sanguine and depressive

On the car going back, Wei Chengyu sighed: "Oh, it's inexplicably nineteen, and it's two!"

"Could you stop talking about the same thing as Ben Liu!" I said.

He turned his head and glanced at me at the red light, and raised his chin: "The rice cooked by Uncle Feng is delicious, he seems to have cooked it in the cafeteria when he was young."

I nod.After a while, he said again: "It's a pity that we are not a family, so we can't eat every day."

"Why not a family." I retorted, "You are Duoduo's elder brother."

"Ah...Of course it doesn't count." He smiled again and shook his head, "Every time I go, I'm just a guest. I go on the same day, and I have to leave on the same day. I go to have a meal every year on my birthday, and occasionally go during the Chinese New Year. It's not appropriate to go too much. .”

"Going to go, Uncle Feng has to cook and cook. To entertain guests, there must be hard dishes, right? Every time I spend a whole morning in the kitchen alone, especially in summer, I sweat profusely. Then I also eat when I eat. It’s just that my mother and I said something, and I’m going to leave after dinner.” He said for a long time, “Sometimes I feel that staying there is quite awkward, and it also increases his workload.”

"Don't say that." I loosened the seat belt and held the belt in my hand, which hurt my palm.I didn't think of suitable words of comfort for a long time, and finally said: "Duo Duo must like you very much."

"She's only a child, what does she know, whoever looks handsome likes someone, and it's understandable that she likes me that much." Wei Chengyu didn't think so.What a thick skin, Mingming Duoduo cried because of him today.

"You are not very big, you must be a child in your mother's eyes." I said, "If she hears what you said just now, she will definitely be sad. I think Uncle Feng is very nice, but he may not express it. He certainly does not." Would mind if you went."

"No no. He doesn't mind, it's different from whether I can." He replied, "But seeing my mother is happy now, I feel fortunate that they were divorced at the time. Who am I following? After work, Wei Xinkai and grandpa will take care of it more. If it’s not on my head, I don’t care about the money.”

"...Why do you call your father only by his first name, but your father's father is willing to call you grandpa?" I asked.

Wei Chengyu pointed the steering wheel twice with his finger: "That's not the same. When they were young, when they just got divorced, Wei Xinkai had to work, so he put me at my grandfather's house, so I lived in the compound for a while, and met Wang Dong. .Although Grandpa likes to take care of me, he really took me with him, and sometimes he was quite contradictory. What did Wei Xinkai do?"

"Land Rover is pretty easy to drive." I said.

He was startled and said, "Can this be the same?! I'm really weird too. As usual, I don't earn less. I'm still working all day, working, and trying to plan me when I'm free. I didn't realize it. The joy of being a rich man's son."

"How can an ordinary family drive now?" I said, "Contentment and happiness, don't be so hostile to your father... Your mother has also found her happiness. Maybe for your father, work is the Realizing his one, the top level of Maslow's pyramid, realizing self-worth..."

He held it back for a long time, and suddenly he thought about himself: "...Hey, do you think there are no bad people?" He said, "This person is also pretty good, with some merits, that person is also good, and the cat is pretty good." , the dog is fine, everything is fine, right?"

"There are degrees." I swallowed the last half of the sentence, but he quickly understood my subtext, and the corners of his mouth began to rise strangely, seeming very satisfied.

I turned my gaze out of the window, suddenly feeling a little uncomfortable.I thought of a dish I saw in cartoons when I was a child. The appearance was a hard rice crust, which was made into a ball, and it shattered when poured with hot soup, revealing the filling inside.Human beings are like a ball made of rice cracker, which is hard on the outside, and they seem to be unconcerned and unafraid, but in fact they are hollow inside.Wei Chengyu was also concerned and worried.Just don't say it before because no one can say it, but now I have it.

Maybe, just maybe, not only do I need his care, but he needs me to need his care.

After the three-day small holiday on New Year's Day, returning to school is the week of suspension of classes and exams.

After all, it's only a freshman year, and it's still winter vacation, so I don't need to think about internships for the time being. The other roommates will go home to celebrate the New Year after their exams.When squatting in the dormitory to pack my luggage, I realized that if I split the four years of college into eight parts, the first part would be over like this.It cannot be said that there is no progress, I am afraid that there is progress, but in high school, there are milestones such as understanding a new knowledge point today, dictating tomorrow, and having monthly exams next week, all of which have been eliminated by the university.

Looking back on this semester, I seem to only remember how many times I ate roast pork rice, how many times I went to study clubs, and how many times I slept with Wei Chengyu.I remember celebrating my birthday, I celebrated it, and he celebrated it. Obviously, I did not write less papers and homework, but I just felt that life seemed to be far away from studying.

Wei Chengyu has the most subjects for the face-to-face exam, and it will be another Wednesday after he finishes the exam.

I waited for him downstairs, and when he appeared from the crowd, he shared his shallow insights into the first semester of university while walking, and he said, "Hey, don't take me with you! I recited the formula to At three o'clock in the morning, I was stupid, when I just handed in the paper, I felt that my face was radiant, and I was not far from death..."

I punched him on the shoulder: "Don't say that word!"

After the exam, he was reincarnated like a filth, and he began to talk to me about what to bring when going out, saying: "Prepare clothes, documents, and the mood to travel!" But he didn't mention any specific travel items, as if he was trying his best to maintain A hazy mystery.I also felt a little insomnia looking forward to it like I participated in the first autumn outing in high school. That time I thought I could play with him, but this time it was just us.

