The whole division is begging for my forgiveness

Life will gradually improve, and Xiaojing will be like ordinary people, marrying a wife and having children, men farming and women weaving, and the family enjoys themselves happily.

But now it has become a luxury.

Xiaojing didn't understand what he did wrong and why he got to where he is today step by step.

Let him have no way to turn back, and no way to return to a normal life.

Who should pay for his pain.

Even...he can no longer marry a wife and have children.

No lover, no relatives, no confidants, and no children.He can no longer feel the seven emotions and six desires in the world.

Between him and Yue Wuchen, something unspeakable happened.

Xiaojing doesn't want to harm others, which girl would like to be with someone like him?

He can no longer marry a wife and have children, and there will be no offspring in this life.

And whose fault is it?

When those people die, they die, and when they die, they are liberated.But Xiaojing has not found a way to escape.

Xiaojing couldn't help getting up, walked to the window, held the window with his hands, and looked at the woman on the street intently.

Seeing a little girl come out of the room with her hair loose, rubbing her eyes, she shouted childishly, "Mother, I'm hungry."

"Niu Niu woke up, why did you come out without getting dressed? It's so cold outside."

Cuihua smiled and said, grabbed Niuniu's arm, helped her button up her clothes, took the comb, and skillfully tied a pair of braids.

He also picked a small yellow flower from a flower pot in the corner of the wall and put it on Niuniu's braid.

"Such a beautiful child, whose daughter is she?"

Niu Niu said: "It's A Niang's daughter!"

Xiaojing watched blankly, not knowing what kind of emotion to face all this for a moment.

My own child is close at hand, but I can't recognize each other, so I run to see other people's children as the apple of my eye.

Xiaojing doesn't even remember whether he was so loved by his mother when he was a child.

I also don't remember whether anyone has treated him well since he was a child.

He couldn't think of anything, couldn't remember anything.

He obviously wanted to remember more of the kindness others have treated him and less hatred, but in the end he found that if others treated him well, if there was one point, then they treated him badly by [-], [-]%.

Xiaojing felt lost, and after a long time, he turned and left in a daze.

But the moment he turned around, Cuihua looked up, her eyes widened, her mouth opened wide, and a name popped out of her mind.

My heart is on fire.

"Niu Niu, A Niang suddenly remembered something. She is going to Mrs. Wang's house. If you are obedient, go back to the house to find Daddy."

Cuihua hurriedly pushed Niuniu back to the house, and it was too late to take care of the tofu stand.

Hastened to chase after the past.

After chasing for a long time, Cuihua managed to catch up and called out from afar: "Ah Xuan!"

Xiao Jing's feet stopped, and his spine was stiff.

He clenched his fist slowly.

The surrounding crowd is surging, and the streets are full of traffic and traffic.

The world is really lively, but he is like a dead bone in a grave, without any vitality in his body, and he seems out of place with this lively world.

I don't know where my heart is, where my body is.The sky is big and the earth is big, where is his final destination.

"You've got the wrong person, I'm not some Ah Xuan."

Xiao Jing said in a deep voice, forcing himself to leave quickly.He was afraid that his presence would disturb his mother's life.

I was afraid that all kinds of Xuanmen would come to the door and ruin A Niang's hard-won happiness.

He was also afraid that A Niang was in such a hurry to chase him, because she wanted to scold him to leave quickly and never appear in front of her again.

"Ah Xuan! Mom knows it's you!" Cuihua chased after her, and grabbed Xiaojing's hand from behind. It was cold, but instead of letting go, she held it tightly, caressing Xiaojing with tearful eyes. With the back of his hand, he choked up and said, "Ah Xuan, you have grown taller and more handsome than before. But you have become thinner, and your complexion is not good..."

Xiaojing couldn't help but folded his five fingers, and carefully held his mother's hand back.

Finally found a little bit of temperature.

He turned around, looked at his mother's face, and suddenly looked like a child who had done something wrong, looking at a loss.

