Once upon a time there was a mountain of secrets

Today, Gong Jiuqing woke up very early, even Gu Moqian was still sleeping.

But when Gong Jiuqing woke up, how could Gu Moqian fall asleep?

Gong Jiuqing turned her head and looked at Gu Moqian beside her.Gu Moqian really opened his eyes and looked at Gong Jiuqing.As the two looked at each other, there was peace.

"Gu Moqian, are you really not going to let me go?" Gong Jiuqing said calmly.I can't see joy or sorrow, and I can't see excitement.

Gu Moqian replied calmly, but his eyes were serious as if he was swearing. "right."

"Even if I threaten my life, won't you let me go?"

"Yes. If you threaten your life, then I will let everyone around you be buried with you."

"Gu Moqian, are you really so heartless?"

"There is already no love between you and me, why is it so?" Gu Mo smiled lightly, not knowing whether he was laughing at himself, or at this conversation and his own cruelty.

"okay, I get it."

After finishing speaking, Gong Jiuqing closed her eyes wearily.

Gu Moqian looked at Gong Jiuqing, he always felt that something would happen.Although he does not have the accurate intuition of Gong Jiuqing, he is afraid of any accident.

Perhaps, only when Gong Jiuqing couldn't see him, would there be an expression of pain and reluctance on Gu Moqian's face.

It was as if now, the person he loved the most was within reach.But no matter what, he couldn't stretch out those hands to hug him in his arms.One hand stayed in the air, back and forth, not even having the courage to touch him.

I heard from Buddhists before that there are seven sufferings in life: birth, old age, sickness, death, resentment and hatred, separation of love, and not getting what you want.

Among the seven sufferings, only "I can't ask for it" Gu Moqian couldn't understand.What you want in life will change with the passage of time and the environment.Ask for satiation when you are hungry, seek peace when you are full, seek ease when you are at ease, and seek power when you are at ease...

These are all human goals and desires.Even though it is a little laborious, it is not within the scope of the word "bitter".

Now, this "unable to wish" is applied to Gong Jiuqing, which really makes Gu Moqian feel unceasingly painful.

It turns out that there are really people who are clearly by your side, but you can't have them.It turns out that there are really people who can't speak even if they love to the bone marrow.

The most painful thing in the world is really to love but hate, and can't ask for it.

Gong Jiuqing, for you...

I really can't ask for it, and I can't be imprisoned.

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Gu Moqian would go to court at this time every day, which was basically Gong Jiuqing's only time alone.

In the huge Jing'an Palace, all the maids and eunuchs were cautious, and they even hid their breathing so deliberately that they were afraid of arousing Gong Jiuqing's dissatisfaction or attention, and then causing death.

Gong Jiuqing got up and said to the maids who were about to change his clothes: "You all go down."

The maids didn't speak, just knelt down together.Probably everyone knew that Gong Jiuqing was soft-hearted, no matter what, kneeling directly was more effective and practical than persuasion.

Gong Jiuqing sat on the edge of the bed with bare feet, and said again with a little tiredness: "Go down, if I want, I can ask Gu Moqian to kill you at any time. But I won't let him hurt you, and don't force me. So, you should listen to me."

Several maids lowered their heads, glanced at each other secretly, and asked with their eyes.But everyone bit their lips, not knowing what to do.

"I'll count to three. If you still don't leave, I'll tell Gu Moqian to leave none of you behind. One..."

When Gong Jiuqing counted to two, the maids began to get up one after another, and then retreated quickly.

In the entire bedroom, only Gong Jiuqing was left.

Gong Jiuqing got up, walked barefoot to the window, and looked up at the blue sky.

I'm afraid I won't be able to see such a blue sky in the future...

Behind him, a hidden guard knelt on the ground silently, holding a blade the size of a thumb in his hand.

Gong Jiuqing took the blade, closed her eyes, and stabbed her eyes without hesitation...

……

Today Gu Moqian always feels flustered and unbearable, is it Gong Jiuqing's calm in the morning, and the guilt of that conversation?

When he was in the court hall, watching the eunuch tremblingly holding the tray covered with red cloth, his intuition told him...the inside was Gong Jiuqing's stuff.

Sure enough, when he lifted the red cloth and saw two bloody eyeballs, he felt that the whole world had turned gray, and even began to collapse.

All the officials under the hall were calling him, but he couldn't hear them.The guard beside him was calling him, but he couldn't hear him.The eunuchs seemed to be talking about taking care of the dragon's body, but he couldn't hear it either.

In Gu Moqian's ears, he seemed to hear Gong Jiuqing's triumphant laughter.Didn't he care about laughing, why is he so absent-minded?Didn't he care about laughing, why is it still so heartbroken?Then, as if Gong Jiuqing's voice came back, he asked him, "Even if I threaten my life, will you still not let me go?" ''okay, I get it'.

