After wearing the spare tire, I was with Bai Yueguang

The author has something to say: Warning in the front row: The extra chapter of this chapter is the story of "Goose Returning to Autumn" and Qin Xiangxi in the original plot. Although the title is Qin Xiangxi, it is mainly to give everyone a warning to avoid lightning. Autumn is the main perspective (it has nothing to do with the content of the main text, it can be viewed as a parallel world), if you don’t want to read it, you can skip this chapter directly~

There is also the last chapter below, which is the story of the main cp.

01.

Yan Guiqiu had just finished a meeting at the company when he received the news of Qin Xiangxi's death.

Before the door of the conference room came out, a call came from the police. After hearing a few words, Yan Guiqiu's face turned pale.

It was the first time for the employees of the company to see Mr. Yan in such a gaffe. They stepped on high-heeled shoes and ran all the way outside. They almost sprained their feet halfway. They simply took off their shoes and pressed the elevator button heavily.

The elevator went up quickly, but her eyes were still dark for a while, and her mind was blank.

It wasn't until the people in the elevator looked at her in panic and called out "Boss Yan" tremblingly that she regained her senses a little bit, took out her mobile phone and called her assistant to prepare the car immediately.

When she put down the phone, her hands trembled so much that she could barely hold it.

What people around her said, she didn't hear a word, only the words of the police repeated in her mind——

Qin Xiangxi committed suicide by jumping off the building and died.

She expected more than ever that she was in a dream, but she still instinctively rushed over as soon as she heard the news.

Even so, she was still one step too late.

There was only a piece of blood left under the high-rise building, and the surrounding cordon had not yet been lifted. The blood on the ground was being cleaned up, and there were people on both sides watching the excitement.

Some people shook their heads and said it was a pity, some frowned and said it was bad luck, and some employees in work clothes with work badges complained in a low voice that they had no grievances, why did they insist on jumping off their stairs...

The young girl sitting on the side of the road in an ill-fitting coat was trembling with a cup in her hand. The policewoman next to her was comforting her in a low voice while asking her about her situation tactfully.

This girl is the eyewitness. She and Tan Xiangxi are strangers to each other. She is an intern who just entered a company in this building. She came early in the morning to prepare for the company meeting. There was a "boom" not far away, and someone fell down.

The person who fell from the building died on the spot, and the death was tragic. The young girl faced all this at close range, with blood almost splashing on her face, and she was terrified.

Fortunately, she walked a few steps faster, and the person who fell from the building didn't happen to hit her on the head.

The police arrived immediately and found the belongings of the person who fell from the building on the top floor, including personal documents in the bag. In addition, the monitoring everywhere was in normal operation, showing that the young woman named Qin Xiangxi was wandering around in a trance for a while. , walked up to the top floor of the company by himself, put down his bag, took off his shoes, and then jumped off the tall building.

There was no need for a doctor to do a special examination, and the strong smell of alcohol on her body could not be covered up by the strong smell of blood.

According to the records in the police files, Qin Xiangxi's parents committed suicide not long ago due to bankruptcy, and their relatives have not had much contact with each other. Only her ex-husband Jiang Xueyang's family is still alive.

So the police naturally notified the Jiang family first.

Although Jiang Xueyang had broken with Tan Xiangxi, but in the face of life and death, he still let go of his love-hate entanglement and came to identify the body with his mother.

When Yan Guiqiu arrived after receiving the news, everything was settled, and she didn't even see Tan Xiangxi for the last time—after identifying the body and determining the nature of the case, the Jiang family immediately decided to cremate her body buried.

Yan Guiqiu only had time to attend the simple funeral hosted by the Jiang family.

She might not have been able to attend the funeral.

Tan Xiangxi and Jiang Xueyang had been divorced for some time, and now helping with the funeral is also thinking about their old relationship, so it can be said that it is the utmost kindness.

As for how crude the funeral was, no one would criticize it.

There were only a handful of people who would truly shed tears over Tan Xiangxi's death.

One of them is Yan Guiqiu.

She has a good relationship with Tan Xiangxi, which is well known.

But how close are the friendships?Not even as good as an ex who had long since broken up and divorced.

What's more, the relationship between Yan Guiqiu and Tan Xiangxi is not that good.