Xiaojing said in a low voice: "Mother, I... I am bad now, I... I have done a lot of bad things, I failed Luo Suxuan, I... I don't know what to do now, mother, I... …I'm cold, I'm tired, I want to stop and rest."

Seeing him like this, Cuihua immediately guessed that he must have suffered a lot outside and suffered a lot of grievances.

But it was inconvenient to say this on the street, so Cuihua pulled people into the alley next to her, waiting for there to be no outsiders.

Only then did he raise his hand to hold Xiaojing's face.

Xiao Jing tilted her head a little clumsily, squinting her eyes slightly, feeling the warmth of her mother's palm.

"Ah Xuan, it's all mother's fault. It's useless for mother to take good care of you. You're not bad, you're good. You'll always be the most obedient, obedient, and filial child with mother."

Cuihua choked up: "Why are you so thin? Didn't you eat well? Didn't you sleep well? Ah Xuan, tell mother, what happened? Did someone bully you?"

"No one can bully me, Auntie, I just...just miss you all of a sudden, but I'm afraid you don't want me. Auntie already has a new family and a little daughter. I think Aunt should stop I'm needed."

"Nonsense! You are my child who was born in October! How could Aunt not want you?" Cuihua finally couldn't help it, and cried, "Aunt never thought of leaving you! Killing stinky Taoist, he insisted on forcing A Niang to leave you, if A Niang doesn't leave, he will kill you! Ah Xuan!"

Xiao Jing suddenly opened his eyes wide, and his throat trembled.

Sure enough, really so.

A Niang never wanted him, never abandoned him.

It was just to protect him, so I had to leave him.

Xiao Jing was greedy for the warmth of his mother, and slowly raised his arms to hug his mother.

At this moment, like a child, he buried his face in his mother's neck.

The thin shoulders kept trembling, but there was not a single tear.

No painful sensations of any kind.

I just feel very cold and very cold, and I really want to be close to warm people.

"Ah Xuan, from now on, you will live with Mother? Okay? Live incognito with Mother, okay?"

"Okay," this is what Xiaojing dreamed of, it was his initial obsession, and after going around in circles, he returned to the starting point, "but... Aniang, I don't know how to let go, I don't understand, I I don't understand, I... I can't let go, can't figure it out, can't think about it, Aniang, I don't know how to let go."

Cuihua patted Xiaojing on the back, and said in a soft voice: "It's okay, Ah Xuan, let's just treat the past as just a nightmare you had, and now you wake up from the dream, and you are back by Mother's side Mom will take good care of you, and no one will bully you again."

Xiaojing said: "Will they accept me?"

Cuihua knew what he was worried about, so she comforted her: "It doesn't matter if you accept it or not, at worst, Auntie will take you out of here. Don't be afraid of what others think. As long as you are by Auntie's side."

Only then did Xiaojing breathe a sigh of relief, and wanted to say a few more words, when suddenly, Cuihua pushed him away.Covering his chest, he seemed a little disgusted, and his face didn't look very good.

"Aniang, what's the matter with you? Is there something wrong?" Xiaojing asked eagerly because he didn't know why.

"It's okay, just take it easy. By the way, Ah Xuan, are you hungry? Auntie will cook for you, okay?" Cuihua forced a smile, but suddenly her stomach felt sick again, and she raised her hand Cover your mouth.

"Aniang, let me take you to the doctor to have a look."

Xiaojing couldn't help but take his mother to the hospital.

The old doctor took a pulse and said with a smile: "This is the happy pulse. It should be more than two months old. The fetal phase is stable."

After Xiaojing listened, he was struck by lightning for a moment.

A Niang, she... is pregnant, which means that he is no longer A Niang's only biological child.

Not anymore.

If A Niang had another biological child, would she not want him?

Will you abandon him?

Xiao Jing stared at his mother's abdomen with complicated eyes, and pursed her thin lips hard.

This child really didn't come at the right time, why didn't he come earlier, why didn't he come later, it just happened to be this time.

Cuihua also felt that the child came at the wrong time, and she had already promised to take Ah Xuan away.

