seasonal flu

Zheng Nanyu was depressed after hanging up the phone, although he tried his best to cover up, Qi Qi could still see the clues.But Qi Qi is not good at comforting people. He can clearly feel Zheng Nanyu's sadness, but he doesn't know whether he should ask. Maybe asking will not help people and will only increase troubles.For the person he likes, he is very afraid that if he accidentally does something wrong, he will lose his favor.

When Ke Ke came over to rub his pants, he also stood up and touched Zheng Nanyu's sleeve, asking him if he wanted a drink of water.

"A former colleague of mine died." Zheng Nanyu hugged him, "Tomorrow is his farewell party...can you go with me?"

"Okay, you, do you want to talk to me?" Zheng Nanyu said Qi Qi judged that he needed her, and hugged him tightly.

The funeral home is in the suburbs, a little far away, and it takes nearly two hours by car.People and cars kept coming in at the entrance of the funeral parlor. The people were dark, and the cars were also dark. The neighborhood was very desolate. There were only forest farms and a bus stop sign, and the surrounding area was very quiet.Zheng Nanyu was also dressed in black. He bought a wreath and a handful of white chrysanthemums. He asked for a white note to transcribe the elegiac couplet himself.The clerk said that someone would help carry the wreath over later, but he refused and moved over by himself.

Lao Qin obviously forgot about Qi Qi who met him a few months ago, nodded when he saw the person, and helped Zheng Nanyu carry the wreath over.The mourning hall had not yet officially opened, and people lined up with a white flower pinned to their chests, and many of them were Zheng Nan and his acquainted colleagues.Lao Qin said that the ceremony in the team had been held yesterday, so he came to see him today in casual clothes, and several colleagues were in the hospital and couldn't make it to the scene.

"I was shot in the smuggling case." Lao Qin didn't describe the details too much, and Zheng Nan and now have no right to know the details.Zheng Nanyu expressed his understanding and exchanged greetings with other colleagues. Qi Qi followed him and listened and pieced together a general outline of the dialogue police officer: He is a direct junior who is a few years younger than Zheng Nanyu, with excellent grades, especially in fighting. Since then, Zheng Nanyu has been in the band, and his straightforward personality is very popular with everyone.

When it was time for the mourning hall to open, mourners lined up to pay their respects one by one. Qi Qi saw that it was a very young face. The photo used for the portrait made him ugly, but he could still see the determined eyes of the young man.Everyone walked over to present a flower, and then said a few words to his family at the door.Standing at the door were Bai Chengwu's parents and his girlfriend. The girlfriend was holding his portrait and weeping. Facing the comfort of her boyfriend's relatives and friends, she could only nod with sobs.

Before walking out of the mourning hall, Qi Qi looked back at the photo of the boy, and felt that Zheng Nanyu could be seen in his eyes.

Qi Qi thought for a while, but he was still very afraid of Zheng Nanyu lying there. If one day, where would he stand to present flowers to the person he likes?It might as well be the happy drama of family reunion at the wedding.

After the condolences, there was a light rain, and it was indeed the rainy season.Because the ceremony is usually held very early, everyone did not have time to eat breakfast, and now they are buying food at the small shop in front of the funeral parlor, waiting for the rain to stop by the way.Qi Qi stood aside and drank soy milk, Zheng Nanyu was talking to another colleague, everyone present took some money, about 10 minutes later Zheng Nanyu came back and asked him if it was cold, he didn’t check the weather The forecast is not wearing too thin.Qi Qi shook his head, and handed the pancake to his mouth, Zheng Nanyu lowered his head slightly and took a bite of his hand, then hugged him and said back.

This is already the bus terminal, there are a few passengers here and there, the two are sitting in the penultimate row, Qi Qi is near the window, they are very close together.

"Sleepy?" Zheng Nanyu asked.

Qi Qi returned okay, Zheng Nanyu asked: "Then I can rely on you for a while?"

The rain stopped soon, but it just happened to get wet. Zheng Nan and Qi Qi's neck were a little itchy with wet hair, and there was no one around, so they held hands presumptuously.

Qi Qi asked: "Are you still going to work in the afternoon?"

Zheng Nanyu nodded: "Please take half a day off."

"Oh..." Qi Qi was pillowed on his right shoulder, so he stretched out his left hand awkwardly to touch his head, and said in a low voice, "Go to sleep, you, don't be too sad..."