At least standing in the center of presiding over the funeral is definitely not justified.

On the contrary, Jiang's family was worried that she would go crazy, embarrassing them by making trouble at the funeral, and even considered blocking her from the funeral gate at one point.

In the end, it was Jiang Xuehe who made the decision, and Yan Guiqiu was still invited to be present.

Many people know that Yan Guiqiu has been in unrequited love with Tan Xiangxi for ten years.

However, ten years of persistence has not been answered. It would be too pitiful if I couldn't even attend the final funeral.

In the face of death, no matter how unreasonable and unreasonable people are, they also learn to give in.

To everyone's surprise, Yan Guiqiu didn't do anything out of the ordinary except for staying in front of Tan Xiangxi's posthumous photo for a while.

This cold and abnormal Yan Zong just seemed to have lost his soul, his expression was in a trance, but he still showed his demeanor and upbringing in general, and he didn't do anything too rude.

It was the same when standing in front of Jiang Xuehe.

The people around held their breath, worrying about what kind of dispute would break out between the former "rivals in love", but Yan Guiqiu looked at Jiang Xuehe firmly for a moment, and finally said "thank you" in a low voice.

Her voice was hoarse, full of exhaustion, as if an invisible mountain was pressing on her body, making her breathless.

But it was also obvious that she did not harbor any hostility towards Jiang Xuehe.

Even Jiang Xuehe felt a little surprised.

Yan Guiqiu naturally stayed until the end of the funeral, and there was no car to pick her up. Jiang Xueyang and Mrs. Jiang avoided both her and Jiang Xuehe, and left early, leaving Jiang Xuehe to turn the car keys and ask Yan Guiqiu one more question.

"Do you need me to give you a ride?"

Yan Guiqiu looked at her quietly, and nodded slowly, as if he didn't have much strength left.

On the contrary, Jiang Xuehe was taken aback and paused for a moment. She didn't say much, and when she got out of the car, she saw Yan Guiqiu waiting at the intersection.

When the car stopped, Yan Guiqiu consciously opened the rear door and sat in the back seat.

This is their rare face-to-face and alone relationship.

The fields of the Yan family and the Jiang family do not overlap much, and they do not usually meet in the same circle. If it weren't for the connection of Tan Xiangxi, they might not see each other several times in their lifetime.

However, even with Tan Xiangxi around, the relationship between them is limited to nodding acquaintances.

Everyone knows that Tan Xiangxi likes Jiang Xuehe, but no matter how much she likes Jiang Xuehe, even if the relationship is so close that when Tan Xiangxi marries into Jiang's family, she can't do anything in the name of Jiang Xuehe.

The same goes for Yan Guiqiu.

Jiang Xuehe made Tan Xiangxi unhappy a few times, and got drunk in pain. After Yan Guiqiu comforted him a few times, he only dared to ask someone to trip Jiang Xuehe in private, but it was hard to stand up publicly and claim to be Tan Xiangxi's friend. Jiang Xuehe what.

She doesn't have that qualification, nor does she have that kind of confidence, and because she has a guilty conscience, she sticks to the boundary line in the middle.

So in fact, Yan Guiqiu and Jiang Xuehe didn't meet much, and the number of times they chatted can be counted on the fingers.

Even if he was not familiar with it, Jiang Xuehe could tell that this woman was shrouded in great pain at the moment.

Jiang Xuehe looked at the tired woman behind him through the rearview mirror.

Originally, she thought that Yan Guiqiu had something to say to her, but until halfway through, Yan Guiqiu still didn't say a word, as if shutting out the whole world.

Jiang Xuehe was a little puzzled.

Tan Xiangxi's suicide was beyond everyone's expectations. Her parents chose to commit suicide to protect her to a certain extent. In addition, she was cowardly by nature. No one thought that she would make such an irreversible ending on impulse.

If you want to ask Jiang Xuehe if she feels regretful, of course she will give an affirmative answer.

It was, after all, the loss of a life.

But it doesn't stop there.

Regrettably, she was not even as sad as Jiang Xueyang.

And in this matter, the most painful person is Yan Guiqiu.

Except for Tan's father and mother who have passed away, there is probably no one in the world who loves Tan Xiangxi more than Yan Guiqiu.

