straight to heaven

In mid-July, the highest temperature in the capital was forecast to exceed 39 degrees for four consecutive days. In the past few days, the first national lawyers' professionalism forum hosted by the government was scheduled to be held in Lingshi, and well-known lawyers from large firms were invited.

I also saw the email, but I didn't expect Pei Yanlai to go there in person.

Until he sent me a string of numbers containing the flight number and departure time.

At that time, I just came back from the district court, and I was so hot that I was dazed. I was stunned for a moment when I received this order, and asked him, who are you going, and who are you taking?

Pei Yanlai looked away from the computer screen, looked up at me like I was looking at an idiot, and said, you.

Oh me.

I?

So two days later, Pei Yanlai and I took a flight to revisit our hometown.

The official arrangement is business class, and the environment is not uncomfortable.The reason is that it is summer vacation, the peak season when parents take their children to travel. I am sitting in the aisle, and on the left is a family of eight, including a young child, chattering non-stop.

In this environment, let alone Pei Yan, it is difficult for me to fall asleep.

I plugged in an earphone for Pei Yanlai, Pei Yanlai closed his eyes, took it off, saying it was too noisy.

Pei Yanlai and I were not the only ones in the cabin who had disagreements. Within 2 minutes, when Pei Yanlai opened his eyes, his expression was calm but turbulent, and when he wanted to make a move, a young girl sitting behind spoke.

"I'm sorry, auntie, noise is prohibited on the plane, can you keep your voice down, let's be considerate to each other."

"... Okay, okay." The aunt was asked to shut up by name, and her complexion was not good, but she still twisted the child's ears: "If you quarrel again, your mother will throw you out of the window and break you into pieces Ni, did you hear that?!"

The child howled and covered his mouth in fear after hearing it.

For a brief moment of peace, I breathed a sigh of relief.

I can’t connect to the Internet on the plane, but the long media images cached locally on Weibo are still there.

Three days ago, the "capital serial rape case" became a hot search.

The protagonist of the rape case, Wang Haotian, male, 29 years old, is a former application programmer of an Internet company.In addition to sneaking into women's public restrooms to take sneak shots, he used blind dates as an excuse to illegally purchase illegal drugs, used secret drugs, raped dozens of women, and took indecent photos as threats.

During the period, many victims reported that they had been harassed and molested by them on public transportation.

The procuratorate instituted a public prosecution in accordance with the law. Because the facts were clear, the circumstances were serious, and the social impact was bad, the court of first instance sentenced him to 11 years in prison.After the verdict was announced, Wang gave up his appeal.

However, the results of the survey were indeed surprising.

Rape is a public prosecution case, but because it involves personal privacy, it is difficult to file a case and obtain evidence. The court’s determination of whether it constitutes a violation of women’s will is vague, making it difficult for the victim to determine the legitimacy of sexual behavior based on his willingness. maintain.

For example, in this serial rape case, there were dozens of victims. In the end, no one chose to report the case because of the photos in the defendant's hands and the pressure of public opinion.

sad?

I think that no one who stays out of the incident has the right to characterize the incident on behalf of the victim.Lawyers need to be more vigilant.

Pei Yanlai closed her eyes and rested by my side.

I touched his wrist without intention, and he didn't respond.

Today, I can probably understand why Pei Yanlai chose this industry.

For a nation dominated by religion, religion itself is a powerful violent machine, and other forms are the same, so there is no more powerful individual.In such a theoretically rule-based world, the object that can be regulated by law is the maximum reachable boundary of an individual's arm span.

It really is the battlefield of careerists.

After getting off the plane, the event party should have sent someone to pick them up at the hotel they booked together, but Pei Yanlai refused in advance.He made an appointment for a car, and the destination was the apartment he lived in in high school.

It was a cloudy day in Lingshi, and the temperature was much lower than that of the capital. When the car windows were opened, the wind rushed in, making it cool and comfortable.

An outrageous but reasonable guess on Pei Yanlai emerged, and I asked him, "Could it be that you came to the forum because..."

"Well," Pei Yanlai said with downcast eyes, "The capital is too hot, it's annoying."

"……"really.

Unexpectedly, ten years have passed since I walked into this house for the second time.Before coming here, Pei Yan came to ask someone to clean it, and the bed was newly changed.

Because no one lives there and it is covered with a dust cover, the loss of furniture is not great. Except for outdated electrical appliances, it looks like a new house at first glance.

Just stay for a few days, not much luggage.As soon as the packing was done, Pei Yanlai asked, "Where do you want to go?"

