God, let's show our love

The living room was dimly reflected by the moonlight, and Duan Shu was standing by the window with only a thin shirt on.

Pei Huailiang has been living with him for nearly two months. At first, he took care of him who was almost crippled by torment, and later, he has been living like this.The two of them don't usually communicate much, and what they do more quietly than doing their own things is to have sex.It's strange to say that I didn't feel uncomfortable when I lived alone for so long. I turned my head to look at the Alaskan dog sleeping on the sofa, and Duan Shu chuckled. Even the big dog regarded the man as half its master. , usually very close.

Days like this are ordinary, and occasionally there will be an illusion that they have never been separated.Taking a deep breath, Duan Shu knew that that feeling was nothing more than self-deception.

Recently, his sleep has become less and less, even if he is held in his arms and his mind is very sleepy, he can't fall asleep.There is always a pimple in his heart that makes him uncomfortable, this seemingly peaceful relationship, only he himself knows how careful he is, and if he makes a mistake, he may lose everything.

Looking up at the dark night sky, there are two very close stars right in front of his head.Duan Shu lowered his eyes, isn't this just like him and Pei Huailiang, who seem to be close, but in fact... are far away.

"It's so late and you don't sleep, are you not tired?"

The slightly hoarse male voice carried the laziness of just waking up, Duan Shu was startled and just turned around, the man had already walked behind him, "Did you wake up?"

"No, I didn't find anyone when I went to the side." Duan Shu has long been used to sleeping by the bed alone, but Pei Huailiang always holds the person in his arms, not allowing him to put his beak to protest, very domineering.

Duan Shu habitually raised his hand to take a puff of cigarette, and suddenly remembered the man behind him, and his whole body froze instantly.The fingers holding the cigarette trembled, and the long ash fell onto the carpet with a clatter. The sparks from the cigarette butt seemed to burn his fingers. Duan Shu felt that the cigarette in his hand was prickly like a thorn, and he neither threw it nor smoked it.

Finally... it's here...

A big hand took the cigarette in his hand and squeezed it out.Pei Huailiang put one arm around the waist of the above book, poked his head to the side of his face and sniffed, and said disgustedly: "It all smells like smoke."

Duan Shu was stiff, and the blood in his whole body seemed to be frozen.Are you hated?

Pei Huailiang comforted and rubbed the stiff muscles under his palms, then paused and said, "Duan Shu, quit smoking too."

"I..." Duan Shu was about to refute but felt something was wrong, he said... also?Trembling suddenly, Duan Shu turned his head and stared closely at Pei Huailiang's eyes, his mind was in chaos, and he asked tremblingly, "You, got it?"

That year, Duan Shu was completely defeated by Pei Huailiang's Huairou offensive.Although the two of them didn't point it out directly, no matter how simple their thoughts were, they were not really stupid. Duan Shu knew that he had been led astray.But since the object is his beloved senior, Duan Shu didn't think there was anything wrong with it, so he was biased, anyway, his family didn't need him to carry on the family line, right?

It just so happened that he was playing online dubbing at that time, and there were two gays in the same crew. Duan Shu was really curious when he first came into contact with the gay scene, so he was embarrassed to ask Pei Huailiang and wanted to learn from netizens.He didn't have any other thoughts at that time, he understood Pei Huailiang's thoughts in a trance but couldn't quite figure it out. Anyway, this was the first time that the young master of the Duan family liked someone. Although the gender was a bit different, Duan Shu really wanted to be with him. long term.

Besides, it is normal for people in the circle to meet. Duan Shu treated the two of them as friends and confidants, but he didn't expect that his identity would cause him big trouble.The background of Duan's family is a bit deep, and the two people got the news from nowhere, so they put their ideas on Duan Shu.It is very difficult to get drugs under the rumors outside, but it is not difficult for the young master of the Duan family if he wants it.

Duan Shu said unpreparedly, was he protected by his family? He was completely panicked when he encountered this kind of thing, and no one dared to tell him that drug addiction has become a taboo.Until a drug addict was caught by a friend, the incident was revealed, and he was sent to an old house abroad by his family.

Everything was too sudden, Duan Shu was imprisoned for compulsory drug rehabilitation, and thus completely severed his contact with Pei Huailiang.Once it is broken, it will be ten years...