But suddenly she was pregnant. If she left with a big belly, there would be no father after the child was born.

But she concealed the existence of A Xuan from her current husband, what should he do if he doesn't accept A Xuan?

While the doctor came in to prescribe an anti-fetal medicine, Cuihua and Xiaojing said: "Ah Xuan, if you don't want my mother to have this child, then my mother..."

Xiaojing was stunned for a moment, then shook his head, and said in a low voice: "Aniang, no matter what, the child is innocent, please stay, it doesn't matter if it is a younger brother or a younger sister, it is equally good. In this way, I am not alone in this world." Alone."

However, he became the redundant one again.

Xiao Jing grew up without his father's love since he was a child. He grew up in the bitter wind and rain, and suffered a lot of grievances.

Now, he is reluctant to let the unborn child, like him, have no father's love since childhood.

He shouldn't be here.Without him, A Niang's family of four would live happily ever after.

Xiao Jing asked the doctor to prescribe a lot of anti-fetal drugs, and then left the clinic with his mother and parted ways at the end of the street.

"Aniang, I am relieved to see that you are safe and sound. In fact, I am doing well outside, so don't worry about me, Aniang."

Xiaojing pretended to be relaxed and said: "Now I'm very powerful, no one can hurt me. Mom, I've grown up, and I'm no longer the fool who was bullied by others, no longer."

"Ah Xuan..."

"Mother, just live your life well, don't worry about me. If someone dares to bully you, I can't spare them." Xiaojing whispered.

"Ah Xuan, it's all mother's sorry for you, it's all mother's fault, you live with mother?" Cuihua held Xiaojing's hand tightly, choked up and said, "Ah Xuan, you are in mother's heart. I will always be a child who can't grow up, mother can't worry about you, if I had known... If I had known that I could meet you again, mother would never look for someone else."

Xiao Jing doesn't blame A Niang, really doesn't blame her at all.

He knew that A Niang was a weak woman, without any support, wandering around the world was not an option.

Although life is poor now, it can be seen that she is very happy.

Now that she is pregnant again, she shouldn't have been hiding with him.

"Mother, I don't blame you. You have been suffering for half your life, and you should have your own life long ago." Xiaojing forced a smile and said in a low voice, "Mother, when my younger brother or younger sister is born, I will come to see my mother again." .”

"Ah Xuan, are you leaving now? In such a hurry? You haven't eaten any food yet. Auntie will cook for you, okay?" Cuihua pulled Xiaojing, couldn't help crying again, and wrapped her wrist He took off the only silver bracelet and handed it to Xiao Jing, "You can't live without money when you are away from home. Come on, take this and buy more delicious food. You are too thin now, and you don't have any flesh on your face. Ah Xuan, you have to eat well and sleep well, don't let mother worry about you."

Xiao Jing hummed lightly, looking at the silver bracelet in his hand, he knew that it was his mother's love and deep concern for him.

It was the only thing my mother could afford.Although it is worthless, maternal love is priceless.

"Aniang, I'm not short of money. Don't worry, I will take care of myself."

Xiao Jing pushed the silver bracelet back, intending to leave some money for his mother, but then remembered what Luo Suxuan once said, fearing that the money falling from the sky would bring death to his mother, so he had to give up.

After leaving the town, Xiaojing felt lost for a while.

Unknowingly, he returned to the valley of lifelessness.

He pushed open the coffin lid in the dark, then lay down in the coffin, curled up beside Luo Suxuan's cold body, and slowly closed his eyes.

After Yue Wuchen finally took care of the affairs of Linjian Villa, he rushed to Wusheng Valley.

Sure enough, in the valley of lifelessness, I found Xiaojing.

He pushed open the lid of the coffin and watched Xiao Jing curled up next to Luo Suxuan's body.

With eyes closed, the sound of breathing is very light.

There is no living person lying in the coffin.

How can a living person lie side by side with a corpse in a coffin!

Yue Wuchen couldn't describe how he felt at the moment, he and Luo Suxuan were originally one person.

You can't eat your own vinegar.

