She comes with light

In the brightly lit bar, the deafening sound of the DJ was heard, causing Li Siyan to have a splitting headache.

She bid farewell to her friends, and Shou Xing repeatedly tried to persuade her to stay, but seeing that she had made up her mind to go, she gave up.

Sitting in the taxi on the way back, she took out her mobile phone, opened WeChat, and saw the unread message in the red circle on the upper right of Xu Mengqing's profile picture.

[Xu Mengqing]: Sister Siyan, drink less wine.

Thinking of what he heard at the wine table, Li Siyan had no thought of replying, turned off the screen and stuffed the phone into his pocket indiscriminately.

She pushed down the car window, and the cold wind hit her face, which made her sober up a lot.

Attending a friend's birthday tonight, there are some familiar and unfamiliar people at the table, but it doesn't prevent them from getting together and talking nonsense.

Someone made fun of one of the uncle's age men and his girlfriend who was ten years younger than him.

They say they are girlfriends, but in fact, everyone at the table knows that this age difference is basically just a relationship where each takes what he needs.

Women need money, men need entertainment, and neither of them take the relationship seriously.

One of them laughed and said: "She is so much younger than you, such a young sister, after a few years, will you still be with her?"

The man smiled: "Woman, change it if it's not suitable."

The other person sighed endlessly: "I compensate you for my wonderful youth, I didn't expect you to be just a scumbag."

The man laughed and said indifferently, "Everyone takes what they need, they all come out to play."

Li Siyan's thoughts flickered, recalling that night, when the box of finger cots accidentally fell from his pocket, everything changed.

Xu Shi has always been single, and occasionally in the dead of night, Li Siyan would also wish to have someone by his side.

So she didn't refuse Xu Mengqing's approach that night, she thought she was obsessed with ghosts.

After that, I also half-pushed and half-accepted the other party's approach, and now it has evolved into an inexplicable/ambiguous relationship.

They would kiss like lovers and have intimate things, but their relationship was never mentioned.

Xu Mengqing returned to her third year of high school, and she would come over to cook for her on weekends, and they would eat together, watch movies, and do the dating process between lovers.

But every time she talked about her study, she would only say that it went well, but she never saw her do anything related to study.

It shouldn't be like this...

Li Siyan rubbed his forehead, feeling bored for a while.

When I got home, I opened the door and saw that the room was brightly lit, and I was stunned for a moment, and then realized that today is Saturday.

"Sister Si Yan." Xu Mengqing came out quickly, holding a glass of honey water in her hand, "Just in time, I just made honey water, and I want to ask when you will come back."

Li Siyan was sitting on the sofa, she drank half a cup of honey water, and heard Xu Mengqing say: "You said it was too sweet last time, I skipped a spoonful of honey this time." She approached Li Siyan, full of Looking forward to it: "Should the sweetness be just right this time?"

Li Siyan didn't speak, just quietly stared at Xu Mengqing's young face, she was only 20 years old.

"What's wrong?" Xu Mengqing touched her face, "Is there something on my face?"

Li Siyan put the glass back on the table, and said seriously and solemnly: "Meng Qing, don't come here again."

Now that Xu Mengqing has finally returned to school, she has the chance to come back to life again. As an elder, she must guide Xu Mengqing to lead a correct life.

The original intention of deciding to help Xu Mengqing was not to turn into the current relationship.

The smile on Xu Mengqing's face froze, she slowly put away the smile, with a look of bewilderment in her eyes, and said, "Sister Si Yan, did I do something wrong that made you unhappy?"

"Listen to me." Li Siyan looked into her eyes and said word by word: "You are still young, you should focus on the future, such as the current study."

"You..." A thin layer of mist appeared in Xu Mengqing's eyes, and her voice trembled a little, "Don't you want me?"

The heartbroken eyes almost softened Li Siyan's heart. She pinched her leg hard to stay awake, and continued: "Mengqing, you should understand that we have never been...other than friends."

