bird under the eaves

The smoke was tangled and twisted, like a white cage, which would disperse when a gust of wind came, and it was not very strong.

Holding the bottle of mineral water, Xu Yan looked out and saw many trees standing in the night.He didn't understand why Liang Yisheng suddenly asked him if he liked Zhuo Lu, he thought Liang Yisheng already knew what was on his mind.

Otherwise, why would you kiss him in Lushuiting?

Or, even if you didn't know before kissing him, you should know after kissing him.He told Liang Yisheng "I'm not a green tree", didn't he tell him clearly that you are the only one who didn't play, if you didn't like him, how could you be willing to be kissed by him?

Xu Yan's mind turned slowly, thinking slowly, Liang Yisheng didn't know.He also thought about why he thought he liked Zhuo Lu, and he dug out the cause and effect until the two met for the first time.At that time Xu Yan was lying in the hotel, just came back from the event, his face was smiling stiffly, and he was very tired, so he turned on the hotel TV and played background music.

Is Zhuo Lu's drama playing on TV?

It seemed that he vaguely remembered seeing Zhuo Lu's face, and thought that if he was just messing around in the entertainment industry, would he be able to have a word with Zhuo Lu one day, so that he could ask for an autograph for Xu's mother.

Xu Yan has long forgotten about this matter, completely forgotten.

He just turned on the TV casually, and Zhuo Lu's hit drama at that time was broadcast on several satellite TVs, just a coincidence.

But once the memory valve is opened, Xu Yan can remember more things suddenly.I can recall Liang Yisheng asking him when he went to see Lu Jiahong, what about you?Now Xu Yan probably understands that in Liang Yisheng's eyes, the green tree is himself, and that he and Liang Yisheng are together to go to a better world—that is, to get to know Zhuo Lu.I can recall that Liang Yisheng lost his temper when I gave Lu Jiahong an opinion. He didn't like him expressing himself too much, because Zhuo Lu liked to watch movies with the director very much, and he liked to give his own opinions. Many directors liked Zhuo Lu and said that he was Very spiritual actor.

Xu Yan's heart was beating violently as if there was a war in his chest.

Then why?That being the case, will Liang Yisheng fall in love with "Green Tree"?Liang Yisheng should really hate "Green Tree", just like he hates himself.

"Liang..."

"Xu Yan, you can see stars here."

Xu Yan was interrupted after saying a word, he pursed his lips, took another step forward, and stood in front of Liang Yisheng.Summer night is suitable for stargazing, the sky is open, and the night is equally clear, but it is much covered by the shadow of tall trees, and the stars are hidden in the trees.

"I don't like Zhuo Lu." Xu Yan raised his head, there was a star twinkling, bright and dark for a while, Xu Yan looked at it, "Liang Yisheng, do you think I lied when Guan Xiaoli interviewed me? I said I entered the circle because of you."

"You said it at noon because you wanted to experience a different life."

Standing in front, Xu Yan couldn't see Liang Yisheng's expression. Hearing his calm tone, he nodded, "I didn't lie. I want to experience a different life, but..." Xu Yan paused for a moment, wondering whether he should go to Next say.He intuited that tonight was the only time he could have a heart-to-heart with Liang Yisheng, and if he missed it, there would be no future.But some words have been hidden in my heart for too long, and if I suddenly want to say it, I always feel that I am wishful thinking, singing a one-man show without an audience.

He lowered his head, and the twinkling stars in front of his eyes turned into mud, yellow and gray, mixed with the grass that had been stepped on and crawled on the ground.He used a very small voice, very small: "But you let me know that there is a more exciting life. It's not Zhuo Lu, it's you."

Xu Yan often wondered if he would be able to confess his love to Liang Yisheng one day.

For him, liking Liang Yisheng is not a very simple thing, it is not simply a person falling in love with another person.But a dull, boring, pale person, one day saw a very beautiful color, longing for it, but ashamed of himself.

Xiao Yuan always said that Xu Yan was very Buddhist, and said that when the sky fell, he just blinked his eyes and said it was okay, so there was no need to be so nervous.When Xu Yan was in middle school, he always wore black, white and gray clothes. Director Xu liked that he wore this low-key color very much, and felt calm.But Xu's mother would occasionally say to Xu Yan: "You should wear some bright colors at your age. When you get old, you will not be able to wear green or purple."

Xu Yan smiled and said it didn't matter.He does like to say it's okay.

Many people wear black, white and gray to look cool, but Xu Yan thinks he should wear such colors.Otherwise, the colorful clothes on this body will only make him appear more boring.He has no high-spirited look, doesn't like to talk, and always sits quietly in his seat and reads a book.

It's boring.

After thinking about it for a long time, he felt that he probably would not confess his love to Liang Yisheng.

