twilight winter

In the coffee shop at the end of the street, Qin Xingyan sat on a soft sofa and looked at the person opposite.Not as glamorous as I imagined, with yellowish skin and insufficient makeup could not hide the fatigue. Noticing Qin Xingyan's sizing up, Ning Xuan raised his face and showed a polite smile.

"President Qin, that's the end of this interview. I'll sort out the materials when I go back and I'll write a draft and send it to you. We'll publish it if you think it's okay. Do you think it's okay?"

"Why did you leave S City?" Qin Xingyan answered the wrong question, seeing Ning Xuan's expression froze.

"How does Boss Qin know that I lived in City S?" Ning Xuan asked.

"Yunluo came here a while ago." Again, the answer was not what the question asked.

Ning Xuan's complexion was not pretty, it was dim under the warm light, Qin Xingyan hesitated for a while, and asked, "You left City S because of her?"

"Are you her girlfriend?" Ning Xuan's provocative gaze was raised, and in Qin Xingyan's eyes, it was nothing more than the answer.

"I'm just curious how a host could become a reporter for a financial magazine."

"President Qin, if there is nothing else, I'll leave first." Ning Xuan was determined not to answer any questions from Qin Xingyan.She got up in a hurry and rushed out of the coffee shop, looking like she was in a panic.

Curling his lips, Qin Xingyan looked at the empty space opposite him, thinking about Ning Xuan's appearance, and then thinking of Yunluo.

After Yunluo returned to S City, he was promoted again. The deputy director of the department posted the notice on the notice board in the lobby. Yunluo glanced at it. The photo was the photo of his work permit when he first entered the station. Looking in the mirror, I couldn't find a trace of myself.It can't be said that he is unhappy. In the evening, Yunluo invited people from the department to dinner, made a fuss, and went home alone.

The next day Yunluo moved to the office, enjoying the space of more than ten square meters by himself, arranging things according to the appearance he likes, no longer needing to be irritable because of the narrowness of the grid, just the happiness in his heart, a trace of pride , and no one to share.

After living like this, half a month later, I suddenly received a call from Qin Xingyan.

She said she found Ning Xuan and worked as a reporter for a newspaper in City C.Ask yourself if you want to go and have a look.Yunluo was a little surprised. At that time, he just mentioned Qin Xingyan casually, but he took her to heart.

Why don't you go and have a look?Yunluo didn't know if Ning Xuan, who had been separated for so many years, wanted to see her now. After so many years of no contact, how would she feel when she appeared? Or, is this side so important?

The moment the plane took off, Yunluo suddenly regretted it.Those years with Ning Xuan, the things we got along with, until finally she left, like a rope around her neck, suffocating her.

When she landed, Yunluo really wanted to run away, but the moment she saw Qin Xingyan, she was inexplicably relieved.She thought that Qin Xingyan must understand her, otherwise how could he take that casual remark to heart.

Qin Xingyan naturally doesn't know about Yunluo and Ningxuan. The gentle and independent Yunluo is a kind of debt in her heart. Qin Xingyan's inner strength cannot tolerate Yunluo's loneliness.

The two of them walked side by side in tacit understanding without saying too much, only when Qin Xingyan called Ning Xuan, and didn't mention that Yunluo wanted to see her, he just made an appointment to meet at the cafe last time The reason for this meeting was agreed.

The traffic jam on the road was severe, and Qin Xingyan was not in a hurry. He glanced at Yunluo from the corner of his eye. Yunluo was wearing the coat he bought for her. Her hair was a bit messy but not smooth, and she seemed absent-minded. Qin Xingyan felt a little sour in her heart. If she had a chance, she would see her again On the one hand, Shi Mo said, what about himself on the way to the appointment?

In the coffee shop, Ning Xuan was sitting by the window, wearing a plaid shirt with dark red squares and black lines interspersed with his hair tied into a ponytail without makeup, looking like a college student. Yun Luo sat in the car and looked at it for a while and said to Qin Xingyan: "I Go in by yourself."

"Okay, I'll wait here."

"Thank you." Yun Luo said to Qin Xingyan while arranging her coat.

When I entered the cafe, the milk tea was singing: I only have one sentence to fulfill without regret.When Yunluo heard that her eyes were red, the nervousness in her heart was fully exposed.Ning Xuan saw Yun Luo twisting her body and looking towards the door. The two people's eyes collided. Ning Xuan resumed his sitting posture.

"Ning Xuan." The moment Yun Luo sat down, he greedily looked at the woman across from him. Ning Xuan pursed his lips and didn't look at her, but lowered his head slightly and looked at the corner of the table.

The choking made Yunluo's professional pronunciation tremble and changed the tone. Ning Xuan heard it and looked at Yunluo hesitantly. Yunluo with red eyes burst into tears and fell, breaking Ning Xuan's pretended calm.

"Yunluo, why are you crying!" She also cried as she spoke.

