straight to heaven

The old house that I lived in for many years was sold by Ms. Xu Yun at a high price, and the money was invested in a shop.I had nowhere else to go and slept in a hotel out of sheer necessity.

Fortunately, the debt that has been weighing on my head has finally been paid off. Seeing that there are still some numbers left in the bank card, although it is small, I can spend it with peace of mind.

The pillows in the hotel are too soft, my cervical spine is not good, and I can't sleep well overnight.

Early the next morning, the fog floated into a grayish white, as if in a dome.

There is already a long queue at the famous steamed stuffed bun shop nearby.I dragged my half-dead body to stand at the end of the line, surrounded by a familiar local accent. I raised the collar of my assault jacket to block most of the cold wind, when I suddenly received a voice message.

It's my mother. I don't know if it's an illusion, but her tone is a bit reserved.

She said that the daughter of one of Gao Kai’s clients was single and also working in the capital. She saw the photo and offered to invite me to have afternoon tea. The time will be discussed later and asked if I would agree.

The next message column is the New Year greeting I sent to Pei Yanlai.

To put it bluntly, it is a blind date.I don't want to agree, but it's about my stepfather's business, so I have to nod if I don't.

I don't intend to delay other girls, just speak clearly in person, even if the other party conveys my orientation to my mother, I don't care.

It is also a good thing to be able to do it once and for all.

After dealing with my mother, I held three ounces of shrimp dumplings in my left hand and a bowl of soy milk in my right hand, but when I entered the dining area, I found that it was overcrowded, and there were no empty tables in the narrow square area.

I secretly said bad luck, and turned around to find the back kitchen to pack, but I heard someone calling me.

"...Lin Xiaoshan?"

His voice was small, with hesitation in his tone.But most people are sensitive to their own names, I don't think I got it wrong.

After looking around the dining area, I met the man sitting at the table for two in the corner.

When the eyes intersected, he was determined, showed a surprised smile, and waved at me.

"Hi! Lin Xiaoshan! Is that you?"

"Zhang Xiaomao?"

He was very thin when he was in school, and he looked like San Mao in San Mao's Wandering Notes.I haven't seen him in almost ten years, let alone forty catties of fat, and the zipper of the jacket can't even be zipped, and it's wide open.

I didn't recognize it at first glance.

I didn't expect what I said to my mother last night to be true. I was stunned for two seconds, and then I heard him say with a smile: "It's me! You didn't find a seat, did you? Come on, the opposite side of me is empty, you sit, let's go together!"

Zhang Xiaomao is open-mouthed and passionate.I don't know him very well, but old classmates who reunited after a long absence always have something to talk about together.

After three or five pleasantries, the topic of adults naturally came to work.He heard that I was working in a law firm and asked how I was treated.To be honest, I didn't answer too badly, but I was still struggling in the capital.

Looking back now, I really don’t know how I saved the savings of more than 20 yuan by tightening my belt.

Zhang Xiaomao and I are not far behind, and we are just passing by.Single, his parents are old, and the family factory is not profitable. I heard Geng kept saying that he sold the car years ago.

"...The squad leader also works in law. Hey, you know he's back in China, right?"

I bit the dumpling open, the soup splashed into my throat, and I coughed a few times due to choking.

Even if Pei Yanlai's deity is not there, I can't get around it when I go around - it's one of the reasons why I haven't attended class reunions for so many years.

He is my own curse. When I think of it alone, it will cause thirst and excessive desire, but when I read it from the mouth of my old acquaintance, the sky will fall in front of me, and one step forward will be my body.

The gravy was hot to the base of the tongue and it hurt.I heard myself say, "Well, I know."

Zhang Xiaomao said surprisingly: "Hey, look at what I asked. You two had such a good relationship back then, how could you not know."

As if the soup was flowing back, I coughed a few more times, and it took me a while to respond: "We... Pei Yanlai and I have a good relationship?"

Geng has always been close to me, so it's fine for him to say that, but why does Zhang Xiaomao say the same?

"Huh? You two are together every day!... I don't have amnesia, do I?"

I explained: "It's really average. They are at the same table, so it is inevitable that they will meet more."

This false assertion disturbs me.

Someday it will fall into Pei Yanlai's ears, and if I am the one who is embarrassed again, it is better to spread the facts as soon as possible, rather than deceiving myself and others.

"You are so modest." But Zhang Xiaomao said: "I think the squad leader just treats you well and treats you as a buddy, which is different from us. Sour."

My hand holding the spoon was shaking, and I blurted out the truth: "Don't scare me."

"The friendship between the squad leader and our so-called gentleman is as light as water, and you are the one..."

The corner of my mouth twitched: "Am I a villain?"

"Fuck, that's not what I meant." Zhang Xiaomao realized that he was making a joke, waved his hands, and accidentally knocked over the vinegar bottle next to him.

"Hey! Look at my hands and feet, I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

I helped him and wiped away the puddle of stale vinegar with paper. The two inferior and rough paper towels were soaked and dyed in an indescribable color, and I heard him say it again.

"By the way, it's like this vinegar. You see, even if the kettle is knocked over, it doesn't taste good, but the effect of the vinegar bottle is different."

The movements of his hands slowed down, and he continued: "I remember one time, Cao Heng and I escaped our lunch break to play basketball. Because we were afraid of being caught by Li Kui, we took a detour, and then we saw the squad leader hitting you with a loquat in the back mountain. I Both Cao Heng and Cao Heng were dumbfounded."

"..."

"Squad leader knows how to control one person, we have never seen him make such a fuss with others." Zhang Xiaomao's tone was a little regretful.