After he finished speaking, he felt uncomfortable all over, thinking that Lu Shuiting's confession was already a confession, but he didn't expect that Liang Yisheng didn't understand at all.What he thought would never happen happened twice, which completely overwhelmed Xu Yan's courage.

He seldom had so much courage in his life, and he was going to be overdrawn all at once.

He turned around and walked back, almost tripping over the threshold when he passed by Liang Yisheng, he was in a hurry.But the camera was set up in the middle of the wooden house, and he was bound to be caught in the mirror when he returned to the room.Although the program had to be edited when it was broadcast, Xu Yan still subconsciously slowed down and tried to put on a calm posture.

His wrist was pulled back by a force, and the mineral water bottle in his hand suddenly fell out of his hand, and fell to the wooden floor with a "bang", rolling to the side.

"Wait..." Xu Yan couldn't say anything to stop him, but Liang Yisheng had already kissed him.He thought too much in an instant, didn't understand, escaped, and was confused. He stared at the camera next to him, and the camera was almost facing two people.He turned his head abruptly, letting himself break free from the sudden kiss, and took a deep breath: "Camera!"

"Let him shoot." Liang Yisheng pinched his waist and pressed him against the wood used as a weighing beam.The kiss was about to fall again, Xu Yan's expression looked like he was about to cry, obviously he wanted to kiss him, but that expression was full of the loneliness of being abandoned.

Liang Yisheng really couldn't help it, he forced himself to put a kiss on his right ear, knowing what Xu Yan was afraid of, he was afraid that he would say Qingshu's name when he gave a kiss, so he told him: "I I know who you are, Xu Yan."

This was the first time Xu Yan got a kiss from Liang Yisheng.

It's completely his, not someone else's, any other role.From this moment on, Xu Yan hated the camera a little bit, still thinking, why must he be in front of the camera?The actors, whether they are themselves or Liang Yisheng, as long as they face the camera, there will always be some acting elements.This is subconsciously engraved in the bone.

He was so kissed that he couldn't breathe well, and he was still struggling. He wanted Liang Yisheng to avoid the camera and get rid of all desire to perform.Struggling and struggling, tears almost fell, and the eyes were red.The longer this kiss lasted, the more Xu Yan felt that he couldn't bear it, as if... It was as if Liang Yisheng loved him so much, but he couldn't find a reason to love him, and the bottom was empty, as if he was kissing on the edge of a cliff. One second died because of greed for romance.

Liang Yisheng was finally willing to end the kiss, and the two of them leaned together to take a breath in embarrassment.Xu Yan didn't dare to look at the camera, and shrank in front of Liang Yisheng, grabbing his clothes with both hands, making his short sleeves crumpled.

"Did I offend you just now?" Liang Yisheng asked.

Xu Yan closed his eyes and shook his head.

"Then why not?" He asked again.

"I... I'm not unwilling." Xu Yan's words got stuck, that's all he could say.

He didn't know how to describe his feelings, and sometimes wondered if he really had some mental illness.He thought he was lucky enough in his childhood that he didn't experience the violent incidents in novels and movies because of his disability, but when things came to an end, he felt that no one felt that his feet were hanging in the air when the person he liked kissed him, and he was about to start from what place to fall.

The mineral water bottle was at their feet, lying quietly, Liang Yisheng bent down to pick it up, and held it in his hand.He walked to the side of the camera in two steps, pressed the head of the camera, and turned it to the other side.

Xu Yan watched helplessly, the whole person was released from the camera, and suddenly felt his legs go weak.Leaning back against the wood, the wood was steamed by the summer night, and it turned out to be a warm touch.Liang Yisheng unscrewed the bottle cap with a "click".He raised his head and drank most of the bottle of water in one breath, his Adam's apple rolled, and he threw the bottle with a little water on the ground.

The transparent liquid flowed out, and quickly seeped down through the cracks in the wooden floor, leaving only a small pool of dark marks on the dirt floor below.

"When I saw you standing with Zhuo Lu, I thought more than once, it would be good if I didn't save you at the beginning. I died in the scandal, and I never dared to appear in the public eye again. I had no chance to know Zhuo Lu, and I didn't have a chance. Get to know people."

"Obviously I saved you, Xu Yan, how can there be others in your eyes?"

Xu Yan lowered his head and breathed cautiously, almost terrified, he couldn't believe it was Liang Yisheng's words.Gently tied the scarf on him, called him Teacher Xu with a laughing voice, and called him to ask him if he would like to act in Lu Jiahong's play.

This person turned away from the camera, turned his back to the camera, and said to him in a deep and uncontrollable irritated voice, it would be better to let you rot in the scandal, how can you still have other people in your eyes?

Xu Yan heard his own clear breathing, trembling his throat, called his name: "Liang Yisheng...?"

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