How to break the old attack

Xiao Chen found a sleeping blanket in the nanny's car, shook it out, and covered the sleeping Lu Yan.

As soon as he lowered his head and met a pair of dark eyes, Xiao Chen shook his hands violently in fright, and dropped the sleeping blanket on Lu Yan's body.

Xiao Chen said anxiously, "Brother Lu, are you awake?"

Xiao Chen saw that his face was pale, and said again: "Are you...do you feel uncomfortable anywhere?"

Lu Yan didn't listen to what Xiao Chen had to say, he didn't have any emotions so he swept around the car.

Lin An's figure was not found, and he held the hand on his lap uncontrollably.

Because of the force, the nails were embedded in the palm of the hand, and turned from red to white with blood loss.

Lu Yan mechanically looked at Xiao Chen, his pupils were out of focus, and he asked, "Where's Lin An?"

Xiao Chen was dumb for a moment. He had seen Lu Yan's gentleness and Lu Yan's anxiety, but he had never seen Lu Yan like this.

There is no emotion on the face, no focus and no light in the eyes, like a robot without emotional reserves.

And more like a broken robot.

When I asked where Lin An was, I almost relied on instinct, relying on the last backup circuit, to find his owner.

As if only Lin An could heal his damaged parts, only Lin An was the only person in his reserves to remember.

Xiao Chen's scalp was numb from Lu Yan's eyes, and he said, "Brother Lin is going out to deal with some matters, and he will be back soon."

After finishing speaking, he hurriedly looked for his mobile phone and sent a message to Lin An.

[Brother Lin: Brother!Brother Lu woke up!Looking for you! ! ! 】

At that time, Lu Yan looked out of the car window, his eyes glanced at the house outside, and a flash of light emerged from the bottom of his dark eyes.

As soon as Xiao Chen finished sending the message to Lin An, the sound of opening the door came from beside him. When he turned his head, there was no sign of Lu Yan beside him.

Looking out of the car, only the corner of Lu Yan's clothes was caught, Xiao Chen gasped.

Xiao Chen who forgot to ask Uncle Yu to lock the car door: "!!!"

"Brother Lu, where are you going?!" Xiao Chen ran after him, and ran into Li Xingshou who came out of Li's house.

But Xiao Chen didn't have the energy to talk to Li Xingshou at all, so he chased after Lu Yan.

He thought that Lu Yan would run away, but he chased after him and saw that Lu Yan did not run away.

Instead, he stood in front of the door of the family next door to Li's, raised his chin, and stared in one direction in a daze.

Lu Yan has always known that his traumatic stress disorder can be mild or severe, but anything stimulated by the outside world is much more serious.

The most serious thing was probably seeing the severed finger in the gift box like at Li Xingshou's house back then.

So serious that he wanted to kill himself.

Only the things he recalled by himself, and the things he faced by himself, would make him so calm that he didn't look like a normal person.

Just like now.

The house in front of me is both familiar and strange.

What is familiar is the same building, the same flower bed yard, but what is strange is that the people living inside are no longer the Lu family.

After Lu Sheng's accident, this place was discarded by their Lu family together with their memories.

Lu Yan has not been back for many years. On the one hand, he is staying abroad and has no chance to come back. On the other hand, he is the same as everyone in the Lu family——

dare not come back.

Once you set foot here, the buried memories are pushed away bit by bit, exposed in your mind, and played back and forth.

His mother's screams echoed in his ears, and the express box placed in front of the door was vaguely in front of him.

It would be nice if there was no brother.

This was the last word Lu Sheng said to him when he left.

Lu Yan grabbed the iron door in front of him violently, and the iron door was shaken violently by his strength, making a piercing sound of iron sizzling.

He clutched his chest, wanting to be overwhelmed by those memories, stuffy and painful, the pain made his throat dry and sore, even the corners of his eyes were red.

There is a feeling of overwhelming pain.

At this time, two figures broke in from the corner of the eye, Lu Yan tilted his head slightly, and saw them clearly, it was Xiao Chen who followed, and behind Xiao Chen was Li Xingshou.

I also saw the worry in their eyes.

Lu Yan suddenly remembered that before he fell asleep, he met Shen Moyu, and remembering what Mo Mo said to Lin An, he looked up at the second floor of Li's house.

Lin An is at Li's house.

Something flashed through Lu Yan's brain, and his calm eyes gradually became frightened.

He turned his head stiffly, stared at Xiao Chen closely, and asked, "What did Mo Moyu say?"

Xiao Chen replied to him without delay: "Brother Lu, if you are silent, you will treat him as crazy, who will believe him."

Fearing that Lu Yan would not believe it, he even asked Li Xingshou beside him: "Brother Li, who will believe what Mo Moyu says?"

Lu Yan looked at Li Xingshou.

Li Xingshou was also looking at him, Li Xingshou who knew the truth hoarsely said "hm", but his eyes turned red again like when he was in the study.

Now, what kind of mood is Lu Yan looking at the old house where the Lu family used to live.

It took so much courage to stand here, thinking of the deaths of Lu Sheng and Lu's mother, and thinking of Lu Yan's illness, Li Xingshou couldn't face Lu Yan like a normal person.

Li Xingshou's appearance is the best proof to confirm what Lu Yan thinks in his heart. After so many years of brotherhood with Li Xingshou, Lu Yan can't see that Li Xingshou looks at him with a different emotion in his eyes.

That's right, Li Xingshou was also there.

