Beautiful as a flower in the escape book [Unlimited Stream]

Lu Lingqi cut the wrapping paper, poured the melon seeds into the plate, and knocked them open with a crisp sound.

"Anzhi's grades are mediocre." Zhao Jinxi said, "She's too sloppy. She doesn't concentrate when studying. If she wants to study medicine, no good university will admit her with such mediocre grades."

"Since she wants to learn, she should do her best." Zhao Jinxi said seriously.

Lu Lingqi secretly sweated, remembering how she dozed off in class these days.Fortunately, the gatekeeper was not strict in this regard at all, she just told Lu Lingqi to experience life well and study hard.

But a good life seems to be much more important in the eyes of the gatekeeper than a good study.

"If she can't pass the eight-year undergraduate program, then she will be qualified to practice as a doctor after five years of university plus three years of master's degree. And if everything goes well, it will take eight years to enter the regular training."

"The regular training is another three years."

"Besides, if she wants to enter my hospital and become a surgeon, she must have a Ph. , Not long after, I became a master's supervisor, and if she wins a bit and gets admitted to my alma mater, I can recruit her to my staff. That's how I encouraged her at the time."

"So, if she wants to achieve her goal as quickly as possible, her test scores should at least reach the top ten in her grade."

After Zhao Jinxi finished her narrative, she let out a sigh.

"I didn't care enough about her. When I tried to give her tutoring, I found out that she had too many loopholes."

"I made a strict time schedule for her, accurate to every point, regularly spot-checked her homework, checked for omissions and made up for gaps, and re-analyzed each test paper."

"Fortunately, she became sensible all of a sudden, and her score rose very quickly."

"Of course, occasionally there are times when I make mistakes in the exam."

"She seemed afraid that I would reprimand her, so she hid in the room and dared not come out. Until I called her out for dinner."

Zhao Jinxi lowered her eyes, recalling the scene.

The door is closed.

She stepped forward and knocked on the door.

There is no response inside.

Zhao Jinxi has a skillful solution to children who like to be a turtle.

"If you don't come out again, don't eat dinner."

Her tone of voice was cold, without a trace of emotion.

The door opened immediately.

Anzhi poked his head out.

When he bumped into her, he flinched and took a step back.

He sniffed, his eyes were red, and he looked like he wanted to cry but didn't dare to cry.

"Have a meal."

Zhao Jinxi put away the bowls and chopsticks.

She rarely comforts others, except that night, the girl cried so pitifully.

Xu Anzhi was afraid of her, so he walked over obediently, holding his chopsticks and holding his head, without saying a word.

The two ate their dinner in silence.After Zhao Jinxi finished packing, she asked her to take out the papers.

She helped her with her homework, explaining every wrong question carefully until Xu Anzhi understood it thoroughly.

"Good night." When Xu Anzhi climbed onto the bed, he grabbed the quilt and pulled it to his chest, sat on the bed, half of his face was hidden behind the quilt, and said in a low voice, "Thank you."

……

Lu Lingqi poked Lucifer carefully.

Lucifer turned his head and made eye contact with her.

"I don't think it's quite right." Lu Lingqi struggled to breathe, and struggled to express her hidden true thoughts, winking wildly at Lucifer.

One person, one bird cooperate very tacitly.

"Doctor Zhao." Lucifer said cautiously, "Don't you think...she seems to be a little special to you?"

Zhao Jinxi rubbed between her brows wearily: "That's what I want to say."

"An Zhi successfully got into my alma mater, studied a major with me, and chose me to be her tutor."

"I am a doctor." Zhao Jinxi sat upright, "I am also a tumor surgeon, and I am also under extremely heavy psychological pressure."

"I can only ask her more strictly."

"I hope she can stand alone as soon as possible."

"We can save a lot of people by treating the sick and the heart, but there are also many times when we are powerless."

"I watched her graduate, watched her become a resident, young, vigorous, and full of vitality, not at all like me back then." Zhao Jinxi smiled bitterly, "I seldom have the opportunity to reprimand her. As I said May she grow up quickly."

Her voice dropped:

"But I was diagnosed with cancer."

There was a slight smile on the corner of her mouth, as if lamenting the impermanence and ridiculousness of fate.

"I've been battling cancer my whole life, and it's no one's luck ending up on this."

"Doctors don't heal themselves. As a patient, all I can do is cooperate with the treatment." Zhao Jinxi sighed slightly, "They helped me call together the directors of multiple departments for a joint consultation. I saw An Zhi was there, and she was holding my hand. He said he would find a way to heal me."

"She rummaged through literature day and night and discussed treatment options with me."

"I'm very relieved that she can grow into what she is now...very good."

Zhao Jinxi took a breath: "I have never conceived a life. But I watched her grow up little by little, and she grew up to what she is now, and I have been involved in this process. I suddenly realized the comfort of being a mother."

"But I know...it's too late."

"I know my physical condition. It may not last for three months."