The chest on the back became a support, Duan Shu felt aggrieved, leaned slightly sideways in the man's arms, and murmured sorry after a while.For this apology, he owed this man ten years.

He disappeared suddenly, and the man was probably the saddest.So when we met again, this person pushed him on the bed and humiliated him silently, he was not angry.Pei Huailiang is not a master who will suffer, he has resentment in his heart, and he knows it.

Duan Shu's expression was cold and indifferent, seeing Pei Huailiang's heart ached, he hugged him tightly and kissed his face to comfort him: "Quit smoking, it's bad for your health, the past...is all over."

It's in the past.An understatement, Duan Shu shook his head, the geese have left traces, how can all the past be easily lifted like flipping through a book without mentioning it.Who can fill the void they haven't seen in a decade?

Indulging this man to stay in his house, indulging him to climb into his bed, indulging him to do whatever he wants to him, Duan Shu has affection in his heart, and he cares about Pei Huailiang.Even though this man hasn't seen him for several years, he still hasn't changed much. He is still domineering and tough, and he still treats people with a cold face and a cold heart. He only likes to bully him.He can easily search for similarities with the lovers in his memory, and he always feels that even though times have changed, his mind of caring has not changed.In contrast to himself...

Duan Shu stretched out his hand to wrap his arms around Pei Huailiang's waist, but it was still not enough, so he looked up and bit his lips fiercely to vent, until the smell of blood filled his mouth before retreating a little.The subconscious action of licking his lips caused the man's eyes to darken.Obviously just now he was venting like a trapped beast, but the next moment he was very seductive.Pei Huailiang stretched out his hand to wipe his mouth, smeared the red blood with his fingertips, and chuckled, the soft and glutinous little thing has grown up, and will bite when it grows teeth.

Duan Shu felt a chill down his spine from being stared at, he rolled his eyes uncomfortably, cleared his throat, and said, "As you can see, I'm not the elementary school boy you were back then."

He smokes and drinks, speaks swear words and has no integrity, none of which can be done by that paragraph back then, even imagination is a kind of blasphemy.With such innocence, Duan Shu thinks that the current him can't pretend.The good baby in Pei Huailiang's heart has long since disappeared, and the people now are just glamorous beasts.

In the past two months, he tried his best to be honest, pretended to be obedient and civilized, and tried to make himself coincide with the boy in his memory, but after all, everything changed.Pei Huailiang likes him only to his chest height, soft waist, well-behaved character and unruly teasing shy expression... It's gone... Then, what else does he like about him?

Pei Huailiang was stunned when he heard the words, looked at the person across the way, and nodded in agreement, "Well, it's really different."

Suddenly my heart felt tight, knowing that what the man said was the truth, I still couldn't help feeling uncomfortable.Perhaps subconsciously, he was still hoping for a man's negation.

Pei Huailiang turned around and went to the sofa to fetch the blanket. When he came back, he saw Duan Shu standing there with his lips tightly pressed and his head bowed, with a faint taste of grievance, and he couldn't help feeling distressed and funny. "I don't sleep at night and think wildly!" I put a blanket on him, and I am not afraid of catching a cold even if I wear it in the cool at night.Pinching the small ears that were exposed outside, "Recently, you can't sleep well at night because you think about this?"

Duan Shu glanced at him, tightened the blanket around him, and nodded slowly after a while.

Pei Huailiang was completely amused, "Duan Xiaoshu, you are indeed different from before, but coincidentally, I have also changed."

Just as Duan Shu was about to refute, he raised his eyes when he saw Pei Huailiang's smile. He was startled, and murmured, "You don't smile much." or angry.

"Well, there's nothing to be happy about."

When Duan Shu choked, the other party's description was flat, but there was a hint of accusation in his ears.Pei Huailiang's life was not good, so it was not the case for him in those years.

During those days that seemed to fall into hell, emotional dignity was worthless in front of drug addiction.Duan Shu's life has been smooth from the moment he was born, and he has never suffered that kind of crime. He knelt down and begged his parents to give him drugs and went crazy.His dignity was severely trampled by himself, and the torment that made him feel worse than death was not swallowed by drug addiction, but because he could not bear it and was willing to degenerate.I really want to cut that dark history out of my brain and not mention it for the rest of my life.

