Tucao the Great

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"Zhuzi, speak out!" Dr. Ye suddenly scolded.

Granny... Scary... Scary...

I never thought these words would describe myself!I can't take it anymore, I can't take it anymore!His chest was so stuffy that it seemed like it was about to explode, he staggered on his feet, and almost fell to the ground.

"...You Ruo." Qin Shuang rushed out when he heard the movement, he wanted to reach out to help me, but I got up on the ground by myself, and said to him word by word: "Don't worry, I can bear it, I don't care!"

Qin Shuang gave me the bamboo hat, took the medicine in a hurry, and bid farewell to Doctor Ye.He originally wanted to buy a horse, but there were no horses on the street at the moment, so he made do with it and bought a donkey.By the way, I quickly bought two baskets of lotus root seeds and took me back.

I didn't say anything the whole way.

Sitting on the rickety cart, the palms of his hands were about to be pinched and bleed.

The child's words were magnified over and over again in my mind. I didn't expect that my current appearance was enough to scare people like this!What's even more sad is that this appearance will never get better for the rest of my life!Going out to be scary for the rest of my life!

I knew in my heart that it was wrong to be negative, but it was hard to control.So I resisted, resisted, not wanting to show a weak and vulnerable posture in front of a stranger like Qin Shuang.

That would definitely be laughed at by him.

As soon as the bamboo house arrived, before Qin Shuang could speak, I quickly jumped off the wooden cart.He said to him in a cannonball manner: "I will cook by myself tonight, so you don't need to send it! Don't worry, I can handle it myself. You can go to your business."

After finishing speaking, I ran into the kitchen as if fleeing.

Leaning behind the door calmed down a bit, we looked up at the kitchen.

The kitchen is built next to the bamboo house, and it is a separate cabin on the right side of the yard.Before leaving in the morning, Qin Shuang put the sporadic charcoal fire in the stove and cooked a pot of soup, which was already fragrant.

I didn't even look at it, and took a basket of taro from the table, planning to make this tonight.

The taro has already been peeled, which saves me a lot of trouble.

As long as I can cook a meal by myself, I'm still useful, I'm not useless.

I put the taro on the vegetable mound, picked up the kitchen knife and wanted to cut it into small pieces, but I was still too naive, the taro was round and rolled around, and it rolled to the side before I could cut it through.

Fortunately, the vegetable pier was big enough so that it would not fall to the ground and be covered with dust.

But even this is not allowed!How could I not even cut taro well?I'm not a cripple, not a cripple!

My eyes turned red looking at the taro, and I picked up the kitchen knife and cut it faster and faster. In the end, I cut it randomly.

"Why didn't you cooperate with me? Why didn't you cooperate?!" I was incoherent in a hurry, raised the kitchen knife and chopped wildly, and then I didn't know whether to chop taro or look at vegetable pier.

But even then, I wouldn't cut my own finger.

Because I have no hands anymore, no more! !

I became more and more unscrupulous, and almost destroyed the entire kitchen.

Every time I couldn't control my emotions, Qin Shuang appeared.

This time too.

He reached out to snatch the kitchen knife from me, but I turned my back and yelled at him: "Go away! I can do it myself!"

Qin Shuang was very helpless, but he did not approach me anymore, but stretched out his hand and said, "Give me the knife."

Why give?

I don't give it!

I turned around and continued chopping wildly at the vegetable pier, saying to myself while chopping: "I'm just cutting a vegetable... I can cut it well, I'm not a waste..."

"You Ruo! You!" Qin Shuang said countless similar lines in the past few days, so this time he had nothing to say, but rushed forward directly to snatch the kitchen knife from my hand.How could I let him take it away easily, impossible!

So I swung my backhand and cut his sleeve with a "chi".

He also cut the skin of his right hand.

Blood gushed out, and I was immediately stunned by the dazzling red.

Qin Shuang didn't care about herself, but took the opportunity to take the kitchen knife back from my hand and threw it out of the window with her backhand.

I glanced at him and was suddenly stimulated. I turned around and ran out of the kitchen quickly. Because I ran too fast, I accidentally kicked down the soup stove by my feet, and the soup spilled all over the floor.

Qin Shuang thought I was going to pick up a kitchen knife, so she hurriedly followed me.

In fact, he thought too much, and I was scared, but I was afraid of that sharp thing.It's the stuff that chopped off my hand, that's the stuff that took countless lives.

So I just ran back to the bamboo hut, ducked back into the corner, and clung to the chair.

Seeing the messy "negative points" and "negative points" painted with brushes all over the room, I instantly thought of my face that could never get better, buried my head deeply in my knees, and quietly borrowed my skirt to dry up my tears.

