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Saturday morning.Seven o'clock sharp.

The mobile phone alarm clock rang hysterically, and after a long time of persevering, the bulging quilt was finally willing to stretch out a hand, and almost rudely squeezed the bomb into the bed.

A few seconds later, there was a muffled wail of collapse from lack of sleep, which was so miserable that it could scare away crows passing by in the middle of the night.

The quilt was thrown back, Ruan Jing turned over and sat up, with sleepy irritability on his face, rubbed his eyes, and groped to get out of bed.

Five minutes later, he stood in front of the sink and brushed his teeth, looking at himself in the mirror blankly, and before he knew it, his hair was so long that it needed to be taken care of again.

Culture class and art class are already busy without touching the ground, and now with the pressure of sending Young Master Lin to debut, he is almost as busy as winter vacation.

Now the only thing better than winter vacation is seeing Qin Xijue from time to time.

Ruan Jing was used to going to Qin Xijue's house to do homework that could not be completed at school, and even put a set of painting tools there for convenience.

When the weekend comes, he only needs to pack up his homework and head straight to Qin Xijue's house without eating the breakfast prepared at home.

When he left, it was like the autumn wind passing through the border. If he didn't pay attention, he disappeared. Lin Rong didn't have the temper to reprimand him, so he simply didn't come back.

Ruan Jing often took portraits of old ladies. The old lady who sat dignified and quietly was the best model. He also painted Qin Xijue, which was even more handy.Sometimes Grandma Su came to play, and he also took a group photo of the two old ladies.

There are both sketches and watercolors, and there are even cute simple cartoons.

Qin Xijue hung these paintings on one wall of the living room, and the number of paintings gradually increased. Looking around, it looked like Ruan Jing's personal art exhibition, and he expressed a sense of accomplishment.

Ruan Jing has been staying at Qin Xijue's house for a long time. When the old lady was not sober, she even thought he was living in. When she went shopping, she would always buy an extra copy of his things. Whenever he was about to leave, she would come up to him and ask why Going out again?

Ruan Jing explained it several times, but the old lady forgot when she fell ill, and finally had no choice but to coax the old man to say, "I'll be right back."

Qin Xijue didn't explain it for him, just stood aside and turned a deaf ear.

In the past few days, it seems that summer has arrived, and the lazy sunshine and gentle breeze make people feel happy. Ruan Jing found that Qin Xijue seemed to be in a good mood.

When Qin Xijue stayed with him, he was relaxed and relaxed, his smile was not stingy, and he would take the initiative to touch him from time to time——

Gently rubbing his head when encouraging, patting his back when comforting, playing games together on the sofa, shoulder to shoulder...

Ruan Jing liked this kind of closeness very much, whenever Qin Xijue approached, he was extremely happy in his heart, if he had a big tail, he would have to flick it happily on the spot.

This Saturday is also a bit special because of Qin Xijue.

One day before the weekend, during class break, Qin Xijue suddenly asked him if there was any place he wanted to go on the weekend.

Qin Xijue took a day off and asked Ruan Jing to decide where to go. At the end, he unnaturally mentioned that he had something to say to him.

Ruan Jing thought for a while, only to realize that the two of them hadn't really gone anywhere other than school, so he couldn't help but look forward to it.

but……

Ruan Jing flipped through the interesting places in the city, and looked at Qin Xijue suspiciously: "What are you talking about? Such a serious matter..."

Qin Xijue lowered his eyelids, and wrote beautiful English line after line, only answering when the time comes.

Ruan Jing was surprised that there was something that he couldn't say now, and that he had to choose a date and place, which inexplicably carried some important meaning.

But Qin Xijue didn't say anything, and he didn't ask.

Unexpectedly, they hadn't made a plan yet, but the boy at the bar suddenly sent a message, saying that he had something important to tell them, and asked them to come to the bar if they had time.

Ruan Jing was notified by Lin Bai to continue rehearsing on the weekend.

These things that couldn't be pushed away seemed to be agreed, and they all hit that day.

Ruan Jing had no choice but to discuss with Qin Xijue apologetically: "Why don't we just go to the bar and have you be a guest? We'll have a whole day until next time, so we can have fun."