For a while, both of them were silent.

Pei Huailiang glanced at Duan Shu, reached out his hand and took out a pack of cigarettes from the pocket of his shirt, took it out and lit it, a series of smooth movements were definitely not a smoker.Duan Shu stared blankly at his smoking action, a little puzzled, "You actually smoke?"

"Occasionally."

"But," still feeling incredible, "but don't you hate the smell of cigarettes?"

Pei Huailiang smiled, took a deep puff and then extinguished the cigarette, pulled the collar of the person beside him to pass the smoke in his mouth, until Duan Shu choked to tears, "Idiot, you used to hate smoking man."

"I..."

"Hush!" A finger was pressed on Duan Shu's lips, successfully blocking what he wanted to say.Pei Huailiang pressed on it with nostalgia, then lightly pinched Duan Shu's side face, "Don't mention the past, didn't Xu Weikuan ask you to go to the company tomorrow? Go to sleep."

Give it a nudge and someone won't cooperate.Pei Huailiang sighed, he knew that Duan Shu had a knot in his heart that couldn't be solved for a while.After thinking for a while, he said, "Duan Shu, I'm almost 30."

Duan Shu looked at him in confusion, why did he suddenly mention this?

Pei Huailiang looked out of the window, feeling a little emotional, "We have wasted ten years, how many decades can I spend with you?"

'Want to miss it again?Are you sure he can wait for you for ten years? Xu Weikuan's words suddenly rang in his ears, and Duan Shu hurriedly grabbed Pei Huailiang's hand in a panic, his heart was full of pain like being pricked by a needle, and his eyes were sore and uncomfortable.

Pei Huailiang turned his head and reached out to wipe the corners of his eyes, "Don't cry."

"I didn't cry!" Duan Shu stubbornly put his head on his shoulder, and said in a muffled voice, "It was smoked just now."

Pei Huailiang didn't point it out with a smile, and directly picked him up by the waist and sent him to the bedroom.Lying on the bed and trapping him in his arms, Pei Huailiang lifted Duan Shu's chin and glanced at the corners of his wet eyes, and leaned over to kiss him, "We will grow up in the future, let's sleep."

Duan Shu was so meek and obedient, he moved his hand on his chest and slowly covered Pei Huailiang's, and then interlocked his fingers.Only then, I feel at ease.

Companionship is the longest confession of love, and waiting is the most helpless companionship.How can there be a person in this world who is willing to waste his youthful youth on hopeless waiting, waiting for ten years.Such a calculating man is willing to be a fool in love.

How lucky he is to write a paragraph.

How lucky.

...

After returning from a trip, the relationship between the two seems to be closer.This day, Duan Shu was leaning on the sofa and watching TV, and somehow his eyes slipped to the man who was holding a laptop while working.

Under the age of 30, the old city without middle-aged people does not seem to be frivolous and reckless as a teenager. It is a good age to attract bees and butterflies.I don't know if this trip is because of the openness of the local people. This man who always has a cold face has provoked many boys and girls.

"You, why haven't you dated in these years..." Others... just stopped when the words came out of their mouths, but they still attracted someone's attention.

Pei Huailiang raised his eyebrows, "It's nothing, I didn't see anything I like." After taking a sip from the water glass, he continued slowly: "I didn't think so at first, I was afraid that someone would come back and cry. , Later, I gradually got used to it and didn’t think about it anymore.”

"Then, how many did anyone introduce to you?"

"That's true. But compared with you, I always feel better than you," Pei Huailiang tilted his head and chuckled as he said, "I picked and picked, but I didn't expect to wait for this to be more subversive."

Duan Shu paused when he heard the words, looked at Pei Huailiang with too much uncertainty in his eyes, and said hesitantly: "I don't know what will happen to us..." Although they were former lovers, they were separated by so many years. They can only be regarded as half-acquainted strangers.Duan Shu has no self-confidence, he doesn't know how far the two of them can go.

In the past, Duan Shu's gentle personality matched Pei Huailiang very well, but now Duan Shu is also used to being strong, and when he meets the domineering Pei Huailiang, the two will fight against each other, and it is inevitable that there will be a gap between the two.Just like the last time when Pei Huailiang intervened in the Extreme Club, Duan Shu ran away from home angrily.Cough, although the time away from home is only half a day.