Xu Mengqing grabbed Li Siyan's hand like a drowning person grabbing a piece of driftwood, but Li Siyan took her hand away.

Tears rolled in her eyes, and she stubbornly refused to cry in Li Siyan, she frowned and smiled slightly: "...OK."

Xu Mengqing left, and she was never seen again every weekend. Li Siyan was lost for a while, and returned to her the 20 transfers that had been forcibly detained by Xu's parents before.

She found someone casually to make love to, but all she could think of was that stubborn face that refused to shed tears. After only dating for one day, she broke up with that person.

In the past, he didn't want to make it up, but now he can't accept another person's kiss even if he wants to make it up, which makes Li Siyan feel painful.

She found a friend who had experienced love to tell her boredom.

After hearing this, the friend said with surprise: "Honey, you are in love with her! That's why you can't accept others touching you."

"Impossible." Li Siyan shook his head, "I didn't even tell her that I liked her, and when I went to bed...it was just a momentary fascination."

"If you don't like her, how can you just accept her kissing you and her fingers into you; if you don't like her, how can you think about the future for her; if you don't like her, how can you drive her away from you. "

"You just like her so much, you don't want her to stay by your side and have no intention of studying, and you want to be responsible for her life, so you want her to go to university and change her life by yourself."

"Impossible... Impossible..." Li Siyan murmured, she got up from the bar, staggered because of her drunkenness.

Finally got into a taxi alone.

"Where are you going?" the driver asked.

Li Siyan subconsciously mentioned the name of a community, and she was stunned for a moment after saying that, it was Xu Mengqing's community.

"No, let's go to Feicheng Garden."

She pushed down the window, and the taxi was galloping on the elevated road. The wind tonight was colder than the day she made up her mind.

He took out a lady's cigarette from the cigarette case and held it between his fingers, and pressed the lighter a few times with the other hand, but every time the flame was blown out by the wind.

After a few times, she felt dry, but suddenly remembered that a girl told her to stop smoking, which was bad for her health.

Her hands tightened subconsciously, and the unlit thin smoke was twisted in her palm.

It took Li Siyan three months to completely strip the name Xu Mengqing from her life.

Xu Mengqing hasn't sent her any more messages since that day, and they only maintain the relationship of WeChat friends. Occasionally, Li Siyan will see Xu Mengqing's recent photo in a friend, and he will unconsciously pick it with his finger, and finally close the photo calmly.

There are many people chasing her, and she will no longer find someone else to make do with just because she wants to forget someone. Facing the ridicule of her friends, she said the line again: "If fate comes, you will find it naturally."

At the end of the year, everyone in the circle of friends is busy celebrating the New Year with his family, but Li Siyan spent the New Year's Eve facing the silence of the house for many years.

There were also friends who invited her to their home for the New Year, but she declined them all with a smile. She was alone and didn't want to be part of the reunion that didn't belong to her.

Watching the program of the Spring Festival Gala, she suddenly wanted to eat dumplings. She clicked on the takeaway app. Fortunately, there are businesses open during the Spring Festival, so she wouldn't be able to eat some simple New Year's Eve dinner.

As soon as I clicked into a dumpling shop, a WeChat notification popped up on the notification bar.

[Xu Mengqing]: Happy New Year

Seeing this name, Li Siyan was stunned for a long time, and when he came back to his senses, he had already replied the same "Happy New Year".

"..." She pursed her lower lip, and it was timed out to withdraw.

[Xu Mengqing]: Have you eaten yet?

Li Siyan exhaled lightly, and quickly typed a word on the screen with his fingers: "No".

She thought, on a day like today, even if there is a pair of blood-sucking parents, they will go home to reunite.

I just hope that Xu Mengqing will not be forced by her parents to take money anymore.

[Xu Mengqing]: Me too, do you want to eat together?

No?Li Siyan couldn't help frowning, and the other party's explanation was sent over quickly.

[Xu Mengqing]: In Yanjing, this year I celebrate the New Year alone

[Xu Mengqing]: Maybe I will be alone in the future, haha

Li Siyan could read the bitter feeling behind the word "haha" to ease the embarrassment.

