Women's clothing giants are all in love

It's an amazing thing to have a crush on.

Xie Zhuyuan thought that after so many years, no matter what he said, Qi Lan's imprint on his heart should have faded a bit.

However, just seeing these four words sent by the other party, his heart felt sour for a while, and this feeling was not the slightest difference from eight years ago.

Has he grown up?

Xie Zhu felt a little speechless to himself.

He typed and typed in the input box, deleted and rewritten, went back and forth several times, and finally sent the same few words without any interest.

"Well, long time no see."

After posting, he began to regret his boredom.

It can be sent out, and there is no way to change it.

He could only grab a pillow and hold it in his arms, silently waiting for an answer.

However, after waiting for a while, I didn't wait for the next message.

Xie Zhu finally realized that maybe the other party had nothing else to say after the polite exchange of greetings.

I can't tell how I feel.

He took a deep breath, telling himself not to take it too seriously.

I clicked on the group chat of Class 12, and it was very lively inside, just because Qi Lan finally appeared.

"So Brother Lan, will your classmates come to the reunion?"

"Long time no see, I must come!"

Lan: "Let's see when the time comes, go if you have time."

As soon as he appeared, the news in the group began to multiply, and many students came out.

"What are you doing now, so busy?"

"Brother Lan, did you have a girlfriend?"

"It's not like you have to accompany your girlfriend when you have a class reunion?"

"Why don't you bring your girlfriend!"

"That's it!"

"Yo~~~~ Let's meet Brother Lan's female ticket!!"

Lan: "I don't have a girlfriend, what a fart [white eyes]"

"Wipe, it's impossible!"

"Brother Lan is still single? Jiawei already found a girlfriend?"

He Jiawei came out and cursed: "What do you mean? Climb!"

"Hahahahahaha!"

"Laughing to death hhhh!"

He Jiawei: "Where is @竹子小竹子, have you seen the group news?"

Xie Zhu was taken aback, and quickly sent a message into the group.

Bamboo: "Long time no see ^^"

"Wow~"

"Bamboo is coming!"

"The bamboo that has been missing for many years has been found!"

A few messages of welcome popped up here and there, but soon, the topic turned back to the class reunion.

Xie Zhu didn't feel any loss, after all, he has always been a person with a low sense of presence in the class.

He was lying on the sofa, quietly watching everyone chatting enthusiastically, a few boys who used to be the most active in the class teased Qi Lan, and Qi Lan popped up occasionally, and said something back, everyone was laughing.

The time slowly came to ten o'clock.

Xie Zhu thought to himself, it's almost time to sleep.

Returning to the high school class, it seems that there are not as many ups and downs as expected.

Until now, the pain in the stomach seems to have subsided a lot.

In fact, that's the case.

Back then, he stayed away from high school classes, partly because of Qi Lan, partly because of his own sexuality, but as long as he didn't have too much contact with them, it shouldn't affect his life.

Xie Zhu let out a breath.

However, as soon as he got up, the phone vibrated twice again.

He was stunned.

Qi Lan actually sent him another message alone.

"Did you change your phone number when you were in college?"

Unexpectedly, Qi Lan brought this up suddenly, Xie Zhu pursed his lips.

He picked up his mobile phone and replied slowly: "Well, the school sent it uniformly."

This time, Qi Lan's reply came very quickly.

"Why don't you say anything."

Xie Zhu opened his mouth.

He hesitated for a long time in the input box, and issued a very unconvincing one:

"...forgot, sorry."

After sending it out, Xie Zhu raised his hand to cover his face, feeling that his ears were getting hot because of this inferior lie.

It's too low-quality and too perfunctory, Qi Lan will expose it at a glance, right?

Xie Zhu wished he could throw away his phone, he didn't want to watch it anymore.

Sure enough, this time, after several minutes, Qi Lan sent a word: "Oh."

Xie Zhu picked up the phone again, staring at the word "oh", not knowing what he wanted to see.

Qi Lan: "Then, are you going to the class reunion?"

Xie Zhu was silent for a long time.

He bit his lip and typed a line.

"It depends on whether there is time, not sure."