Qin Xijue didn't care either, as if Ruan Jing thought it was okay, it didn't matter where he played, as long as he liked it.

So this Saturday night, Ruan Jing's long-awaited one-day tour was simplified into a one-night bar tour.

The little brother was still busy, so the two sat down at the bar and waited for him.

Ruan Jing took out his mobile phone and played a long-lost game, while Qin Xijue watched his fancy operations.

Ruan Jing keenly noticed that Qin Xijue was a little absent-minded today.

Since the two of them went out together in the afternoon, this person sometimes looked at himself without knowing what he was thinking, and sometimes stared at a certain place alone.

I don't know if it has something to do with what I'm going to talk about today.

Ruan Jing's thoughts flew away, and his subordinates were more skilled in operation, and he just didn't win to forcefully restore his dignity.

The guy at the bar finally took a rest and sat across from the two of them.

He put two glasses of low-alcohol concoction in front of them, and looked at them mysteriously.

Ruan Jing raised his head and looked at him seriously: "Brother, you better have something important to announce in your life, but you interrupted my important date."

Qin Xijue bent his lips upon hearing this.

The little brother pretended to cough: "Tsk, look at your ability as a prophet..." As he spoke, he stopped circling around and took out two red cards from nowhere, and put them in front of them.

When Ruan Jing saw that it was really a wedding invitation, he couldn't help but look at his brother in shock.

Even Qin Xijue was a little surprised, it seems that the younger brother is quite strict, and even his colleagues didn't reveal anything in advance.

The little brother blinked and laughed: "You two, I will take a step ahead to the grave of this marriage..."

Ruan Jing: "..." These words really sounded unlucky.

Ruan Jing flipped over the card and looked at it. He didn't remember the woman's name at all. It seemed that he had never met her in a bar before: "This is too sudden..." He was stunned and suddenly thought of something. , "Wait a minute, are you of legal marriage age yet?"

The little brother's smile became sly: "Brother, I'm 25, kid."

Ruan Jing: "..."

The little brother is usually lively and loves to laugh, and he calls himself a brother, chatting on the same channel, Ruan Jing thought he was at most a part-time college student.

I didn't expect to get married in a blink of an eye, and as a single dog, I haven't even held the hand of the person I like... The hand holding the invitation could not help but tremble slightly.

Seeing the happy smile on the face of the person opposite, Ruan Jing couldn't help gossiping and leaned over: "Wait, why haven't I heard you mention it?"

The little brother let out a "squeaky" sound, a little embarrassed: "Actually, it's been many years, she is my senior sister, she is usually busy with work, and she is free to get married this year~"

Speaking of his fiancée, the younger brother's smile is full of happiness and missing, which makes Ruan Jing envious.

It's not that I envy other people's marriage, but I think it's great to be able to achieve a positive result with the person I like.

Qin Xijue also smiled and said congratulations.

The little brother came to work again soon, and left in a hurry, "I won't quit my job even if I'm married, and we can have fun together" before leaving.

After being reminded of this incident, Ruan Jing glanced worriedly at Qin Xijue beside him, who was looking at the invitation card quietly with his head down, not sure if he was distracted again.

Thinking that sooner or later, Qin Xijue will fall in love and get married like his younger brother.

He didn't even want to play the game anymore.

Ruan Jing was immersed in his thoughts, Qin Xijue was also quiet for a moment, took a sip from his wine glass, and then called him with determination.

"Ruan Jing."

Qin Xijue rarely called him by his name so solemnly.

Ruan Jing was taken aback for a moment, then couldn't help answering, and looked over.

Qin Xijue sat with his back straightened slightly, and in the floating light and shadow, he couldn't distinguish the expressions on his face, only his eyes were serious and inexplicably solemn, and there was some unconcealable tension in his whole body for no reason.

Ruan Jing was so infected that he couldn't help but straightened up, wondering why the atmosphere suddenly became serious: "Ah, yes, what did you say you wanted to tell me?"

Qin Xijue looked at him: "Do you have any plans for the future?"

Ruan Jing blinked, was he talking about life planning?

Young people always fantasize wildly between gags, and the shape of the future they describe every time they run the train with their mouths is always different. It can be seen that there are too many things that young people are greedy for, and there are always many things that are difficult to choose in the colorful world.

