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The lights of the KTV were dim and chaotic, Zhang Yang and Lin Hua were the most active, and the other two assisted, He Xin occasionally answered a few words, and Sheng Ci sat at the end of the sofa dull and indifferent.

After drinking, he only felt that the alcohol was burning his stomach, the things he looked at were suddenly far and near, his head was heavy, and he was not very clear-headed.

He began to admire himself a little, that even in such a noisy environment and in a state of physical discomfort, he could still very clearly recall the last words Ming Xu said on the phone.

"I miss you everyday".

He thought that Mingxu could always poke the softest part of his heart when he was most vulnerable.He couldn't help thinking of that sentence, thinking of Mingxu's once-in-a-hundred-year change, and wondering if he was actually a very special existence in Mingxu's heart.

The date with friends is over.In the parking lot, He Xin deliberately said "goodbye" to Sheng Ci, and asked for a friendly and final hug with a smile.

Sheng Ci hugged him gently, and the two separated soon.

Two cars separate at a traffic light intersection.Zhang Yang carried Lin Hua and sent Sheng Ci back to the hotel.Sheng Ci lay on the back seat of the car, feeling the changes of the lights on the road.

"Brother," Zhang Yang remembered to drive, so he didn't drink, "Going home for the Spring Festival?"

Family?

His head was swollen like a mess of words, and he tried his best to search for information about "home" in the memory of his life for more than [-] years. In the end, only his father's new home was left in the search results.But his father hasn't called him this year, giving him no qualifications to 'go home'.

"I don't know," Sheng Ci rubbed his temples, and continued, "Where do I have a home?"

Zhang Yang sighed and scolded Sheng Ci's parents loudly in his heart.

"Come to my house?" Zhang Yang said, "My parents call you to come to my house, so we brothers can have a good New Year."

Sheng Ci is unwilling to disturb other people's homes, even friends who grew up together.He felt that he was already a troublesome existence, so he didn't need to trouble others.

He refused: "No."

Arriving at the hotel entrance, Zhang Yang pulled down the car window, took Lin Hua's hand who was already asleep, and waved goodbye to Sheng Ci.Sheng Ci smiled, turned and entered the hotel.

Swipe the card and take the elevator.After reaching the floor, Sheng Ci opened the door and ran to the toilet.

The discomfort in his stomach and the terrible bad mood both stimulated him, and he knelt on the ground, pressing his stomach with one hand and supporting it with the other.For a long time, the nausea in his stomach and the urgency to vomit seemed to drain all his strength, and he lost his arm support for a moment, and fell straight to the ground.

The dry but cold porcelain floor made him somewhat comfortable, and he lay there for a while before stumbling to his feet, brushing his teeth reluctantly and taking a shower.

Sheng Ci sank into the soft bed, holding the phone sideways and flipping through Mingxu's missed calls, eighteen in total.

information, none.

He silently flipped through the past text messages he had sent with Ming Xu, from the latest to the very first. Over the past two years, there were more than 300 text messages in total.He occupies more than 200 messages.

He mostly chats with Mingxu, and Mingxu will reply him 'I'm busy', 'I don't have free time now', 'I have important work, please wait', 'I suggest you can use your time'.

Gradually, he put away his small talk and seldom took the initiative to send text messages to Mingxu.Mingxu asked him 'did you eat' and 'what did you eat', but he just answered the questions without saying anything else.

He thought that Mingxu might feel in his heart that he had finally matured a bit, but only he knew that he had just lost some enthusiasm.

Half asleep and half awake, Sheng Ci recalled the beginning of his sophomore year.The naturally dazzling Mingxu on the stage, the auditorium with constant uproar, and the wind brought by him when he quietly caught up with Mingxu and ran towards Mingxu.

The unilaterally heart-pounding first encounter was nearly three years apart, but it was as beautiful as yesterday.He had a dream all night, about Mingxu.

In his dream, he fulfilled his wish for many years.He has a warm family with him and Mingxu.The wind from the bay window lifted the white curtains, revealing a blue sky.Mingxu put her hands on his waist, and when he opened his sleepy eyes, she said 'good afternoon' to him in a low voice.

Constructed dreams are false and unreal.Because the curtains in Mingxu's house are not white, he has never taken a nap with Mingxu.

Sheng Ci received a call from his father on the 29th day of the twelfth lunar month.

The caller was not his father, but his half-brother.

Sheng Ci's stepmother's family members have no goodwill towards Sheng Ci, except for this younger brother who is only three years old.The children's world doesn't understand the twists and turns of adults, nor can they understand the unexplained malice of adults. If you like someone, it's just a simple liking for someone.

But Sheng Ci's father and stepmother don't like his younger brother and Sheng Ci's too much contact.

"Brother," the child yelled from there, with a very long end, "why don't you come and play with me?"

Sheng Ci softened his voice as much as possible, coaxing him: "Because brother is very busy."

The child smacked his lips, as if thinking.After a while, he asked, "Then are you coming for dinner tomorrow?"

After he finished speaking, Sheng Ci seemed to hear his father's voice, and gave a soft 'tsk' sound.

Sheng Ci lowered his eyelids and said 'no', and his younger brother said in a childish voice: "Brother, why don't you come here, Dad wants you to come too."

Yeah?Sheng Ci laughed at himself, he knew best how much his father didn't want to see him.

He fell silent, no longer wanting to deal with it.The younger brother was very anxious, and kept asking Sheng Ci to have a New Year's Eve dinner together tomorrow, but he couldn't get a response from Sheng Ci, so he called his father next to him to help: "Dad, please say something quickly, let brother come over."

Sheng Ci touched the phone and wanted to hang up the phone.

"Sheng Ci," the father over there answered the phone with a casual tone: "If this is the case, then you can come over tomorrow."

Before the master agreed, the younger brother was already cheering over there.My father said, 'That's it, come by six o'clock tomorrow', and then hung up the phone impatiently.

Sheng Ci deleted the call record with his father, and sat on the bed covering his face for a long time.In the end, he changed his clothes and shoes, and decided to buy some children's toys in a store that was still closed, so as not to go there empty-handed and fall into the same words as others.

Just go, it will be all right in a while, he thought, there are enough bad things anyway, it doesn't matter if there is more.

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Have you envied your brother?Be envious.