In a dream

The atmosphere in the car was almost freezing. Chen Liran sat on the co-pilot with her eyes closed and rested. She was her own daughter after all. She knew that no matter how gentle and easy-talking she was, she would sometimes lose her temper. What happened today was because she was wrong first. She knew this It's better not to talk at this time.

Xie Jingwan had a cold face. At nine o'clock in the night, there was no hindrance on the city's elevated highway. She drove all the way to the villa area without hindrance. She stopped the car more than ten meters away from the entrance of the community, and looked ahead with a blank expression. Said "Mom, you go back first, I still have things to deal with."

Chen Liran thought that at least Xie Jingwan would not go out again tonight. Even if she went out day and night and didn't return, she went to Mu Elegy's place. Then why did she go out when she met at the restaurant just now?At that time, the subtle feeling between Mu Elegy and Xie Jingwan made her have to ask "Where are you going?" Chen Liran unbuckled her seat belt, "Is Mu Elegy there?"

Xie Jingwan did not deny it, she was holding the steering wheel very hard, she waited for a while and saw that Chen Liran still had no intention of getting out of the car, then turned her head to face Chen Liran's cold face, "Mom, you go back first." Repeat this sentence again , Xie Jingwan's tone became more impatient.

"I asked where you were going?!" Chen Liran subconsciously raised her voice. Ever since Mu Elegy came back, Xie Jingwan's attitude towards herself has become more and more impatient and quarrels at every turn. I don't deny that going to Mu Elegy made Chen Liran worried and afraid. She was worried that Xie Jingwan and Mu Elegy would go too close and be bewitched by her would be detrimental to the company. She also feared that sooner or later Xie Jingwan would know what she had done. "Looking for Mu Elegy?"

Xie Jingwan took a look at Chen Liran, Chen Liran seldom blushes to her, and it is really rare to be in such a hasty state now, but now, her mind is full of Mu Elegy's sad face just now, so she doesn't want to see her, How about tonight?Turn your face away and look at the street lights outside the window, "Yes."

"Don't go."

"mom..."

"What's so close about you and Mu Elegy? Even if she came back from abroad after seeing you for ten years, you should have seen enough in the past six months. If you can't finish talking, you have to run to her every night? When you meet a blind date, it's like killing you, but when you meet that little bitch, you take the initiative."

Xie Jingwan was startled. She really always stayed at Mu Elegy's place, and she always went home first before going out to her. At first, she was a little worried about what Chen Liran would find out, but later she went out more often. Forget about it.Now that Chen Liran asked the question so abruptly, she couldn't answer for a while, so how could I tell her?Did she suspect something?

"I..." Xie Jingwan took a deep breath, "Anyway, you go back first, I have something to do."

Seeing Xie Jingwan's appearance that she had to leave tonight, Chen Liran became even more angry, turned around and broke Xie Jingwan's body, "Look at me, ah, tell me, what did Mu Elegy say to you to make you so angry?" Get close to her? I am your mother, why do you go to see her even if you disobey me?"

Xie Jingwan was forced to face Chen Liran. Seeing her ferocious expression, she slowly began to hesitate in her heart and wanted to tell Chen Liran the real relationship between her and Mu Elegy, "Mom! She is my sister! She is from the Xie family. One member, what happened to me getting close to her?"

"What kind of absurdity is this?! If she really thinks that she is from the Xie family, she will see me as if she didn't see me and not say hello? She is an adult, doesn't she even know this bit of politeness?" Thinking Mu Elegy always looked like her nostrils were facing the sky in front of her, and Chen Liran was furious.

Chen Liran's irritated emotions ignited Xie Jingwan's anger that had been suppressed all night. She broke free from Chen Liran's shackles and turned to face the front. The decibel suddenly increased: "That's because Mom, you haven't treated her well!"

"If you hadn't always beat her behind your father's back when you were young, if you hadn't worked so hard to get the company, she would never have gone abroad and would not have become what she is now!" Thinking of when Mu Elegy was often pinched by Chen Liran secretly when she was a child One piece of blue here, one piece of purple there, but smiling at her face, Xie Jingwan's heart throbbed.

"You...what are you talking about?" Chen Liran looked at Xie Jingwan's profile in disbelief. She didn't know that she knew everything she did. What did I tell you and what did you pour into you? You believe what she said so much, I am your mother!" While speaking, she grabbed Xie Jingwan's collar emotionally and pulled her to force her to face herself again. Knowing what her expression is like now, as long as it is about the Mu family's mother and daughter, she will not be able to treat it calmly.

"Enough! I saw it with my own eyes. I can see you pinching her behind your back and scolding her." Xie Jingwan reached out to hold Chen Liran's hand that was holding her collar, trying to make her relax. But it's just a waste of effort "Do you know how I feel when she is so small and full of bruises you pinched, and she still smiles at me with pain? I am her sister, half of my blood is the same as hers, You treat her like that, but I have to pretend that I didn’t see anything, and I can’t do anything, just because you are my mother...but I love her so much!!” A choked voice betrayed what Xie Jingwan wanted to hold back Calm, she can't think about the past. In the past, she was sorry for Mu Elegy, and she was the one who hurt her.