But the problem came from Qin Xijue's mouth, and Ruan Jing thought it was a problem that should be taken seriously.

He thought about it along with the idea of ​​painting all the time, coupled with his understanding of the industry situation, all kinds of considerations flooded in, and he couldn't give an exact description right away.

But he loves to paint, no doubt about it.This matter has brought him more pleasure than many things.

He considers himself very lucky.

It's just that I won't be as lucky as my little brother.

Feelings for people will not be the same as for paintings, you will see rewards if you pay.

It is impossible for him to be with the person he likes, maybe he will be with Huahua for the rest of his life.

Thinking about it this way, I didn’t say a word about the stagnation, just sighed between the words: "I will keep painting, but our line of work... no matter which direction I go. It’s tiring. Besides, after a long time Now, a bunch of occupational diseases are coming.”

He leaned back in the chair and thought about it again, and said with emotion: "And how should I put it, maybe every art student wants to paint without changing his original intention, but later he will find that many things are beyond his control... I I don’t know how far I can go.”

Thinking far and deeply, I feel that the future is full of unknowns and confusion. In society, giving and rewarding are often out of balance, and I can't help but feel quite troubled.

Ruan Jing got a little annoyed thinking about it, so he couldn't help but stop there, and turned to look at Qin Xijue who had been listening silently: "Hey, what about you?"

He remembered that Qin Xijue had said before that he wanted to be a doctor, so he was also quite curious about other plans.

Qin Xijue rested his fingertips on the glass, tapped lightly irregularly, and looked sideways at him as if he heard it after a few seconds.

I don't know if it's Ruan Jing's illusion, but there are some emotions in this person's eyes that he doesn't understand, which makes people's heart hang for no reason, and they can't figure it out.

"I have a detailed and complete plan for the majors I want to apply for, the improvement I want to complete during the university, and the direction of my work. There are no accidents—of course, deviations are allowed, and I am sure to achieve them one by one."

Ruan Jing was stunned, thinking that he was indeed a top student who had to write a tutoring plan for his tutoring classes, and no matter what he did, he was methodical.

He just didn't expect that Qin Xijue would suddenly talk about this with him almost seriously. After all, this person never seemed to mention the planning and process of doing things. When others know about it, it's time to test the results.

However, Ruan Jing found that the other party didn't seem to have finished speaking.

Qin Xijue paused, and slowed down his tone imperceptibly, in the light, shadow and music, it was as gentle and solemn as an oath.

"I made this plan recently. I used to think that the future doesn't have to be so rote. Every road has a unique scenery."

Ruan Jing didn't say anything, but he suddenly had a premonition that Qin Xijue's next words would be very important.

Qin Xijue: "I mean... I recently decided to work harder. Then in the future, I can give my partner a good living environment by myself, and the other person can just do what they like with peace of mind."

Ruan Jing's breath suddenly suffocated, and the fingers holding the glass suddenly tightened, with such force that he almost wanted to crush the glass, but the quality of the glass was so good that it didn't move at all, but his hand was bulging with veins.

These words were like dropping a bomb on his rationality, and it exploded beyond recognition in an instant.

If this was under normal lighting, you would find that his face had lost all color.

But for some reason, something was wrong with Qin Xijue today, he didn't look at Ruan Jing, and he didn't notice the change in his expression.

Qin Xijue seemed determined to finish the sentence: "So it doesn't matter if that person doesn't work hard. If..."

Ruan Jing's stress response moved ahead of his brain, he suddenly stood up, the chair was hit hard, and he fell to the ground with a loud noise.

Everyone in the bar looked over.

Qin Xijue's words were interrupted, and he raised his head.

Ruan Jing didn't dare to look at his expression, mumbled in a low hoarse voice to go to the bathroom, and fled in a hurry.

Qin Xijue looked at the direction where Ruan Jing disappeared, and after a long time, the light in his eyes gradually went out.

It was the first time he liked someone, and he struggled to get closer, sometimes feeling full of confidence, and sometimes worried and hesitant.He originally thought that if he made a plan for the future, he might be able to get the other party a chance to consider it.

