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For Yan Ge, it is difficult to admit some things, but he has to admit it.

For example, what Jin Siyan just said, he loves to cry.

To be honest, Yan Ge didn't think he was a fragile person, but he really couldn't control his tear ducts.

He avoids conflicts with others, let alone quarrels, because crying during quarrels is really a shameful behavior.

Some say he has a cold personality.

There were also people who stabbed him in the back, saying that he had no capital, but he was aloof.

Yan Ge never took these comments to heart, and he didn't really care.

But there are some people who like to provoke indifference, and there are some people who are full of eccentricities, and they just like to watch the so-called Gaoling flower beg for mercy, with red eyes.

But no one has ever fulfilled his wish on Yan Ge.

The more they humiliated and ridiculed, the calmer Yan Ge became, because he knew that only silence is the highest form of contempt.

Money, power, and aloof contempt crushed his back, made him bow his head, and was stepped into the deepest abyss, but he never got his tears.

Yan Ge felt that this was the luckiest thing in his unfortunate life so far.

And this kind of luck was shattered time and time again in front of Jin Siyan.

It made him very uneasy.

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When he came out of the bar, the corners of Yan Ge's eyes were still red, and he was staring absently at the road in front of him, his eyes were always empty.

Jin Siyan locked the door, and when he turned his head, he saw this man standing in a daze, his thin and tall figure looked very lonely in the night.

Hesitantly weighing the car keys in his hand, Jin Siyan frowned slightly, "Are you okay? Can you drive?"

Yan Ge came back to his senses, his face was full of tiredness, and he reluctantly pulled the corners of his lips, "Yes." As he said that, he was about to reach out to pick up Jin Siyan's car keys.

Jin Siyan paused, stopped before him, and shook his head, "It's better to take a taxi, I don't think your current state is suitable for driving."

"It's okay." Yan Ge gritted his molars and insisted on his own opinion.

If he took a taxi, he would leave soon. He drove Jin Siyan back, so he could stay with him for a while, and when he returned the car later, he would have an excuse to meet him.

"...No." Jin Si hesitated for a moment, then put the key back in his pocket, turned and walked towards the side of the road, with a tone that could not be refuted, "I can't let you drive dangerously."

Yan Ge looked at his back, feeling shy in his heart, still sighed, and took a few steps forward to follow.

At 01:30 in the morning, the city almost fell into an indescribable silence, and there were few vehicles on the road, let alone taxis.

The two did not talk.Jin Siyan probably had something to do, so he kept looking down at his phone.

Yan Ge stood a little behind him, turned his head to look at the empty intersection, and there was no car coming with a green light.

He began to expect the taxi to arrive more slowly.

Suddenly remembered something, Yan Ge raised his eyes, and said slowly, "Your T-shirt is still with me, I will send it to you next time."

I spent the night at his house before, took away a piece of clothing from Jin Siyan, and never had a chance to return it.

"What T-shirt?" Jin Siyan asked.

"..." Yan Ge didn't expect that he didn't remember, "I heard that the white one was custom-made by some event organizer of yours."

"Oh, that." Jin Siyan lowered his head again, and said in a calm tone, "Leave it there, I don't wear it much anymore."

"……it is good."

After waiting for another 5 minutes, but still no car came, Jin Siyan finally raised his head from the phone and looked around in confusion.

"Why is there no car yet?" Jin Siyan glanced at the time, "It's only one o'clock."

Yan Ge was helpless: "It's almost two o'clock."

"Then it's not like there's no car at all." Jin Siyan clicked his tongue, "Could it be possible to go back again?"

"Let's go." Yan Ge answered in a low voice.

"Just walk?" Jin Siyan smiled, looking at him absurdly, "You like walking very much?"

Yan Ge shrugged and said nothing.

After staring at him for a while, Jin Siyan suddenly raised his hand and tugged at the hem of his clothes, "Are you cold?"

"……no."

As soon as the words fell, a gust of wind blew over, and Yan Ge shivered.

Changed his mouth, "It seems a bit."

"Well, I think so too." Jin Siyan agreed.

Time passed quickly, as if it was mid-autumn in just a few nights, I didn't look carefully before, but now that I've calmed down, I noticed that the leaves of the trees beside the road were gradually turning yellow, and they looked a little old under the dim street lights.

The weather is going to get cooler soon.

Yan Ge looked at a dead branch in front of him, sniffed, looked up at Jin Siyan's side face, and unconsciously licked his lips.

"Otherwise, drive back." He suggested again.

After staring at the intersection for a while, there was still no car coming, Jin Siyan seemed to compromise, "Let's go then, you'll catch a cold if you stand here any longer." Then, he took out the car key and handed it to him.

Yan Ge took the key, pursed the corner of his lower lip calmly, and suppressed the little thought in his heart that finally succeeded.

When getting into the car, Jin Siyan still didn't forget to tell him to drive slowly, anyway, he was not in a hurry to go home.

There were not many people in the suburbs at night, and it didn't take long for Yan Ge to deliver Jin Siyan to the door of his house, which was the house he took him back to after the barbecue last time.

Watching him open the door and get out of the car, Yan Ge did not drive away immediately, but waited quietly in the car until he saw Jin Siyan going upstairs, and after a while, he faintly saw the light in the living room.

Jin Siyan took off his coat, went to the balcony to smoke, and waved in his direction.

Yan Ge nodded slightly, and then turned the key.

Not long after the car drove out, Yan Ge took a look through the rearview mirror, and could barely see a shadow, lying carelessly on the edge of the balcony, the smoke between his fingers burning scarlet light, in the dark night that was too thick to melt It swayed a little.

Yan Ge suddenly remembered that he was the same way when he was sent back before, leaning against the white magnolia in front of his house to smoke, with no expression on his face, but it made people feel unexpectedly lost.

After returning home, as soon as he entered the door, there was a gust of air-conditioning, mixed with the smell of dust. Yan Ge silently regretted the moment in his heart, and sighed resignedly.

Washed up in a hurry, set the alarm clock, was about to rest, suddenly remembered the conversation tonight, Yan Ge paused, turned to the closet, picked up the clothes hanging inside, and found Jin Siyan's T on the far left shirt.

Thinking of the sentence he said at the time, "I'll put it in your place", Yan Ge hesitated for a moment, but reached out to take it off, and folded it neatly.

Going back to the bed, he lifted a corner of the pillow, and scribbled the thin clothes into it.

Looking at the clothes lying quietly on his bed, Yan Ge was absent-minded for a moment, his heart shook violently, then hurriedly put down the pillow, reached out and stuffed the corners of the white clothes that were exposed outside to hide them.

After taking a few deep breaths, he calmed down, lifted the quilt and got in.

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Unsurprisingly, that night, Yan Ge had the same dream again.

Only, this time not in a cramped bar bathroom,

It was on a big soft, warm and clean bed.

Jin Siyan moved very slowly, taking good care of his feelings, but at the most critical moment, he teased and tugged at his clothes with a slight pant in his voice.

"Why are you still wearing my clothes..." he asked.

The breath was so ambiguous and warm that it was close to the ear, Jin Siyan paused, as if waiting for his reaction, and then continued slowly,

"Do you like me that much?"