desolate

In fact, everyone in this alley knew that the son Su Ya raised was not her own.

Not for anything else, just because Pei Ye never called Su Ya mother; also because Su Ya, who is only 35 years old this year, shouldn't have such an old son.

But why did the two become a family?

The reason is unknown.

Pei Ye has followed Su Ya since he was ten years old, and has been to several places since then. Pingjiang came in the first year of junior high school, and it has been almost four or five years since he met Su Ya, the late husband, before they settled down in this alley. .

Of course, at first others thought they were mother and son, but Su Ya never denied those eyes. Anyway, she only cared about how to live a happy life with her husband.But later, people could see Pei Ye huddled sleeping alone in the mahjong parlor every day. Coupled with some patchwork rumors, the relationship between mother and child was self-destructive.

——Although Su Ya still doesn't care.

The topic of people's next discussion gradually became some words of sympathy for Pei Ye.

... The child lives in the store every day, and the two adults in the family don't care about it, how pitiful!

The tone of the middle-aged women at the table discussing him still rings in my ears. .

Pei also turned over on the floor and found that the seat next to him was still vacant.

Zhou Ze was still on the balcony.

Look at the time, it's twelve midnight.

Pei also hesitated for a while, and finally reluctantly got up from the bed, then ran to the attic and stepped on the ladder.

"Hey, are you still asleep?" He stretched out half of his body.

The temperature at night can make people feel a bit cold. Zhou Ze stood by the balcony railing with his back to him, and the cold wind had been blowing for a long time.

Hearing Pei Ye's voice, Zhou Ze turned around: "Go to sleep first."

Pei didn't move either.

"not in a good mood?"

Zhou Ze lowered his head and didn't answer him.

Pei Ye climbed two more steps to the balcony.

"Why are you acting like a little girl..." He stretched out a plastic bag in front of Zhou Ze, "Sentimental."

"You're just a little girl."

Inside the plastic bag were the bottles of beer he picked up at the store and a pack of cigarettes, good medicine for the upset.

"Thank you." Zhou Ze took the bag, "Let's go together."

Pei also took the wine he handed over, and the aroma of malt loomed in the air.

Both of Zhou Ze's elbows were on the guardrail.

He stared at the lights in the distance, and said softly as if talking to himself: "Winter seems to be coming soon."

Pei also hummed.

The spring and autumn in Pingjiang are very short, it seems to pass in the blink of an eye.

If only he could blink and go straight to 30 too.

"What are you thinking?" Zhou Ze asked looking at his profile.

"I'm thinking..." Pei Ye raised his head and took a sip of wine, "Why does a certain young master stay awake in the middle of the night and stand on the roof blowing cold wind."

Zhou Ze was amused by him: "I didn't say that, why do you always call me Young Master?"

Pei Ye shook his head: "I'm not scolding you, I'm praising you." The young master is not necessarily the rich one, but the pampered one.

This is the first time Zhou Ze has heard of it.

"By the way, your mother..."

He suddenly remembered Su Ya in the opposite house.

Before leaving, Su Ya was woken up by their movement, and lost her temper at Pei Ye through the door.I have never seen such a shrew swearing at the street, and even Zhou Ze, who was standing outside the door at that time, was shocked.

"Don't worry about her." Pei said indifferently, "Besides, she's not my mother."

The beer accidentally spilled on the ground has dried up.

Pei Ye went on to say: "I grew up in an orphanage, and she was an employee there. Later, she found out that she was infertile. She was afraid that no one would give her a pension, so she adopted me."

To put it bluntly, for Su Ya, he is a tool for raising children and looking after the old.

Seeing that Zhou Ze didn't speak, Pei Ye smiled again and said, "How about it, do you feel better after hearing my story?"

Seeing this, Zhou Ze had no choice but to shake his head helplessly: "This is what I said...my happiness is not based on other people's pain."

"At least I can see that other than myself, there are other people who are having a miserable life, so I can feel more balanced in my heart." Pei didn't take it seriously, "Anyway, that's the kind of person I am, as long as I see other people's lives are uncomfortable, I feel happy. gone."

Zhou Ze didn't make a sound. He could understand what Pei Ye said, but he couldn't do the same.

The rough surface of the concrete guardrail left dense red marks on the skin. Pei also leaned against the guardrail, raised his head, and closed his eyes.He was listening, feeling, and thinking, but he didn't want to open his eyes to see.

"Can you accompany me to see a psychiatrist tomorrow?" Zhou Ze asked.

Pei Ye still maintained that movement, humming.

He didn't ask Zhou Ze why he went to see a psychiatrist, why he didn't tell himself, but just quietly accompanied him.

"Thank you today." Zhou Ze said holding an empty soda can.

"Do you really want to thank me? Treat me to a few more meals. Money is tight recently." Pei also stretched and leaned back on the railing again.

The alcohol seemed to have started to work, and Zhou Ze also lay down on the railing, and felt his cheeks become warm when the wind blew.