After this message was sent, Qi Lan didn't reply for a long time.

Xie Zhu subconsciously glanced at the class group, everyone's topic has shifted from class reunion to boyfriend and girlfriend.

Qi Lan was in the group chat, someone teased him that he didn't have a girlfriend, could it be that he has a boyfriend?

Qi Lan: "If you feel itchy, come out on weekends and make appointments. See you on the basketball court."

A male classmate immediately said: "Fuck, which court to make an appointment with, I will kill you [grin]"

Qi Lan: "[Grin]"

"Lao Wen is really hanging, don't be beaten to death by Brother Lan hahahahaha!"

"I bet a dime and Lao Wen was --- fucked [狗头]"

"Ah? Is there a need to bet on it? Does someone bet on your opponent to play with you?"

The high school classmate nicknamed Lao Wen jumped up: "Hey, wait a minute, my game skills have improved a lot in the past two years, and I can definitely put Lao Qi on the ground [middle finger]"

Qi Lan: "Then I'll wait [laughs]"

There was another burst of laughter in the group.

In the next second, Xie Zhu received another message from Qi Lan alone.

Qi Lan: "We plan to go out with Lao Wen and the others on Saturday, do you want to come together?"

Xie Zhu was taken aback.

It is false to say that the heart is not beating faster.

In the three years of high school, he and Qi Lan were not very familiar with each other. It seemed that he had never entered their circle of brothers.

But it's not unfamiliar, because the two of them sat at the front and back desks for three years.

Studying in the same class and living in the same city, winter and summer vacations and weekends often overlap.

In private, Qi Lan occasionally asked him to come out to play together.

In the past, every time Xie Zhu received such an invitation from Qi Lan, Xie Zhu always responded with joy and excitement without saying a word.

But now... now he doesn't want to go to this kind of invitation anymore.

In the end, he still didn't believe that the kind of good things Xiao Fangfang said would happen to him.

He couldn't guarantee that seeing Qi Lan again would make his eight years of self-restraint come to nothing, and whether he would reveal clues in front of Qi Lan and make the atmosphere among his old classmates awkward.

Not to mention, he is not that familiar with other classmates at all, and he will only feel uncomfortable if he goes there.

Xie Zhu lowered his eyes, and replied: "I have something to do on weekends, please have fun^^"

After replying, he immediately added another sentence: "I'm going to take a shower and go to bed, I'll chat when I have time [laughs]"

His signal to end the conversation was clear.

After only a few seconds, Qi Lan sent: "OK."

This night, Xie Zhu rarely fell asleep until four or five in the morning without insomnia.

But it was still not a good sleep, dreams came one after another, Xie Zhu's sleep was very restless.

After a while, I dreamed that the day when the college entrance examination scores came down, everyone was chatting excitedly in the class Q--Q group.

Most of the people in their class did well in the exam, and the group was full of joy. I don't know if they were too excited. Suddenly, someone mentioned that the so-and-so in the next class is gay, do you know?

Gossip question marks popped up quickly in the group, but Xie Zhu on the computer side was secretly startled.

"Where did you hear that? Did you see something with your own eyes???"

"From what people in their class said, the target seems to be an outsider, a man who has already worked [pick nose]"

"I'll go, I can't see it!"

"Are the boys in their class going to be scared to death hahahaha!"

"Sure, gay is by my side, what a ghost story!"

"Shouldn't there be AIDS?"

A bunch of boys and girls of all ages.

When making that kind of statement, it doesn't necessarily have much malice.

Maybe it was just getting the results of the college entrance examination, and I was so excited that I was dizzy, or maybe it was the mouth that didn't think about it.

However, the inadvertently exposed barrier between the two different groups of people still made Xie Zhu shiver from the cold as if being poured by a bucket of ice water.

Having been together day and night for three years, the classmates who should have been very familiar with each other seemed to be separated from him by a thick line in an instant.

They were on that side of the line, and he was on this side of the line.

He couldn't see the expressions on their faces when they talked about homosexuality, and he couldn't hear the laughter that came out of their mouths.

Xie Zhu covered his ears and backed away in panic.

