Abstinence is too tempting

Because he hung up on Shen Yanxi's phone call, Mu Xingyuan didn't sleep much all night, and fell asleep in a daze in the morning, and then dreamed that Shen Yanxi ran away with Shen Zeyan, and in the dream Shen Zeyan looked like a villain. The appearance made Mu Xingyuan's teeth itch with hatred, and Shen Yanxi, holding Shen Zeyan's arm affectionately, looked at Shen Zeyan with a doting face and smiled. The scene of the two staring at each other made Mu Xingyuan's eyes hurt, and his She reached out to grab Shen Yanxi, but when Shen Yanxi's gaze turned to him, it immediately became icy cold, and his hand froze in mid-air, not daring to move.

"Xiaoxi, don't leave, can I let you buy a house, you can do whatever you want, as long as you don't leave..." Mu Xingyuan was about to cry.

Shen Yanxi looked at him coldly, "It's not about the house anymore, you dare to hang up on me, I hate people who hang up in the middle of talking!"

"I'm not! I don't!" Mu Xingyuan panicked, and grabbed Shen Yanxi's arm recklessly, "I won't in the future, please, forgive me this time, I really won't hang up on you in the future Already!"

Shen Yanxi sneered, and ruthlessly shook off his hand, "It's too late."

Shen Zeyan looked at Mu Xingyuan gloatingly, with a winner's smile on the corner of his mouth, "Brother, let's go home."

"Okay, Ah Yan is the most obedient." Shen Yanxi touched Shen Zeyan's cheek, smiling softly.

Mu Xingyuan looked at the figures of the two people walking farther and farther, and wanted to catch up, but his feet seemed to be stuck in a quagmire, and he couldn't move. He was so anxious that he shouted loudly, "Xiaoxi, don't Walk!"

His voice woke him up directly, and he opened his eyes suddenly, staring at the ceiling in fear and panting heavily.He took out his mobile phone in a panic, turned out Shen Yanxi's number with trembling fingers and dialed it, but the mechanical girl reminded him that the other party's phone was turned off.

Mu Xingyuan's heart seemed to be thrown into the bottom of a cold lake, he dialed Shen Yanxi's number over and over without giving up, his fingertips felt cold.

Finally, the phone got through, and Shen Yanxi's calm voice came into Mu Xingyuan's ears through the receiver, and the restlessness and grievance in his heart turned into tears that poured into the quilt from his eye sockets.

"Talk." Shen Yanxi couldn't hear Mu Xingyuan's voice, thinking he was still arguing with her, "If you don't talk anymore, I'll hang up."

"Don't...Xiaoxi..." Mu Xingyuan opened his mouth, and the crying could not be suppressed.

Shen Yanxi froze for a moment, then asked uncertainly, "Are you crying?"

However, Mu Xingyuan seemed to have not heard what he asked, sobbing and said, "Xiaoxi, can you come back and accompany me? You can do whatever you want. I won't force you, and I won't hang up on you anymore. If you want to buy The house, whatever you want, you can just let me die...will you come back?"

That dream was too real, so real that Mu Xingyuan's heart ached and it was hard to breathe just thinking about it.

Shen Yanxi sensed something was wrong with him, and when Mu Xingyuan cried, he panicked, "What's wrong? You...don't cry first."

Mu Xingyuan didn't want to cry, but now he couldn't control the tears.

"What's the matter with you?" Shen Yanxi is not by his side now, she just wants to hug him and kiss him, even if she can't comfort him, she can only be anxious.

Mu Xingyuan calmed down, sniffed and said, "I dreamed that you and Shen Zeyan left, and you don't want me anymore."

"..." Shen Yanxi said helplessly and funny, "It's just a dream, not real."

"I know, but that dream was so real that it made me panic. Come back." Mu Xingyuan took out a tissue, wiped his eyes, and wiped away his tears.

Shen Yanxi hesitated, Mu Xingyuan's voice sounded pitiful and distressing, but when he thought of his purpose of coming here, he gritted his teeth and said cruelly, "I'm sorry, Ayuan, I can't go back yet."

"Why? I can give you how much money you need. If you don't want it, just treat it as a loan from me and just pay me back later!" Mu Xingyuan was a little anxious.

"Ayuan, there are some things that you may never understand if I don't say them, but if I say them, it may hurt you..." Shen Yanxi took a deep breath

In a calm tone, he quietly clenched his hand, "You decide whether you want to listen or not."

Mu Xingyuan felt very uncomfortable, and he was also afraid that what Shen Yanxi said would not be acceptable to him, but he also wanted to know more about him.

After struggling again and again, Mu Xingyuan tried his best to keep his voice steady and said, "Say it."

"Before I met you, I lived a few years of hard life with Yanyan. When my mother and the others left, they left me a bank card and my father's old house."