[Li Siyan]: Can you make dumplings?

Half an hour later, Xu Mengqing appeared at the door with the ingredients for making dumplings, probably in a hurry, Li Siyan could even see the fine sweat on her forehead, it was obviously winter.

As if nothing had happened, Li Siyan welcomed her in, made dumplings with her, and they had a simple New Year's Eve dinner on the Spring Festival Gala, but they were no longer lonely.

The girl's eyes were no longer enthusiastic when she saw her, she was as simple and pure as she had just met, this kind of relationship made Li Siyan feel relieved.

When the time came, Xu Mengqing took the initiative to say goodbye. Although it was early in the morning, Li Siyan still didn't ask her to stay, but only said to send her a message when she got home.

Taking the New Year's Eve dinner as an opportunity, the two reconnected. Xu Mengqing didn't do it very often, and would tell her about her recent studies.

Li Siyan was very relieved to learn that Xu Mengqing was admitted to the top [-] of her grade at the end of last semester, and she unconsciously started talking more, urging her to study like an elder.

After two months of intermittent contact, every time Li Siyan picked up the phone, his eyes would automatically lock on Xu Mengqing's profile picture, and when he saw an unread message, he would subconsciously raise his eyebrows.

[Xu Mengqing]: Sister Siyan, it seems that my earrings were left at your house last time.

last time?Li Siyan thought about it, wasn't that what happened on New Year's Eve two months ago?

[Li Siyan]: I didn't see it when I was cleaning.

[Xu Mengqing]: Will it be in the crack of the sofa?The last thing I remember is arranging earrings on the couch.

Li Siyan paid more attention to where Xu Mengqing fell, otherwise it would be impossible to remember after two months, when she dubiously lifted the sofa cushion and opened the gap - there was really an earring.

[Li Siyan]: It's really here, when can I get it?

Xu Mengqing quickly sent an emoji covering her face.

[Xu Mengqing]: I have a classmate's birthday tomorrow, and she gave it to me. I want to wear this pair of earrings. Sister Si Yan, can you send them to me?Please please.

earrings?Someone sent it?Upon hearing this news, Li Siyan frowned unconsciously.

She tapped the screen with her fingers, and replied word by word: Got it.

Xu Mengqing's school is not too far from her community, it takes more than half an hour to drive there. When she arrived at the school gate, she sent Xu Mengqing a message.

The white Porsche was parked on the side of the road opposite the school. Li Siyan folded his hands on his chest, and kept his face expressionless in the face of the curious eyes from the boys and girls.

This was the first time she came to Xu Mengqing's school. She originally thought that Xu Mengqing was young, but when she saw the students in uniform, she realized that Xu Mengqing, who was one or two years older than them, already had the mature charm of an adult.

I really can't treat people like children...

Li Siyan glanced around, and finally landed on the school gate, where Xu Mengqing appeared.

But there was a boy beside her, and the way they talked and laughed made Li Siyan's aura subconsciously drop twice.

Soon Xu Mengqing saw her and waved to her. Just as she was saying goodbye to the boy, another boy came to meet her within two steps.

She stayed there for a while, not knowing what to say to the boy, and he left dejectedly.

After sending her away, Xu Mengqing consciously quickened her pace towards her, and when she approached, the familiar person said, "Sister Si Yan!"

Only this time, the voice sounded harsh to Li Siyan. She handed her the jewelry box containing the earrings from her pocket, "Your earrings."

"Thank you, Sister Siyan." Xu Mengqing took it with a smile, not intending to leave, but took the initiative to say to her: "The one who came out with me just now is a classmate, and he is asking about my homework."

"Oh." Li Siyan blurted out: "The other one."

"..." After she finished speaking, she was stunned for a while, but on the surface, she could only maintain a calm attitude.

"That..." Xu Mengqing scratched her hair and smiled shyly, "He is from the class next door, and he confessed his love to me just now..."

