seasonal flu

Qi Qi naturally didn't stay overnight that night, no matter how much his aunt and grandma tried to persuade him, he always acted as if he was easy to talk to, but Zheng Nanyu had no choice but to call a car for him and send him down.

"Be careful and send me a message when you get home."

Qi Qi nodded and didn't say anything, the driver smiled and said that the two old men did the same thing, and the little girl only reported to each other when she came home at night.Zheng Nanyu immediately entered the identity of the police and told him that no matter men, women or children, they should be careful at night.

Before the car drove away, Qi Qi didn't say goodbye, but just waved. Zheng Nanyu felt that he might be angry.But Qi Qi is so good-tempered, it should still account for a large proportion of being sad.

What happened tonight was the direction that Zheng Nanyu didn't like, and he couldn't blame his mother. His mother talked about ordinary things, and she didn't know that it was so unfortunate. The ambiguity of constant reasoning and chaos.

Zheng Nanyu was lying on the bed, and all the memories related to Qi Qi were hung on the ceiling. The timeline was very chaotic, and he always found it hard to overthrow all the previous things when he looked back.At first he remembered that Qi Qi's mud couldn't support the wall, he was very powerless; then Qi Qi was a clingy follower, he was a little annoying; then Qi Qi was a poor victim, he felt guilty...they dated and were very close , but they simply separated when they graduated.

He wanted to use Qi Qi, who had no change in his feelings, to "find out" the reason for the separation, so he continued to let himself respond to tease this relationship and restore that atmosphere.Zheng Nanyu took advantage of Qi Qi's trust in him in a very selfish and hurtful way, who told him that no matter how much he went too far, Qi Qi would not "misunderstand" their relationship.

Zheng Nanyu took out the Polaroid in his wallet, it was obviously blank, but he saw an outline instead.

Another funny thing came to mind.

He had to run [-] in the physical examination for the college entrance examination, Qi Qi was not physically strong, and Zheng Nanyu forced him to practice laps in physical education class.When Qi Qi ran to the last lap, his eyes were staring and he didn't know where to look, so he stretched out his foot and tripped.Qi Qi didn't look at the road at all and was tripped, and he was afraid that he would really fall and catch him quickly.Qi Qi was stunned for a while, and said that the playground was really unfair, he couldn't help laughing and said that he tripped, Qi Qi was stupid and didn't get angry, so he just replied.

He never doubted that Zheng Nanyu did it on purpose.

Thinking of this made Zheng Nanyu realize that he was a very bad person in high school.

The phone turned on, and Qi Qi said that he was home, and by the way, he couldn't bear to eat those pastries.Zheng Nanyu agreed to let him go to bed early, but he couldn't close his eyes, so he went downstairs and wanted to go for a walk.

The old man was getting older and less sleepy, Zheng Nanyu went down and saw that grandma was still awake, and was wrapped in a blanket on the sofa to watch some replays of poetry conference programs.

"Grandma, are you still asleep?" He poured a cup of hot water and sat beside grandma.

Grandma is wearing reading glasses and her hair is all white. Zheng Nanhe has been busy with work since college and has little time to spend with the elderly. He couldn't accept the gap of changing jobs, but he was relieved to think that if something happened nearby, he would be able to come back. Some.

"You didn't sleep either, go to bed early or you won't grow taller." Grandma said.

Zheng Nanyu smiled: "Grandma, I am too old to be tall."

The grandma looked at him carefully and said, "Yes, he is already very tall, taller than your father and your grandpa." She touched her grandson's hand, "Are you still alone? Grandma doesn't rush you, even if I am too old I'm a little worried if I don't see you getting married before I leave. I'm not in a hurry to get married, as long as I have someone who is caring."

Zheng Nanyu hugged grandma: "You live a long life, there is no rush."

"Birth, old age, sickness and death are natural..." Grandma smiled kindly, "If you can't sleep, do you want to chat with grandma?"

"Ah."

Zheng Nanyu was brought up by his grandmother since he was a child, and he would always talk to his grandmother first if he had something difficult to say to his parents.So he anonymized the matter with Qi Qi, and narrated everything in detail, only saying that he was a friend he had made friends with in school.

He didn't expect his grandma to guess so vaguely, and asked him, "Is it Qi Qi?"

"How did you know that?"

"Grandma is not an idiot...you were such a close friend when you were in school, who else is there?" Grandma lowered her voice, "Do your parents know?"

"do not know."

Zheng Nanyu was guessed to be more relaxed, and he was surprised that grandma accepted the fact that he had been with a man so quickly. The old lady recalled and said to herself: "No wonder you love going to his house so much, anyway. I talked about him..." She looked up and asked, "Nan Yu, what do you think now? Do you like boys in the future?"