On the day we left for Hokkaido, Uncle Wang sent us to the airport and told us, "Be careful, your dad said that if you have any problems, you should call Chen Minbo, and he will solve them."

Wei Chengyu said: "If there is any problem going out to play, let him not worry about it."

Uncle Wang let out an "ah", helpless, he wanted to stop talking, and shook his head with a smile: "Go, go."

Outside the glass of the terminal hall is a dry and cloudy day, and there is no snow in Shanghai this year.No snow is normal, only once many years ago, the snowflakes covered the entire playground evenly, and accumulated to the calves, I thought it was really a lot of snow.

The head teacher let us go down to watch the snow. I squatted on the ground trying to roll a snowball, but only halfway through the roll, the head teacher said from behind: "Okay, don't play anymore!" The clothes were covered with white flakes, which turned into water in the classroom, and everyone was wet.The head teacher regretted it: "I knew I wouldn't let you go down."

"There must be a lot of snow in Hokkaido." I said, "It should be possible to build a snowman, but I don't want to have a snowball fight." Are fairy tales written by people north of the Yangtze River? There must be snowmen in winter, and snowmen will rush into fires House heroically rescues his bunny friend, only to evaporate himself in the sunny light.But there are also many children living in the middle and lower reaches of the Yangtze River, and they are slowly wearing out like I am my age.

As if to fulfill what I said, the plane was delayed because of a blizzard in Sapporo.We took our luggage back from the checked place, looked at Wei Chengyu, and I said, "What should I do?" He comforted me with his mobile phone: "The local escort said that the snow has stopped, and the flight should resume at night."

Maybe thanks to Wei Chengyu's father, we became honorable VIPs. The waiting hall was separated from other ordinary passengers. After lunch, we sat together on the double sofa, and the TV was playing popcorn.Wei Chengyu had nothing to say, and wanted to play idiom Solitaire with me again, but his quality was not high, so he said at the beginning: "One is worth two." I didn't bother to respond.

After a while, he held my hand again, squeezed it left and right, very boring and never tired of it.It seems that every day passes like this, the two of them are not doing anything serious when they are together, there are a lot of petty actions, a lot of nonsense, and the deconstructed words can't get meaning.It also seems that being together is very fun, which is the meaning itself.

When I saw him in high school, his eyes were always full of filters, and all the emotions were floating on the clouds, but now they are slowly falling. I think he is a little annoying and annoying in a small part, but most of the time I still like him very much.Hope to be with him forever.

When it got dark, the flight resumed at 06:30, and we boarded the plane smoothly again, "This is my first time going abroad." I whispered, opened the passport, and looked at the first visa inside.Wei Chengyu couldn't believe it: "... Hasn't the school always had that kind of overseas exchange program? Haven't you ever gone out?"

"No." I said, "I seldom take the plane, and I have taken it many times in the past two years because I have to go to Shenzhen."

"Where are you planning to go during the summer vacation?" He said seriously, "Make up for everything in between."

After the plane stabilized, the stewardess served dinner, and many people fell asleep after eating. It is estimated that the landing will be close to 11 o'clock.Wei Chengyu was a little regretful again: "I had something planned for today, so I had to move it back." After a while, he took out the paper bag stuffed in the seat in front of him, and took a pencil to draw on it.I fell asleep unconsciously, resting my head on his shoulder.

When it was about to land, Wei Chengyu shook me awake.It was dark outside the window, and the plane slowly approached the land.Walk out of the airport and smell the fresh air after the snow.

He was waiting for us in the parking lot. He was a young man in his 30s. His hair was slightly curled and tied into a bun. His surname was Tan, so you can just call him Brother Tan.While driving, he asked, "Are you friends of Mr. Chen?"

"I guess." Wei Chengyu replied, "He comes here often?"

"Yes." Brother Tan replied, "I come here every year, a family of three, his daughter likes the hot springs in Hakone. I did it in Tokyo before, and I just moved to Hokkaido in the past two years..."

Snowflakes began to fall from the sky again, and the snow was white everywhere.At the beginning, the car was driving on the street, and the shops passing by were full of hiragana and Chinese characters, which were unfamiliar and familiar, and then drove on the road.

"It snowed heavily last night, so the plane was delayed. I went to change the snow tires this morning, you see." Brother Tang raised his chin, facing the slow-moving cars with red lights on all around, "these must be I didn’t change my snow tires, so I didn’t dare to go, and I drove so slowly. I didn’t change my tires in such heavy snow... Sigh, I’m not responsible for my life.”

The number of cars in front gradually decreased and became quieter. There were trees on both sides. Because of the darkness, I could only vaguely distinguish their shapes. I saw white snow packs piled up on the bare branches. I thought of "The End of the World and Grim Wonderland", Thinking of the end of the world in the book, winter seems to be endless. "As far as I can see, there is only a vast snow curtain that falls from the sky to the earth like a waterfall."

But at the moment the car is driving alone on the road, the road ahead seems endless, and behind the layers of trees, it seems that there will be a river winding to the depths, where unicorns live, and they will freeze in the wind.

The author says:

Cuisine is the Kaihua crispy rice of the Chinese small masters

The tear-jerking cartoon is "Snow Child"

The last paragraph is quoted from "The End of the World and Grim Wonderland" by Haruki Murakami

There is no airport in Otaru, so you can only start from Sapporo (I try to be more rigorous..)