Is this what you 'know'?Not with life, but with body?

Gu Moqian didn't know how he came back to Jing'an Palace, he seemed to be stumbling, as if he had walked for a long time to arrive.

Outside Jing'an Palace, the maids and eunuchs all knelt in a row, as if seeing their own fate, their hearts were ashamed.

But the palace is very quiet, surprisingly quiet, so quiet that even the heartbeat seems to be able to diffuse a long echo.

With her back to Gu Moqian, Gong Jiuqing stood in front of the window in a white obscene dress.Looking up, it seems to be looking at the distant sky.

Gu Moqian didn't dare to approach, he looked at the blood stained under Gong Jiuqing's bare feet, and felt horrified.Even breathing seemed to be very difficult.

Gong Jiuqing finally turned her head, her eyes were full of flesh and blood.The blood slid down his cheeks like tears, as shrill and terrifying as a ghost in hell.

Gong Jiuqing smiled and said, "See? Is Your Majesty satisfied with my gift?"

Gong Jiuqing couldn't see, her face was covered with blood, but she kept smiling.

But Gu Moqian, who was opposite him, had a painful and grim expression the moment he turned around, and tears poured out like a flood bursting a bank.Say you don't care, but how can you not care?

"Imperial doctor, imperial doctor, imperial doctor!!" Gu Moqian went from whispering to roaring, from roaring to madness, from madness to fear, and then from fear to collapse.

Gu Moqian never thought that the moment Gong Jiuqing turned around, he really felt the invitation from hell.Even in spite of his resistance, he was dragged into hell, where he was cut into pieces with a knife in his heart.

However, Gong Jiuqing couldn't see it.

Gong Jiuqing seemed to be talking to herself: "It seems that Your Majesty is not very satisfied with my gift, so next time, I will give His Majesty an arm directly. Does Your Majesty feel good?"

"No, don't talk." Gu Moqian stepped forward and hugged Gong Jiuqing.

His mind was so confused and dark right now that he didn't even know what he was doing.

Gu Moqian carried Gong Jiuqing onto the bed and let him lie down.Then with trembling hands, she knelt on the bed, with tears all over her face, looking at Gong Jiuqing with messy eyes.

"Don't talk, does it hurt? I'll call the imperial doctor, and the imperial doctor will come soon, and the pain will be gone soon." Like a child, Gu Moqian could only speak childish comforting words at a loss.

Gong Jiuqing smiled and said: "It doesn't hurt anymore, it's been gone for a long time." My heart is numb with pain, where else can it hurt?

Gu Moqian's tears couldn't stop streaming down, and he cried and laughed: "Okay, it's fine if it doesn't hurt, it's fine if it doesn't hurt. I'll show you, do you remember, when you were in Ruicheng, you told me, As long as it hurts, blow on it and it won’t hurt.”

Gong Jiuqing shook her head and said: "Unfortunately, this heart will never be blown away."

Gu Moqian had never had such a breakdown before, he really wanted to cry.But he forgot how to wail.

At that moment, he even forgot who he was.I just feel as if I am Gong Jiuqing, it hurts, my heart hurts, and my eyes hurt too.The pain is so numb that I would rather die...

"Lonely ink shallow."

"I'm here, I'm here. I'm always here." Gu Moqian grabbed Gong Jiuqing's hand and replied eagerly.

"Let me go." Gong Jiuqing said wearily.

It was as if Gu Moqian's entire soul had been taken out, and his hands hung down powerlessly.Looking at Gong Jiuqing with empty eyes, he knew that he would lose everything...including this sweetness.

"You...do you really want to leave that much?" Gu Moqian's voice was very light, unable to detect joy or sorrow.But there are some pitiful ones, with a little pleading unconsciously.

If Gong Jiuqing could see it, her heart would definitely hurt because of Gu Moqian.Because the current Gu Moqian is really pitiful.He is obviously a high-ranking king, but he looks like a homeless child.

However, Gong Jiuqing couldn't see...

Gong Jiuqing also replied lightly: "Yes."

"..." Gu Moqian was silent for a long time.Gong Jiuqing was also silent for a long time.

It was as if two unrelated people were thinking about their own affairs.

Finally, Gu Mo smiled lightly.With tears in her eyes, Gong Jiuqing smiled as she looked at the wounded eyes.

Don't you even want to stay by my side and take the opportunity to kill me?

Don't you hate me?Why do you still have to go?You should stay by my side and try your best to kill me.

Why do you still have to go?You know, if you leave, you won't have a chance to kill me?Don't you hate me?Why are you leaving?

Don't you hate me?If you don't hate me?Don't you love me too?

finally……

Can we just be strangers...

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