I'm a pd in the draft [wearing books]

On the seventh day after Zhai Shi left this world, Deng Taoran suddenly discovered that everyone in this world was slowly forgetting the existence of Zhai Shi.

Even many details in her memory began to gradually blur.

Zhai Shi when they met for the first time, Zhai Shi when they hugged for the first time, Zhai Shi who suddenly appeared in front of her in the hospital, Zhai Shi who surprised her and set off fireworks for her, ran to her house on New Year's Day Zhai Shi from here, Zhai Shi at the wedding...

All these good memories should be deeply imprinted in my mind, but they began to blur a little bit.

It's only the seventh day, but everyone around her has never mentioned Zhai Shi again, including Zhai Shi's parents, who have disappeared.

Gradually, she began to doubt whether all this had really been experienced or it was just a dream of her own.

Wei Mingyue came to ask her to go out to play again, saying that it is not good to be bored at home alone.

She froze for a while, pursed the corners of her lips and said hesitantly, "Wei Wei, why have you been asking me to go out these days?"

The tone was a little tentative, she wanted to know if Wei Mingyue remembered Zhai Shi or not.

Wei Mingyue was stunned for a moment, as if she was really stopped by the question, she kept muttering, "What is the reason? It seems that it is because you are very sad, yes, it is because of this."

Sure enough.

Deng Taoran lowered his eyes, and the corners of his lips curled up a bit bitterly, "Then why am I sad?"

"why?"

Being asked this question, the corners of Wei Mingyue's mouth froze, but she couldn't remember the reason why she came to find Deng Taoran.

Obviously Deng Taoran's face and eyes were swollen from crying, but she couldn't remember why the other party was there.

Deng Taoran lowered his head, staring at his toes intently, his vision was empty and unfocused, and his voice was calm, "Go back, Weiwei, I don't want to go out."

She buried her head in her knees and closed her eyes lightly, with an attitude of refusing to leave people thousands of miles away.

Wei Mingyue had no choice but to put the food she bought just now into the refrigerator. Sure enough, the things she brought last time hadn't been moved. She sighed softly and looked at the person sitting on the carpet, took out some food and heated it in the microwave After a while, put it in front of the other party, "You have something to eat and I will leave."

But the person with his head buried in his knees did not speak, and his silence made people feel distressed.

Just as he was about to continue persuading him, Deng Taoran raised his head, teardrops spilled from the corners of his red eyes and rolled down his pale cheeks, his thick and slightly curled eyelashes shone with moist light, and his clenched lower lip turned white, " Wei Wei, why even I started to forget her slowly..."

"I don't want to forget... I really don't want to forget."

The sobbing girl looked sore, Wei Mingyue hugged Deng Taoran's head, and could only comfort her softly, "No, no."

I don't know who Deng Taoran is talking about, and her comfort is also a little weak.

The heart-piercing cry made her feel unbearable and at the same time couldn't help being sad, and even burst into tears.

I have to start to blame the person who was so good to Deng Taoran and then left Deng Taoran.

But she also knew that even if he did it all over again, Deng Taoran would not regret meeting that person.

No. 30 days since Zhai Shi left, Deng Taoran could not remember what Zhai Shi looked like, but fortunately she found a mobile phone in a corner of the room, which was full of videos recorded by Zhai Shi.

Frankly speaking, she didn't know if she had watched these videos yesterday, after all, anything related to Zhai Shi couldn't stay in her mind.

He only vaguely remembered that Zhai Shi was her wife.

The woman's eyebrows and eyes in the video were familiar, and the eyebrows and dimples that appeared from time to time made her couldn't help but smile along with it.

So she has such a beautiful wife, she thought.

The videos recorded by Zhai Shi are all trivial things, nothing more than telling her to eat well, sleep well, and live a life without the other party.

There are also some clips that were secretly filmed when I was with her.

At a wedding, by the sea, on the roadside...

The places they have been to together have all appeared in these videos.

It should be an extremely clear memory, but it seems like it has never been experienced before.

Obviously these memories should be beautiful, but when she raised her hand to touch her face, she unexpectedly found that her fingertips were wet. It turned out that she was crying.

why are you crying...

Deng Taoran frowned, and opened the last video, the person in the video was sitting in front of the camera, the smile on the corner of his mouth was a bit cramped,

"Tao Tao... No, I'd better call him Deng Taoran, it's more normal."

Zhai Shi frowned and corrected his address, then raised the corners of his lips and smiled, his clear eyes shone slightly, "Compared to the previous content, this video may be a little more formal..."

"I don't know when you will see these videos, but I think I will not be by your side."

Zhai Shi in the video paused, his fingertips clenched and turned white, "Don't get me wrong, I didn't record these videos to make you indulge in these things forever, you should keep going...keep going to your future."

"I allow you to watch each video once for the previous content."

"Exactly thirty videos, this is the last one."

Zhai Shi's voice began to tremble slowly, she drooped her eyes and wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes, then raised her head and smiled, her voice was still gentle, "When you see this video..., you can start... your new life gone."

"It may be a bit cruel, but I... hope you... don't miss me too much."