Although he didn't know what Mo Moyu said after he left, the sentence "Lu Yan killed Lu Sheng" alone was enough to make any of them suspicious.

Lin An and Li Xingshou would appear at Li's house at this time, except to ask Mr. Li about Lu Sheng, Lu Yan couldn't think of any other possibility.

Regardless of whether Lin An and the others asked anything, Lu Yan felt that after today, the affairs of the Lu family could not be kept secret.

Paper can never contain fire.

What he was most afraid of telling Lin An would be overwhelming. He was so scared that he wanted to shiver from the cold.

What would Lin An think of him?

No matter how much he thought about him, Lin An would never like a person, even if they knew the truth, they still chose to hide it and choose to avoid him.

Lu Yan's eyes lost their light again, he lowered his head, and softly called Li Xingshou's name: "Li Xingshou."

Then, with disintegrating despair, he said: "Shen Moyu is right, I killed Shengsheng, and Shengsheng was killed by me..."

Admitting that he killed Lu Sheng, Lu Yan's voice almost choked.

Li Xingshou never expected that Lu Yan would directly talk about Lu Sheng, forgetting to hide the fact that he knew the truth, and refuted Lu Yan's words: "You didn't!"

Lu Yan's blood flowed backwards, his limbs were so stiff that he couldn't feel the temperature, Li Xingshou really knew it.

They came to Li's house just because of Lu Sheng's affairs.

Lu Yan shook his head and said, "Why didn't I? It was my existence that killed Shengsheng. If it wasn't for my existence, he wouldn't have run out of the house."

"If I hadn't had a big fight with him and left him alone, how could he have been kidnapped and..." Lu Yan was so choked up that he couldn't speak.

Li Xingshou's eyes were red with anger: "You are not wrong, it is that damned murderer who was wrong."

Lu Yan said: "If I'm not wrong, why doesn't my mother want me, she hates me so much that she died in front of my eyes!"

"My dad also hates me to the core. Everyone in the Lu family thinks that my existence killed them."

It is said that the bystanders are clear, and the authorities are confused.

Everyone in the Lu family was overwhelmed by the emotions of life and death, and lost their so-called reason.

How can a irrational person see right from wrong?

They were just looking for an outlet to vent their negative emotions, and that outlet was Lu Yan.

Dominated by too many negative emotions, even if Lu Yan is not at fault, it will become his fault.

Even Lu Yan himself already thought that the death of Lu Sheng and Lu's mother was his fault.

For the first time, Li Xingshou felt that Lu Yan was a brainless person, and wished he could give him a good beating to make him realize that he was not wrong.

As long as Lu Yan is immersed in self-blame one day, he will never be able to get rid of these pains, and how can he cure his illness.

Just when he was about to wake up Lu Yanhou, Li Xingshou saw a shadow.

He stared blankly at Lin An passing by him, not even noticing when Lin An came over.

He opened his mouth, wanting to call Lin An to stop him, but he had an illusion that only Lin An could wake up Lu Yan, so he closed his mouth and watched Lin An walk towards Lu Yan.

Xiao Chen also saw Lin An, and he was relieved.

Lingo is finally here!

He was almost out of breath by the current atmosphere, he didn't expect to be silent to that brat, what he said was true.

According to what Brother Li said, the whole thing was not Brother Lu's fault, but Brother Lu seemed to feel that it was his own fault from the bottom of his heart.

In this stalemate atmosphere, Xiao Chen couldn't say anything, Lin An's appearance in his eyes was simply a savior.

Lu Yan once wished to become Lin An's personal pendant, and wished to be by Lin An's side every minute.

But at this moment, seeing Lin An walking towards him step by step, Lu Yan chose to retreat.

"Lin An..." Could you not get close to me who is so miserable.

He retreated instinctively, but instinctively did not dare to let Lin An stay away from him. Even if he didn't want Lin An to get close to his unbearable self, he yearned deep down in his heart——

He didn't want to be abandoned by Lin An.

Lin An felt that the person in front of him was really stupid, obviously wanting him so much to take a step forward for him.

Now that he took many steps, this person retreated by himself, and Lin An was so distressed that his heart ached.

He was extremely glad that he never gave up on Lu Yan, this stupid person who made people feel distressed.

Already crushed by life to the point of dying, she still gave him all her tenderness and returned to him with her best side.

Lin An thought, he doesn't want Lu Yan to walk towards him, and he will walk in the future.

He grabbed Lu Yan, who was about to retreat, and put his arms around the trembling young man. He didn't say "Lu Yan, you are not wrong", nor did he say, "It was the murderer who killed Lu Sheng. It was Lu Sheng's death that caused the death of Lu Sheng. Mother Lu's death".

Lin An comforted Lu Yan's back, and just said softly: "Lu Yan, Lu Sheng is no longer in pain."

Lu Yan leaned against Lin An's body, his empty eyes had spots of light, and he murmured Lin An's words: "Sound he doesn't hurt anymore..."

As if a certain shackle of confinement had been opened in his heart, Lu Yan choked up and said, "He is still so young, how much pain he must have had at that time."

Lin An's eyes turned red, and he took a deep breath: "You found Lu Sheng, no one gave up looking for him, and you took him home."

"Lu Yan, Lu Sheng has returned home."

Lu Yan cried, crying like a child.

But even though he couldn't cry, he still heard Lin An say to him——

"Lu Yan, you should let yourself go."

The author has something to say: Sorry!I'm late~