Rebirth is evenly matched

Qin Yin usually looks indifferent and cold, but in fact he can only hide his emotions in his heart because he doesn't know how to express them.

He pinched Cen Xuan's wrist, looked at it for a long time, and by the way pulled up his sleeves, pulled them apart, and looked carefully.

Not only that, but the fingertips kept stroking those old scars, caressing them carefully.

Cen Xuan got goosebumps after watching it.

"A Yin," he took a breath, trying to divert the man's attention as much as possible, "I'll have another operation, and I won't be able to see it anymore."

The man's face was pale and quiet, and deep ripples appeared in the dark pupils, layer by layer.

He is recalling.

"Ah."

After a long time, he answered with a low cough, his eyelashes were trembling, and his breath was a little unsteady, "No need."

Cen Xuan blinked, extremely puzzled.

"Keep it!" Qin Yin sighed, "Wait..."

Halfway through the speech, he swallowed again suddenly.

Can't speak.

What he actually wanted to say was that when he was gone someday, these traces would be removed, that is, all the harm he had done to this child, I hope... after his death, Cen Xuan could erase all these traces.

This child will have a new life.

Qin Yin propped himself up, sat up slowly, and hooked Cen Xuan.

Cen Xuan didn't know why, so he got closer and sat up cross-legged.

"Ayin?"

The trousers were uncovered, and there was a faint scar around the ankle bone, slightly above the position.

Because of the scar removal surgery, the scars are already very shallow, and I only need to cover them with concealer on the show, and it is enough to not see anything.

Qin Yin's face turned pale again.

All the wrong things done in the past will become ironic and mocking after waking up.

It was wrong to stay forcibly.

"A Yin."

Seeing that he couldn't go on like this, Cen Xuan closed his palms, turned over to hug him, and gently stroked his back with his palms, "Ah Yin, don't think about it, it's all in the past, you're not wrong, my dear." , don't think about it."

This man is surprisingly thin, and even when hugged, it feels so painful. Cen Xuan touched his heart, choked up and tilted his head, kissing his slender and fair neck, "A Yin, I like you, I stayed here voluntarily, I want to be with you, for the rest of my life, in the same bed, in death."

"Even the ashes have to be buried together."

The man closed his eyes and let out a long sigh.

Many things cannot be thought about carefully.

He is much more open-minded now, and many things that he could not see through before are now transparent.

But for the wrong things done in the past, it is still hard to let go as long as I think about it.

"Xiao Xuan."

The little guy kept coaxing himself, with a soft and soft voice, which made Qin Yin couldn't help laughing, and felt a little more relaxed.

He relaxed a little, let the child hug him, and listened to him muttering like coaxing a child, thinking in his heart that Annie doesn't need to be coaxed like this at his age, how about he coaxing a baby?

"At that time... did you hate me very much?"

He rubbed the light scar with his fingertips. Even after years and years had passed, the skin at the scar was a bit rough. Cen Xuan is a person who relies on his appearance for a living. It is hard to imagine such a scar on his body. What kind of turmoil and speculation will it lead to if it is photographed by the media.

Qin Yin felt that he never seemed to think about this child at that time. He just felt that he had given the child what he wanted, fame and status, and had the ability to push the child to climb up step by step, so he must Usurp something in return and keep people around.

But this is obviously not love, but bondage, something that yearns for something in return, never love.

Love should be gentle indulgence, and indulgence without asking for anything.

Up to now, Qin Yin also understands this truth. Over time, he has gradually learned how to love someone and... the meaning of love.

"Complained."

Cen Xuan told the truth, tilted his head, and kissed his weak lover, "But Du Ke told me, you don't have any malicious intentions, but you haven't received much love, so you don't know how to love others."

It is difficult for a child who grows up in ignorance and indifference to understand the true meaning of a lover. He just clumsily uses his own way to keep the person he wants to keep.

Now, Cen Xuan seldom thinks of the past. He followed Qin Yin. At the beginning, his dream of getting ahead and the belief of standing on a high place and shining all over his body have been smoothed by time. The matter of retreating behind the scenes has already Completely cut off the path he once wanted the most.

But it doesn't matter, he now...has more important and meaningful things to do.

"Ayin, don't think so."

Cen Xuan hugged this man, rubbed his chin lightly on his shoulder, and said softly, "There is no perfect person in this world, you see... you are so good, so handsome, so excellent, if you don't have any shortcomings, then God will definitely not give you to me."

Back then when his hands and feet were bound and chained, Cen Xuan wished he could tear this man into pieces and kill him.

I also regret it to death.

He shouldn't have thrown himself into such a pit of fire just because of the dream of getting ahead in this circle. He didn't even have basic freedom for a person.

But there is no perfect thing in this world. Qin Yin is not heinous, nor is he vicious or ruthless. He is just...too lonely.

He has been alone for too long, and desperately wants someone to accompany him.

"Ayin," Cen Xuan said, he couldn't help laughing, and stroked the man's thin back with his fingers, slowly rubbing on the raised spine, with a gentle voice, "I like you, and I need you, very much Selfishly wanting you to stay in this world, I know it may be difficult, but... please work hard to survive for me, okay?"

Time seemed to stand still.

Qin Yin suddenly felt that all the flowers were blooming.

He used to exert all his strength to force the person to stay by means of harm, but now he is willing to stay by his side, and gently tells him to survive.

Survive.

The man closed his eyes and smiled deeply.

One day, probably in this life, there will be no regrets.

"Xiao Xuan."

He opened his mouth hoarsely, and asked, "I remember to promise you and give you back your freedom. No matter what happens in the future, I will never restrain you again. You know I will do what I say."

His pride does not allow him to lie.

"Yes, I heard you."

Cen Xuanying said without hesitation, "I have freedom, and it has nothing to do with my liking you. I have always liked you, Ah Yin, in the past—I was stupid and didn't understand my own mind."

"I will not do it again."

"We will have a long, long time to come. You still have to watch A Niluo grow up, marry and have children, so my dear, please persevere and work hard to survive."