"Okay, but I don't have any money... My mother cut off my living expenses and wanted me to bow my head and apologize." Zhou Ze suddenly wanted to talk, and wanted to say a lot, "But I really don't know what I did wrong. What's the matter, I just don't want to go to No. [-] Middle School, and I don't think I have a mental problem, tell me, am I wrong?"

Zhou Ze's voice was muffled, and he buried his head in the crook of his arms, like an ostrich buried its head in the sand.

He remembered someone.

On that long, empty staircase, he and that person stood opposite each other at the corner. They had a few words, and then the other person suddenly approached him, but he dodged it.It seems that because of this action, a fierce dispute broke out between them.

Then, he pushed the person down.

"Hey, let's go."

Someone patted him on the back.

Interrupted during his trance, Zhou Ze erected every nerve as if he was facing an enemy.

Pei Ye was slightly taken aback by his dark eyes, as if he had discovered something, he immediately pulled away his comforting hand: "...the wine is finished, go down."

Zhou Ze licked his lips, his eyes stayed on his face, and after a while, he withdrew from the memories.

"There's only one quilt?"

Facing the only floor covering in the attic, Zhou Ze asked knowingly.

Pei Ye was extremely sleepy, yawned and said, "What else?"

Zhou Ze lifted a corner of the quilt and sat in. Before he lay down, he could smell the faint scent of soap from the quilt.

Not long after, there was already a gentle and even breathing sound beside him, as well as a body temperature close at hand.

He sat up softly, put on his coat and sat on the sofa in the corner.

……

In the morning, Pei was also woken up by the sound of the door opening outside.

It was rare for him to sleep so soundly, and his first reaction when he woke up was to lie back and sleep for a while.

It was Su Ya who knocked on the door. She went to bed early and woke up early. When she went downstairs to have breakfast, she found that her mahjong parlor was not open yet, so she thought that Pei was not there either.

"Little white-eyed wolf, I don't see anyone early in the morning, and I don't do business. One day my wings are stiff and I don't know where to fly..."

People who haven't seen Su Ya have already heard her cursing.

"Yes, I'm a white-eyed wolf. Don't you know how much money this store makes a day?" Pei Ye was woken up, and his temper was also very angry. Brother Hu asked me to help him, we both starved to death long ago!"

Su Ya's face turned red and then turned pale: "...What are you yelling at? I can't say no to you! I'm fine!"

Pei also smiled mockingly: "What's the matter? Are you going to hook up with another man? Look at you, how can you have time to open a store, why not sell it, and those people who save you will come and make trouble from time to time."

Maybe it was because she didn't want to really offend Mao Peiye, or because she was guilty of a guilty conscience, Su Ya's arrogance suddenly extinguished a lot: "Didn't you say that you are going to drop out of school? This location is still very good, and the business was good before..."

Pei Ye still stared at her with the same cold expression.

A woman in her thirties, no matter how beautiful she was when she was young, now there is only an empty head, and the remnants of beauty that have almost disappeared.

"Okay, okay, didn't I come today?" Su Ya was dissatisfied with being stared at by him with that kind of eyes, and left with an excuse, "I'll go to the opposite side to have breakfast first."

When Su Ya left, Pei also completely lifted up the half-drawn rolling door.

Rubbing his head and going back, he saw Zhou Ze who was woken up at the stairs.

Pei also stopped: "Are you awake?"

Holding the blanket in his arms, Zhou Ze glanced at the door, he heard the conversation just now: "Yes."

Pei also remembered seeing him huddled on the sofa in the middle of the night, and took the blanket from him a little helplessly: "Am I a bad sleeper? I would rather sleep on the sofa than feel uncomfortable?"

Zhou Ze followed behind him silently.

I have to say that it is really uncomfortable, especially the neck, which is so sore that I can't lift it.

But he likes men, and he is afraid that he will be unable to hide if he sleeps so close.

Pei Ye went back to the attic to clean up the floor, and then took Zhou Ze back to the opposite house to wash up. When the two went out again, they happened to meet Su Ya buried in the door of the mahjong parlor doing hygiene.

Her movements are nimble and diligent.

Pei Ye stood in the shadow and took a second look, then turned his head and walked in another direction.

Zhou Ze saw all this in his eyes.

"You don't really hate her that much, do you?"

Pei didn't answer this question either, not sure if it was a tacit consent.

Facing the rising sun, the two walked slowly and leisurely. The water on the ground was shining golden by the sun. Pei also squinted his eyes slightly and asked, "Are you hungry? I'll take you to eat the best duck blood here." fan."

"It's your treat?"

"Tsk... Didn't you agree that day, I will help you, and you take care of my food."

"But I always feel that you are cheating on me..."

"You don't recognize people when you wear pants?"

"...Go away!"

The two stood shoulder to shoulder, the thin but straight back unique to young people, just like this slowly disappearing in the traffic.

They kept silent, but they seemed to have exhausted everything.

The author says:

As for the original families of the two cubs, I believe you can see some clues (both are not healthy growth environments). This is also the original intention of this article.I sincerely hope that there will be fewer people who resonate, and it would be best if there is no one~