Li Siyan frowned subconsciously.

Xu Mengqing quickly said: "But I refused!" She laughed and said: "Sister Si Yan, you said that learning is the most important thing."

Does this mean that you can accept it after graduation?

Li Siyan didn't answer, she turned around and opened the door to get into the car. She closed the window and said, "Let's go."

In the rearview mirror, Xu Mengqing's waving figure gradually became smaller and finally disappeared.

"Mengqing, what are you looking at? Who is that car?"

Xu Mengqing withdrew her eyes and looked at the jewelry box in her hand. The corner of her raised mouth showed a hint of joy of the success of the plan. She turned her head and smiled and said, "The one I like."

To her, Li Siyan is like a person from two worlds, and a person who gave her a new life. Now that there is a small gap in that person's heart, she will never let go, just like she never wants to give up on herself. same as the future.

The boy's confession became a small pimple in Li Siyan's heart, and he was reluctant to reply to Xu Mengqing's messages for a long time, but that person still happily sent them to himself.

Time passed and it was the day before the college entrance examination. Li Siyan, who had gone through the college entrance examination, knew how stressful and nervous he was.

After much deliberation, she still picked a suitable time to call Xu Mengqing.

As soon as he got connected, Li Siyan realized that he hadn't thought of an opening speech at all, so he said a little stiffly: "Tomorrow is the college entrance examination, come on."

"Sister Siyan." Xu Mengqing's other end was very quiet, so quiet that Li Siyan became nervous.

"Can you drink with me after the exam?"

Li Siyan thought for a while and replied "Yes".

Because it was a big day, on the last day of the college entrance examination, Li Siyan deliberately finished his work early and waited at the entrance of the examination room like other students' parents.

She waited until Xu Mengqing came out, but the girl didn't say a word. Li Siyan was worried that she would touch her minefield, so he didn't speak, and led her to the parking place.

After walking a short distance, Xu Mengqing suddenly took her hand, and she turned her head to see the uneasiness in Xu Mengqing's eyes.

She was too clear about this look, probably because she failed the exam, so she didn't say anything, and let Xu Mengqing hold her hand.

They went to a bar, there was no loud DJ sound, and the environment was quiet.

Xu Mengqing drank some cocktails and leaned her head on her shoulder.

"I've finished the exam..." Xu Mengqing murmured, "I almost got all the questions."

Li Siyan was stunned for a moment, joy welled up spontaneously, and quickly said, "That's very good."

"That boy confessed his love to me again yesterday."

"..." Li Siyan stopped smiling as if a basin of cold water had been poured on him.

The atmosphere also became tense in an instant.

Xu Mengqing straightened up, she once again looked Li Siyan in the eye, and said, "But I like you, Sister Siyan, the person I like is you."

"Mengqing..." Li Siyan consciously averted her eyes, and said in a shy voice, "I just treat you as my sister."

"Really?" Xu Mengqing frowned and smiled, "Then I promised to be with him and have sex with him, don't you care?"

Li Siyan didn't speak, Xu Mengqing laughed desolately, she got up from the booth and walked out.

"What are you doing?" Li Siyan grabbed her hand subconsciously.

"Since you don't like me...then I'll find someone who likes me."

Li Siyan could already imagine the possibility of going out like this, she refused to let Xu Mengqing leave, but the other party insisted on leaving.

During the dispute, Li Siyan roared: "Stop making trouble!"

Xu Mengqing was overwhelmed by her voice, and stopped struggling, and stared at her blankly. After a while, she sat down slowly, covered her face with her hands, and couldn't help crying anymore.

"Since you don't like me, can you leave me alone..."

Li Siyan frowned, how could she not feel sorry for Xu Mengqing crying, but...

"Mengqing." She put her hand on the back of her head and rubbed it lightly. Xu Mengqing's body froze and she slowly raised her head.

The appearance of pear blossoms with rain is even more lovable.

Hey... Li Siyan sighed in his heart.

