desolate

"What's wrong with you, have you been absent-minded since yesterday?"

In the car, Pei also noticed that Zhou Ze had been in a daze, which was a little different from ordinary fugue, as if he was worried about something.

He couldn't help but think of what Zhou Xuan said on the phone that day.

"It's okay." Zhou Ze came back to his senses, "Do you think the orange juice will blame me? I don't remember her..."

Pei also said, "how come, she likes you so much."

Zhou Ze frowned slightly, looking at himself reflected in the car window.The person you like so much forgets about yourself, it should be very sad, how can you be happy?

The heater in the car was turned on high, and it was uncomfortably stuffy.He habitually touched his pocket, only to realize that he didn't bring any medicine, and couldn't help feeling even more irritable.

At this time, suddenly a burst of cold air poured in.

Zhou Ze turned his head unexpectedly.

Pei also looked worried: "Uncomfortable? I'll be there soon."

It's amazing, this man seems to have installed a 360-degree non-dead angle monitor on his body, and can always find out anything wrong with him in every aspect.

But I don't know if it was the cause of the sudden onset, but his mood didn't get better because of it, but it became heavier.Before he returned to China, he never thought that he might become Pei Ye's burden.

Maybe it's because I'm afraid that one day this kind of care will polish the love between them, or maybe I'm worried that if I get used to being taken care of like this, it will be very unfair to the other party.

Pei has also grown up in these six years, but he has been standing still.

This emotion was not faintly controlled until he saw Cheng Zhizhi.

"elder brother!"

Cheng Zhizhi is more lively than before. He used to be a boring gourd, but now he is a chirping little sparrow.And when he saw her, Zhou Ze realized that the little girl would really change when she twitched. The elementary school student who was lying on the small table doing homework in the past went to high school in a blink of an eye, and only his eyebrows could vaguely see the shadow of the past.

Seeing her grabbing the back of the co-pilot's seat, Pei Ye quickly stopped him: "He's a little motion sick, don't make trouble with him."

Cheng Zhizhi sat back straight away: "Ah...I'm sorry...I have lemon candy here, do you want some?"

Zhou Ze took it over: "Thank you, I'm much better now."

Only then did Cheng Zhizhi heave a sigh of relief, but soon he secretly looked at him a little nervously.

He noticed the restless gaze and asked, "What's wrong?"

Cheng Zhizhi wanted to say that his face was a bit ugly, but when she saw the eyes in the rearview mirror, she shook her head immediately: "It's okay! Brother, how long are we still there?"

Pei also said: "It's just ahead, I'll get out of the car later to buy things."

Cheng Zhizhi muttered, "I come here twice a year, it's fine if I miss this year, why are you still here?"

Pei Ye said in a low tone: "He is not only your father, but also the son of your grandparents. You are here for them. Don't be so selfish."

This topic seemed to have been discussed between them many times, so that once it was mentioned, the atmosphere became stiff and subtle.

"……I know."

After Cheng Zhizhi finished speaking, he quickly opened the door and got out of the car.

Zhou Ze wanted to go out to get some air, and he was a little worried, so he got out of the car with her.

In the store by the roadside, Cheng Zhizhi squatted on the ground to pick up paper money and firecrackers, Zhou Ze took a few bottles of water from the shelf, and when he walked to her, he stopped reluctantly.

He said: "If you are not happy, I won't come next time, I will tell your brother."

Cheng Zhizhi had sorted out his mood a long time ago, and raised his face: "Well, I'm not unhappy, they're all dead, so I have nothing to worry about."

Zhou Ze said: "Then you still have a hard time with your brother."

Cheng Zhizhi retorted: "That's because he always annoys me, unlike when he was talking to you, he is not alone."

Zhou Ze added: "He just doesn't know how to control you."

Maybe others didn't notice it, but he knew very well that Pei Ye was a bit of an old lady.It was okay before, but maybe now that he is capable, he feels that he is half an elder and needs to control the younger generation, but he has never experienced getting along with real family members, so he doesn't know what method to use.

A brother made Pei Ye willing to take on this responsibility that did not belong to him. This was his softest point.

"He doesn't have any family members. If you count yourself as one, don't be as knowledgeable as him." Zhou Ze said.