Even Jiang Xueyang couldn't compare.

Jiang Xuehe knew about this, but felt puzzled——

Qin Xiangxi has neither outstanding talent nor interesting soul, let alone a peerless beauty who overwhelms the country and the city.

At best, it means being protected too naively and ignorant of the world, and I don't know whether it is a good thing or a bad thing.

Such a woman can easily arouse the protective desire of ordinary men, but for a successful woman like Yan Guiqiu, she may not be so attractive.

What does Yan Guiqiu like about Tan Xiangxi?

Jiang Xuehe knew that it would be extremely rude to ask such a question directly, but the dead silence in the car made her feel uncomfortable, and when she realized it, she had already asked that question.

Yan Guiqiu finally woke up from the sculpture-like state, the offended anger on his face was fleeting, and soon turned into deeper exhaustion.

With a soft "dong", her head hit the car window.

Looking up at the flashing neon lights outside, Yan Guiqiu slowly told her "rival in love" about the past.

"Xixi...is my light."

02.

Yan Guiqiu in this world has no younger sister.

It is said that the mother was busy with work when she was pregnant with her second child, overworked, accidentally fell down and caused a miscarriage, and has been in poor health since then.

Later, the old man of the Meng family passed away, and the rest of the family fell into a turmoil for inheritance. Ms. Meng happened to be involved in a car accident at this time. After several years of vegetative state in the ward, she finally passed away.

Since then, the father of Yan seems to have lost his soul, and his temper is cloudy and cloudy. He insists that someone has killed his wife, and throws himself into the investigation wishfully. There was no splash of water, which also aroused the dissatisfaction of many people in the Yan family.

The brothers and sisters of the Yan family broke up unhappily after several quarrels, and in the end they turned against each other completely. They were jealous in the company and never communicated with each other in private.

The juniors occasionally met in school, and they had to deliberately avoid each other.

There are also those who have dark thoughts and deliberately spread rumors about other people in the school. As the eldest daughter, Yan Guiqiu always bears the brunt of it. In addition, she has a cold personality and no friends. When she was in school, she spent a long time They are all the ones who are excluded and isolated.

Yan Guiqiu felt that those peers were noisy and noisy, and he didn't bother to socialize with them, and always walked alone with a cold face.

When I was young, I was tricked by some classmates with malicious intentions, and occasionally I would go home with injuries.

Later, she went to learn some self-defense techniques, and after calling back a few times, no one dared to provoke her again.

From then on, Yan Guiqiu was the evil star in the school. Anyone who bumped into her had to shrink their necks and walk around in a detour.

Only Tan Xiangxi is not afraid of her.

Qin Xiangxi transferred to Yan Guiqiu's school when he was in elementary school. At that time, Yan Guiqiu's mother was still alive. Although she was in poor health, the family was still harmonious. The mother was gentle, and the father was taciturn, but he loved and cared for the only one without a doubt. daughter.

Yan Guiqiu's character can't be said to be very lively, but it is still friendly. Qin Xiangxi knew nothing about the new school when she first came, and the teacher gave Yan Guiqiu instructions to take care of the new students, and she took responsibility sternly.

Qin Xiangxi was at a loss at first, but after getting along for a few days, he realized that Yan Guiqiu was a responsible and good person, and gradually became close.

The degree of intimacy is limited to greeting each other on the road, and in the evening when they are on duty together, they will walk out of the school together and walk for a certain distance until they are picked up by their parents.

Later, when she was promoted to senior grade, Tan Xiangxi was surrounded by gangsters in the alley outside the school. Yan Guiqiu happened to pass by, and subconsciously ran to save her, but was also hit by a stick.

She braced herself and pushed Tan Xiangxi out when those punks were not paying attention, but she passed out on the ground.

That time, the two of them were lucky. Not long after Yan Guiqiu passed out, the nearby adults rushed over when they heard the noise. The little gangster felt a little guilty when he saw the blood on the ground, and ran away in a hurry before making a big fuss.

Yan Guiqiu stayed in the hospital for a week, and the first thing he did when he woke up was to ask Tan Xiangxi.

But Tan Xiangxi was no longer there.

