sanguine and depressive

In early May, we officially embarked on a journey to the Northwest for filming.Time is tight, tasks are heavy, but most importantly, the journey is long.First take the plane to Caojiabao Airport in Xining. The camera crew, field manager, director and assistant director, we three producers, two actors, and Wei Chengyu and the others sent out five people, almost filling up the entire economy class.

I took the plane for three and a half hours, and then took the bus for another eight and a half hours. I saw cattle and sheep blowing in the wind, tunnels, and plains along the way.The green is decreasing, and the desert is gradually replacing it.

At first I was interested in looking at it, but later my butt hurt from sitting.The bus was very quiet, Wei Chengyu and I sat in the third row from the bottom, only heard the occasional snoring of the people in front of us while sleeping, and the light outside gradually dimmed.

I rested my head on Wei Chengyu's shoulder, and when I woke up, I was already in Delingha.Everyone was driven out of the car to have a light meal, and then they had to change to off-road vehicles and drive to no-man's land.

It was already 22 o'clock at night, but there were still many restaurants open in the square in the city center.I ran to a barbecue restaurant. The dishes were rough and large, which meant heroic. Lucy said while pouring milk tea: "Why do I feel so tired before doing anything? Is it because I'm old?"

Cookie asked her curiously: "Have you ever been so busy before?"

"Yes, Jessica and I, we took the four circles before..." Lucy turned to look at Jessica, "Which national road is it? I forgot."

"318." Jessica replied, "This time it's 315's turn."

Lucy nodded: "Also, Lino just joined WER not long ago, and he ran with me, near the China-Myanmar border... Hahaha, we almost confessed there with the client."

"What's going on?" Wei Chengyu asked.

I tried to hint at Lucy with my eyes, hoping that she would not describe it truthfully and embellish the facts a little.

"I was running on a high speed, suddenly!" She didn't even look at me, she made an unnecessary pause first, then put her hands together, "slapped", and said vividly, "It's a flat tire."

Cookie gasped: "Ah? How come?"

"The rented car has bad tires." Lucy was terrified. "Fortunately, the driver was an old driver. He was calm and didn't panic, and we didn't reach the highest speed, so we didn't overturn the car and barely stopped at the railing. If If you are unlucky, the car will definitely roll down, so we will meet again."

I:………………

"Oh my god." It was the first time Jessica heard about it, "It turned out that you were so thrilling that time, no wonder you didn't feel very excited when you came back."

"Yeah, I didn't dare to tell my dad, so of course I didn't tell you..." Lucy continued to ramble, "Wow, I really passed death by, my mind went blank and I didn't think about anything... ..."

I subconsciously went to see Wei Chengyu, but I couldn't read the expression on his face. I was glad that he didn't have a big reaction, but I was also a little disappointed that he didn't have a big reaction. Human nature is quite contradictory for a while.

After this simple meal, Lucy and I went to pick up the private guide. On the way, she was a little regretful: "What do I say to be so thrilling? I will have to take a car later." The guide is a man about 40 years old, a local, very simple, Mandarin is not standard, but still understandable, follow us to the parking place to meet other people.

As the night gradually cooled down, we each wrapped our thin coats and climbed into the car to prepare for departure.I sat in the same car with Wei Chengyu, Xiao Shunzhi and the guide.The guide drove, Xiao Shunzhi sat in the co-pilot, and the two of us squeezed in the back row.

The whole day was spent on the road, and everyone was extremely sleepy. After a while, Xiao Shunzhi was the first to fall asleep with his head leaning against the car window.In the dark, I quietly held Wei Chengyu's hand. He glanced at me and said "Go to sleep" with his lips.

After three o'clock, the convoy went to the gas station to refuel, and everyone got off.

A few men stood far away to smoke, and Lucy beckoned us to a nearby convenience store.I went in, first moved a few boxes of water, then took some dry food, and went back to distribute it to everyone.Surrounded by infinite desolation and loneliness, the gas station still emits a faint light, like the only lighthouse in the eternal darkness, and we are a group of floating survivors.

It's almost the coldest time of the day, with temperatures in the single digits.After all, we departed from Shanghai. Some people didn't have time to wear coats, and they still wear exaggerated short-sleeves.

Xiao Shunzhi stomped his neck and rubbed the palms of his hands: "Oh, I didn't expect it to be so cold."

Wei Chengyu came over, handed me a coat, and said in a commanding tone, "Put it on."

I shook his hand, and it wasn't too hot: "You wear one too, do you want some water? There are still biscuits there, I'll get them..."

Lucy suddenly said from the side: "Wow, look at the stars." Everyone around us raised their heads when they heard her words.

A dark sky full of stars.

After a quick glance, we finished the things that needed to be arranged, and we got in the car that had been refueled and set off again.It was past four o'clock when we arrived near the Mars base, and we couldn't sleep at the end of the drive. The road was very bumpy. We were the first car, and the cars behind followed our ruts. When we got off the car, we found that the rear of the car was covered with yellow sand.