Holding Xu Mengqing's face in her hands, she leaned over and kissed the corner of her lips.

Li Siyan didn't know how he got home in the end, and his memory of lying on a bed was already blurred.

At the climax, she heard Xu Mengqing's terrified and aggrieved voice: "I will concentrate on my studies and become promising, don't want me..."

When she woke up again, Li Siyan sat up slowly while supporting her drowsy forehead. She looked down at the marks on her body, it was the familiar morning.

She picked up the clothes on the ground and put them on, rubbed her waist a little and came out of the room, she could smell the smell of rice porridge.

It's been a long time since I had morning porridge, and I almost thought that I had merged with loneliness.

"..." She saw Xu Mengqing who was cooking porridge in the open kitchen at a glance, and her throat seemed to be smoking just as she was about to open her mouth.

Xu Mengqing put down the spoon quickly when she heard the voice, and walked over quickly, with a warm smile she was familiar with, "Sister Si Yan, good morning."

Li Siyan nodded, walked to the sofa and sat down, because her throat was a little uncomfortable, she raised her hand to let Xu Mengqing sit down.

The scene was very similar to that night, Xu Mengqing's smile froze on her face, coupled with Li Si's silent attitude, she took a step back, clutched the hem of her clothes and said in a low voice, "Are you going to... drive me away again? "

Before Li Siyan could speak, Xu Mengqing had already lowered her head. She looked at her toes and said in a trembling voice, "I know that you drove me away before to let me concentrate on my studies. Now that I've finished the exam... you still want to drive me away." go?"

Xu Mengqing pursed her lips and tried her best to restrain the tears in her eyes, "I know I'm not good enough for you... It doesn't matter if I don't have a title, I want to be by your side... I don't want to see you alone."

Without a response, Xu Mengqing felt even more dejected, thinking that she might be rejected this time, and there would be no chance of being rejected this time, Dou Da's tears rolled down the corners of her eyes, "I know it's very..."

"I..." Li Siyan opened his mouth, suppressed his sore throat and said, "My throat hurts."

Xu Mengqing was stunned for a moment, her eyelashes still had tears when she raised her head, "I, I'll go get you some water!"

After drinking the honey water with a familiar sweetness, Li Siyan suddenly remembered that the night he drove Xu Mengqing away, he probably spoke so harshly that the little girl had a psychological shadow.

She put the cup on the table and looked up to see Xu Mengqing still standing there, looking embarrassed and at a loss.

"Do you like me very much?" Li Siyan asked.

Xu Mengqing nodded hurriedly.

"If I say, I don't like you because I'm lonely and want to find someone to entertain me, I won't introduce you to my friends. Maybe someone else will take your place in the future. Would you still be willing?"

Xu Mengqing's eyes dimmed: "I am willing."

"You may marry someone else in the future, are you willing?"

Xu Mengqing was extremely sad after just imagining it for a while, the expression was all written on her face, "I am willing."

"Why?" Li Siyan couldn't help asking, "Aren't you unwilling?"

She frowned and smiled bitterly: "If you still can't make you like me in the end, it's my problem, I admit it."

The more you like someone, the lower you will be in the dust, without self.

Li Siyan raised his hand to signal her to come over, Xu Mengqing approached slowly, within reach, she grabbed Xu Mengqing's wrist without hesitation, and led her to sit beside her.

"My friend said," Li Siyan paused, "I like you."

"I can't tell what it's like to like, I just know that I enjoy the feeling when I'm with you."

"After you left, I tried to find someone else to try, but I couldn't even accept someone holding my hand."

"If you agree, we can try it." Li Siyan held her hand, "But, I hope you can have yourself while liking me. We are equal."

Xu Mengqing nodded vigorously. Li Siyan, whom she likes, is independent and self-sufficient, gentle and intellectual, and possesses all the advantages she yearns for.

If the price of meeting Li Siyan was to drop out of school early to work, she didn't regret it at all.

Everything that goes through will crown her.

And Li Siyan was her regret medicine.