Pei Huailiang probably understood Duan Shu's concerns, stood up and patted him on the shoulder to comfort him, "If you're not sure, think about the best. Besides, even if we really quarrel, I will let you go."

Duan Shu's face darkened when he heard the words, squinted at the man who opened his eyes and said nonsense, gritted his teeth and said bitterly: "It is obvious that I indulge you more!"

"En? Is there?" Pei Huailiang raised his eyebrows, showing his innocence.

Duan Shu clenched his fist, and his knuckles creaked eeriely.As long as he did something to brush the man's back scales, the bastard would indeed make him stop arguing, but what's the matter with being tortured in disguise at night!

Duan Shu reached out and grabbed the man's tie to force him to bend down, staring into his eyes threateningly and questioning, "Every time you do that, you are so ruthless, say, are you taking revenge on me?"

Pei Huailiang didn't pay much attention to his arrogance at all, and asked flatly, "Am I that boring?"

Duan Shu paused, this man didn't want to bully him in that matter.But...Looking at the sensitive parts of the man, Duan Shu got tangled up and muttered to himself, "Could it be that he got sick after ten years of abstinence?" Or why is he always being tortured by this bastard and almost killed half of his life? .

Not noticing someone's black face, Duan Shu continued to mutter in a low voice, "Could it be that I don't look physically fit?"

Pei Huailiang pinched Duan Shu's chin to attract attention, and then took advantage of the time when someone was in a daze, "Hey, you don't owe abuse, you owe fuck!"

"Eh? Uh! Pei Huailiang!"

"Call me senior, Duan Xiaoshu."

"I do not..."

After asking about it for a while, a certain messy person who was kissed finally couldn't stop begging for mercy, and whispered softly, "Senior..."

The large Alaskan dog raised its eyelids and glanced at the little master who was being carried upstairs by the big master. He flicked his tail and continued to lazily bask in the sun on the window sill. The door of the room upstairs leaked intermittent murmurs and low voices. Nice coaxing.Alaska moved his body and drooped his ears helplessly.Great Master's order: Do not listen to indecent...

Poor Alaska wants to overthrow the table. He is really an unscrupulous human being. The season of estrus is too long, and the number of times of estrus is too frequent. Don't even consider it as a single dog?

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From noon to dusk, Alaska was drowsy and caught sight of the big master coming down the stairs, and the satisfied face almost blinded his dog's eyes.It ran over with a woof, it was hungry.

Pei Huailiang bent down to touch it, and said: "Go upstairs and pack the clothes on the floor before coming down to receive the reward."

Alaska stared at the master's back sadly, almost irrationally pounced on him and killed him!He's a dog, a dog, a dog, not a nanny!The appointed person climbed upstairs and picked up the scattered mess with his mouth and put it into the washing machine in the next room.Tap the button.Going back to the bedroom, jumping on the bed, staring at the red side face under the quilt, patted the corner of the quilt, and then ran downstairs to get the meal.

Is it easy to be a dog these days!

Pei Huailiang patted the big dog's head in satisfaction, and returned to the bedroom with a glass of warm water.After feeding a few sips of water, let the exhausted person fall into a deep sleep.Fingers fiddled with the broken hair on the cheeks of the next paragraph, and his eyes darkened.

He obviously likes curly cats the most, but he has a large Alaskan dog who is his favorite, and who said with a smile that year, "After Duan Xiaoshu is so good, the pet I keep will be called Xiaoguai"?

The license plate number of the red sports car in the garage is so familiar, whose birthday number is the last four characters?

6 houses on the 6th floor, whose lucky number is it?

The whole bottle of stomach medicine in your purse, who used to have stomach pain ten years ago, and for whom are you always keeping it?

Who is most used to the brand of shampoo, shower gel and even toothpaste in the bathroom?

There is a notepad under a book in the study room. Do you remember the 3300 days when you were separated from whom?

The ring in the middle of the wallet, who put it on for you personally, promises you: No matter what happens in the future, Pei Huailiang will protect Duan Shu and never leave it.

...

Pei Huailiang lay down on his side and hugged her in his arms and kissed her, his eyes were full of indelible nostalgia.

How to love another with the shadow of another?

Going around, Duan Xiaoshu, you are still mine after all.