I suspect that either Pei Yanlai is the ultimate PUA master, or these people are born masochists like me.It's actually easy to be violently treated by Pei Yanlai. With a little sexual harassment, you can unlock the achievement of drowning in water or being covered in scars.

But forget it, this honor is enough for me to enjoy alone.

"It was an accident," I said.

In mid-April in the third year of high school, the weather became hot, and the air conditioners in the classroom started to run.The air conditioner is very old, especially when the cold air is turned on, there is a "whoosh" sound, which is quite noisy.

No one speaks in the classroom during the lunch break, and the noise of the air conditioner is more obvious.Pei Yanlai felt annoyed, so she went downstairs with the teaching assistant.

I followed by myself.

The sun in late spring is warm, and there is a row of loquat trees in the back mountain, with green and yellow loquats hanging on the branches, and the light leaks from the gaps in the branches and leaves to the ground.

Pei Yanlai leaned against a loquat tree, with large or small bright spots on the back of her hand.

With three thousand words in English in my hand, I saw a loquat on top of his head that was about to lose its flavor.

That guy is not familiar with it, and it can knock people's heads unconscious.I didn't want to disturb Pei Yan's study, but I wanted to do good deeds, so I put down the book in my hand and quietly climbed up from the other side of the tree.

The trunk is thick, but not too tall.I reached the top in a few minutes.

But I'm probably Pei Yanlai's nemesis.

As soon as my hand touched the branch, my feet slipped.I stabilized my body, but the branch swung violently, the loquat shook twice, and then fell straight down with an acceleration visible to the naked eye.

——The landing point is Pei Yanlai's top.

"Pei Yan..."

I only had time to say two words, and I heard a "boom".

The loquat hits the bullseye.

It even slipped from the top of Pei Yanlai's head to the teaching aid book in his hand.

Help, I'm going to die.

My hanging legs shrank suddenly, and I crouched in a ball on the tree with a guilty conscience.

Just when Pei Yanlai looked up at me silently, I opened my mouth and explained: "...I wanted to remind you, but I didn't make it in time."

"Come down." He reminded softly.

In principle, I never disobey him, but when it comes to life and death, I still stick to my decision: "I, I will squat for a while."

"Can't get down?" He asked again.

In the past, he never said a sentence a second time. I found it strange, but I also sensed the danger.

I replied with a dull expression: "...Forget it."

Then Pei Yan said yes.

As soon as the book was closed, the half-lived loquat fell into his palm.

He tossed it up, bounced it twice, as if he was evaluating the weight, and then walked away.I thought the catastrophe was over, so I let it out in one breath.

But before I could relax for two seconds, the loquat in Pei Yanlai's hand slammed into my face steadily and accurately.

I couldn't dodge in time, was shot in the forehead, made a "grass", and slid down the tree like a sack.

Fortunately, my eyesight and hands quickly grabbed a section of the branch at hand, otherwise my tailbone would be the unlucky one.

At the end of his gaze was Pei Yanlai's back.

There were only three taels of shrimp dumplings and a bowl of soy milk left in the bottom of the bowl. The conversation between Zhang Xiaomao and me lasted more than ten minutes and came to an end.

The meeting is neither long nor short, so that you will not run out of ammunition and food to be embarrassed and have nothing to say, nor will you be so eloquent that you still have more to say.The old story is like this, a few more greetings than "Long time no see" are considered human beings.

Going out, the road divides into two sides, he is left and I am right, and he started the last sentence.

"When I was in school, how could I have imagined that I, Zhang Xiaomao, have seen the end of my life before I turned thirty." Zhang Xiaomao stroked the top of his hair, which was looming in danger of baldness: "But think about it. A big star is only a wedding master of ceremonies, so I don't think it's all due to bad luck."

I looked at him, and he smiled at me, not bitterly, but I felt bitter after watching it.

"To live is to fuck," he said.

"You're right." I replied.

Back to the hotel.I opened the classmate group and clicked on Sun Tingzhou's personal business card for the first time.I didn't add him, [add to address book] these rigid boldface characters are like a hurdle, lying in the past that I can't look back.

The ID is "A Ruopan Wedding Louis", which makes it difficult for me to equate him with the glorious Sun Tingzhou in the past.

Destiny is like Judgment Taut, the power to reshape varies, but it breaks everyone equally.

Click on Pei Yanlai's homepage again.

He does not distinguish between work WeChat and personal WeChat, and he can see that the circle of friends that is still empty in half a year is like a day in ten years.

There are really people in the world who don't need to live.Everything about him is concise and cramped, the bottomless darkness can only accommodate himself.

It rained heavily at night, I didn't want to go out to buy food, so I ordered room service.

I ordered egg fried rice and eight-treasure porridge, but because it was the first day of the Chinese New Year, the hotel also included a bottle of concentrated grape juice.

I unscrewed it, and the juice overflowed too slowly. After shaking it around, a few drops sporadically leaked on the shoe.

Today I am wearing a pair of white sneakers.

The grape juice fell on the toe and side of the shoe, and after it smeared, it was similar to the stain of red wine, and it was difficult to distinguish.

The wall-mounted TV was stopped on CCTV 365, and the Spring Festival Gala just happened to be rebroadcasted to a chorus of several familiar stars singing "[-] Days of Missing You".

I walked on the tightrope, but my memory was uncontrollable, and I went back to a scene with the same frequency as this song.

The white elephant broke out of its cage, and I saw its ordinary panorama again.

——If you must find a point where we fall apart, it will be the last time Pei Yan and I come together.