It is said that the blow was too great. After her parents went to school to make a fuss, they took their daughter to a big city. After a period of psychological treatment, they told her to go back to class.

As for Yan Guiqiu, he only received a thick red envelope and a printed thank you letter, nothing else.

However, she didn't ask for anything at first, but she couldn't help feeling worried when she recalled what happened to Tan Xiangxi.

Even she had nightmares for a long time after being hospitalized, let alone Tan Xiangxi who faced all the shocks?

Yan Guiqiu was worried, but couldn't do anything more.

She didn't even know where Tan Xiangxi had gone.

Later, something happened to the Meng family, her mother passed away, her father's temperament changed drastically, and Yan Guiqiu also became more and more taciturn, and the old things had long been forgotten by her.

Until she and Tan Xiangxi reunited in the new school.

Yan Guiqiu has a withdrawn and indifferent personality, and the classmates around her are more afraid to exclude her than before, and they almost keep her at a respectful distance on weekdays.

Only Tan Xiangxi, who met her by chance in school one time, recognized her, and happily waved to her.

Tan Xiangxi didn't remember the accident in elementary school, but she still remembered Yan Guiqiu, an old classmate.

She didn't seem to notice the rumors behind the scenes, and she still greeted Yan Guiqiu with a smile on her face.

Yan Guiqiu acquiesced in her approach.

Tan Xiangxi acted like a fool, unaware of the changes in Yan Guiqiu's body, and only felt kind because of the past contact, which naturally brought him a little closeness.

Whether Yan Guiqiu is in a good mood or not, she has never had any discernment, she just sticks to her on her own, tells her some little girls' thoughts, and then asks Yan Guiqiu for her opinions and suggestions.

Yan Guiqiu felt bored for a while, especially when Tan Xiangxi forcibly dragged her to the school gate, and when she looked up and saw Qin's father and mother waiting outside, she let go of her hands and rushed towards her parents without hesitation. She was left alone on the side, and people came and went around her, and they all looked at her.

She knew not everyone was making fun of her, but she still felt embarrassed when she stood there.

Tan Xiangxi realized that she had left out her friend, struggled to get down from her parents' arms, turned to look at Yan Guiqiu, and asked her if she wanted to go together.

Yan Guiqiu looked at her, then at the gentle and doting parents behind her, and slowly shook his head.

She pursed her lips and walked past Tan Xiangxi with a cold face without saying a word.

When ordinary people see her expression like this, they should know her impatience and disgust. Even if it is not to the extent of retreating, they should restrain themselves a little and face her more cautiously, so as not to cause an unnecessary dispute.

However, when Tan Xiangxi saw her again the next day, his attitude was still the same, and he took her to show the gift he had just received.

It's not for showing off, it's just that I'm happy to receive a gift, and I can't wait to share the joy with my friends.

She also generously gave half to friends.

The only problem is that she doesn't seem to be aware of other people's emotional changes at all-or maybe it's not that she is unaware, but she just never thinks about herself.

She didn't think that she had offended Yan Guiqiu, so naturally she wouldn't take the initiative to avoid it.

No wink, and very self-centered.

This is not an attractive advantage.

Rather, it is precisely because of being doted on by others that he can grow into such an ignorant and innocent appearance.

All troubles are blocked by her parents. Even if she does something wrong, her parents will probably tell her very firmly that it is not her fault.

But apart from not knowing how to look at people, she didn't do anything harmful.

She will not rely on her family background to bully others, nor will she be arrogant and unreasonable to demand an apology from the victim after bumping into someone.

Instead, all her obnoxiousness is limited to those perceptions of herself.

She is a delicate, naive, ignorant little princess who is a little willful but not overbearing.

If a wave hits one day, she will just kneel down and cry in a helpless place, until her parents or someone who loves her holds her hand to block the wind and rain in front of her, and then she can stand up again.

Yan Guiqiu knows better than anyone what kind of person she is, and knows all her vanity and innocence and cowardice.

She also didn't love her so affectionately in the first place.

Yan Guiqiu used to be really jealous of Tan Xiangxi, hiding it deep in his heart, but he never really stretched out his hand to push her away.

What she lacked in herself was vividly reflected in Tan Xiangxi.