"I don't have much money in my bank card, and Yanyan's illness can't be stopped, so I won't go to school until the end of my sophomore year. The days without money made me panic. It was also at that moment that I deeply realized that, In my whole life, I can’t rely on anything except myself and money. At the most difficult time, I sold my house and worked three jobs a day, turning back and forth like a top every day. Sometimes I was too tired to walk after work, so I just sat On the side of the road, looking at those people driving luxury cars and going in and out of high-end clubs, I will feel unbalanced."

He breathed out slowly, and continued, "Until I met you, I never thought that you really liked me." He smiled self-deprecatingly, "You are the young master of a rich family, and I am just a The burden that people want is probably this face that makes you interested in me."

"To be honest, your appearance really helped me a lot, and it also made me feel the taste of love. But the more I do this, the more I am afraid. I am afraid that I will get deeper and deeper. If I leave one day, what should I do?" What to do? What to do if your family doesn’t agree with us being together.”

"Being with you in my current capacity, I don't have any confidence or sense of security. The inferiority complex engraved in my bones makes me feel that we are not from the same world, just like what you said back then. "

"Besides, I'm still a man."

Mu Xingyuan listened quietly, feeling a dull pain in his heart.

He has never heard Shen Yanxi tell him about the past, nor has he heard Shen Yanxi tell him so many thoughts in his heart.

"The environment we live in is different, and many ideas are different. You may think that it is best to give me everything and let me not worry about anything, but I may just want to achieve some results by myself, and I need Harvest something through my own labor to increase my sense of security, this is what I give to myself, and no one can replace it.”

Mu Xingyuan seemed to have a thorn stuck in his throat, and the question that had been bothering him finally had an answer.

In the past, Shen Yanxi had always had a lukewarm attitude towards him, and he was still wondering if he didn't do well enough, and even felt that Shen Yanxi had never liked him.

But now it seems that Shen Yanxi's self-esteem is at work. What happened to him has made him used to relying on himself more than relying on others.

His sense of security comes from no one but himself.

In other words, even if Mu Xingyuan abandoned him now, Shen Yanxi would be sad, but it didn't affect him to live his own life.

Mu Xingyuan twitched the corners of his mouth, wanted to laugh but couldn't.

How cruel.

"I see, you finish your work and come back early." Mu Xingyuan's voice was low and hoarse, and now he needs to digest what Shen Yanxi said.

He didn't blame Shen Yanxi for having such an idea, just like he said, they grew up in different environments, so he couldn't force Shen Yanxi to change his mind.

Shen Yanxi wanted him not to think about it, but after thinking about it, he felt that it was nonsense.

He had already talked to this point, and Mu Xingyuan didn't think about how it was possible.

"Okay, I'll try to go back as soon as possible." Shen Yanxi replied.

"Then... I'll hang up first, it's time to cook for those two brats."

"Yeah." Shen Yanxi felt a little depressed, hung up the phone in a hurry, and sat on the bed in a daze.

He thought, shouldn't these words be said at this time, the two of them had a little conflict, but now that they said it, the two of them seemed to be even more unhappy.

But before he had time to think about it, the phone remembered it again.

It was Shen Zeyan's call.

Shen Yanxi didn't want to answer it at first, but the phone rang again and again persistently, until he answered the phone.

"Ayan." Shen Yanxi still answered the phone, trying to restrain her voice and sound like nothing was wrong.

"Brother, are you and Mu Xingyuan together?" Shen Zeyan didn't ask him why he only answered his call now.

Shen Yanxi originally wanted to say that he was not there, but when the words came to his lips, he changed his words as if thinking of something, "I'm with him, what's wrong?"

Shen Zeyan chuckled, "My brother has learned to lie now."

"What do you mean?" Shen Yanxi faintly felt that Shen Zeyan wanted to do something to Mu Xingyuan while he was away, but how did he know that he was not with Mu Xingyuan.

"It's not very interesting, I just want to call my brother and say a few words." Shen Zeyan spoke casually, as if he really just wanted to talk to him.

Shen Yanxi didn't answer, but felt very uneasy.

"That's nothing, brother, you go first." Shen Zeyan didn't bother too much.

"Wait a minute!" Shen Yanxi called him before he hung up the phone.

"Is there anything else to do, brother?" Shen Zeyan asked obediently.

"Are you planning something to deal with Mu Xingyuan?" Shen Yanxi knew that he was asking a stupid question, but he still had some hope for Shen Zeyan, hoping that he could forget the past and live in peace Live your own life.

"So what, brother, you can't stop me." What he didn't expect was that Shen Zeyan admitted openly, "I have nothing to hide from you and me, no matter how much I hate you, I won't Hurt you. But Mu Xingyuan, as I said, I will not let him go."

"I'm sorry you are me! It has nothing to do with him!"

"I know it's you!" Shen Zeyan stared at the flashing red dot on the computer screen bitterly, and said sharply, "But I won't touch you, I will never let anyone who hurt me go, yours That share, hmph, let Mu Xingyuan repay it."