But the other party fled the scene involuntarily, and had already given him the answer.

He looked there for a long time, then slowly retracted his gaze, and finished what he hadn't said in his heart——

if you are willing to.

After all, this sentence dissipated on the lips, turning into a mist in the flickering light and shadow.

Under the incandescent lamp of the sink, Ruan Jing poured cold water on his face, forcing himself to calm down.

He didn't expect that Qin Xijue would seriously talk about such things with him.

It's normal for friends to discuss these things, not to mention that the two of them are the most trusted friends.

He also knew that he was out of Qin Xijue's consideration based on his gender alone, and he had long since realized that he was hopeless.

But just imagining that Qin Xijue was with someone else was already unacceptable, and now hearing that person's own plans for this aspect, it was really hard for him to force himself to listen.

The man didn't even use "girlfriend" but "partner" with a cherished meaning.

It seems that someone who is worthy of this title can make Qin Xijue devote all his efforts and courage to pave the way for the future of the two of them.

The jealousy and unwillingness that surged up at that moment are still lingering in his chest at this moment, turning into unresolvable sadness, causing him to lose all sound in his ears.

Ruan Jing grabbed the edge of the sink until his knuckles turned white, but he was still unconscious.

The water droplets on the hair and face passed through the red eye sockets, and dripped from the end of the eyelashes, leaving circles of water stains on the sink.

----

In a blink of an eye, the primary election of the art festival came as scheduled.

Ruan Jing didn't have much energy recently, so he continued to practice hard, and finally practiced this song until he played it stably.

On the day of the preliminary round, Lin Bai's luck broke out and he was drawn to the final round.

They were lucky enough to watch all the previous programs, and this group was actually from the ordinary class. They were all appalling to look at. They pecked at each other, infinitely refreshing the lower limit of Ruan Jing's acceptance.

Even if the big stage of the finals is a fight between art students, there is always a need for some green leaves that are not too stretched to set it off, and it can also reflect the enthusiasm of "all people's participation".

After a few hours of eye-catching, the judges immediately raised them up among the dwarfs and let them pass the primary selection.

Ruan Jing was shocked. Three people who had never been in a relationship sang a love song, and they managed to pass the primary election?

Even Lin Bai and Sun Qi didn't expect it. Originally, they just wanted to play around, but they really hit the big luck, so they couldn't help but excitedly plan to make persistent efforts.

Ruan Jing couldn't get any more excited.

On the night of the conversation at the bar, Ruan Jing left directly after coming out of the bathroom.

Qin Xijue didn't look for him either.

He didn't go to Qin Xijue's house to play anymore, and stayed at home obediently, and Qin Xijue no longer took the initiative to contact him.

At school, the two had nothing to say except a brief polite exchange.

Ruan Jing didn't dare to face people at all, Qin Xijue seemed to be a mirror, when facing him, he could always reflect his greedy, selfish and unreasonable self.

As for Qin Xijue's similarly cold attitude, he could also understand it.

Others asked me out to play, and seriously described their plans for the future. Who knew that not only did they overreact, but they ran away without saying hello, and they didn't give an explanation afterwards.

If it were him, he would be angry too.

Intellectually, Ruan Jing understood that as a friend, he should be happy for Qin Xijue.

But he just can't be happy.

He tried to reconcile with himself, persuade himself, stop embarrassing himself, find an opportunity to ease the relationship between the two, at least they can still be friends, so that he doesn't feel so uncomfortable.

Anyway, there is still one year left in high school, and after one year, the world is far and wide, and I slowly stop thinking about it.

If you meet Qin Xijue with his girlfriend in the future, you should greet him gracefully——

But you can't do it just by thinking about it.

The fourth time he lifted the quilt irritably, Ruan Jing thought anxiously that he could not fall asleep, if he just gave up like this, it would not be him at all.

He has been in a trance for the past few days, and various emotions are competing to ferment, and at this moment it finally swells into a madness.

He got up and dressed quickly, then ran to Qin Xijue's house with a single mind.

He didn't notify people in advance.

When Qin Xijue came to open the door, the indifference on his face lasted only for a moment, and he couldn't hide the surprise and complexity afterwards.

