I regret after the divorce

Even though he had slept for so long today, Yan Qin fell asleep quickly after touching the bed.

He woke up once in the middle of the night, the heater in the room was too hot, his throat was a little dry, and he got up to find water to drink.

Unexpectedly, when he opened the door, he saw a person standing with his back to him on the balcony of the living room.

It was already early morning, and although it was no longer snowing outside, the temperature was still below zero.

But he didn't seem to feel the cold, he was only wearing a brown cashmere sweater, his fingers with cigarettes hanging casually on the side of his legs, flashing a dim and ambiguous color.

Seeing this, Yan Qin stopped his movements.

Then I saw Gu Cheng lift the finger holding the cigarette and take a puff, exhaling a curl of white smoke, and the ashes of the embers scattered little by little with his movements.

The balcony is separated from the living room by a transparent glass door, so the smell of smoke will not come in.

But for some reason, Yan Qin seemed to smell it.

A thin one, with a light green smoke shell, is tea savory and mint.

The Marlboro he used to smoke has not changed until now.

Yan Qin's thoughts flew back uncontrollably to a summer many years ago.

The sound of cicadas, the dry heat, the sweat of young people and the occasional smoke shells scattered on the roof.

The year Yan Qin entered the third year of junior high school, Gu Cheng was in the third year of high school.

He shows up a lot less often.

Yan Qin racked his brains to find a reason to sneak into the high school, but when he passed by the door of his class, he didn't even dare to turn his head to look.

People who hide secrets in their hearts are always unable to be frank.

"Countless." Yan Qin's deskmate at the time, Ms. Luo Ying, who was known as "Second Class PHS", commented on Yan Qin.

Yan Qin buried his head in writing chemistry questions and didn't bother to talk to her, but he couldn't help but recall yesterday in his mind.

On the pretext of asking the vice-principal to ask about the club, he couldn't help but glance inside when he passed Class [-] and [-] of the high school.

Then I saw Gu Teng sitting in the first row.

He was wearing a school uniform, with his sleeves rolled up slightly, and he was seriously writing the questions with downcast eyes, looking like a good student who was focused and serious.

However, seeing Gu Teng like this, Yan Qin couldn't help feeling a little sad.

This means that the day of his departure is getting closer.

It's almost time for the college entrance examination.

If you are as good as him, you have to start accumulating strength.

"If you like it, you have to chase after it. What's the use of watching him from afar? Is he yours?"

Yan Qin finally stopped writing, turned to look at her, "How easy is it?"

"Then what's the problem?" Luo Ying asked.

Hearing this, Yan Qin seriously analyzed it with her, "First, we are all men, and he doesn't necessarily like boys. Second, he is in his third year of high school. How can I bother him at this time. Third, He probably doesn't like brats."

"So? You plan to go to the high school for a while, and be satisfied with seeing him?"

"...Well." Yan Qin picked up the pen again and looked at the questions on the test paper, "This is already very good."

Luo Ying sighed and commented: "Stupid."

But he didn't say anything more.

The days passed by so peacefully, until one night after self-study, Luo Ying suddenly and mysteriously pulled him out.

"Go somewhere with me."

"where to?"

"You'll know when it arrives."

After speaking, lead him upstairs.

Then I climbed all the way to the seventh floor, the highest floor in the junior high school.

Above was a barred iron gate with a rusted lock.

"Why are you here?" Yan Qin asked puzzled, "I can't get in."

"Who said that?" Luo Ying said, leaning over to remove the flower pot in the corner, then took out a key from behind, and opened the door.

Yan Qin looked shocked, "Where did you get the key?"

"I found it by accident, and I don't know who put it here."

With that said, he dragged him in.

There was an open space in front of him in an instant, and there was nothing on the roof, allowing the wind to pass through unimpeded.

Luo Ying took him to the concrete fence not far away, pointed to the opposite building and asked, "Are you familiar with it?"

Yan Qin took a closer look, only to realize that not far away was the high school of their school, the third grade was on the sixth floor, and the classrooms of the third and sixth grades could just be seen from here.

It's just that there is some distance between the two buildings, and Yan Qin still can't see what's inside the classroom, but it's not bad.

When Yan Qin was narrowing his eyes and concentrating on looking at the opposite side, Luo Ying suddenly reached out and handed over a small telescope, "Use this to see."

Seeing the palm-sized binoculars in her hand, Yan Qin didn't hold back for a moment, and almost exploded, "You...why do you still have this?"

"What's the matter?" Luo Ying shoved the telescope into his hand, "It's not something shameful, there's nothing you can't bring with you."

Hearing this, Yan Qin lowered his head and fiddled with the telescope in his hand, "Isn't that good?"

"That depends on what you think." Luo Ying said.

"But a friendly reminder, your elder brother Gu Cheng is in his third year of high school, and he will lose a little while seeing each other."

Yan Qin was persuaded.

But peeping is immoral in any way, and he still can't get over the hurdle in his heart, so he only sneaks up to take a look when he thinks it won't work.

Until one entrance exam, Yan Qin was overwhelmed by mountains and seas of questions every day. He hadn't been to high school for a long time, and he hadn't seen it with a telescope.

So once the exam was over, Yan Qin couldn't sit still.

In the self-study class, the teacher who commented on the test papers on the podium seemed to be chanting a spell, and it was difficult to survive every minute and every second.

So he stood up, lied for the first time and asked for a leave, and then ran to the seventh floor with the binoculars in his pocket.

He missed Gu Teng so much that he couldn't wait for a second.

But as soon as he reached the seventh floor, Yan Qin stopped abruptly.

Through the iron gate, he saw the figure that made him yearn day and night.

Gu Teng stood with his back to him, the white school uniform shirt was loosely put on his body, and when the wind blew it gently puffed up, outlining a beautiful body.Long and slender fingers hang down the side of the leg, and a cigarette is held between the knuckles, a thin one, with a light green smoke shell, and scarlet flames flickering and flickering.

Yan Qin felt as if he had become a wisp of smoke, and it just dissipated at his fingertips.

Yan Qin forgot to move for a moment, just watched quietly.

After he left, Yan Qin walked in and came to the place where he was standing just now.

A cigarette case was left on the concrete fence.

Gu Teng didn't take it away.

Yan Qin secretly opened it and took a look, there are still many inside.

If there are so many, if he takes one, Gu Teng probably won't find out.

He thought so, and finally did.

Yan Qin hid the cigarette in his sleeve and brought it back to the classroom.

The face is still calm, but the heart is beating non-stop.

This is probably the most daring thing he has done in his smooth life.

At night, when Yan Qin returned home, he stayed up until everyone fell asleep, then he took out the cigarette, put it to his mouth like Gu Teng, and then lit it with a lighter.

The curling white smoke rises quickly, and it is tea savory and mint.

But he only twitched his brow and wrinkled severely.

Tobacco is bitter.

That dry bitterness made him remember it for many years.

Never forget it again.

作者有话要说：感谢在2021-12-2921:37:03~2021-12-3023:33:53期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: Shian 1;

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: clear 1 bottles;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!