He didn't even dare to look carefully to see if Qi Lan was also lazily standing among them, with a mocking smile on his face, looking at him coldly with strange, penetrating eyes.

……

The dream suddenly changed, and Xie Zhu came to the spring of his sophomore year again.

At that time, he had completely cut off contact with his high school classmates, and lived alone in the city where the university was located.

He didn't go home on May Day that year. On the first night of the holiday, he finished his homework and went to a gay bar to hang out with a gay guy from the same school he met by chance.

It was the first time in his life that he stepped into a gay bar, and he was a little nervous and apprehensive.

It was also the first time he saw a man in women's clothing, and he was shocked, and a little itchy.

Xie Zhu knew it.

He is not only a person here, but he has to cross a line again, and go straight to the world that is farthest from ordinary people - that is his real paradise.

Do you want to accept yourself like that?Or resist?

Xie Zhu had struggled before.

At a certain moment, he realized that he had already made up his mind not to force himself to pretend to be a "normal person", so why should he resist the line that had already been crossed once?

So he was taken into the small toilet of the gay bar and changed into women's clothes.

He was pushed on the seat again, and a little demon man carefully put on makeup for him.

After the makeup was finished, everyone was amazed, but Xie Zhu looked at his completely different self in the mirror, his heart was beating thumpingly.

At that time, he actually knew that his desire for women's clothing from the heart had a certain root.

It's just that he was so excited that he didn't have time to think about it for a while.

On that day, he didn't have a chance to think clearly.

Because after he left the gay bar, he ran into his parents who secretly came to that city to give him a surprise.

How absurd, how dramatic.

All the excitement evaporated in an instant, astonishment and panic filled the chest and brain, and the dream also spun and twisted in an instant, blending into a mass of taupe and dark tones.

……

Xie Zhu was struggling in his sleep.

Sweat broke out on his brow.

Bizarre dreams followed one after another.

He dreamed of the half-year-long quarrel and cold war between him and his parents, the hoarfrost that his father had put on his temples at some point, and his mother hiding in the room and crying secretly.

He dreamed that he himself was crying too, weeping constantly at a loss.

Then his mother rushed out of the room, hugged him and choked up, saying, okay, okay, stop arguing, that's it.

So be it.

The road you are going to take is really difficult. People outside will look at you differently, but no matter what happens in the future, Mom and Dad will always stand by your side.

Family is eternal harbor.

This statement certainly doesn't apply to all families, but it definitely applies to their home.

That was the first time in Xie Zhu's life that he felt an indescribable sadness.

This is also the true selfless love given to him by his parents.

But in the end, he lost even this only harbor.

Xie Zhu in his sleep started to cry again, and after crying for a while, he gradually calmed down.

Outside the window, the sky is getting brighter.

His dream finally returned to the most peaceful moment.

In the high school classroom, the evening sunset light slanted in from the window.

The head teacher is holding a class meeting, talking about some things that are not there. Some people in the class are doing their homework by themselves, and some are chatting secretly. Everyone is doing their own things, and the classroom is filled with murmurs of discussion.

And behind him, there was a hand brushing the end of his hair intentionally or unintentionally.

The boy smiled lightly, with a trace of teasing, and whispered behind his ear: "Little Zhuzi, look at the blackboard, where are you looking?"

……

Xie Zhu trembled slightly.

He opened his eyes in the morning light.

eye has swelled up.

When Xie Zhu was brushing his teeth, he looked at his face carefully and came to this conclusion.

In addition, a night of chaotic dreams upside down made his head ache.

Xie Zhu didn't even have an appetite for breakfast, so he sat on the sofa for a while, recalling how many times he had a headache recently, and finally took out his mobile phone and made an appointment for a doctor.

At noon, I cleaned the empty home.

As soon as I put down the mop, a call from my ex-company colleague came.

The things he asked were nothing more than those jobs that he had handed over before he left the job - he didn't know what the other party heard during the handover, it was obviously something that Xie Zhu had repeated several times, but the other party seemed to have lost his memory Yes, I have to ask them one by one on the phone.