"No..." Facing the elder who loves him the most, Zheng Nanyu candidly confided his hesitation, "Actually, we were not really together in high school. Do you remember that incident? He was bullied... and he liked me too It must be related. Although I rejected him, as a friend, I hope he can get out of the shadows quickly, so I took the initiative to propose love. We actually... only held hands."

"I really hate myself... That is, when I first met Qi Qi, I didn't put him in the position of an equal friend. I always felt that I was here to help him and give him alms. Love is also the same. I don't love him and Sympathize with him... Qi Qi is not stupid, he knows everything in his heart." Zheng Nanyu said with some frustration, "A friend called me a hypocrite, and I think what he said is quite right. Everything has a purpose...like trying to gain fame?"

He looked depressed, and grandma asked him: "Did Qi Qi tell you that he hated you?"

"No, of course he doesn't..."

"Qi Qi doesn't even hate you, why do you hate yourself?" Grandma interrupted him, "Nan Yu, there is a saying that 'you don't care about your deeds', as long as what you do is good, what does it matter if your motives are not pure? ?There is no perfect person in the world, so don’t be too hard on yourself. If you love in your heart, but your actions are hurting others, then the loved one may not feel this heart. Qi Qi probably thinks so.”

Zheng Nanyu, who had read "Wailu Night Talk", still had some rebuttals, but he was relieved by the last sentence and nodded.The grandfather and grandson chatted for a long time. Zheng Nanyu actually wanted to ask about the current relationship with Qi Qi, but it was too late, and grandma had to rest.

Forget it, no matter how rich the elder’s experience is, he can’t give you the answer to every question, and he still has to solve some problems by himself.

At night, Zheng Nanyu dreamed that on the day when his mission had an accident, he fell down on the deserted road in the middle of the night, covering the wound on his lower abdomen with his hands.Fortunately, the other party has been taking drugs for a long time and is weak, so the knife was not inserted deep, otherwise he would really have his stomach ripped open.He was dragged by the car for a long distance, and his right shoulder was rubbed with blood on the asphalt road, and he was really in a mess.He was waiting for his teammates to call an ambulance. After waiting for a while, someone knelt beside him. He barely opened his eyes. It was Qi Qi.

He knew at once that this was a dream, and even knew that he was having this dream for the second time.The first time was before he was discharged from the hospital, he forgot it when he woke up, but remembered it in his dream tonight.

Even in the dream, Zheng Nanyu couldn't see Qi Qi so sad, he told Qi Qi to close his eyes, blood prickled, don't be scared.

Tonight's dream repeated, Qi Qi did not disappear after crying, he bent down and kissed himself.Zheng Nanyu thought that his mouth should be full of blood, but everything in the dream was absurd. The wounds on his body seemed to disappear at the moment of the kiss. He hugged Qi Qi, the scene was upside down, and he didn't know where he was.

Before going to work, Zheng Nanyou washed the sheets by hand in embarrassment, washed them again and stuffed them into the washing machine, and told the nanny that the soy milk had spilled.

Almost late, he was out of his mind all day.Zheng Nanyu never hides that he has strong desires, he is very energetic, it is normal to vent in the morning.But he never thought it would be because of Qi Qi, even...they just kissed in their dream, nothing else happened!

The desserts that Qi Qi chose were very suitable for Zheng Nanhe's appetite. When there was no warning, he would eat while wondering if he would send another message to thank them. It was rare for him to be embarrassed to speak.It's a pity that he didn't finish all the food. In the afternoon, he brought back a child who ran away from home, crying and fussing and refusing to tell where his home was. In order to coax him, Zheng Nanyu had to sacrifice his own snacks.

In the end, there was only a bunch of packages left. Fortunately, he took out a little before throwing it away, and there was actually a small ward inside, which said "Safe".Zheng Nanyu stared at it for a while, thinking that Qi Qi should keep it for himself alone, and it would be great if it was mixed in the snacks for others, so he put it in the left front breast pocket of his uniform.

After get off work, he waited for the bus as usual, and unexpectedly ran into Qi Qi. Zheng Nanyu was taken aback. After looking carefully, he found that the man was just like Qi Qi, taller and wearing a peaked cap.

The man dropped a wallet before getting into the car. Zheng Nanyu opened the wallet and checked it with relief. Fortunately, there was a student card in it, with personal information and contact information written on it.

Now college students are really forgetful, Zheng Nanyu thought, I don't know how Qi Qi was in college, he should be more careful.