sanguine and depressive

The car called by Fang Yichen arrived, and he scribbled goodbye to us on behalf of the two of them.

Wei Chengyu helped close the car door, and the taxi slowly merged into the traffic. The intersection not far away was already somewhat blocked, and the lights of each car turned on like red eyes.

I turned around, trying to pretend that Yan Baoting didn't say anything: "Let's go..."

"Don't you want to talk?" Wei Chengyu followed, shook my arm, "I want to know."

I immediately compromised, and said pick and choose: "It's nothing. It's just that I was a little uncomfortable when I first went to school, because the teaching mode is different from that in China... When I was in the second year, I met Yan Baoting... Read on After graduating from school, I went back to my country.”

From the very beginning of meeting, the two of us seemed to have tacitly kept silent about the past eight years.As far as I am concerned, on the one hand, I hope he can know all about it, knowing that I did not give up so easily, and I did my best, but it was just a trick of good luck; That's not necessary, after all, it's all in the past tense, and there's no need to re-graft the pain I've experienced onto him.

"Why do you want to go abroad?" He asked, "Is it arranged by the family?"

The matter was immediately traced back to the forefront, and it turned out that he didn't even know the reason for my going abroad.

I froze for a moment: "Then how did you know I was going abroad?"

"I didn't see anyone at the beginning of school. I ran to the Academic Affairs Office three times, and then I ran to ask your counselor what he knew." Wei Chengyu replied.

I:………………

I was speechless for a moment, bowed my head and smiled, and the emotions in it were so complicated that even I couldn't distinguish it myself.Walking all the way back, there are small shops on the right side of the street, and shared bicycles parked under the trees on the other side.It would never have been like this when I was still studying, there would only be trees on the street.

Passing by the milk tea shop, I saw a line of people. The one in front of the cash register was holding up his mobile phone to scan the QR code for the clerk to pay. Then he suddenly remembered that he lent ten banknotes with consecutive numbers when he was in high school.But after returning to China, I stuffed a lot of exchanged RMB in my wallet, and later found out that I couldn’t use any of them; I wanted to get a transportation card for the subway, but the staff said loudly through the glass, “Go and download Metropolis”, There are natural doubts mixed in the tone: Young people like you don't know?Standing at the same spot, I can suddenly understand how it is difficult for a prisoner to integrate into society after serving his sentence. He looks at the modern building with a blank look, because it was not like that ten years ago.Only then did I slowly realize that what I was familiar with was people, not cities.But familiar people have long been lost.

It would be cramped for two people to walk side by side on such a narrow sidewalk, but Wei Chengyu still insisted on following me closely, not even letting go of the hand holding my arm, half covered under the hem of my clothes blown away by the wind.In the past, I would be embarrassed, but now I don't care about other people's eyes at all.

He observed me looking towards the milk tea shop, probably thinking that I wanted to drink: "Drink? I'll go buy it."

I shook my head: "I don't drink anymore, I won't be able to sleep at night if I drink now."

Walking back to the entrance of the building, I found the car parked by the side of the road. I thought the conversation was over, but he asked hesitantly, "...you went back to China to look for me...and haven't found it yet?"

"Actually, I didn't look for it very seriously." I sat in the passenger seat, fastened my seat belt, and said as relaxed as possible, "After all, at that time... I don't think there will be a future."

I smiled at him and added: "But I met Wang Dong at the beginning of this year. He is working on a project now. I asked him to get your new number, but I didn't dare to call. I thought it might disturb you. You also Probably married."

His voice was very soft and he didn't look at me: "Why do you bother me?"

"Then who knows." I leaned my head against the car window and looked at the e-cigarette counter on the street. Lucy would go there to buy pods during her lunch break or after get off work. Now two clerks stand at the door to solicit business.I repeated and muttered: "After all, we really broke up at that time."

I haven't said it all the time. In fact, the reason I dare not look for it the most is the scarf—since I don't meet now, I don't need to meet again in the future.I read his subtext and thought he might really let it go.

Later, I imagined more than once that if he was really hotheaded and climbed that door, if Cen Zhiyong was not the vice president of Xin Rong, if we both had sources of income at that time-whether we satisfied one of them, there would be a different result.

It's a pity that there are not so many ifs, and later I want to hear news about him, but I am afraid that the news I hear is that he is already married. There is a secret expectation in the contradiction, and in reality, I am very busy at work, and one project after another , running around, unknowingly year after year just passed.

During the Chinese New Year last year, Cen Shu called me home, and my mother entrusted her to tell me that my parents are getting old, and my father will retire in a few years.Now they only hope that I can find my own happiness. It can be anything, girls or boys, as long as I like it.