Yan Guiqiu was not a person who would be concerned about unwarranted crimes, and that bit of jealousy gradually faded into envy in the end. As she got older, the more fights she had seen inside and out, the more she felt like that. His innocence is commendable.

Later, everyone knew that Yan Guiqiu liked Tan Xiangxi, but even Yan Guiqiu didn't know whether she liked Tan Xiangxi, or simply wanted to protect the innocent and even willful part of her.

Maybe it's a bit of both.

Yan Guiqiu didn't bother to tell the difference.

In the year of graduating from high school, Yan's father was seriously ill and hospitalized, and the Yan family was in chaos. The kind and amiable uncles and aunts showed their ferocious fangs in the blink of an eye, and there was a quarrel just because of the word "interest". It is not uncommon to see students like Yan Guiqiu, and it is not an exaggeration to say that they are enemies.

Yan Guiqiu had no choice but to turn around and throw himself into this innocent disaster.

When everything was settled, Yan Guiqiu took his position as the top leader of the Yan family, and when he turned around, there were compliments and flattering smiles everywhere, and among the flattering "Boss Yan", only Tan Xiangxi was the same. as usual.

Tan Xiangxi never got involved in her own company's affairs, and knew nothing about the struggles in the circle, so she naturally didn't know what Yan Guiqiu's identity change meant.

She treated Yan Guiqiu as before.

And this is what Yan Guiqiu wants most.

Tan Xiangxi has been innocent for ten years, and Yan Guiqiu only hopes that the only thing she is familiar with can last forever.

So when facing Tan Xiangxi, she was always on call and spent almost all her spare time and energy on him.

When others said how much she liked Tan Xiangxi, she never defended herself.

Because when she looked back and thought about it, after all her relatives passed away, she had no friends, and no hobbies that she loved so much that she wanted to dedicate her life. The only thing that could be called important was Tan Xiangxi.

To care so much about someone who has nothing to do with it, what else can it be except "love"?

However, Tan Xiangxi has someone she has loved deeply for many years, and Yan Guiqiu, who has the same thoughts, bowed her head for no reason, retreating to the boundaries of friends and still protecting her, and making her panic if she went any further, for fear of touching Tan Xiangxi's bottom line. She is not qualified to appear by her side in an open and aboveboard manner.

Occasionally Jiang Xuehe did something that made Tan Xiangxi sad, no matter how angry Yan Guiqiu was, at most it was just some innocuous tricks, but he never dared to really ruthless Jiang Xuehe.

It's not because of her excessive rationality, it's just that she knows that Tan Xiangxi's heart is all on Jiang Xuehe.

If Jiang Xuehe was hurt, Tan Xiangxi would only suffer more than her.

So Yan Guiqiu forbears and restrains in every possible way, and later it gradually became a habit, or perhaps as she got older and more mature, before Jiang Xuehe knew it, her hidden hostility gradually disappeared.

Yan Guiqiu doesn't hate Jiang Xuehe, or rather, she doesn't care about Jiang Xuehe, she only sees Tan Xiangxi in her eyes.

There is no Jiang Xuehe, there is Jiang Xueyang, or someone else who hasn't appeared yet...

Yan Guiqiu didn't want to be their substitute, what she wanted was always Tan Xiangxi herself.

However, the more you care, the more you unconsciously put yourself in a humble position.

Others gossiped a lot behind their backs, envious of Tan Xiangxi, puzzled and ridiculed at Yan Guiqiu, saying that she was just like a dog behind Tan Xiangxi.

There are many more ugly words than this, and Yan Guiqiu doesn't care about them, it doesn't mean she really didn't listen to them at all.

They have also had cold wars, but every time in the end, Yan Guiqiu was the first to compromise.

When she tried to withdraw from Tan Xiangxi's life, she couldn't last for two days.

Trying to put all your energy into work still has little effect.

Yan Guiqiu worked overtime in the office alone until late at night, rubbing his sore eyes and wrists, looking up and seeing the boundless moonlight outside the high-rise, only feeling doubled emptiness and loneliness.

The assistant covered her mouth when she got off work, and whispered to her boyfriend on the phone to make an appointment for dinner.

In the tea room, the employees gossip while resting, and they open and close their mouths with "my friend", "my mother", "my son"...