"Fortunately, I have thought about it, but I didn't expect it to be so fast." Zheng Nanyu said, "If I hadn't been so impulsive at the time... If I hadn't been suspended, I should be the one who took the mission this time. Retire unscathed, but I have more experience than him." He blamed himself a little, Xiaobai was still so young... He even had the feeling that this child was sacrificed on his behalf.

Qi Qi was keenly aware that he was starting to blame himself again, so he said, "I don't blame you, this kind of thing happened... He must be ready to sacrifice at all times just like you."

Zheng Nan and his eyelashes trembled: "I know."

"Every time you think it's your fault, it's not. In fact, many things happen by chance. You don't have to blame yourself. It will be very painful." Qi Qi can't give examples from others, so he only talks about himself , "... I was really lucky to meet you in my third year of high school. I didn't know you...but after you feel like this, I..." He said incoherently, "If this memory becomes the reason for your sadness, Then I will also be sad, because this memory is very warm to me, and other people feel the same way?"

This is a butterfly effect. If Zheng Nanyu hadn't been suspended for acting without authorization, the handover of this operation would not be Bai Chengwu, and Bai Chengwu would not be sacrificed.But if everything went back a few months ago, then Qi Qi would not reunite with Zheng Nanyu at the class reunion, Zheng Nanyu would not agree to work in his bookstore, no hugs, no kisses, they just passed by like that pass.

Qi Qi was afraid that Zheng Nanyu would also regret the part of meeting him again, and secretly rejoiced in his heart that this was the case.

"Do you think you're lucky to have met me?"

Qi Qi nodded.

Zheng Nanyu touched the corner of his eyes: "I also feel very lucky to meet you...Qi Qi, you are very important to me." Zheng Nanyu didn't understand many truths, he knew how to enlighten himself.He participated in psychological counseling a lot, the first time he killed a criminal, the first time he lost a comrade in arms... He said the same thing in his own heart, his colleagues said it, his parents said it, and the psychological counselor said it.But there are some words that are only useful if Qi Qi says them.

After transferring to the transfer station, they leaned against each other and slept for a while. After getting off the bus, the sky was clear, and it was almost time for Zheng Nanyu to go to the afternoon shift after going back and forth like this.They got off the bus near the bookstore. At this time, the school was still in class and there was not much traffic. After the bus stop sign, Zheng Nanyu said that he wanted to kiss Qi Qi.

"Ah...someone still has it." Qi Qi was too embarrassed to do such a thing on the street.

"Then kiss quickly." Zheng Nanyu resumed his smile, "Kiss quickly, if I kiss, it will last more than a minute."

Qi Qi looked up at Zheng Nanyu, his eyes were still red, he had cried when leaning against him on the bus, some of his lower eyelashes were twisted into clusters by tears.Zheng Nanyu in his impression was stronger, that's why he took all the mistakes on himself and endured them silently.But in fact, Zheng Nanyu is very emotional. He will be moved to tears when he sees the reunion ending of a bad drama. He has cried more than once in front of him. The 19-year-old Zheng Nanyu will cry and repeatedly confirm with him that he does not hate him.

Have you ever cried like this in front of other people?Qi Qi thought curiously and jealously, he reached out to hold Zheng Nanyu's face, quickly pecked his lips, and then wiped away those few eyelashes.

The fragile Zheng Nanyu was still very handsome, he blinked and said, "I regretted it, what should I do?"

He still wanted to kiss for a minute, Qi Qi closed his eyes tightly, wondering if any passers-by saw it.

Zheng Nanhe's heart was at ease, and he said solemnly: "I will return to the original team, if I sacrifice..." He wanted to say "you must cry for me", but he thought Qi Qi would be so pitiful if he cried He would be reluctant, and changed his words, "You have to wait longer before loving others... I won't regret the sacrifice, but I will definitely avoid that kind of thing, because I don't want you to love others."

Qi Qi promised: "I will love you for a long time." He completely abandoned the plan B that empathizes with others, he is very unintelligent and very eccentric.

Two eggs

I'm sorry that I haven't been able to speak properly on social media recently due to psychological reasons, and I dare not read comments.I originally thought about putting it in the ending, but the editor advised me to post two chapters first, just to tell the readers about my situation.

Probably only one chapter is over, and I am not satisfied after changing it a few times, and the pressure is getting bigger and bigger. After finishing this book, I should stop writing for a while.You don't have to worry about abandoning the pit. When I was writing, I probably expected that I might not be able to write because of psychological reasons later. In order to avoid running away, I entered v, so I will finish writing no matter what.

There will still be no charge for the ending chapter, which can be regarded as making up for everyone's waiting time.