"By the way, I forgot to tell you that these videos are all burned after viewing."

At the end, Zhai Shi in the video couldn't hold back his tears, and they fell one by one. There was bottomless emotion in his crystal eyes, "Let Zhai Shi...disappear in your life."

"Don't continue to love me, Deng Taoran."

He finished speaking intermittently word by word, as if he had exhausted all his strength.

After the video was played, the last screen stayed on Zhai Shi's pretendingly relaxed smile.

It is not automatically deleted.

Deng Taoran dropped his hands weakly, his eyelids were hot and his vision was blurred, his limbs were heavy and stiff, and he had no strength.

She suddenly remembered that she had watched these videos many times, and before she started watching, she saw the sign of disappearing after reading, so she had asked someone to help her break this restriction.

It's not that it burns after reading it, and there's no way I can't stop thinking about her.

Five days after Zhai Shi left No.30, Deng Taoran found her again.

After returning to the original world, she went to Zhai Shi's school according to the information given in the file folder, and stayed there for a few days before finally finding her Zhai Shi among countless similar figures.

This Zhai Shi is very good.

He is not sick and has a ruddy complexion.

Except for the low air pressure visible to the naked eye, everything else is good.

She should have gone up to recognize each other, but somehow she blamed Zhai Shi, blamed her for not telling herself all this, blamed her for silently bearing the power of the plot for her without saying anything, even more blamed her for making a promise without saying anything The desire to make her forget about it all.

This kind of emotion lingered in her throat, causing her to pause for a while before taking her steps back, looking at Zhai Shi's back as he continued to walk forward without saying a word.

Momo's eyes were red, and his aching chest finally improved a bit. Deng Taoran sniffled, followed Zhai Shi into the cafeteria with his head down, learned to order dishes and sat behind a few tables.

Zhai Shi has a good eating habit, he doesn't look around, he quietly holds the dishes on his plate, lowers his head and looks down, and eats in small bites, but the dishes on the plate have not diminished after a few minutes.

Same as her.

Deng Taoran watched silently for a while, but Zhai Shi didn't look at her.

This idiot, as long as she took a look at it, she couldn't help but soften her heart.

But just, I didn't even look at it.

Until Deng Taoran followed Zhai Shi to the laboratory building, the other party never saw her.

After feeling distressed and at ease, it's a bit funny.

She stood downstairs, ignoring the vibrating cell phone in the pocket of her coat, clutching the corner of her coat and looking up at the direction Zhai Shi walked in.

Just 10 minutes, let her slow down for 10 minutes.

For the next few days, Deng Taoran followed Zhai Shi silently.

At first, he was just a little angry, thinking that when Zhai Shi saw her, he would pretend not to know her to tease him, but he didn't expect that this idiot really never noticed her once.

Moreover, the idiot has become a crybaby.

Standing in the hotpot restaurant, Deng Taoran looked at Zhai Shi, whose shoulders were shaking gently on the table not far away, and couldn't help but walked over, but the figure who had already taken the first step made her stop. .

She silently looked at the girl who was accompanying Zhai Shi, pretended to bump into him accidentally, and gave her the handkerchief in her pocket.

She didn't know the relationship between this girl and Zhai Shi, and she couldn't take off her mask in public, so she could only pretend to be calm and frowned, "Your friend seems to be crying..."

When the girl took the paper, she was called away by Wei Mingyue. Before she walked out of the hotpot restaurant, she couldn't help but look at Zhai Shi who was lying on his stomach by the window.

Maybe Zhai Shi shouldn't be blamed anymore, but this time, she wanted Zhai Shi to realize that some things would get better if she didn't bear them silently, and some decisions shouldn't be made by the other party for her.

Later, Deng Taoran saw a video of Zhai Shi fighting with someone in a hot pot restaurant.

This idiot finally found out that she was there too.

And he fought with others, and finally he didn't hold back any more.

She was a little curious about what Zhai Shi would look like the moment he saw her again.

Sitting in the car, Deng Taoran took off his earphones and quietly opened the curtains to look out. He saw Zhai Shi who was running over, under the cherry blossom tree, the hair flying on his shoulders was reflected by the golden light, and his bright eyes shone with shattered light.

I couldn't help but cast my gaze on the other party, and followed that figure as before.

She didn't look back until the other party was submerged in the crowd again, and covered her face with her hands, suppressing the sobs from her throat.

After a while, she tidied herself up, wiped away her tears, got out of the car beautifully, and walked towards Zhai Shi with a smile on her face.

She pretended not to know each other and greeted him, seeing the red and swollen wound on her fair skin, she couldn't help feeling a pain in her chest, and her tone of voice naturally contained a hint of unavoidable preference.

She couldn't help it, but she tried to hold it back.

She hoped that Zhai Shi would never make decisions for herself again.

Whether it's the power of the plot or her memory.

Therefore, pretending to forget was her punishment for Zhai Shi.

Let Zhai Shi understand her feelings, the feeling of powerlessness.

The memory is slowly lost, but there is no way to grasp that little possibility.

I have to say that Zhai Shi was really cruel, and actually made her forget her.

So, just forget about it for a while.