The paper towels were smeared on the face indiscriminately, the joy of goodbye could not burst out, the chest was heavy with a thousand pieces of gold, and I couldn't breathe, I could only look at the other party. I didn't know if my heart ached or I couldn't help but recall that I once sighed and said goodbye to each other today. Hate to the bone, flip the table and shake the sleeves.

"I thought you wouldn't see me."

"At first, I didn't want to, but I just thought that you were worried about whether I was not doing well enough for you, so I thought I should see how bad you are." Ning Xuan smiled.

"After seeing it?"

"Surprisingly bad."

Yunluo smiled in relief, nothing has changed for so many years, Ning Xuan's concern about Ning Xuan's poisonous mouth, and Ning Xuan's precision in seeing himself.

"You should have guessed that Xia Mo broke up with me, why didn't you call to laugh at me?" Yun Luo asked.

Ning Xuan replied seriously: "Because I don't care anymore. I have my own life now, Yun Luo, I remember all the things I said when you and Xia Mo were together, although it turns out that I was right, I still I think what I said at the beginning was too vicious, you are a good person, and you should have been treated better."

"That's right." Disappointment, the deep expectation of a person being ignored and rejected by the other party will produce this kind of low tide emotion. "I was promoted recently." Yun Luo clenched her fists and stared at Ning Xuan.

The person on the opposite side sighed and indulged Yunluo's willfulness: "Yunluo, congratulations."

Outside the cafe, Qin Xingyan sat in the car and looked at the two people in the cafe. Yunluo was a little agitated, while Ning Xuan looked at Yunluo calmly, and occasionally looked at himself.

"What I got should have been yours, are you going to be so hypocritical?"

Ning Xuan froze for a moment, then looked at Yun Luo with a frown.

"Yunluo, you've lost your composure." Ning Xuan was admonishing a naughty child like a parent, the sternness in his eyes made Yunluo's whole body seem to be covered in frost, freezing his bones.After all these years, Yunluo's proficiency in cultivation could not be disguised in front of Ning Xuan.

"Ning Xuan, I'm here to find you. When you left, you said that as long as I come to you, you will go home with me." Yun Luo cried. She couldn't stand Ning Xuan treating her like this. How much Ning Xuan treats her Okay, petting, coaxing, hugging and kissing, I'm afraid that I will suffer a little grievance, I have always silently maintained it at work and carefully taken care of it at home, but I am addicted to Xia Mo's stupidity, so confused I have been separated from Ning Xuan, and I have been so confused all these years. Outsiders look at Yun Luo's perfect indifference, good personality, like a Buddha in the temple, but they don't know that their heart is empty, and they are alone. These years have been bloody and hollowed out, and I don't care anymore, I don't care anymore, so I have to be a good person, anyway, no one condones, no one loves, no one really sees through myself.

It's just that those grievances that he obviously didn't care about all these years burst out at the moment he saw Ning Xuan, and broke through the defense line like a thousand horses. The people who went there faced Ning Xuan, and Ning Xuan, who had been protected by himself, made her have nowhere to attack.She lingered in those memories, wanting to pull Ning Xuan back willfully, not wanting to believe that they had taken different paths at the moment of separation, diverging paths for many years.

"I know, you can't come back. I knew it, so I didn't dare to look for you for so many years. As long as you didn't tell me personally, I would feel that I was still in your arms, even if I was praised outside , there is also a person who understands that I am not as perfect as they think. I am alive and have blood flowing. I have pain, sadness, happiness and lose my temper. I am afraid that I will be lonely and don’t know how to face an empty room. Ning Xuan, you Why did you agree to see me." Yunluo buried her head and let the tears fall crazily.

What she said hurt Ning Xuan. She looked out the window and didn't dare to look at Yunluo again. She knew that she couldn't turn her head back. Luo Ai had to entangle herself with a promise even when she broke up. She loved Yunluo for losing herself, and indulged other people who were perfect in their eyes to hurt herself wantonly. In the city, she didn't dare to look back because she found that love was too heavy. Once she had freedom, she realized that breathing was so important.

"I just want to see how bad your life is." Still answering so hurtfully, Ning Xuan covered his eyes to hide his tears.

Qin Xingyan watched Ning Xuan leave the cafe. In the heavy snow, Ning Xuan was still wearing her plaid shirt with a down jacket draped over her arms. She walked in a hurry, as if fleeing.After she left, Yunluo still sat with her head buried in her seat, like an ostrich.

At that moment, the halo on Yunluo disappeared. When I saw her for the first time, she was sitting next to Xia Mo and smiling quietly. At the drunken party, she was arrogant and awe-inspiring. The open-minded and clear Yunluo in front of her car disappeared in an instant. A shadow hovered faintly in my heart, under the cherry tree, with a raised childish face.

This city is no longer noisy and noisy. There are only Qin Xingyan and Yunluo in this city. She waits where she is, waiting for that person to pack up and pretend to continue on the road.Qin Xingyan thought about what expression she should use when Yunluo returned to the co-pilot, and whether she should greet her, maybe it would be better to be as quiet as she is now.