court. The homing pigeons raised in the palace flew out, asking when the army will return?

Chu Jingrong waited anxiously for the reply.

A few days later, the carrier pigeon circled back and flew back, flapping its wings and landing on Chu Jingrong's shoulder.

He removed the bamboo tube from the pigeon's leg and hurriedly opened it to browse.

At first glance, it was Xiao Yunyan's handwriting, and Chu Jingrong was full of joy, but after scanning the contents of the letter at a glance, all that was left was sadness.

A few words: "Xia Jun is eyeing the tiger, I am willing to stick to the frontier, don't read it."

Xiao Yunyan didn't want to come back...

Even if he has withdrawn his troops with gold and won a complete victory, he would rather suffer and suffer in the bitter cold place outside the Great Wall than come back.

Just so cruel?Won't you even come back to see me?

Bei Teeth clenched her lower lip, Chu Jingrong's fingertips trembled slightly, wishing to tear the reply letter in front of her into pieces, after several attempts, she was finally unwilling.

"Xiao Yunyan, it's up to you whether you come back or not." After speaking, Chu Jingrong returned to Shangshu Pavilion with red eyes.

Every morning in the following days, the ministers seemed to be possessed by evil spirits, each of them was impassioned and eloquent, with only one purpose, to let Prince Xiang return to the court.

Xiao Yiheng took a look at Chu Jingrong who hadn't come to the morning court for a long time, and stood high in the hall when he came, and his heart was like a mirror, it must be the ghost of this person.

But on the one hand, he couldn't grasp the evidence, and on the other hand, he didn't want Yun Yan to suffer at the border, so he willingly became a puppet, let Chu Jingrong control him, and sent out the order one by one.

But each time, Xiao Yunyan could always find a reason to refuse, and in the end he simply delayed replying for ten days and a half months. The messengers ran back and forth between the imperial city and the yellow sand road outside the Great Wall for three consecutive months. The whole person was tortured physically and mentally exhausted and miserable. Word.

Every time Chu Jingrong heard those absurd reasons, his face turned blue with anger. He blocked Xiao Yunyan's retreat one by one, and it depended on what other reasons that person could make up and how long he could hold on.

I planned to spend it like this, but this time the messenger returned to the palace, and the message he brought was different from the past.

It's not about Xia Jun, it's not about the border, it's...

"Reporting to Your Majesty, the lord rescued a seriously injured woman outside the Great Wall. Now that the woman's injury has not recovered, the lord said that it is inconvenient to travel and travel."

After the voice fell, the court suddenly fell silent.

The ministers looked at each other, not knowing whether it was a good thing or a bad thing, so they could only cast their searching eyes on Chu Jingrong.

Hearing this, Chu Jingrong was at a loss for a moment, as if he couldn't believe what he heard, he asked in a daze, "What did you say?"

The messenger didn't think much about it, he just thought that Chu Jingrong simply didn't hear clearly, so he repeated: "It's inconvenient for the prince to go in and out with that woman at the moment..."

"Enough." In the middle of speaking, Chu Jingrong suddenly interrupted.

The messenger was so frightened that he fell to the ground, not knowing what he did wrong?He was clearly telling the truth, telling the truth.

Chu Jingrong came down from the high hall, wrapped in cold air, and stopped when passing by the messenger.

"My lord went in and out with that woman, what does that mean?"

"It's just that the woman is injured. There is no female doctor in the barracks, so I can only give her some wound medicine. The prince occasionally goes back to visit..."

"Occasionally? How often?"

"The villain stayed in the barracks for more than half a month, and the prince visited him once."

"How long have you been visiting?"

"There is a cup of tea."

"What did you say?"

"This... this...." The messenger was persecuted with cold sweat on his forehead. He didn't dare to breathe. He knocked his head on the ground and said as if dead: "The villain is outside the camp, and... doesn't know what is said inside. what."

Chu Jingrong was silent for a while, and suddenly stepped out of the hall. Although the morning court was not over yet, no one could stop the emperor's teacher from leaving.

The messenger felt that he had recovered his life, and collapsed on the ground in a state of exhaustion. He raised his sleeve robe and wiped the cold sweat from his forehead.