The forum will be held in three days from tomorrow, with six hours in the morning and afternoon, and the rest is free time.It's four o'clock in the afternoon, I thought about it and gave a very constructive opinion.

"Why don't you just go for a stroll?"

Then Pei Yanlai and I really went for a stroll.

The neighborhood is too close to the high school, and within a few minutes of walking, I saw the school gate of Lingshi No. [-] Middle School.

There is a sunset stationery store in front of the school. I heard that the owner of the store is hereditary, and the store is older than me.

Ten years ago, there was a young Chihuahua tied to the door of the store, and it is still there now, but it is dying and shriveled much more than in memory.

This chihuahua used to bark wildly when it saw Pei Yanlai. It can be regarded as an animal's prediction of danger, but it got Pei Yanlai's extra gaze before me-it's embarrassing to say it, but I did envy it once, and when we met again At this moment, I clearly recall the feeling at that time.

Pei Yanlai and I approached, and the Chihuahua stood up from the ground.Its limbs are as thin as dead branches, and its eyes are protruding, but the vigorous posture of jumping up and barking makes me dazed.

The cry was high-pitched and bright, and there were no surprises, Pei Yanlai was attracted by it again.

I am not very happy.

Crouching outside its attack range, I looked at it calmly, and then let it "shut up".I've done this many times, but I used to scare it secretly after Pei Yanlai left, but this time I did it in front of Pei Yanlai.

Childhood shadows will accompany people throughout their lives, and maybe dogs too.

I also didn't expect this Chihuahua to react the same way it did ten years ago, almost like a conditioned reflex.

It fell to the ground and kicked up with four hooves, so angry and depressed that I began to self-examine whether I shouldn't care about an octogenarian small dog.

The confrontation with it was interrupted by Pei Yanlai's laugh.

I stood up and said, "This dog is not only fierce, but also a rascal."

Pei Yanlai looked at me with a very strange look, and said after a long time: "A dog that doesn't bark is the most vicious biter."

The tone was very subtle, and I immediately realized that this dog was not that dog, and I blushed.

Going forward, passing the main entrance of the school, the words of Lingshi No. [-] Middle School have been re-plated, and the gate has also been renovated. There are no students in the summer, but the security guards are still on duty.

My senior year of high school was spent at another boarding school, which was more human than there.If Pei Yanlai is here, it will be heaven.

"Li Kui advised me not to repeat." I stepped on the stones on the ground: "I didn't listen."

A dark cloud came from the north, just covering the sun completely, and the shadows of Pei Yanlai and I faded, with rough outlines, and it was hard to tell who was who.

"I wanted to go to the capital to find you. What I thought at the time was...Although it is not the same school, it is still the same city no matter how bad it is. Maybe we will meet."

Pei Yan came to kick the stone away, now I can only look at him.He said, "Yeah."

His reaction was normal, but I found it subtle.

I froze for a moment and asked, "You know all of this?"

"I know." He nodded, and the answer was not surprising.

Suddenly a gust of wind blew up, it was cool and damp, the clothes corners of Pei Yanlai and I were blown up, it actually aroused goose bumps in the summer.

On the subway at the end of the second trial of the Li Yangming case, Yan University’s comments on Pei Yanlai seemed to be close to my ears, and the friction sound of the carriage passing through the tunnel brought me back to the night when I disagreed with my mother many years ago.

After a long silence, I asked him almost firmly: "Did you go abroad in the first semester of your freshman year because you saw the volunteer form I filled out?"

To take care of my mother's emotions during pregnancy, in my senior year of high school, I printed out a full-page A4-sized draft plan, and the selected colleges and universities were all over the world, but none of them were in the capital.

I know I shouldn't think too much about it.

In terms of emotion and reason, it would be abnormal if Pei Yanlai had the opportunity to go to Yeda and still choose to stay in Yemen University.But unfortunately, I rarely guess wrong about Pei Yanlai.

Regarding this question, Pei Yanlai did not give me any answer.Impulsive like a surge subsided in an instant, I went to hold his hand, like a couple who fell in love early in adolescence, our palmprints are close to palmprints, and we don't need to force ourselves to close together.

He didn't say anything, just kept walking, passing by the school gate without any hesitation.I know I'm right.

I used to think that Pei Yan came to strengthen the steel frame and have no space to enter.

Elegant and gentle appearance makes him like a fish in water in a humane society where interests are paramount. He is always calm, always easy to handle, and always a hunter who makes plans and draws his bow. There is only one Zeus on Mount Olympus.

But the world can't draw a perfect circle, and Pei Yanlai is no exception.

... The pure egoists I thought were not pure.

