extremely abnormal

In the evening, Su Wan took Jing Miao to set off fireworks in the backyard. Jing Miao was so excited that he went back to the room and thought about it happily, saying how nice his mother was, how nice his father was, and how he liked his brother.

Xi Siyan took off his socks and washed his feet, and hugged him to rinse his mouth and face.They didn't make love that night, Xi Siyan kissed him as usual, put him to sleep, lay down for a while, and after making sure that Jing Miao had fallen asleep, he put on his coat and came out of the room.

Sitting in the living room, the parents saw him coming and asked in a low voice, "Is Miao Miao asleep?"

Xi Siyan nodded: "Well, I'm so excited today, I've coaxed you for a long time."

Su Wan breathed a sigh of relief: "Si Yan...you should move back to live. I heard Professor Jin say that you want to stay in school as a teacher because you have time to take care of Miao Miao, right? Come back and live, Mom Guaranteed to take good care of Miaomiao, you can follow Professor Jin and continue to do project research."

Xi Siyan didn't speak.

"You like this. After studying for so many years, you put in a lot of hard work. Your parents are also proud of you as a talent. Don't waste it and don't give up. You trust your parents this time, and they can help you take care of Miao Miao." Xi Yucheng also said.

Xi Siyan shook his head: "No, I don't want to be a teacher because he needs to be taken care of."

Both he and Jing Miao had a brush with death once. He is 27 years old this year, and one-third of his life has passed.

"It's not that he needs me, it's that I can't live without him." Life is too short, and he doesn't want to spend a long time thinking about it. He has had the sweetness of the bones, but he can't bear the bitterness of burning the skin.

Xi Yucheng was stunned. Xi Siyan's words were so short, but the contents inside were heavy. He was not surprised, but he didn't expect his frankness: "Si Yan, have you ever thought about why Miaomiao liked you before?"

Xi Siyan was stunned, his thoughts plunged into a long and painful memory.

24 years old, his ordinary day.

After class, I walked out of the west gate of Huada University alone, and waited for the traffic light at the zebra crossing. It showed that there were still 7 seconds left.

In these 7 seconds, an out-of-control red sports car collided with a white car turning left, and the white car collided with a small van waiting in line for traffic lights. , the white car was pushed out again and flew towards Xi Siyan.

His mind was empty, and he could hardly move his feet in the face of successive devastating disasters.

Suddenly, a force came from nowhere and pushed him violently. He rolled twice and fell on the road. When he raised his head again, it was Jing Miao who was hit by a white car and flew a long way.

Surrounded by cries, shouts, and alarms, Xi Siyan stumbled up and walked towards the man in the white shirt and gray trousers.

Blood was oozing from under him, and the blood was flowing along the lines of the floor tiles of the crosswalk. He didn't dare to touch him, and a strand of blood slid down the boy's face.

The first time Xi Siyan saw Jing Miao was like this. After a long time, he could rationally recall this scene. Apart from the heartache, there was also a belated sigh.

He lay lifeless on his own blood, still as beautiful as a blooming white rose.

Xi Siyan and his family members stayed outside Jing Miao's ward. The hospital issued many critical illness notices and asked the family members to sign.

They looked for it through the student ID card he carried on his back.

Jing Miao, a sophomore in the Department of Mathematics, is 18 years old.

Xi Siyan thought he would find a broken family, but instead he found a deserted orphanage.

Because there is a well in the orphanage, so his surname is Jing.

He has no parents, no siblings, and the only old director of the orphanage who was close to him passed away two years ago. There are only a group of classmates and roommates who are not close to him.

They flipped through the adoption records of the orphanage, and the more they flipped through, the more their hearts sank to the bottom.

The current person in charge of the orphanage said regretfully: "It's a pity for this child. Many people want to adopt him. He is good-looking, smart, and has a good personality... Sigh, he is so honest. The old dean was sick, so he stayed in the orphanage to take care of her. If he didn't follow his adoptive parents, he had to stay and take care of Liu's mother. Good boy... After the old dean died of illness, he was 16 years old I'm the eldest child of my family, how can there be anyone willing to adopt it?"

Xi Siyan looked at these adoption records, fourteen, and Jing Miao rejected fourteen adoptions in his 16-year-old life.

He was speechless.

Relying on a part-time job and meager government subsidies, the child has gone all the way to the highest educational institution in China.

His carefree and tenacious life suddenly gave up everything for a stranger.

Xi Siyan left the orphanage with a few photos of him left in the old dean's residence.

After Jing Miao narrowly escaped from the dead, his brain was broken. The 17-year-old genius boy who was admitted to the Department of Mathematics of Huada University became a child when he woke up, and he could never return to campus and normal life.

The people from Xi's family went to his dormitory to pack his things, and even a canvas bag was packed clean.

A schoolbag, a few pieces of clothing, some daily necessities and identity certificates, together with a few photos from the orphanage, constitute the life of Jing Miao in the past 18 years.

For the first six months, Xi Siyan took care of him willingly. This stranger who saved his life regarded him as an older brother and seemed to like him very much.

One day, Xi Siyan suddenly wanted to open Jing Miao's schoolbag.

The mobile phone is a very cheap model, and it has long been out of power. He found a cable and charged it next to it.

A wallet with more than 2000 yuan in cash, and a note with this month's salary, which should be the part-time salary he got when he was rescued.

Inside is a library card. He carefully looked at the list of books he borrowed. In addition to professional course books, there are many interesting books: "The Three-Body Problem", "The Big Bang", and the full set of "Tibetan Code" , and "History of Chinese Garden Development"...

Xi Siyan laughed. Through this small library card, he saw a cute little boy who had a strong sense of resistance to group society, but maintained a strong yearning for unknown fields.

