sanguine and depressive

On weekends and weekends, I flew to Shenzhen again. The number of flights in the past two years is more than the sum of more than ten years.This time, I didn't go to the flat floor of the old building, and the taxi drove to the outskirts with dense green forests. Cindy said that this is the best confinement center in Shenzhen, six figures for two months.

Take the elevator to the highest floor, and open the door through the corridor. The first thing you see is the hall, with a mouse-colored carpet and a leather sofa. There are two aunts who look like nurses, and a child's cry can be heard inside.Holding the red gift bag, my palms were sweating, I followed Cindy into it.

The curtains were opened as wide as possible to let the sunlight in.An aunt in overalls was holding a small bundle, humming softly.On the big bed next to me, my mother was lying there. We came, and her eyes fell on me.

I almost didn't recognize her.My mother is so haggard, as if she has aged ten years, without makeup, and her hair has turned yellow.She slept in the shadows, watching me quietly.

I was a little overwhelmed and shouted: "Mom." She looked away again, and after a few seconds, she said "um".

There were colorful gifts piled up on the ground, big and small, all of which seemed to be baby products, and there were also many diapers of various brands.I carried my share close to the small lump in my aunt's arms.

The aunt whispered, "I just fell asleep after feeding."

I looked closer, it was so red and small, I frowned and closed my eyes.I carefully put the red paper bag in my hand in an inconspicuous place in the gift pile. Cindy saw it and asked with a smile, "I bought it for my sister?" I nodded.

Mom asked: "What did you buy for her?" I replied: "A bracelet with red string. Did my sister get a name?"

"Not yet, I hired a master, and I'm going to calculate the birth date before choosing a name." Cindy said.

Auntie teased me: "You are her brother? Do you want to hug me?" I turned my head to look at the baby in the swaddle, and suddenly thought of two unrelated words, lightness.The soul of a little baby must be very light.

I was eager to try, when my mother suddenly said, her tone was a little tough: "Don't let him hug it, it's unhygienic."

Unhygienic.I immediately thought of words like dirty, like being shot by an arrow, and reflexively took a few steps back to look at Cindy.

The atmosphere suddenly became tense, all because of me. Cindy smiled and said, "You just came back from the airport, let's talk about it later."

That's it, I nodded indiscriminately, and retreated to her side.Mom told Cindy: "Take him to lunch."

Two aunts outside came in, one of them was carrying a tray, and the other came to help my mother up, set it on the table, and covered the meals on the tray one by one. Cindy winked at me and we exited the room.

In the elevator, Cindy said, "Let's go to the cafeteria downstairs to eat, and it tastes good."

I said "hmm", looking at the scenery outside the glass of the elevator, it was full of trees, and the whole confinement center seemed to grow in a jungle.

Cindy also turned around, and I saw her looking at me through the glass: "Your mother is not in a good condition after giving birth, her mood fluctuates a lot, and she cares about your sister...don't worry about it."

"I know that newborns have relatively poor resistance." I replied.

Cindy suddenly rubbed my hair vigorously: "Oh! You are really sensible, if only my brother is half as good as you!"

When we went to the cafeteria downstairs, Cindy, as if to brighten the atmosphere, started talking about her brother, saying that he was studying in elementary school in his hometown, his grades were a mess, and no one in the family could control him.

"He spoils him too much, he is lawless." Cindy said, "He has to buy things and things all day long, just a primary school student, and he has to compare himself with others, and his family doesn't care. He buys whatever he wants, really!"

She moved the ribs in front of me: "Eat, why do you only drink soup, it's delicious."

I took another sip of the soup and gave her a forced smile.I said, "Sister Cindy, why don't I go back to Shanghai in the afternoon, and I can go back by myself."

Cindy said: "Oh, let's go back now? Let's stay for a day, and you can hug your sister tomorrow."

I also thought that if I go back today, Cindy will still have to accompany me, and the journey will be tiring, so I should give up.

The people around were sitting and leaving, so I said abruptly, "My sister and I have the same birthday, what a coincidence."

"Oh my god! It's true!" Cindy said in surprise, "Then you can celebrate your birthday together in the future!"

I smiled at her again, bowed my head and pecked at the rice, suddenly missing Wei Chengyu very much.

I finally hugged my sister the next day.She is light and small, not too beautiful, but has the purity and weakness unique to newborns.I hugged her like I was hugging a handful of fragile glass.Suddenly there is a very clear awareness: this is my sister, maybe she needs my protection.

I was just about to return her to the aunt who took care of her, when my sister suddenly laughed.My aunt saw it and said: "Oh, she likes my brother, she smiled at him, right." I knew it was probably an unconscious smile, but I felt fond of him.

When I left, my mother was reprimanding the aunts who were in charge of taking care of the daily life, her words were slightly harsh, and her posture was superior.She reprimanded them for not caring for their younger sister, saying that everything should be disinfected in front of her, and that changing diapers should be more gentle.

"Do you understand it? Are you professional?" she said.After a while, he sank down and lay on the bed again. The snow-white bed seemed to be covered with a dark cloud. It was not the appearance, but the temperament.

I'm reviewing my homework on the plane home, and midterms are due on Monday. Cindy had nothing to do, so she picked two pages with her fingertips and asked curiously: "What is this, history?" For the exam, you only need to choose the one you are best at to take the exam.

Cindy learned more about the current college entrance examination model, and finally sighed: "Oh, I didn't study hard at that time, and I still regret it a little now. You must study hard."

Every birthday is before the final exam. This time the topic is not difficult, and I performed very normally.

On the weekend after the exam, I went to Nanjing according to the school's arrangement. On the bus, I sat with Ren Tianhao, who was about two in weight and size. Maybe the pressure in the third year of high school became heavier, and he became fat again.Because the landing ceremony was about to take place, everyone wore formal clothes that they had never worn before.The buttons of the suit are stretched tenaciously around his protruding belly, and I feel that if they are loosened, it will be a relief for both the person and the buttons.

Little: "[crying] [crying] [crying]"

Wcy: "What's the matter?"

really miss you.But I am not qualified to say that, I can only lie: "A little motion sickness."

Wcy: "Is it hard?"

Wcy: "Lu He is in the car? Take a motion sickness medicine?"

Wcy: "Are there any vacant seats in the front row? You sit in the front."

I am also a very despicable person, I am very happy that he cares about me so much.

Xiao Xiao: "Tolerable!"

After a few seconds, Wei Chengyu shared a message from the music software.

Wcy: "wcy invites you to listen to the song..."

Wcy: "Listen to some soothing songs."

I put on my headphones and the music started to play slowly.

【Whenigrowold...】

Wcy: "If you feel uncomfortable, close your eyes."

I rest my head against the glass window and see the ever-changing scenery outside.Sidewalks, buildings, pedestrians...then a red light, cars stop.

【The petals start to fall...】

In the still picture, the same bus is driving.

Xiao Xiao: "Look up! Look out the window!"

On the bus driving side by side, the person with his head bowed and his hands on his hands, with earphones in his ears, looked out the window in bewilderment.

So through the glass on both sides, Wei Chengyu and I met our eyes.I laughed first, he was taken aback for a moment and laughed too.

The author says:

Cen Xiao's mother has a little postpartum depression.When visiting Mao Maotou in real life, it is best to pay more attention to the mother who has just given birth, and you can also give them what they need.

This chapter is just right here, it’s a little less, and there are more chapters in the next two chapters. You should see two people together at the end of the month or early November!

ps. The song is "petals" by perse, and their Cantonese song is also very nice