Only Yan Guiqiu stopped and turned around, only to find that there was nothing behind him.

Grandparents and parents both passed away early, uncles never get in touch with each other, the so-called "family relationship" has long been wiped out, friends are few and far between, and the one who can speak the most common words is the assistant who has been with me for several years.

But the assistant has always been more than in awe of her, but not close enough to her.

It's not that no one approached him proactively, but Yan Guiqiu had long since lost the ability to trust people. Every time he saw a smiling face, he instinctively wondered if the other party wanted to ask for something.

Looking back on her short twenty-odd years of life, Yan Guiqiu found out in frustration that Tan Xiangxi was the only one left for her.

Only Tan Xiangxi stood there unchanged.

Like a nail or the string of a kite, she is firmly nailed to the world.

Only Qin Xiangxi.

03.

The halfway time is only enough for her to talk here.

There is the last traffic light left, which is the gate of the community where Yan Guiqiu lives.

Jiang Xuehe stopped the car in front of the red light.

Yan Guiqiu reached for the bag next to her and asked her to put her on the side of the road for a while.

Along the way, Jiang Xuehe was the one who was more reticent, but after she fell silent, she still couldn't help asking: "Do you hate me?"

"Hate you?" Yan Guiqiu was startled, and it took a while to realize what she meant, reluctantly twitched the corner of her mouth, shook her head, and smiled self-deprecatingly, "Maybe it was at the beginning... But I Still hate myself more."

He knew that Tan Xiangxi was in a bad mood these days, but he didn't notice her mood changes immediately.

Even if she was a bit tougher and forced Tan Xiangxi to live with her, such a tragedy would never happen.

Or maybe she could have regarded the Qin family as her responsibility back then, and reached out to help her, instead of holding a mean mentality——hope that Tan Xiangxi would turn his head to look at her, and ask her for help.

Maybe everything will end differently.

Going forward, it was she who thought it was better for Tan Xiangxi to maintain an innocent child's mentality, so she arranged everything for her properly like the parents of those bear children, and told her over and over again that you were right. , I am willing...

So does she like Tan Xiangxi, or is it just to satisfy the regrets and delusions deep in her heart?

After the period of collapse and hatred, Yan Guiqiu began to ask himself such questions again and again.

The conclusions are without exception, and what is left in the end is only a black hole-like emptiness and endless guilt and self-blame.

Perhaps throughout her life, she would never be able to escape such pain and regret.

The car stopped at the gate of the community, Yan Guiqiu came back to his senses, no need for Jiang Xuehe to send him in, he opened the door and got out of the car after saying thank you.

Jiang Xuehe turned his head to look at her.

Unlike Jiang Xuehe, who has always made people feel like a spring breeze, Yan Guiqiu is not only reticent, but also has very little expression. The fatigue and pain cannot be concealed in his indifferent appearance, but it is difficult to see more waves.

"President Yan." Jiang Xuehe called out.

Yan Guiqiu stopped outside, looked down at her through the car window, and asked in a hoarse voice, "What's wrong?"

At that moment Jiang Xuehe wanted to say a lot, but when he raised his head and met those pitch-black eyes, everything evaporated.

She was silent for a moment, and the last thing she said was two words: "Goodbye."

Yan Guiqiu also replied calmly: "Goodbye, Mr. Jiang."

Jiang Xuehe waited until she turned around before looking away.

Along the way, she only asked two questions, and she was more or less trying to find out.

It is well known that Qin Xiangxi is very important to Yan Guiqiu.

But to what extent it matters, no one knows.

Yan Guiqiu might hold a grudge against Tan Xiangxi's death and take revenge on Jiang's family.

It's also possible that she was as "reasonable" as she appeared on the surface, and they would have no reason to contact her again.

If it's the latter, then of course it couldn't be better.

Jiang Xuehe looked up at the road sign ahead, turned the car around with the steering wheel, and when the car drove to the opposite side, she subconsciously glanced at the gate of the community again.

Yan Guiqiu has not gone too far.

The boundless moonlight gradually engulfed her back.

Will we ever see her again?

Jiang Xuehe thought about it casually, but she couldn't come up with an answer, but when she passed the next intersection, she had already put this question behind her.

——Special episode [-]. End——