After becoming a blood clan, he did everything possible to seek death

The time to leave finally came, earlier than Oz imagined. He stood at the entrance, looked at his translucent hands, and could only helplessly smile and sigh.

He seemed to have promised Dazai something incredible, but couldn't keep it.

"Come on." Ozzy patted his face and forced an ugly smile.

In the last period of time, I should be by Dazai's side, Oz thought, but Dazai's work has some problems, he hastily followed the past and couldn't control his time to leave, maybe he will be in an important moment. Sometimes he becomes Dazai's burden.

But that's not the main reason why he didn't act with Dazai.

He wasn't ready to leave Dazai yet, didn't know how to say goodbye to Dazai, and didn't know how to downplay his departure.

Dazai takes himself more seriously than he thought.

Just imagining Dazai coming home and seeing the empty living room, standing silently in a dark house, Ozzy felt that it was hard to breathe.

How did Dazai spend the time without Oz?

Ozzy came to the study, he likes to read to pass the time or to cool himself down.There are many novel things in Dazai's bookcase that he has never touched, for example, there are several books on modern medicine.However, these books are placed next to his "Suicide Manual", probably when he sees a certain method of suicide, he will use medical methods to study the success rate of this method of suicide.

"Obviously it was thrown away by you, but you bought it back and continued to read." Ozzy tapped the skeleton of the book with his fingertips, hesitated again and again, but still did not extend his poisonous hand to Dazai's bookcase.

Dazai is already an adult, so I really shouldn't interfere too much with his hobbies -- although this hobby doesn't really please Rei.

Anyway, the lucky stone is on Dazai, these ordinary suicides must be more like a game to Dazai.

He smiled, and accidentally touched a book with his fingers, and suddenly found that the touch of this book seemed to be different from other books.

Other books made muffled sounds when tapped, but this one sounded hollow.

Sure enough, Oz pulled it out from the bookshelf, opened it and found a groove dug out of the thick pages, and a booklet was placed in the middle of the groove.

The whole body of the booklet was pitch black, and it looked ordinary, a little smaller than the one in Kunikida's hand.Its corners have been rolled up in some places, and it can be seen that the owner of the booklet seems to be flipping through it often.

Oz hesitated.

The taste of Dazai in this booklet is very strong, and it can almost be confirmed that it is Dazai's stuff.

But why did Dazai hide this booklet in the book?

Ozzy's fingertips rubbed back and forth on the cover of the booklet, and his strong sixth sense was warning him—open the booklet.

He stood in front of the bookcase without saying a word. This feeling was groundless, and it was not a good habit to randomly flip through other people's things.

but……

"I'll just take a look." Ozzy folded his hands in apology and said in a low voice.

The closer he got to the booklet, the more he could feel the booklet's attraction to him.

In the end, Ozzy cautiously opened the palm-sized booklet.

The cover of the booklet was pitch black, but a rabbit was drawn on the first page with unskilled brushwork.

Ozzy thought of Dazai for no reason, he once commented that his eyes were like rabbits.

Dazai snatches other children's rabbit balloons.

He also shook the cake he bought and said he would throw it away.

Nasty imp.

Falling into memories for a short time, Ozzy unconsciously put a smile on his face.These things seem to have happened yesterday, but when you think about it carefully, you will find that he and Dazai have been together for a long time.

When Ozzy turned to the second page of the booklet, he found that there were only a few words written on the whole page-his name.

The handwriting is very neat, and it seems that he was very focused when writing this line of names.Ozzy's fingertips stroked his name, and the degree of indentation on the paper was much deeper than the rabbit portrait on the first page, barely staying on the edge of the paper that was about to pierce.

Oz was leaning against the desk, with Dazai's big soft chair beside him. He lowered his head, and seemed to be able to see Dazai prostrate on the table, seriously writing his name.

The sudden palpitations made Ozzy couldn't help covering his chest, and he pursed his lips to prevent a smile from coming out of his throat.

After a while, when Ozzy accidentally noticed his more transparent hand again, his smile faded away. He glanced at his name one last time, and praised: "The handwriting is not bad."

It's a pity that Dazai is not by his side, this compliment can only be said to Dazai again.

Oz thought that this booklet might be Dazai's diary, which was specially used by him to record some interesting things.

When he turned to the third page, he realized that maybe Dazai was not recording "interesting things".

From the third page to the next few pages of the book, everything is densely written.

They are not as empty as the beginning, and some places are even crowded with some small annotations. Maybe I feel incomplete after writing, so I added some more.

If you look carefully, you can find that all these carefully recorded things are all about Oz.

- Ozzy is a cunning liar.The word liar was actually crossed out, and Ozzy worked hard to identify the meaning of the two blobs. Instead of the word liar, it was the portrait of the rabbit on the first page. The rabbit here is bigger than before. is much smaller.

——I like to eat sweets, Mingming is so old.

