seasonal flu

Qi Qi was like a puppet who had to give orders to do things. Zheng Nanyu urged him to move his chopsticks, but he was still restless.The two of them ate quietly for only half a minute, and Zheng Nanyu felt the other party's eyes glance at him.He silently counted one, two, three, raised his head, and sure enough caught Qi Qi who hadn't had time to look back.

Before he said anything, Qi Qi apologized first.

"I'm sorry," Qi Qi lowered his head and stared at his face, and stirred the bowl with his chopsticks, "I heard...I'll eat faster."

Zheng Nanyu said: "You should eat slowly, it's hot. I didn't call behind your back, just say what I want to say, do you want to comfort me?"

"The last time I talked to Hanjiao, I listened... I'm afraid you won't think about it..."

"Qi Qi," Zheng Nanyu put a piece of beef into his bowl, "You have to look at me to comfort me, right? You lower your head, I thought you were talking about noodles."

As a last resort, Qi Qi raised his head. He really didn't like to meet people's eyes, and he would feel flustered when looking at people's eyes.But seeing Zheng Nanyu's relaxed and smiling expression, he was a little relieved.He wanted to say something, but probably all he thought of was chicken soup that he was ashamed to say, and he was very discouraged for a while.But Zheng Nanyu stared at him, he couldn't say nothing.

"Auntie, it's not good to do this..." Qi Qi buried her head in the bowl again, "Can you not look at me first, look at me, I can't tell."

"Okay, don't watch it. I eat noodles, and you too, talk while eating."

Qi Qi then picked up the chopsticks, not knowing whether to eat first or talk first, he couldn't do two things at the same time.He decided to speak first, but he still held his chopsticks to put on a show, raised his eyes to confirm that Zheng Nanyu really didn't look at him, and then boldly stared at the other party's hair and spoke. "Well, Auntie must have her own difficulties, but I don't know Auntie well either. I still... ah, I don't mean I know very well. I haven't seen you for a long time, but I, uh, in my third year of high school... got closer. Yes." He added a lot of restrictions and said very cautiously, "Compared to Auntie, I still know you better."

Qi Qi raised Zheng Nanyu's eyebrows when he saw Liu Haixia: "It's a recent relationship, Qi Qi, my mother and I didn't know you well in the third year of high school."

After being admitted, Qi Qi was a little happy. He dipped some soup with his chopsticks and put it in his mouth, the corners of his mouth twitched for a few seconds.

"Well... Auntie doesn't care enough for you. She doesn't understand your thoughts. You, sometimes you are too considerate of them, but they don't consider you... I think, don't you, you should let them know you What do you think?" He tentatively asked, "You actually have complaints, right?"

Zheng Nanyu raised his head. He hasn't cut his hair recently. His original cut was left to the extent that his bangs blocked his eyes. He lifted his bangs up to reveal his forehead, and said abruptly, "Should I cut my hair? It's too long."

"Ah?" Qi Qi was stunned for a moment, and then said seriously, "Longer, it looks better."

"Really? Then I'll just cut my bangs." After saying this, he said, "Of course I have complaints, but I have held them in for too long, and I don't know what to say."

"Haven't you talked to Hanjiao? Well, I mean, she also knows you better..."

Zheng Nan smiled wryly: "Let's talk about it, but she likes to be serious. If I say that I am miserable, she must find someone who is more miserable than me to prove that I am already very happy. This may be her comforting people." But I don’t really want to hear these things. I understand the truth. In fact, I also have a way to comfort myself. It’s just to pour out the bitterness... There must be this reason for our breakup. Sometimes I really just Just want someone to listen to it."

Qi Qi said anxiously: "I listen!"

"Won't you feel stressed if I talk too much?"

"I heard you will feel less stressed?" He is more concerned about this.

"Yes, I will become very relaxed..." Zheng Nanyu patted Qi Qi's head, "It's as comfortable as sleeping in the school playground."