Zhao Jinxi's tone trembled for a moment, but she quickly returned to her usual calm and calm look.

"All the attempts, the ones I tried, I knew they were going to be futile.

Usually, for patients in my situation, I would suggest conservative treatment to minimize the pain of the patient. "

"Painful. Illness makes people weak and helpless. The torment of illness is bone-destroying, and I often can't sleep all night."

"Anzhi has always been by my side, encouraging me, saying that when I recover from illness, he will take me out to travel around the world."

"She said that I am too old-fashioned and boring, and I don't know how wonderful the outside world is. Every time I go out to communicate, I only know to stay in the hospital and study."

"She talked a lot. I didn't know she had such a nagging side, and I was embarrassed to interrupt her, so I could only listen to her patiently."

Zhao Jinxi smiled lightly when she said this:

"But I can't get better."

……

Xu Anzhi looked at Zhao Jinxi on the hospital bed, opened his mouth, and wanted to say something, but couldn't say anything.

She seems to have returned to the night when she was 16 years old, she was alone at the door of the operating room, and the fear of suffocation completely overwhelmed her.

But Zhao Jinxi came, and she stood beside her, like a pine tree, she stood there, carrying a reassuring aura.

When Zhao Jinxi was wearing a white coat, she looked serious.A serious face, occasionally releasing a trace of tenderness.

She showed her how to operate and how to deal with emergencies. Her dexterous hands were very stable. The operation was as perfect as an art.

She regards her as the goal to pursue in life.

The soil in her heart gradually loosened, and buds sprouted slowly.

She began to be full of her, she began to observe her every move unconsciously, she gradually understood her, and the more she understood, the throbbing in her heart became more irrepressible.

Become extremely sour.

Why is there such an embarrassing identity between them?

Xu Anzhi knew Zhao Jinxi well.

Zhao Jinxi has a very clear plan for her life, she will set a boundary for herself, if she loves something, she will stop at a taste and refuse to indulge.

Zhao Jinxi's amazing self-control, Xu Anzhi once regarded her as a superman, but now he hates her.

Why...why can't she take a step forward and look at her?

Xu Anzhi sat beside the hospital bed, held her hand, and told her to have surgery tomorrow.

She will heal her.

Just like Zhao Jinxi saved her back then.

She must!

She can definitely save her too!

Xu Anzhi just made a promise, tears fell down, she tried not to cry, and suppressed her crying: "I can do it."

Zhao Jinxi smiled: "Yes."

"I can fix you," she said again.

As if he could fool himself in this way.

She wished Zhao Jinxi would stop her.

Tell her not to do it, such an operation is useless except to increase her own pain.It's best to scold her severely, and then demonstrate how to do it in person.

But Zhao Jinxi didn't, she just smiled softly rarely, and leaned on the bed with a tired expression: "Anzhi, I've grown up."

She didn't.

She didn't grow up.

She was trembling with fear, and the fear in her heart was so much that it broke her down.

She wanted to hide behind her like before.

Zhao Jinxi will tell her what to do, and what to do is the best solution.What Zhao Jinxi said must be right.Zhao Jinxi can't go wrong!

But Zhao Jinxi indulged Xu Anzhi's choice.

A ridiculous and absurd operation with nothing but psychological comfort.

Xu Anzhi held her hand and said "I'm sorry" to her. She said it over and over again, when it came to her throat being hoarse and sore.

She hated her incompetence.

She still has a lot to say to Zhao Jinxi.

Wanted to say thank you to her.

I want to tell her that it is you who accompany me to the present.

I want to tell her to wait a little longer, wait for her to stand alone, wait for her to have enough courage and confidence...

She wants to tell her that she likes her.

The love between lovers.

But she dared not.

She carefully wrote down her thoughts in a diary. At the age of high school, when her emotions were the hottest, she wrote down the most solemn dream of her life.

She even put the diary on the table, wishing she could look through it.

But Zhao Jinxi is not the kind of person who can flip through diaries.

She was so restrained, she could even restrain her own curiosity.

At that time, Xu Anzhi never thought that some dreams might never come true in his lifetime.

In the end, it can only be turned into a real dream, a beautiful phantom.

……

"Is it Dr. Xu Anzhi?"

Lu Lingqi stepped into the department.

A young and beautiful female doctor, with a calm demeanor, got up and said calmly, "I am."

Lu Lingqi stood still.

Lu Lingqi: "Doctor Zhao, ask me to send you a message."

Without waiting for Xu Anzhi to speak, Lu Lingqi continued:

"She said, I'm sorry, I couldn't help but read your diary."

"I'm sorry, too. She's too timid."

"She said she was sorry. But regret is also a part of life, and I hope the living can move on."

After Lu Lingqi finished speaking, she turned and left, and ran out.

The wind is whistling in the ear.

She shielded herself from the harsh sunlight with her hands.

The eyes are sore and swollen.

The living... She is also the living.

She also has to move forward.