——It seems that I am very interested in cooking, and everything I cook is delicious.

——He has a single-minded mind, believes what he says, always stands outside the crowd, and likes lively places.

A paragraph of remarks is added at the back of this place in very small words.

——He told me not to lie to him, but he himself is a liar.

——The unexpected innocence, is it really a vampire who has lived for a long time?

——When you pinch his fingers, you will blush, you will also scratch your palms, and you will also lean on your shoulders, but he himself does not seem to realize it.

——I like to sleep next to people when I sleep. (It turns out that vampires also sleep, probably because human body temperature makes vampires feel warm. Don’t prepare heating tables and electric blankets in the future.)

——He is very afraid of loneliness, don't stay too far away from him, or you will get lost.

——It’s okay to drink a little wine once in a while, just a glass :)

——It seems to be particularly partial to children who can act like a baby, so be careful.

——When the orange is sour, he will squint his eyes, and then eat it secretly by himself, he is afraid that it will be sour to others.

Oz laughed as he read it. He originally planned to put away the booklet after just a glance, but he didn't expect him to read most of them quietly like this.

It all records Dazai's understanding of Ozzy, and even some small habits that Ozzy himself has not noticed are all written down by Dazai.

This was a novel experience, he never thought that Dazai would observe him so carefully.

"Don't bully him too hard," Ozzy turned a few pages back, and stopped near the end, "Be more patient, don't make him afraid..."

"I'm not afraid." He muttered and couldn't help laughing.

This is the first time for Oz to know himself from the perspective of others, and Dazai's words reveal those surging emotions, which reminds Oz of the feeling of being embraced by Dazai.

Is this what it feels like to be loved?

It's amazing, even more amazing than flying in the sky for the first time.

Did he never question what Dazai told him, but did he just feel that he was really worthy of human emotions?He doesn't even have tears, and he can't wrap humans in his warm coat in winter.

He doesn't even know what "love" is, he only knows that he likes human beings.

If this is love, then if I write such a booklet myself, will I be able to learn human emotions?

Oz wasn't so sure.

He paused for a long time before reading the last few lines.

At the end of the writing, what Dazai recorded was no longer Ozzy's habit.

That's what he wrote.

-- Ozzy is planning something and he doesn't want me to know.But Ozzy may not know that his guilty look is really cute.I can probably guess his plan, so think twice, I wrote these things, it may look stupid, you may even laugh when you read it, don't doubt me, I don't expect you to Do something for me and destroy the booklet after reading it.

-- don't hurt him.

-- This is not advice, but a warning.

"My plan? Warning?" Ozzy frowned, reading these words over and over again.

Dazai's records in this area are not detailed, only vaguely mentioning that he seems to be plotting something behind Dazai's back.

Oz would never do anything harmful to Dazai, so almost instantly, Oz knew the purpose of his plan.

He must have found a way to turn Dazai back into a human.

But since it was carried out without telling Dazai, it means that this opportunity is not perfect, and it will even cause harm to some people, so that I need to hide this matter.

Ozzy felt as if he had missed something important.

Ozzy's heart was beating fast, and his breathing became short of breath.He felt that he was very close to the truth.If I can find out how to turn Dazai back into a human here...

Suddenly, Ozzy's thoughts were interrupted by a violent pull from behind. Under the influence of this force, he could only subconsciously grab the table to stabilize his body, and the booklets fell to the ground under his shaking .

He has become more transparent.

Oz realized that his time was really running out.

He hurriedly picked up the booklet, trying to find more useful information from it, but the more urgent he was, the harder it was for him to calm down and look for clues.

The strength coming from behind was still increasing, and Ozzy had no time to care about his long hair that was already rolling in mid-air.He came to the bookcase and finally found a seemingly mysterious box in the corner.

Ozzy's eyes lit up, and he opened the box without hesitation.

At that moment, his smile froze.

What was in the box was not the clue he wanted, but a familiar item.

The ring Dazai gave him.

The difference from what I have in my hand is that this ring has been broken into several pieces, and they are scattered in the box, looking extremely pitiful.

This turned out to be the reason why Dazai stared at his ring in a trance several times.

No wonder he said "I thought his communicator was broken" when we met for the first time. In fact, it was because the ring was broken and it was stored with Dazai, so he thought it was broken when the communicator sent an alarm. .

Ozzy squeezed the ring tightly and was speechless for a while.

Looking at it this way, the one in his hand is indeed brand new, and this is why Dazai sighed.

He couldn't imagine how he would allow such a precious gift to suffer catastrophe and be destroyed like this.This is obviously his most precious thing, what happened at that time that caused the destruction of the ring?

How did Dazai feel when he found out that the ring was broken and put all the pieces in the box properly?

Ozzy's thoughts were a little confused, half of him calmly asked him to continue looking for clues about the future, and the other half roared and asked him to meet Dazai before leaving.

