She made herself visible only to me

On the second day, Su Nian planned to go to the Tianfu City Community.

When the door was opened, the house was very quiet, and the living room was kept spotless.

Su Nian tiptoed to the balcony, and Zhou Mo moved Huadu to a corner sheltered from the wind before leaving.

The soil in the flower pot was still very moist, so Su Nian turned and went into the bedroom.

The bed in the bedroom was tidy as usual, and Zhou Mo's practice questions and test booklets were neatly placed on the bookshelf.

There was a faint smell of Zhou Mo in the room. Su Nian walked past the bookshelf and saw Zhou Mo in the photo again.

She smiled, carefully wiped the dusty photo frame, and then put it back in place.

The window in the studio was not closed, Su Nian reached out to push the window, but accidentally knocked off a picture book on the window sill.

Su Nian picked up the album that had fallen on the ground, and the album was flipped open by the wind.

There was a sketch of an apple drawn on the paper, and Su Nian remembered that it was the apple she peeled for Zhou Mo when she was in the hospital for the first time.

Turning page after page, it was all about Su Nian.

There are times when she is angry, there are times when she is happy, and there are times when she is sad...

It turned out that she had drawn every appearance of herself in the booklet.

While turning over, the doorbell rang.

Su Nian walked out of the studio to open the door, and it was Lu Xi who came.

He glanced up and down Su Nian hastily, and asked, "Why are you here?"

Su Nian smiled awkwardly: "Ah Mo asked me to come over and get some things..."

Lu Xi saw the album in Su Nian's hand, and at that moment, he understood what was going on.

Su Nian met Lu Xi's complicated gaze, and reminded: "Brother Lu Xi, are you... come to see Ah Mo? She's not here..."

"I know she's not here..." Lu Xi went to the sofa in the living room and sat down, "Do you know something that I don't know?"

Su Nian poured a glass of water and handed it to Lu Xi, and sat opposite him: "Speak."

Lu Xi took the water glass, put it aside, and said with a difficult expression, "Do you know where Ah Mo went?"

Su Nian didn't know, Zhou Mo didn't tell her.

However, since Zhou Mo didn't tell her, she felt that Zhou Mo should have his own difficulties.

Su Nian shook her head, waiting for Lu Xi's answer.

Lu Xi put down the water glass, looked worried, and said slowly: "Momo has been suffering from insanity since Xu Tang passed away, and she has to go abroad for treatment regularly every year..."

After finishing speaking, he asked back with a strange tone: "Don't you know that she has schizophrenia?"

Su Nian froze in place, she couldn't say a word, and suddenly a lot of sweat broke out in her palms.

"It was very serious in the past few years, and the condition has only begun to improve in recent years, but you know... this kind of disease is difficult to cure..."

Every word Lu Xi uttered was like a bomb falling on Su Nian's heart.

No wonder the first time she saw Zhou Mo in the hospital, she wanted to jump off the building.

Su Nian was silent for a while, and gradually cleared up her thoughts.

So the reason why Ah Mo didn't say she left was because she probably didn't want to let herself know about her condition.

Lu Xi looked at Su Nian, and continued: "I'm telling you this, there is no other meaning...I just hope that you will think about everything before deciding to be with her..."

As soon as the words fell, Su Nian said firmly: "Don't think about it... I only feel regretful..."

Lu Xi stared at Su Nian.

"I only hate that I am not by her side to accompany her now..." Su Nian said lightly.

"The treatment process is so painful..." Su Nian felt uncomfortable when he thought of Zhou Mo seeking medical treatment in a foreign country alone.

Lu Xi stood up, patted Su Nian's head, and said softly, "You must take good care of Momo, I'll leave her to you."

Su Nian didn't speak, she felt that she didn't need to say more at this moment.

After returning home, Su Nian called Zhou Mo.

No one answered, so Chen Yuan sent her a message.

"Brother Nian! I know who beat Qin Li!"

Su Nian sent an emoji.

"Jiang Yu!"

Su Nian felt very strange when she saw this name.

Jiang Yu and Qin Li didn't know each other at all, so how could they be beaten by Jiang Yu?

"Are you sure?" Su Nian didn't believe it.

Chen Yuan: "I heard from a friend of the vocational high school that Jiang Yu beat him very hard!"

Su Nian: "But Qin Li has never provoked Jiang Yu before!"

Chen Yuan: "The reason is not clear, but Qin Li was indeed beaten by Jiang Yu, and he did it himself!"

Jiang Yu brought a group of people under his command, and rarely beat people himself.

If he did it himself, then that person must have violated his taboo.

However, Qin Li, as a well-loved student, has no reason to provoke Jiang Yu.

Su Nian sent a message to Jiang Yu but got no reply, so she immediately dialed a number.

"Hey! Jiang Yu! Why did you hit Qin Li?"

There was a lot of noise on the other end of the phone, like in a bar, Su Nian couldn't hear Jiang Yu's voice clearly.

After waiting for a while, Jiang Yu walked to a quieter place, and said in a mysterious tone, "Leave this matter alone."

How could Su Nian ignore it?