But when he saw Xiaojing's distraught appearance because of Luo Suxuan's death, he felt a surge of resentment.

Yue Wuchen suppressed the pain, and called softly, "Xiaojing, wake up, Xiaojing."

Xiaojing slowly opened his eyes, only to realize that it was dawn, he glanced at Yue Wuchen, lowered his eyelashes, and said in a low voice: "Luo Suxuan, it's dawn, I'm hungry, go get me some Come eat."

"Xiao Jing, Luo Suxuan is dead, do you know?" Yue Wuchen's voice trembled, but he didn't understand why things would turn out like this.

Obviously he and Luo Suxuan are the same person, but Xiao Jing loves Luo Suxuan more than he loves him.

Yue Wuchen didn't know why Luo Suxuan was born in this world, and he didn't know how to explain it to Xiaojing.

Seeing Xiaojing's crazy appearance, Yue Wuchen's heart almost broke.

"Xiaojing, let's go back to the mountain with Master, okay? Master will help you to bury Luo Suxuan, okay?"

Xiao Jing shook his head, and said in a low voice: "Luo Suxuan deserves what he deserved, and sooner or later this day will come. I don't blame Master for killing him."

"Then you still..."

"I just don't know how to let it go." Xiao Jing sighed long, and looked up at Yue Wuchen, "Master, what are you doing when you go back to the mountain? Do you want to deal with me? Or, Master intends to return to vulgar life and marry me gone?"

"Apologize first, then return to vulgarity." Yue Wuchen paused every word, "What Master has promised you will definitely be done."

"Well, I believe in Master, but in four days it will be Luo Suxuan's first seven days. I heard that on the first seven days, dead people will come back to visit, and a meal must be prepared. I I don't want Luo Suxuan to leave this world with worries, even though he has done a lot of evil, he deserves what he deserves. But the grudges are gone after death, I still want to burn some paper money for him."

After listening to Yue Wuchen, he thought, Luo Suxuan is just an incarnation of him, after death his soul will naturally return to his body.

In other words, Luo Suxuan's soul will not come back again.

In heaven and earth, there will never be Luo Suxuan again.Luo Suxuan is not even qualified for reincarnation.

"Master, just allow me once." Xiao Jing whispered, "Master wants to return to vulgarity. I'm afraid the elders won't agree. Master, why don't you go back to the mountain to prepare, and stay after Luo Suxuan's first seven days?" , I will definitely go back to the mountain to find Master."

Yue Wuchen now had some doubts about Xiaojing, so he said, "Master can stay with you."

"However, I think that even if Luo Suxuan's soul returns, I'm afraid he doesn't want to see Master." Xiaojing said again, "And, Master, isn't he going back to the mountain to plead guilty? He must be punished. I don't want to see Master being punished." scene."

Yue Wuchen never intended to let Xiaojing see it, so he said: "You don't have to be afraid, all the guilt will be borne by the teacher."

"I have one last request."

"You said."

"I want Master to admit the relationship between you and me in front of the entire Taoist sect, and then, I want to worship heaven and earth with Master in front of the Patriarch's spirit card."

Yue Wuchen listened, thinking, how can such a rebellion be caused?

"This is my only and last request to Master. Master, is he not willing to do even this little thing for me?" Xiaojing raised his eyes to stare at Yue Wuchen's face, and said softly, "Bow to heaven and earth, The second bow to the high hall...there should be elders present, if I don't make a contract in front of the patriarch's spiritual seat, how can I know if the master will abandon me again one day?"

"Master will not abandon you, never will."

"I don't believe it. I want to marry Master in front of the patriarch's spiritual throne. If Master doesn't want to..." Xiao Jing's voice gradually sank. Looking at Luo Suxuan's body, he was in a trance, " Then I have nothing to say, Master treated me that's all."

"Xiaojing..."

"Master was able to get along with Lin Jinghuan under the patriarch's spirit card back then, so why didn't he feel that he was treasonous and defiled the ancestor?"

"Xiaojing, stop talking!"