Later, he gradually became confused.

"Introduction to Materials Science", "Evolution of Aeronautical Materials"...

Almost all of them were books from Xi Siyan's professional courses, and he had read all of them when he was an undergraduate.

He flipped through his other things, the certificate of mathematics competition, the certificate of the first-class scholarship of the mathematics department...and a plain old diary.

This diary, which still looks brand new, has a line written on the first page.

Beautiful Xingkai, every stroke flows smoothly.

——"It's still far from Xi Siyan's excellent world, so we have to work hard."

He flipped back with trembling hands, each page was a schedule, the front was the date, the middle was the completed content, and the latter was whether it was completed or not.

April 4: After reading "Introduction to Materials Science" - completed

June 6th: Make a test paper for the freshman professional course of materials science, and reach the passing line-completed

July 7th: Make a material science freshman professional course test paper, with a goal of 12 points - completed

December 12: Pass the English Band 6 Test - Completed

He drew a smiley face on the back of this line and said it was very simple.

February 2: Save enough money for the IELTS training class - completed

......

Xi Siyan turned to the last one and completed it, which was two days before the car accident.

"Translation of a Sisian paper into English, Spanish, German. -Completed"

There are still many plans in the future, and Xi Siyan can't read it anymore. He searched in those books in a panic, and finally found a stack of A4 papers. He opened it tremblingly. It was a research paper translated by Jing Miao for him. Handwritten version.

Jing Miao was sleeping soundly on the bed behind him, his eyes were red as he sat on the ground.

The phone prompts to turn on and play music, Xi Siyan was afraid of waking him up, so he hurried over and pressed the mute button, and sat on the chair to watch the phone.

There is no password, and the desktop is a photo of him and the old dean.

The kind and kind old man and the young and beautiful boy were smiling at the well in the orphanage.

He first opened Jing Miao's WeChat and Moments, which had little content, and then looked at the photo album. There were not many photos in the first place, and half of them were candid shots of him with poor pixels and blurry images.

Open the memo again, in addition to daily reminders of what to do, there is a memo that says "Summary" and a password is set.

Without even thinking about it, Xi Siyan used his birthday to open up this piece of privacy.

There are only three memos:

——I really like it, I really like it, I really like Xi Siyan, the senior of the School of Material Science and Technology at our school.

——Xi Siyan didn't eat in the cafeteria. Many girls brought water while playing basketball.

——He probably doesn't like boys, so don't get too close.

That night, Xi Siyan lay down on the table with the phone and cried for a long time.

When he woke up the next day, he found it difficult to get along with Jing Miao in the same space.Xi Siyan started a period of violence against himself and cold violence against Jing Miao.

It's not that he doesn't accept homosexuality, but he thinks it's horrible.

Jing Miao had never been in his sight during the year he had been secretly in love with him, but Xi Siyan was still afraid.

Just because she liked him, she saved him without hesitation, and Xi Siyan didn't even know him.

Inappropriately, he always thought of the 7-second countdown to the traffic light, which was the prophetic light of the accident.

He couldn't move his body from the flickering numbers, but Jing Miao made a choice in it.

Jing Miao and Xi Siyan, Jing Miao chose the latter without thinking.

At that time, CCTV at home was rebroadcasting "Legend of the White Snake" by Liu Tao and Pan Yueming. Xu Xian said, "Do you really think I don't know what you are?"

"You are so beautiful and you are so kind to me. How can there be such undemanding love in this world?"

Xi Siyan was struck by lightning, he ran to the bathroom and retched, overwhelming psychological pressure came over him, why?

Why didn't he give anything, just a one-way love, he gave him a life, a complete life.

Jing Miao stood behind him, her face full of worry: "Brother...what's wrong with brother?"

He was frightened. At this moment, looking at Jing Miao, he suddenly had a bad feeling, like a five-fingered mountain, like falling into the deep sea, leaving only suffocation.

Jing Miao is too scary, he has a deceptive skin, he weaves a web around him with secret affection, with Jing Miao's IQ and hard work, he has no doubt that one day in the future he can work with him, he Use another life, a blank soul that has forgotten everything, holding the rope of morality, to hunt him down.

Sooner or later, there will be no bones left that will be eaten by him.

With his crumbling body and unable to think independently, Jing Miao will be chained to him forever, and everything about him will be destroyed.

Xi Siyan snatched the door and fled.

He began to resist more and more fiercely, pushing him with his hands, calling him a fool, yelling at him loudly, trying to make Jing Miao completely loathe the life away from him in this way.

But it's like beating on a ball of cotton.

When he was called a fool, he cried and apologized and said that he would read the book carefully; when he was called an oil bottle, he went to work as a servant in the school. Squatting outside the door all night, being disgusted, I went to hold his hand carefully and told my brother not to be angry.

In his normal life, apart from the old dean, there was only one Xi Siyan, why was only Xi Siyan left after he became stupid.

That night, Jing Miao was reflecting on herself in the sub-zero snow, and Xi Siyan was laughing at herself inside the door.

"You were successfully hunted, Xi Siyan."

It was hard not to fall in love with this fool.

In the past, Jing Miao’s life of suffering and tenacity is an advantage, persistent hard work is an advantage, knowing how to repay kindness is an advantage, being kind and withdrawn is also an advantage, and even crying is also an advantage.

The thin and thin body that was carried up was very soft, the wet eyes were very pitiful, the butterfly bone and collarbone were both sexy, and the skin was so white and tender that I always wanted to touch it.

If he falls in love with this person, everything is good, the best is:

Jing Miao only likes Xi Siyan, past, present and future.