I don't know how long it took.

Suddenly someone asked: "You Ruo, you really don't need to take gossip and gossip to heart."

Oh, it's Qin Shuang.

Now only he can talk to me.

I was so stuffy and uncomfortable, I didn't raise my head, but said in a nasal voice: "...that kid said I look scary."

Qin Shuang was stunned for a moment, then said clearly, "Since it's a child's words, how can you take it seriously?"

"Tongyan Wuji. It's because I'm a child that I can't lie!"

Only one word hits the nail on the head, straight into the depths of my heart.

"You keep saying you don't care."

I sneered: "You really believe it?"

Qin Shuang stopped talking.

There was no movement in the house for a long time.

I thought he was gone, so I looked up, only to find that he was squatting on the ground, holding the potted plant in the corner.

That pot was filled with plants with negative points and broken branches.

"It's called the 'fire thistle tree', and it grows on the cliff. I accidentally saw this dying tree when I went up the mountain that day, so I brought it back."

I wiped the corners of my eyes, not knowing why Qin Shuang suddenly mentioned this.

"Its roots can promote blood circulation and stop bleeding, its leaves can remove dampness and wind, its flowers can clear the heart and moisten the lungs, and its fruits can calm the liver and improve eyesight. Even the whole tree can be made into a brush after drying. Broom. Even though it doesn't look good, it is the most useful." Qin Shuang said with downcast eyes, neither fast nor slow, and her tone was neither salty nor weak.

I followed his words and looked at the plant that I had ravaged so badly.In just a few days, the branches that were broken by me grew green leaves again, revealing vitality.

Qin Shuang pushed the fire thistle tree into the corner, didn't look at me, but said to me: "You Ruo, you are too attached to superficial things. Appearance is important to people, but compared to The human heart is far inferior. A person’s heart is ugly, no matter how beautiful he looks, he is also ugly. The world always pays attention to the surface, while ignoring the essence of things. Beauty or ugliness cannot be used to judge a person The inner standard. Just like this ugly tree, it is ugly, but it is very useful, full of vitality, tenacious, tenacious. What a tree can do...why can't you?!"

I stared blankly at the ground and listened to his slow lectures. In fact, I didn't feel uncomfortable anymore, but I still turned my head indifferently: "Such a simple truth, you don't need to say it!"

"Although the truth is simple, there are very few who can really remember it."

After Qin Shuang said this, she stepped away from me.So far, he has nothing more to say.

After a while, I was relieved.

I looked at the fire thistle tree in the corner, it was still ugly.

I went outside and found that Qin Shuang hadn't left, but was in the kitchen.

I walked over slowly, only to see clearly that he had picked up the scattered taro one by one, cleaned them and put them in the basket, and then re-hobbed them one by one.

It turned out that the taro would roll around in his hands.

It's just that whenever the taro rolls out of the knife edge, Qin Shuang will put down the knife, put the taro back to its original position, and then pick up the knife to cut it.Repeated over and over again, neither too fast nor too slow.

Qin Shuang knew I was coming, so she smiled and said, "You have to be patient when cooking. Although the speed is very slow, it's actually very easy to be careful. Well, in fact, going out to cook is the same as being a human being."

While speaking, he had already cut all the taro, even if I cut his right hand with a knife, his movements were very clean and neat.

I am ashamed of myself.

Either way.

"But I... still can't accept that I turned into such a ghost." I lowered my head, closed my eyes, and mumbled.

Qin Shuang was taken aback when she heard the words, then turned to look at me and asked, "Appearance? Or something else?"

The simple truth, I should understand after being instructed.Although I'm still obsessed with my appearance, maybe because of my state of mind, it's really not that hard to accept, at least I won't go crazy anymore.

but……

"I don't have arms, and I'll never... never see myself in full again!"

As soon as the words came out, it seemed as if the gag had been opened. I squatted on the ground instantly, with a sore nose, and wept loudly regardless of my image.yes!I care more about my arms than my looks.I want to be a complete person, not disabled!

God knows how many strange looks, ridicule, sympathy, dislike, disgust... I don't want to miss any of them!Just like when I first saw Qin Shuang, I didn't dare to linger on his broken arm, let alone imagine myself.What if, what if, even if I am not in this game, I still look like a ghost when I go back, what should I do, what should I do? !

I know that Qin Shuang is like me, but I am far from his heart.I am a layman, a layman!

Qin Shuang didn't answer me quickly this time, but put down the knife in his hand, turned around and left the kitchen.

As soon as he left, I cried even more fiercely. Now that no one is watching, I can cry freely.After crying, my heart will be much better, look at myself