"I know." Cheng Zhizhi suddenly stood up, "By the way, brother Zhou Ze, did you know that my brother bought a cemetery here?"

"Ok?"

Of course he didn't know.

Cheng Zhizhi only told him a gossip, so his tone was very relaxed: "In the first year when he went out to work, he bought a cemetery for himself just after earning some money, but don't all cemeteries have a limited number of years?" , Buy it and leave it alone, and you still have to pay, isn’t it worth it? You persuade him to see if he can return it? I’ll buy it for him after I make money, of course, I’ll take care of yours too!”

"You are so generous..."

Zhou Ze pressed his eyebrows helplessly.It always feels a little weird to chat outside the cemetery where I will be buried after my death.

Later, when they were visiting the tomb, Cheng Zhizhi secretly pointed out to him the cemetery that Pei Ye had bought. It was in a position that was neither high nor low, with willow branches hanging down beside it.

It is said that Pei chose the position because of the tree.

Zhou Ze looked to the side again, but coincidentally saw another tombstone not far away.

He held Pei Ye's finger casually: "...Where is Su Ya's tomb?"

The latter paused, with a slightly unnatural expression: "Why did you suddenly ask her?"

Zhou Ze said, "Since you're here, let's offer incense sticks to her too."

Pei also had no choice but to take him to see Su Ya's tomb.

For such a long time, this person has been like a forbidden word between them. Everyone keeps silent, but everyone knows that the fishbone stuck in the throat can't be seen, it doesn't mean it disappears, as long as it is still there, It will hurt one day.

Neither of them spoke as they walked up the steps.

The wind blows silently, and the leaves howl for the soul.

Su Ya's tomb is very new, unlike the surrounding tombs, there is not a single fake flower on it. After all, Pei will not come every year, only when he is with Cheng Zhizhi, he will burn some paper money for her along the way.

"sorry."

Zhou Ze squatted down in front of the tomb, and inserted the lit incense into the cracks in the bricks.

The photo on the tombstone is Su Ya's ID photo when she was young. She was well-dressed and even full of vigor, not at all the decayed appearance he saw last time.

Pei also squatted with him, patting his back lightly: "...it's not your fault."

It's not your fault, she ended up with the first dose of drugs.

Even though he said that, this person still honestly took a life on his shoulders and blamed himself for a long time.

Unsolvable question ah.

After sweeping the tomb, the two sent Cheng Zhizhi home, then turned around and rushed to the classmate reunion at noon. The meeting place was set at a restaurant near the hospital, and the leaders were several activists in the class back then.

Among them was monitor Qin Yan.

Not long ago, I had a quarrel at the other party's wedding, and I didn't expect to meet again so soon.

Even Pei Ye felt a little embarrassed.

Fortunately, he was not the only one who was embarrassed, Qin Yan immediately looked away when he saw him, after all, he did not expect that the person who was talking behind his back also came.

"It's been a few years since I graduated, so this is our first meeting, right? I didn't recognize many people just now! Let's just say who...Sun Tianwang! I just saw your big Mercedes from a long distance, so handsome!"

When everyone was almost there, Gu Xiaona, the representative of the Chinese class back then, stood up first to stir up the atmosphere, but unfortunately, the people who clicked were not enough to cheer, so she revealed it with a modest smile.As a result, some people thought he was pretending.

"Hey, Sun Tianwang, how much did you pay for that car?"

So he reported a number, which caused everyone to sigh.

The other party didn't seem to believe it, and asked him what he did for work.

Sun Tianwang said that he is starting a business, a technology company.Then I started to introduce the company's business. After talking for a long time, I finally got to the beginning-starting a business with little money.

Everyone can hear that it is fake to have no money, and it is true to live well.

So someone said sourly: "No wonder I was always No.1 in our class before, and I did so well even without taking the university entrance exam. Our book is a waste of time."

Someone on the other side yelled again: "That whoever dropped out of school has become a great artist now! People are more popular than people!"

The word "big artist" is too directional.

Everyone looked at Zhou Ze almost at the same time... and Pei Ye who was beside him, the relationship between the two was exposed in front of so many people for the first time.

Sun Tianwang also looked over.

Zhou Ze was not used to being watched by so many people, so his first reaction was to get close to Pei Ye to gain some sense of security.