After Xie Zhu answered patiently, the man complained: "It's so annoying, it's such a mess, you didn't make it clear before you left! It's okay, I will call you again if I have any questions."

Xie Zhu was stunned, and before he had time to argue, the other party had already hung up the phone rudely.

Xie Zhu stared at his mobile phone, took a deep breath, and this time, he directly blacklisted all his former colleagues.

Call him again if you have any questions?

If he answers this kind of call again, he will be a pig!

Xie Zhu sat down at the dining table in the living room irritably.

Headache, fast heartbeat, and the whole body is very uncomfortable.

Xie Zhu closed his eyes and sat for a while before recovering.

The house is quiet.

It's too quiet and too sloppy.

Xie Zhu didn't know how long he had been free, and finally got up slowly, took the drawing board, and started to draw without doing anything.

Painting has been his hobby since he was a child, and it can probably be regarded as his only specialty. The few two or three thousand followers on his Weibo are all because of his paintings. Provide him with some income.

Xie Zhu spent three or two strokes on a character, and when the image of the character gradually became clear, his attention finally began to concentrate.

I don't know how long it took, the class WeChat group started to make noise again, and the phone vibrated continuously.

Xie Zhu was harassed, picked up the phone, thought to turn on Do Not Disturb, but inadvertently scanned Qi Lan's name.

A bit disappointing.

He couldn't help but click in and take a look.

Not knowing what was discussed earlier, He Jiawei came out and said, "Old Qi is not at work now, he is in graduate school, don't you know?"

There are several boys in the group who are good brothers of Qi Lan and have been in contact with them all the time, so they are not at all surprised by what He Jiawei revealed.

Most of the other students were taken aback.

"Damn, Brother Lan actually passed the postgraduate entrance examination?"

"... awesome!"

"Then is he studying in city A now? Which school?"

He Jiawei: "Just X major, it seems to be in the direction of biology. Now I'm bored in the laboratory all day, so I say he's busy!"

"I go……"

"The former scumbag has become a top student!"

"Brother Lan's gene has mutated?"

"No wonder, Brother Lan's basketball court on Saturday is at University X!"

"Are you guys planning to go to X Big on Saturday??"

"After playing basketball, go out for dinner at night."

Xie Zhu was stunned.

There are many top universities in city A, the university that Wen Liang studied at is one of them, and the university that Wu Yang studied at is also one of them, and the other university that stands side by side with these two schools is what He Jiawei said The X is large.

In high school, Qi Lan was notoriously ignorant and incompetent. When he was in the third year of high school, he suddenly changed his appearance and studied vigorously. He rushed to a 985 in a foreign province. It shocked the whole school, and now he was admitted to X University of graduate students...

"..." Xie Zhu's mood became complicated.

He pursed his lips, moved his finger, and clicked into Qi Lan's circle of friends.

His circle of friends was set to be visible within three days, but at this moment it was blank, with nothing.

Xie Zhu put down his phone, looked at the drawing board in front of him, and suddenly couldn't draw anymore.

He lay down on the table, thinking, why not... or find another job quickly?

However, don't want to talk to strangers.

I don't want to force myself to get along with all kinds of people with different personalities.

I do not want to go to work.

Insomnia, headache, palpitation, anxiety, unspeakable discomfort all over the body, the whole body seems to be squeezed to the extreme, and it is about to explode.

He is like a waste, he just wants to hide in a certain corner of the world, and curl up quietly by himself.

There were two "buzzing" sounds, and the phone vibrated again.

Xie Zhu moved, glanced wearily, and was slightly dazed.

This time, it was a WeChat message from Wuyang.

"Zhuzi Zhuzi, come out to play on Saturday, I have an appointment with Brother Sheng and Liangliang, let's go play the board game [火花][火花][火花]"

"It's time to wear women's clothes, let's have a girl! Dress up! Big! Lie down!"

The tone is cheerful.

A person like a little sun, even between the lines is full of vitality.

Xie Zhu's heart seemed to be tightened, and the warmth flowed in continuously, covering the entire chest.

He bent his lips, reached for his phone, and replied, "Okay."

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