Qingwu originally locked the door behind his back and hid in his room, reading the new script that Big Brother Wang bought for him.

It stands to reason that at this time, the young master was still in the early morning, so he didn't hide under the quilt, but just sat at the table openly, licked his fingers, turned a page, and by the way, picked up a sweet fruit from the plate beside him and put it into his mouth.

The sudden sound of footsteps frightened Qingwu, he stood up abruptly, looked left and right, hurriedly stuffed the scriptures under the mattress, tidied himself up, opened the door and went out.

As a result, as soon as he raised his head, what caught his eyes was his young master leaning against the dead wisteria tree, holding a jar of spirits in his hand, opened it, raised his head and poured it into his mouth.

This frightened Qingwu quite a bit, he ran up to stop him, but was shocked by Chu Jingrong's low growl: "Go, leave me alone!"

In the past, when Chu Jingrong drank, he always drank with a wine glass, and no matter how bad he was, he would drink with a wine jug, but this time, he unscrewed the wine jar and poured it.

The spicy wine passed through his throat, causing Chu Jingrong to cough frequently, half of which flowed down his chin and into his neck, and wet the front of his clothes. A gust of wind made his teeth tremble slightly due to the cold.

"My lord, you can't drink this wine like this!"

Is there any news from the prince?Otherwise, the young master wouldn't start to give up on himself for no reason?

"Young master, is the prince...?"

"Don't mention him!"

Chu Jingrong's heart ached so badly that he didn't need alcohol to numb himself, he didn't know how to get over it?

With lowered eyes, covering the sadness in his eyes, Chu Jingrong didn't let Qingwu mention it, but he couldn't help mentioning it over and over again.

"Qingwu, Xiao Yunyan left a woman by his side..."

"Has he figured it out and wants to marry a wife and have children?"

"That's right, I'm a man, I'm getting older, and my temperament is not as gentle as a woman's. He was just new to me for a while, but now that the freshness has passed, let me ignore it, and turn to the gentle and gentle country who is full of money and money." , How normal!"

With a sneer on the corner of Chu Jingrong's mouth, he mocked himself in a nonchalant tone.

The next moment, the wine jar in his hand suddenly fell to the ground with a "bang", and Chu Jingrong clutched the skirt of his chest with one hand, his face was painful, and a stream of blood slowly spilled from the corner of his mouth.

Angry and anxious, but don't know how to resolve it?Forced himself to the point of vomiting blood.

"My lord!" Qingwu was so frightened that his heart was broken, he rushed forward and helped Chu Jingrong go back to the room to rest.

"My lord, don't worry, Qingwu will go to the palace to invite the imperial doctor, and he will come back as soon as he goes." Tucking the quilt up for Chu Jingrong, Qingwu wiped his tears and ran out in a hurry.

What a sin!

Wang Ye, come back quickly, you can ignore it now that you are far away at the border, and when you come back and see the young master like this, do you still have the heart?This is the person you put on top of your heart!

Chu Jingrong looked at the beams with empty eyes, and did not stop Qingwu's movement, but after Qingwu left, he struggled to get up from the bed, opened the door and went out, resolutely went to the palace.

There is only one way to get Xiao Yunyan back!

He didn't want to use this method because he knew that if he did this, he would definitely be made things difficult for him. He wanted to save his face.But right now...

He was afraid, afraid that Xiao Yunyan would have a long-term relationship with that woman, didn't he say that there is no repayment for saving his life, only a promise with his body?

Even if Xiao Yunyan wasn't tempted at first, if that woman treated Xiao Yunyan well in every possible way, just like Erlang once treated him...

Can Xiao Yunyan not soften his heart?

Chu Jingrong didn't know, and didn't dare to bet!

If he loses the bet, what should he do with himself?Watching Xiao Yunyan marry a wife and have children?Transfer all the goodness to him in the past to another person?

Chu Jingrong couldn't bear it, if there was a day, if there was a day...

His eyes became ruthless, and he committed suicide in front of Xiao Yunyan, making that person restless for the rest of his life, living in guilt and longing for him, and never wanting to spend the rest of his life with a woman, a deep love between husband and wife!