Ruan Jing didn't dare to take a good look at Qin Xijue for a long time, only to realize that he has not been in a good spirit recently, and his whole body is obviously depressed.

It seems to be back to how it was when we first met.

The two stared at each other silently and thoughtfully for a few seconds.

Qin Xijue looked away first, and didn't ask him what he was here for, just like he did every time he came here before, he let people in.

Looking at Qin Xijue's silent back, Ruan Jing's heart sank for no reason.

He followed people into the empty living room, and they all tacitly kept silent, and the feeling of depression and suffocation in the air gradually spread.

Ruan Jing's eloquent tongue in the past seemed to be dumb, and he couldn't find something to say for a long time.

Qin Xijue also seemed to have made up his mind not to make a sound, and went to pour milk for others in silence.

Fortunately, before Qin Xijue came back with the milk, the old lady who was shopping with Grandma Su came back.

Unaware of the strange atmosphere in the living room, the old lady took out a pair of sneakers from her bag. Ruan Jing saw the fluorescent color contrast and exaggerated design, making the corners of his eyes twitch in horror.

Qin Xijue came over, did not pass the milk to Ruan Jing as usual, but put it on the table in front of him.

He glanced at the shoes and asked, "...for whom?"

As soon as he opened his mouth, Ruan Jing noticed that the voice was a little hoarse, cold and low, like a cold moonlight, no longer the same as joking with himself in the past.

The old lady didn't want to answer directly: "Give it to whoever sees it."

If the atmosphere was not right, Ruan Jing almost didn't hold back his expression, he coughed hurriedly, and then held back an untimely smile.

Qin Xijue was also taken aback, showing a little helplessness.

He looked at the pair of shoes with a somewhat indescribable expression, so he ignored it and took a sip of water on his own.

But he noticed that Ruan Jing and the old lady had been looking at him, and he couldn't pretend anymore. He sighed silently, put down the cup and tried on the pair of shoes, the size was just right.

The old lady smiled lightly.

Ruan Jing held back his voice, but couldn't hold back his lively expression.

The old lady looked at him: "Does Ruan Ruan think it looks good?"

Ruan Jing hurriedly said: "It looks good, it looks like a new design that is in line with international trends."

Anyway, the person wearing it is Qin Xijue, who looks good in anything.

The old lady nodded in satisfaction, and reached out to the bag again: "I bought you a pair of the same."

Ruan Jing's smile froze.

The old lady smiled and handed him another pair of shoes: "Old Su bought one pair for his grandson, and I bought two pairs."

Ruan Jing: "..."

It doesn't have to be!Why is there such a strange comparison between these two old ladies!

After distributing the gifts, the old lady planned to go back to the house to rest.

Ruan Jing ran forward recklessly before, all he wanted to do was rush to Qin Xijue, but now that he saw someone, he slowly calmed down in his cold distance.

Judging by Qin Xijue's expression, it seemed that an apology could not solve the problem.

But what should I do next, my brain can't turn in front of Qin Xijue.

The awkward atmosphere spread again, and it was useless to stay any longer, Ruan Jing hurriedly said goodbye and prepared to leave.

Qin Xijue didn't say anything, glanced at his unmoved mouthful of milk, and nodded.

Before going out, Ruan Jing passed by his painting utensils, stood beside him hesitantly for a while, and suddenly thought whether it was too much of a hindrance to leave them here all the time.

Turning his head, he found that Qin Xijue was looking at him, swallowed what he wanted to say inexplicably, and hurried away after saying hello.

Ruan Jing walked slowly on the way back. The previously clear sky was suddenly covered by dark clouds, and it rained lightly not long after.

He was upset, what was he doing?

The cold rain slowly soothed his anxiety and upset, he calmed down and thought, the relationship with Qin Xijue couldn't just end like this.

Isn't Qin Xijue still not with others?

He knows that some things cannot be forced, and experience and proverbs also tell people that their fate cannot be changed.

But with Qin Xijue, he just didn't want to accept his fate.

Ruan Jing called Lin Bai in the rain.

He didn't have the time to exchange pleasantries, and said bluntly: "I want to chase Qin Xijue."

There was a loud muffled sound, as if Lin Bai fell off the bed.