"Mom." Heartbroken, sooner or later, anyway, Xie Jingwan wiped the moisture from the corners of her eyes, took advantage of the moment when Chen Liran let go, and took off her seat belt "always I want to tell you one thing, your daughter doesn't love men. That's why I, Ning Yuan, use Li Guosen as a shield and I'm not willing to contact other men."

These words, like a thunder on the ground, made Chen Liran's trance spirit even more trance, don't you love men?what does that mean?

The words that were in her heart were finally uttered. Xie Jingwan didn't feel a little bit of relief. Instead, she felt heartache after seeing Chen Liran's stunned expression. She knew how hard it would be for her to come out of the closet without warning, but she No regrets, this is what she and Mu Elegy will have to face in the future.

Opening the car door, Xie Jingwan slowly moved out, stood at the car door and looked down at Chen Liran who was still in a petrified state, "Mom, you go back. I have to go out tonight."

"Mu Elegy!" Chen Liran suddenly yelled, Xie Jingwan bent her waist and lowered her head and asked, "What?"

"It's Mu Elegy, right?"

"It's Mu Elegy, right? She turned you into this, right?!" Chen Liran frantically threw off her seat belt, opened the car door tremblingly, got out of the car, and looked at Xie Jingwan across the car.

"Mom..." Xie Jingwan is unwilling to admit it, at least it's not the time yet, Mu Elegy just came back, even though she seems to have a big business now, she is still unwilling to take risks, she is afraid that Chen Liran will be angry do something irreversible. "It's not her." Xie Jingwan shook her head, "I was born like this."

"Lie!" Chen Liran always believed that it was Mu Elegy who brought her child into harm's way. Xie Jingwan used to be such a gentle and quiet girl, but now she has become so disobedient and dared to openly challenge her, all thanks to Mu By dirge! "It must be her, she is taking revenge on me, she wants to destroy you and me!!"

Chen Liran yelled a little hysterically. Several people who came in and out at night at the entrance of the community stopped and looked this way. Xie Jingwan looked at the crowd gathered not far away, walked to the opposite side of the car and helped Chen Liran get into the car, "We Go back and talk."

Although she was exasperated, she was born in a wealthy family after all, so Chen Liran naturally understood what it means to not show family ugliness, so she obediently got into the car.

"Mom, I don't want to lie to you." After entering the room, Xie Jingwan signaled the nanny to go to bed and drag Chen Liran upstairs into her room. "I like girls."

During the short drive home from outside, Chen Liran calmed down a lot. She was no longer blindly angry, but she still couldn't believe that her daughter was gay. "Jing Wan..." Chen Liran's eyes were red and trembling He started to touch Xie Jingwan's face, "Do you know what you're talking about? Don't scare mom, I can't believe it."

"Mom..." Facing Chen Liran's attitude that suddenly softened, Xie Jingwan was even more at a loss. She hugged Chen Liran fiercely and burst into tears, "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, but it's true, I didn't How to fall in love with a man..." I can't love anyone except Mu Elegy...

"This is wrong, Jingwan, this is wrong. You are wrong, do you know what others will think of you and the old Xie's family?" Chen Liran patted Xie Jingwan's back lightly, she tried her best to Let yourself be gentle, even though she doesn't know what to do now and her heart is fluttering.

"Who I love and what kind of person I love is my own business. I don't care what others think of me. I only care about you, Mom. In this world, you are the only one I worry about the most." Xie Jingwan went Backing away, looking at Chen Liran's worried and sad face, she believed that she already understood that she didn't just say casually, "I don't care if the whole world opposes me, I only want your blessing, mom..."

"No," Chen Liran shook her head, "No, I won't bless you, it's wrong."

Looking at Xie Jingwan's red eyes, Chen Liran felt a sudden pain in her heart. How could her daughter be gay?She doesn't believe it, she doesn't believe it! ! "It's getting late, you should go to bed early, we'll talk about these things later."

"Mom!" Seeing that Chen Liran was about to leave, Xie Jingwan had no choice but to call her back, "Mom, I love women, and this cannot change with time. It is the same today, and it will be the same in the future!" Xie Jingwan closed her eyes No matter what, she couldn't let Chen Liran face this problem in an evasive manner.

"Okay!" Chen Liran suddenly shouted, "I am your mother. I know what kind of person you are. If I say you are not you, you are not!" After finishing speaking, she turned and walked towards the door, holding the door and said fiercely "I'll hire you the best psychiatrist... Xie's boss is definitely not a disgusting homosexual!"

"Mom!!!" Seeing the door opened and closed by Chen Liran, Xie Jingwan yelled and then retreated a few steps and sat down on the big soft bed, "I just fell in love with a woman..." Looking at On the head of the bed that year, Mu Elegy took the picture of herself by the lotus pond holding a mint grass and handing it to Mu Elegy with a smile. She wiped the tears that fell to the corners of her lips, and she said to herself, "I didn't do anything wrong. What..."

The author has something to say: Many times when I write, I feel that this place is not good, and there is not good there, so I don't want to write. . . .well. . . .persist in. . . .