When meeting Qin Li in the cafeteria, Su Nian knew that this matter was not that simple.

"You won't tell?" Su Nian was a little annoyed, and she was even more sure that Jiang Yu was hiding something from herself.

"Well, then I'll let Ah Mo talk to you later..."

Su Nian was about to hang up the phone.

Of course Jiang Yu didn't want to talk to Zhou Mo, he stammered, "Qin Li was chasing you a while ago, right?"

Su Nian let out a "hmm", then said again: "We've already passed... I told him this very clearly..."

"Of course I know...but he has been pestering you, right?" Jiang Yu said again.

Su Nian sighed, and said lightly: "Maybe he just didn't let go..."

"After you were taken back by Boss Zhou in the bar, she gave me a death order."

Su Nian said: "What death order? Why don't I know?"

"Boss Zhou said, if someone chases you, let me deal with it myself..."

After finishing speaking, Jiang Yu continued, "I just wanted to scare that Qin..."

"But why did you beat him up like that?" Su Nian said angrily.

Jiang Yu explained: "I blocked him at the school gate that day, just to warn him to stay away from you."

"However, later one of my brothers said that he had seen that surnamed Qin in an Internet cafe. He often played with a few girls, hugging them from left to right, and kissing each other in public..."

"How is it possible?" Su Nian's hand holding the phone began to tremble uncontrollably.

Jiang Yu said with certainty: "I didn't believe it at the time, but my brother was very sure. He said that he often met that surnamed Qin in that Internet cafe. Later, the surnamed Qin didn't deny it, and he was proud of it..."

Su Nian was speechless.

On the other end of the phone, Jiang Yu kept talking: "At that time, my temper came up...Damn, I have seen scumbags, but I have never seen such a scumbag..."

Su Nian's mind was blank now, and she heard Jiang Yu's words echoing in her ears, "Why should a scumbag like him chase you?"

Su Nian felt as if something was stirring in his stomach, and he wanted to vomit but couldn't.

No wonder!No wonder!

No wonder no one knew the reason why Qin Li was beaten, in the end it was his own fault.

Zhou Mo was pushed out from the operating room, and after getting his mobile phone, he saw Su Nian's missed call to her.

She dialed back without saying a word: "Baby?"

Su Nian saw the caller ID on the phone screen and pressed the red button.

She needs to be quiet now.

After a while, the video call came back.

Su Nian pressed the answer button, and she heard Zhou Mo's anxious voice: "Baby? Is there something wrong?"

"Amo...why didn't you tell me that you went abroad for treatment?"

On the other end of the phone, Zhou Mo let out a long sigh. She suppressed the pain in the depths of her brain and pretended to be relaxed, "Baby, I'm sorry... I shouldn't have kept it from you... I'm really afraid of losing you..."

"My disease is very special... As you know, I have self-harmed before. The doctor said that if it was serious, I would unconsciously hurt the people around me..."

"I'm really afraid that you will be hurt a little bit because of my... this disease..."

Su Nian listened quietly, tears streaming down her face.

"A Mo, no matter what happens in the future, you must remember that I love you... Even if one day you point a knife at me, I will still choose to be like that..."

Hug her as bravely as before, and pull her out of the abyss of death.

Zhou Mo nodded, and continued: "Do you still remember? You told my fortune at that time, and you said that my life was short of trees. I always thought it was my mother Xu Tang, but I later found out that the grass and trees on the word Su , is the true meaning of hitting the lack of wood.”

Su Nian was talking nonsense at the time, and she never thought about Zhou Mo's explanation.

"My mother committed suicide by cutting her wrists... There was a lot of blood in the bathtub... I will never forget that scene in my life. I dreamed about it countless times in the middle of the night, and I woke up screaming from the dream..."

"Later, you came, and after you came, everything changed."

"I am no longer afraid of the night, I am used to resting with the lights off, because I know you are by my side..."

"Because of hereditary mental illness, I have complained countless times why God treats me so unfairly? I suffer so much every day, I wish I could kill myself... You know, mathematics is like life to me, But fate has blocked my pursuit and yearning for mathematics..."

"It wasn't until you said, Ah Mo, that you are a genius in my heart! I didn't know that you are the angel sent by heaven to save me, my angel, my unique angel, the angel that belongs only to me..."

"Baby, because of you, I am grateful to God every day, thank God for allowing you to appear in my life..."

Zhou Mo's voice gradually weakened.

Su Nian knew that she must have just finished treatment.

"Ah Mo, you have a good rest, I'll wait for you to come back, let's buy flowers together to see mom."

On the other end of the phone, Zhou Mo felt that Su Nian's voice was getting weaker and weaker, and she gradually lost consciousness under the influence of drugs.

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Juvenile Huacheng: "His Royal Highness! Is it you?! If you are here, please answer me a question! I am in great pain! I wish I could die every day. I want to kill all the people in this world every day. Kill myself! I live in pain! Why am I still alive? What's the point of being alive?"

Xie Lian: "I don't know how to answer the question you asked. However, if you don't know what is the meaning of your life, then, why not take me as that meaning."

--Excerpt from "Blessings of Heavenly Officials" by Moxiang and Tongshou