Talking about love is worse than making money

I am dead.

I am alive again.

My mind is full of Gu Xu, am I Gu Xu?Look in the mirror, sorry, I am not, I am Mu Xingran.

A Mu Xingran who liked Gu Xu for nearly ten years but was hated by him.

Of course, I may be alive, or I may be in some underworld dream. After all, when I was willing to die in the sea of ​​fire, I seemed to see black and white impermanence, and the two of them said something in their mouths, "This man is reincarnated, give him a chance , and the Holy Mother will let him die", and then I woke up again.

Dying and coming back to life is not the most frightening thing. The most frightening thing is that when I woke up today, I found that I had slept with the man I couldn't love and hated me in my previous life.

Ah, no, in some poses and senses, this man put me to sleep.

I am puzzled, why?I was drunk, but what happened to Gu Xu?Is there no light at the scene of the crime, or is Chunchun suffering from kidney failure after drinking?

Didn't you say in your previous life that seeing me was enough?Now that everyone is asleep, they are still holding my hand tightly!

I thought he recognized the wrong person, but I heard him muttering in a low voice: "Xiao Xing, I was wrong..."

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Isn't that me.

Or am I being narcissistic again?

Anyway, I want to be quiet, I want to sneak my hands out of his hands, and find a piece of clothing to cover my body first.

But I can't.

In desperation, I lay there looking at the ceiling, and began to recall the scenes that had happened since I was reborn to the present.

Oh, no, I only found out yesterday that I was alive again.

The timeline goes back to yesterday.

At that time, I found that I was reborn by accident, mainly because I woke up that day, looked at the date, and suddenly found that I was back four years ago.

Feeling my right leg which is still aching from the plaster cast, I am sure that I have really been reborn.

I went back to four years ago, when I had just graduated from high school and hadn't got the results of the college entrance examination.

At that time, I thought, fortunately, the exam is over.

I still remember that after the last exam of the college entrance examination, I came out of the exam room for no reason and fell hard and fell down a very high staircase, so I still have a cast on my leg, which is very painful.

Of course, I was healthy and had no sequelae.

So... Damn it, I finally graduated from college before I died, and I have to do it all over again for another four years?

Before I had time to think about other things, I heard the noise of men and women downstairs, the deafening music, and I could even feel the floor shaking under my feet.

Looking at the date again, oh, it's Gu Xu's 20th birthday, so many people came to celebrate his birthday.

Except me.

I used to be terrified of what was going on downstairs now, of all the noises, of the crowds, of people looking at me and finding out that I was a... stammer.

Because Gu Xu hates me for showing cowardice in front of others, which makes him lose face.

I hate it even more when people know that I stutter. When I call him Gu Xu, he always keeps "Gu Gu Gu" because of his stuttering... His friends ridicule me as a pigeon, so Gu Xu refuses to let me appear in front of his friends .

But I really longed to be closer to him before, even if I was so scolded by him that I couldn't open my eyes, I simply didn't say a word, just pretended to be a mute and insisted on staying by his side.

Until now, apart from the Gu family, even many of my classmates think I am dumb.

Therefore, what I am most afraid of is not that there are too many people, but that I am afraid that there are too many people around Gu Xu, and he will ignore me.

A mute, always trying to find a sense of presence, no wonder he doesn't like me.

Of course Gu Xu doesn’t like me, it’s just my wishful thinking from the beginning to the end, including the fact that his engagement banquet caught fire before I died, I rushed into the fire to save him, and then I seemed to hear him say that even if he died, he didn’t want to be rescued by me .

My humble and clingy love, only death is his relief.

But I'm going to live again... Is it true that the performance of black and white impermanence has reached the standard, so let me go?

"Hey, what should I do?" I asked myself.

"Huh?" Then I realized that I hadn't stuttered just now.

I tried to continue talking, "Mu Xingran, live again, do you have anything to say? Do you think you are a villain who likes Gu Xu, or Gu Xu who doesn't like Mu Xingran? Damn, I really Stop stuttering?"

Looking at myself in the mirror, besides being very handsome, I was really surprised.

After being surprised, I calmed down a lot.

I decided to stay away from Gu Xu in this life, even though I never imagined that I would do what I most wanted to do but could not do in my previous life in a day, and sleep with Gu Xu.

Continuing to think back, for some special reasons, I have lived in Gu's house for ten years.

Oh, no, I'm reborn now, I'm 18 years old, so I've been living in Gu's house for six years.

Over the years in the Gu family, my affection for Gu Xu has grown day by day.

A long time makes love, the ancients do not deceive me, the meaning of the idiom is true.

Of course, what I'm talking about is that day is a unit of time, not a verb.