Suddenly, Sun Tianwang asked abruptly: "I heard that the common problem of artists is that they have some psychological problems - out of ten artists, nine are crazy. Is it true?"

As soon as he took the lead, other people began to talk about it, and it seemed that this topic could be extended to a lot of discussable things.

Qin Yan echoed, "I think it might be true. How can you be an artist if you're not special?"

There were also people who took into account the presence of the person involved, so they played sloppy eyes: "It's not good to say that..."

Every time they said a word, Zhou Ze's brows frowned more and more, and finally he looked at Sun Tianwang who was the first to provoke.

"I really can't tell if I'm sick or not, but the person who forced his classmate to jump off the building... must be sick."

Speaking of this, everyone suddenly realized——

Oh, Sun Tianwang posted a post to spread rumors about his classmates back then!

twitter... twitter...

Endless.

In these voices, Sun Tianwang's expression gradually distorted, and finally he looked at Zhou Ze firmly: "...are you the one who reported me?"

Back then, he posted a post as a tourist in a black Internet cafe. At first, it was just to scare people. No one thought that the post would become popular and Li Pingan would jump off the building.So when things got serious, he was always terrified. He was afraid when he heard Li Ping'an's name. Until later, he heard that the police had closed the case because the victim did not cooperate with the investigation. So he thought he had escaped, and finally heaved a sigh of relief. Unexpectedly, after a while, someone suddenly reported him, and the police began to investigate endlessly again, and this time they really found out.

He was punished, expelled from school, unable to take the college entrance examination, and his whole life was ruined... And everything was because of this person.

Zhou Ze told him frankly: "It's me."

He will never forget Li Pingan's expression standing on the top of the building, because he empathizes with him.

Sun Tianwang slapped the table angrily, as if he was about to pounce on him in the next second.

Until he saw that Pei also stood up, as if if he moved again, this man could smash the wine bottle on his head.

At this time, Gu Xiaona, who was sitting next to Sun Tianwang, suddenly poured wine on him, her fingertips trembling slightly: "So you never felt that you were wrong, did you?"

Sun Tianwang wiped the alcohol off his face, and asked loudly: "Why do you say I was wrong!" He suddenly pointed at Zhou Ze, "Before he came, I was the best in class, the teacher's favorite, English I was supposed to have the quota in the competition, but he had good grades, so I let it go, okay! But why Li Pingan? I make up classes every holiday, just to get more places in the competition, so that I can transfer to No. [-] Middle School, go to The key class, let my parents win the air, so what's wrong with me!"

Zhou Ze was puzzled and said, "So you pay for your future with one life?"

"What are you pretending here? How good are you?" Sun Tianwang suddenly sneered and said, "How lucky you are, you can go abroad without the college entrance examination, and make money as an artist when you come back! Since you are so pitiful for Li Pingan, when you Just give up the place in the competition, I don’t have to do that? Anyway, you come to school to fight, skip class and fall in love? Then go and play easily, why are you robbing us of the opportunity—”

"what--"

Before he could finish his sentence, he was interrupted by Pei Ye's punch.

This fist hit the bridge of his nose fiercely, and the nosebleeds gushed out, which couldn't be stopped no matter what.

The bright red color stimulated Zhou Ze's nerves, he reacted slowly, and immediately pulled away the man who was about to punch Sun Tianwang with his fist.

"stop fighting……"

No one cares about him.

"Damn it, I told you not to fight!"

Zhou Ze turned around and threw the wine on the table to the ground, and more than 1000 yuan was lost just like that. The elder brother who brought the wine was so distressed that he was about to cry, but he couldn't bear to look at it.

The crystal liquid dripped from the corner of the wall and wet Pei Ye's pants.

"…let's go."

He finally came to his senses, stood up immediately, and planned to pull Zhou Ze away, but the other party nimbly avoided his hand.

Sun Tianwang was helped up and was sitting on the ground in a state of embarrassment.

Zhou Ze squatted in front of him, and suddenly handed him a piece of glass like a knife.The strength in his hand was not steady, and the glass shards accidentally scratched the skin.

Sun Tianwang looked at him like a monster.

Zhou Ze said: "Since you hate me so much, why don't you kill me?"

He didn't know how to end the hatred, he could only repay hatred with hatred.

So this time not only Sun Tianwang, everyone's eyes seemed to be looking at a monster.