After getting out of the car, Lucy began to inform everyone: "Treatment on the spot for an hour and a half--If you want water or dry food, ask me to get it--If you have nothing to do, you can sleep in the car--"

I walked to the front of the car and looked around.

We drove 88 kilometers and went deep into no man's land before we finally arrived.

Looking up, the sky is dark blue, the stars visible to the naked eye, the galaxy is bright, flickering, it turns out that the stars really blink.

It was too cold outside, with sand in the wind, most of the people slept in their cars, and the lights were dimmed, making the starry sky even more dazzling.I heard a voice from behind, Wei Chengyu brought two folding chairs from the trunk.So we walked a few steps forward, spread out our chairs and sat down.

"The sky is like a vault covering the four fields", I can finally understand this sentence.We sat side by side, the sky fell low, covering the seemingly boundless land, darkness came in all directions.Think of the hemispherical lid that always needs to be covered when heating things in the microwave oven at home, it covers the bowl well.The earth is also a bowl, we have no salty seasoning.

I was speechless for a moment, staring blankly at the sky, and suddenly had a longing for the galaxy, the sky, and the universe. It may be a primitive impulse, hidden in the blood of human beings for millions of years. Worship from the bottom of my heart.

Wei Chengyu said: "It turns out that there really is a starry sky. You can still vaguely see the Milky Way belt."

I zipped up the coat, put my hands in the pockets, but stretched my legs straight, touching his shoes with my own shoes in boredom.

"Human beings are so small." I could barely choke out a sentence for a long time, feeling that in the starry night, all the sadness and sorrow were deconstructed.

Sitting quietly for a few minutes, Wei Chengyu asked, "What were you thinking when the car lost control?"

His face was half hidden between the sky and the earth, his expression was not very real, and his voice was thin and melted into the Gobi Desert, so abrupt that we seemed to be the last pair of travelers on the earth.

I turned my head to look at him: "Do you want me to tell the truth?"

"Ah."

"I didn't think about anything."

In just a few seconds, it was lively and lively. First, there was a loud "bang" sound from the popcorn machine, and then the car seemed to be gliding. , at this time did not speak.

I touched the handle of the car door, I was restrained by the seat belt, and my mind went blank.By the time he reacted, the car had already touched the railing, and it was parked firmly at the edge of the abyss.But as long as it is moved out by half a meter, the people in the car will either die or be injured.

While waiting for rescue, Liang Ye made a phone call, with a combination of expression, tone and content, the object was his lover.He didn't say a word about the accident, but he was reluctant to hang up the phone. Lucy took out her mobile phone and sent a series of voice messages to her friends. She pressed her thumb and raised it many times, with a little cry: "My life almost stayed in the best years——"

I took out my phone and looked at the screen. It was 27:[-] in the afternoon. Today is Wednesday. Cen Shu must be in school, and there is nothing to fight.Then I briefly thought of people I hadn't seen for many years, and felt inexplicable regret.It's just that this kind of feeling is impossible to talk about, and I want to talk about it, and it's still chaotic.It will dissipate as soon as it is poured by the scorching sun.

"Okay." I said, "I actually thought of you, but only for a few seconds."

"Is it good?" he asked.

"That's right." I said.

The interaction between us paused for a few seconds, and I thought for a while and asked, "Have you read Haizi's poems?"

He looked dazed.

I tried to evoke his memory: "Facing the sea, the spring is warm and the flowers are blooming?"

He inadvertently showed modified doubts, paused and said to me: "Well, it seems a little familiar." His tone was very sure.

I was speechless: "He has a poem called "Tonight I'm in Delinha"."

"That fits the theme of tonight very well." He was flattering.

I nodded, turned the chair to him and said, "I'll recite a few sentences for you." I don't know much about it, I just remember the last two sentences.

"...Tonight I only have the beautiful Gobi, empty." I read, and he pretended to listen.

When I was about to say the next sentence, I had a whim, talked to myself, and made some not-so-smart changes.

I looked at him: "Brother, I don't care about humans tonight." I said, "I only want you."

Wei Chengyu's eyes fell back on me.He met my eyes, his expression was blank, how could this be.

I was about to stand up, put away my chair and go back to sleep for an hour.Just sitting up straight, I heard him say:

"I love you."

I jerked my head up.

"...I think it is very suitable to say now, is there a mistake?" He said, "...Maybe I want to tell you?"

He was tall and tall, and was so nervously restrained in a folding chair at the moment, seeing that I was silent, he asked, "Now tell me... are you late?"

I pretended to be calm, and my teeth almost bit my tongue: "...is it still on time? At least it's not too late."

He seemed to be unshackled, stood up, and walked over, I raised my head slightly to meet him.

Just a light but precious kiss, on a moonless night in the Gobi.

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