Even if we don't meet each other, I still have to tell Dazai before leaving.

How uncomfortable would such a silent disappearance be for Dazai?

Oz took a deep breath, and dialed Dazai's phone with trembling fingers.

The call rang and was picked up immediately.

Dazai's voice panted slightly, and there were a few inexplicable wind sounds coming from the receiver.

"Ta, Dazai? Are you fighting with someone else?"

"Ah," Dazai took a short breath, "It's not a fight, it should be considered a one-sided beating, right?"

Ozzy: "?? You wait for me, I'll be right there—uh!"

Dazai's voice condensed, and the surrounding immediately became much quieter: "Ozzy? What's the matter? What happened to you?"

Ozzy's fingers turned white, and he tried his best to stabilize his figure.

The pulling force behind him has made him slightly float in the air, and the translucent body can't let him find a way to fix himself anyway.

He put his index finger and middle finger together, trying to open a gap in space so that he could rush to Dazai's side.

But along with the feeling of weightlessness, there is also the chaos of magic power.

He couldn't use magic anymore.

"Oz?! Talk!"

Dazai's tone was unusually hasty, which made Oz feel a strange sense of guilt.

It seems he won't be able to see Dazai for the last time.

The booklet fell to the ground, he squatted down, took it in his hand, then suddenly thought of something, grabbed a pen and quickly wrote something on the booklet.

Ozzy laughed so badly, he squeezed the phone tightly, and after opening his mouth, he realized that he lost his voice: "I, I seem to be leaving..."

The seriousness in his ear made Ozzy's heart sink heavily.

Surrounding him were some papers flying under the action of pulling force, probably from some materials that Dazai hadn't packed yet.

Dazai's breathing was extremely heavy: "Wait for me, I'll be right back."

"I seem to be too late." Oz covered his mouth, the soreness in his throat made him very confused, he wanted to tidy up his mess before leaving, but his hand was straight penetrated the floating paper.

"Can't wait?" Dazai's voice couldn't tell whether he was laughing or angry, "Didn't you say you would wait for me to go back?"

"Yes, sorry..."

"What do I need is sorry?!"

It was the first time that Dazai lost control and spoke to Ozzy so loudly, his hands trembled, his pupils contracted violently, and he just wanted to run in the direction of home.

But while running, he stopped again.

In fact, from the moment he left the house, he already knew that Oz's time was running out.

He also saw the hands that were starting to become transparent.

Osamu Dazai couldn't keep Ozzy at this point in time.He knew this so well that he forced himself to go out alone.

He thought he was ready, but he still lost control after hearing the news.

Osamu Dazai stood where he was, covered his face with his palms, and said in a hoarse voice, "Sorry, I'm not blaming you."

"I know." Ozzy also stopped his movements, stood quietly and looked out the window, as if he could see where Dazai was, "I'm sorry, I messed up your study before I left."

"It's okay, I'll clean them up again."

"I..." Ozzy paused, "I seem to be leaving."

Dazai was also silent, and only after a while did he let out a low "hmm".

"It's strange," Ozzy rubbed his eyes, "the eyes seem sore, is there dust? You must clean the study well, or the dust will enter my eyes again next time."

"Okay, make sure to clean it up."

"Take me to that coffee shop next time. The boss said he would treat us to steak."

"And your colleagues, I haven't even talked to them properly."

"Invite them to dinner next time, and thank them for taking care of you."

"Ozzy," Dazai interrupted Ozzy's chatter, "doesn't Ozzy have anything to say to Ozzy Dazai?"

"Let's just say... If you can replace Oz by Dazai Osamu's side, it's too hard for him alone."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry," Ozzy's eyes became more sour, "Dazai, you must eat well, you have grown so much taller, but you are still so thin, you can't stay up late in the future, and don't always tease your colleagues, Get along well with your friends."

"I really want to say that I will always be with you, but I don't know what will happen in the future, we should always be together, I'm sorry, Dazai."

"I really never intended to lie to you."

"Then try harder." Dazai seemed to take a deep breath, his voice became much clearer, and there was even a hint of a smile on his face, "Even if I know that Ozzy is a liar, I can't help but believe what Ozzy said Well... so, work harder and keep your promise."

"I will, and I will keep trying."

"Then Osamu Dazai will always be waiting for Ozzy, you will definitely come again, right?"

"Yes, I still want to travel around with Dazai."

Listening to the sound of breathing coming from the receiver, the two of them had the illusion that they were facing each other for a moment.

Dazai heard Ozzy groan again.

"Ta, Dazai, I know what to say to make you happier."

Oz actually laughed at this moment, even though he didn't know how much choking was in his voice.

Oz took a deep breath.

"I like-"

The sound stopped abruptly.

In the empty house, a mobile phone fell to the ground, making a broken sound.

The author has something to say:

I think the end of my chapter is really sweet, I can do it again!I am a sweet text writer! (confirm