Pei Yanlai's altruistic complex is me.

When I walked to the door of "Half Catty Scrap Iron", I was still thinking, God, do I have such a great charm?It's bad luck for Pei Yan to meet me in eight lifetimes, I have to treat him better.

After the Spring Festival, I saw Lao Wei's circle of friends. He spent a month transforming "half a catty of scrap iron" into a multi-bar with food and beverages. Obviously, it has achieved little results.As the meal time approached, the passenger flow was much more than before.

Pei Yan and I came to push the door in and bumped into Lao Wai.He grew a beard again, and it seemed that the incumbent had become the ex.

"Welcome light... eh? Is it you?"

Lao Wai looked at him and then at me, at me and at him, and suddenly laughed out loud: "What do you drink today? A Roman couple or a Sahara honeymoon, I will make it for you two myself."

The patchwork name of the wine is quite bluffing, so I asked, "Did you make it up now?"

Lao Wai pushed his sunglasses, and said in a low voice, "How do you know?"

I couldn't help laughing: "Young poor."

"Who is this?" Pei Yanlai asked in a gentle voice, tilting her head to the side.

Before I could speak, Laowai waved his hands and hummed twice, and said softly, "Just call me Laowai."

I wasn't sure if Pei Yanlai remembered this character, and added: "It's an old friend."

"It's a little close, who is an old friend with you, you tricked me into giving a discount?" Lao Wai waved his hand and said to me artificially: "I forgot to ask, what's your name?"

It is also rare for people over fifty to go crazy.

"It's almost done, uncle crooked." Pei Yan is here, and I'm not willing to cooperate with him in acting: "I won't drink today."

Old Wai couldn't hold it any longer, covered his mouth and laughed twice.

He formally sent a greeting and was about to take us to a secluded place, but Pei Yanlai looked at him and said softly, I remember you.

Old Wai was taken aback, and played Tai Chi with him, I also remember you, you were handsome, and you often came to drink in high school.

Pei Yanlai smiled, lowered her eyes, I couldn't see clearly, so I didn't say anything.

I guess he must have thought of the phone call I made to him during the Chinese New Year, or remembered that there was such a witness to the Lin Hui tragedy back then, and it is very likely that this person happened to tell me the whole story.

But these are not important anymore.

Without ordering, Lao Wai made two and a half servings of avocado and egg salad—Pei Yan and I each had half of the avocado, and he had the kernels; Pei Yan and I had half of the eggs, and the yolk was mine.

I said, and didn't say that I wouldn't pay, Uncle Crooked, you're a bit picky.The old man replied, what do children know?I'm just praising the two of you for what kind of pot and what kind of cover, one radish and one hole, it's predestined.

The common saying is too vulgar, but the appeal of the last sentence is huge.

—we have been torn, or shattered, and mutilated, but the broken key will have a matching lock.I turn on him and he engulfs me.

Fated, what a word.

It was eight o'clock after dinner, the lights suddenly dimmed, and it was officially time for night drinks.

Pei Yanlai fits perfectly with the shadows, he is no longer a gentleman in the dark, a dim red lamp above his head lights up and goes out, like a lit wildfire, his facial features go out with the light, his handsomeness is dangerously handsome.

I obviously didn't drink, but my heart was full of lust, and I felt that I was about to get drunk.

It just so happened that the resident singer who was hired by Lao Wai was late for some reason today, so I got overwhelmed and was ordered to take the microphone when I was in danger.

"Send you a gift in return." When I got up, I said this to Pei Yanlai.

The keyboard player made a key, and I sat on the high stool and made an OK gesture.The audience was noisy, whistles were blowing sparsely, music was playing, and I could only see one person.

……

"I wish I could be you,"

"That pile of mud underfoot."

Come Pei Yan, there are as many people offering sacrifices to you as crucian carp crossing the river.

My posture is not beautiful enough, not soft enough.

Even hunger is like a leech that smells rust, and entanglement is like a moss that loves yin and tide, only the desire for monopoly is majestic and vigorous.

"To protect you,"

"I ignored the filth on my body."

But look at me.

Look at Lin Xiaoshan.

His soul is dry, his spiritual life is dull, and he has nothing but his young body.

"Don't underestimate me,"

"Even if it's this kind of mud"

Humans are born to die.But as long as you're there, he can yaw.

This sincerity is unique and unrivaled.

……

Even the sound of breathing is amplified so loudly by the microphone——

"It can nourish you,"

"Exhausting every minute makes you crush everything."

I am this kind of scum.

I love you.

? Aleph Zero

"Mud" Andy Hui