This passage is a bit late, and I have already made up my mind to be alone forever.

He asked: "...Have you ever regretted it?"

"Regret what?"

"Break up."

"It's useless to regret it." I said lightly, "I can only convince myself that there is no fate." For me who is not yet 19 years old, there is only one solution, because the interests of the previous generation are involved, Neither can tell Wei Chengyu the real reason for breaking up, nor can he not break up.I still remember a few words between Chen Minbo and Uncle Wang, and I was indeed shaken by it.

Wei Chengyu didn't reply to what I said, and started the car silently, without further action for a long time.I straightened up and looked at him, patted his arm: "Forgot how to turn it on?"

"I feel bad. I didn't expect that there is a big place in the UK, and I can't find out about you. Now I know that you have returned to China at that time." He said.

"How did I know you were looking for me... I thought you had already started a new life." I turned the arrow to him, "I said so much, why didn't you say a word?"

"I was studying a few years ago." He said very sloppy. "When I was in my junior year, my grandfather passed away. In fact, at the beginning, I also thought that since it was over, I would start a new life."

My heart skipped a beat, I don't know whether it's sad or fortunate, as long as one of us succeeds, we won't have what we are today.

"But you can't forget it," he said. "You're unforgettable."

I kept throbbing in my heart, thought for a while, and just stretched out my arms towards him.

He asked, "What are you doing?" and quickly moved over.

"Didn't you say that you feel uncomfortable?" I hugged him and patted his back, "If you don't feel uncomfortable, just drive."

"It's still a little uncomfortable." He put his head on my shoulder and said in a low voice.I actually had the illusion that he was acting like a baby.

I said, "Then let me take two more shots. When Cen Shu was a child, it took about ten minutes to get it right."

"You perfunctory me with the way you deal with children?"

"Is it useless?"

He supported the seat behind me with his hands and raised his head, saying, "Then you are a little insincere."

I pretended to be stupid: "What do you mean?"

"Take the initiative." He gently pressed the tip of his nose against mine.

I raised my head slightly, and my lips touched his. At first, I just sucked my lips, and then he took the lead in sticking out the tip of his tongue and prying open my teeth.We had a deep, long kiss until he said, "This position is a bit uncomfortable, like doing a plank."

I teased him: "I'm old and my waist is bad."

He kissed the corner of my mouth again, sat back and said, "You know best if my waist is good."

"Really." I pretended to be calm, "I'll have to use it again to find out."

Temporarily hot-headed and confused, Wei Chengyu turned the steering wheel, and I followed him to the neighborhood where he lived.Similar to the house that Yan Baoting bought, they are all in the neighborhood of [-]s, with small size and convenient transportation.

"Did you buy it?" I asked casually.

While parking the car, he said, "The company gave it to me after ten years of service, and I will live in it first."

"High-end talent." I couldn't help teasing him, and followed him upstairs.Open the door to the living room, there are very few things, the only clutter is that there are two puppy toys thrown on the ground, there is an empty bowl in the corner, and two bags of unopened dog food are stacked next to it.But the all-important kennel was empty, and the whole room was silent.

I asked, "Where's the dog?"

"I haven't had time to pick it up yet." He said, "So you came to see the dog." It was indeed half the intention, so I was a little disappointed.

I showered with the laundry he provided, went to the bedroom to wait for the other one to do a little exercise and then sleep.

As far as I can see, there are still very few things placed outside. There is not even a lamp on the bedside table. There are only three photo frames of different sizes. The residents seem to be ready to pack their bags and run away at any time.

I sat on the edge of the bed, looked closer, and found that the two small ones were Polaroids, and one was the puppy whose name might be Xiaobai, sticking out its tongue at the camera.The other one is the familiar grassland and teaching building - it is the photo of each of us before graduation, and both of us are smiling very young.

I have lost this photo by accident for a long time, but I didn't expect his to be preserved until now.

Behind the two small ones is a slightly larger one, placed sideways in the frame.

I was a little dazed for a while, and picked it up to look at it.

It was I who was squatting on a piece of snow in a down jacket, grinning so hard that my teeth were showing, but my eyes were narrowed in curved arcs.Wearing dark gloves on his hands, he is holding a triangular snowball.

It is winter in Sapporo.

The author says:

It's late again (sweaty forehead

Explain that Wei Chengyu still doesn't know the interests of the previous generation. He still thinks that Cen Xiao wants to break up with him simply because his parents disagree.

Cen Xiao felt that she had met again. If Wei heard the truth, she would blame herself and be sad, so she didn't say it.

Wei Chengyu: Abandoned education, the best life is a spoiled man