"I didn't say anything wrong," Xiaojing sneered, "It's not just once! Master's treasonous things, have you done less? Why don't you want to now?"

"Xiao Jing, what else do you want Master to do before you are willing to calm down? You must force Master to death, so that you can get what you want?"

"I just want to marry Master in front of many disciples of Taoism." Xiaojing paused every word, and said very seriously, "I only have one request for Master. Apart from this, there is no other .”

Yue Wuchen: "You know that as a teacher you won't agree."

"If the master agrees, then ten days later, I will wear a wedding robe and go back to the mountain, and I will be married with the master. After that, we will retreat to the mountains and forests together, and never ask about worldly affairs again."

After a pause, Xiao Jing said again: "If the master is unwilling, then my death will be ten days later."

"You...what do you want to do?" Yue Wuchen tremblingly said, "Xiao Jing, don't do anything foolish."

"If the master doesn't agree, my death will be in ten days." Xiao Jing repeated, looking at Yue Wuchen expressionlessly, "It's just a marriage ceremony, it's not that the master is happy with me in public, the master What are you afraid of?"

Yue Wuchen couldn't agree, but he also knew that Xiaojing would do what he said, and if he said he would die in ten days, he would definitely not live another moment.

Do you want him to break Xiaojing's limbs and imprison him for the rest of his life?

If a person doesn't want to live anymore, his heart is completely dead, and even Da Luo Jinxian can't save him.

In other words, Xiaojing is using his own life to force Yue Wuchen to marry him in public.

As long as Yue Wuchen wants Xiaojing to live, he has to agree.

After a long time, Yue Wuchen said slowly: "Okay, Master promises you."

"Ten days later, I will go back to the mountain wearing a wedding robe, and I hope Master can really fulfill his promise."

After sending Yue Wuchen away, Xiaojing thought about it, and it was indeed time to buy some things for getting married.

Although it is a ghost marriage, there are many things that should be there.

The money found from Luo Suxuan is running out, Xiao Jing wants to spend all the money on Luo Suxuan.

So every copper plate is calculated carefully.

Xiaojing went to the tailor shop to pick out the wedding gown by himself. He didn't know what style Luo Suxuan liked.

I had no choice but to choose the most expensive set among them. After I bought the wedding gown, I would not have much money left.

Just enough to buy some red candles and a few red lanterns.

Xiaojing split a cave, pushed the coffin in, and then began to arrange it.

In fact, there is nothing to arrange, just clean up the inside of the cave.

Most of the time, he slept in the same coffin with Luo Suxuan's corpse.

Xiao Jing changed Luo Suxuan into a wedding robe, put it on himself, and lit a circle of red candles around the coffin.

Afterwards, Russell Xuan'an was placed on the ground, and his body was tied with a rope to keep him in a standing position.

Although there were no guests, Xiaojing still paid respects to Luo Suxuan three times in a serious manner.

Every time it was Xiaojing who pulled the rope, trying to bow down at the same time as Luo Suxuan.

Although it is autumn now, if the corpse is not cremated for a long time, it will rot soon.

In order to prevent Luo Suxuan from rotting into a pile of bones, Xiao Jing had no choice but to cut Luo Suxuan's stomach open and pull out his internal organs.

Then stuff some yellow talismans and cotton wool into it, and then sew up the wound with a needle and thread.

Today's Luo Suxuan still maintains the appearance when he died, without any trace of decay, even though he lost his eyes, he is still very handsome.

What Xiaojing does every day is to sleep in the same coffin with Luo Suxuan, sometimes talking in a low voice.

Most of the time, she just snuggled up to sleep beside him.

Just wait ten days later and return to the Wuji Taoist Sect.

This time, Xiaojing vowed to let Yue Wuchen fetch water from the bamboo basket, and let him have a taste of being abandoned.

He wanted everyone to know that it wasn't that he was shameless, offended his superiors, deceived his teachers and exterminated his ancestors, and seduced his master.

It's that Yue Wuchen is disrespectful to the old, and is a teacher in vain.

It harmed Lin Jing back then, as well as Xiao Jing today.