Qi Qi is completely different from Weng Hanjiao, and there is no need to compare them, but in Zheng Nanyu's heart, these two people have a certain similar identity to him.He and Weng Hanjiao had a lot of exchanges. Before the relationship, they often chatted late at night to discuss topics, and the relationship was gradually closer.Weng Hanjiao has many interesting and pungent opinions, and they will argue for a long time about whether there is absolute fairness, whether the era of entertainment to death can be peaceful...no one can convince anyone.They fought each other through college and into work.At this time, Zheng Nanyu felt that he was still too masculine. Sometimes he really just wanted to sigh that the stars are very bright, and he didn’t want to discuss whether the stars that are light-years away have exploded and perished. Weng Hanjiao is very good, but the two get along It will be tiring to come down.

He talked about ideals, fairness, and justice for many years, but when he was tired, he also wanted to talk trash, he wanted to scold, fuck, why did bad luck happen to him, why did he lose his brother, Why didn't the parents look for it all the time and now they have to atone for those guilts on him, fuck, go find it yourself!At the darkest moment, he hated his younger brother. If Zheng Zhiheng hadn't been born, he wouldn't have been left indifferent for those six years.

Zheng Nanyu didn't dare to tell Weng Hanjiao these words, Weng Hanjiao would directly tell him that you are wrong and how you should adjust your mentality, but at night, he really just wanted to cut his heart open and let it dry, so he didn't have to bother with treatment, He wanted to prove that he had really suffered, that he was a normal, selfish person with a dark side.

In the nine years without communication, Zheng Nanyu remembered that Qi Qi only survived his most painful moments. At dawn, he forgot about Changming No. [-] Middle School and started again.

The playground of Changming No. [-] Middle School is huge, covered with fake turf and mixed with black plastic particles.High school boys don't mind being dirty, anyway, they are covered by school uniforms, so people can often be seen sitting and lying in the corner of the playground.When I was in the third year of high school, the school had extra classes until after six o'clock, but nobody controlled them. They would stay on the playground until seven o'clock, just chatting.

Looking back now, Zheng Nanyu at that time was somewhat arrogant and unrealistic. He had read a lot of books but hadn't practiced them yet, and expressed some immature opinions.Qi Qi's answers are always a few sentences, "It's great", "Awesome", "I think it will be realized"... But Zheng Nanyu doesn't think he is perfunctory, he listens carefully every time, and then responds to the question. He believed everything he said.

It's not that obedience is good, but Zheng Nan is not used to it, and he also wants to be affirmed by someone, and then relax and watch the sunset.

The sunset in high school is the most beautiful. He has fallen asleep on Qi Qi's lap many times. In the late spring and early summer, Qi Qi is always in a daze quietly when he opens his eyes, and the rose-colored clouds are reflected in his eyes, very bright.

Zheng Nanyu knows that this strange relationship between them can only be used as a memory, because of their respective social status and moral views, some friends are destined to only go for a while.He felt regretful that there would be no Qi Qi in the future, so he didn't even miss it. A piece of chewing gum would lose its flavor if chewed too many times.

On the way back, Zheng Nan and Qi Qi bought other food.

"You're not full, I know you don't like noodles."

Qi Qi waved his hand: "No, I think it's okay."

"Still like to eat junk food, right?" he asked.

Qi Qi nodded embarrassedly.

"I did it on purpose, I just wanted to eat noodles and didn't care about you." Zheng Nanyu stretched, "You have to tell me in the future, otherwise I will take you to eat noodles every day."

They said goodbye, but God sent Qi Qi to him. He decided to drag Qi Qi to go on the road no matter what he said. He wanted to keep Qi Qi as an important friend.

The author says:

2000 thanks?The writing is not good, and I went back to the pain when I wrote about my adopted son. I decided to call this my adopted son (?) Thanks to my care and support, Weibo will draw a lottery for everyone.