Schrodinger love

Until the beginning of school, Wen Sui stayed with Jiang An in the house by the river most of the time without going out.

Sitting in the room watching movies, playing video games, or unlocking a new trick when the mood comes, life is not boring.

Wen Sui's reason was quite simple and rude: "Now there is no card to swipe, so I have to save money. I rented it for a month, so of course I have to move out when the room is full."

Jiang An felt that it made sense, so he nodded and said, "Yes, otherwise, if the dormitory is not open, you will have to stay in a hotel."

In fact, there is a deeper reason. They have a tacit understanding and have not tried to break it. Both of them are using their last time to bid farewell to the city.

I was a child who grew up by the river since I was a child. I am used to eating spicy food, listening to enthusiastic dialects, and getting used to the fireworks in the streets. I will miss it more or less.In the past, I came back because the roots were here, but in the future, apart from visiting the grave, I can't find a reasonable reason.

The day before they left, they went back to No. [-] Middle School.The high school started early, and countless students were wearing school uniforms and carrying schoolbags and running towards the teaching building. When Wen Sui stood outside the school gate and watched, he felt somewhat sad that time was gone forever.

Jiang An stood side by side with him under the shade of the tree, and couldn't help laughing at him: "Why do you have an expression on your face that you can only have at the age of 80?"

"You know what, I'm missing my lost youth." Wen Sui put his hands in his pockets, and said to himself that he used to be a junior who just entered school, and now everyone has to nod and call himself a senior.

After finishing speaking, he added a sentence quite out of his mind, with a bit of emotion in his tone: "But youth is to have some regrets."

Jiang An understood, smiled and said nothing, but lightly pinched the back of his neck.

They took a lot of photos, and the phone was full.At the beginning, I said that I would use [-] photos to cover the past agreement, but I didn't expect to overfulfill it in a few months.

Those branches, alleys, crowds, storefronts, everything is sealed in the photo album in a static form, and when you see it again in a trance, you can be pulled back to the past.

But in the past, they couldn't go back after all. They could only pack their bags and walk farther and farther, and they couldn't see where they came from.

Wen Zhongqing's stubbornness was exactly as Wen Sui expected, he stopped all the cards completely, used such a simple and rude way to resist, and waited for a compromise in the distance.

It's just that he really didn't know enough about his son, and he underestimated their persistence in their relationship. The battle that he thought would be over after a few days of tossing continued for several years, and he still didn't wait for half a point to give up.

Wen Sui once felt that the years counted are very long. When he separated from Jiang An, every day felt like a year, and he couldn't sleep all night. Every second was difficult.Now the two get along day and night, busy with their studies and making money, it seems that the time of a few years has become very fast, and the spring and autumn are in the blink of an eye.

He put away his old idleness, listened to every class very carefully, and got full marks in all his homework. After Jiang An, he can be honored as a god of learning in a school like Beijing University full of big bosses.

Of course, he thinks that his brother is a bit more perverted. He used Kari's 200 million for investment, and easily doubled it. Compared with the hard-earned money of his hot pot restaurant, Wen Sui is quite dissatisfied.

Knowing that the kid had been sulking all day over this matter, Jiang secretly smiled and kissed him on the corner of the mouth: "The family still wants to compare? Are you so competitive?"

"Ah, after all, I'm going to buy a house, and I'll pay half of it." Wen Sui replied with quite a backbone, and added, "What if we quarrel in the future and you ask me to go out?"

Jiang An thought he was terribly cute, and teased, "Have we ever quarreled?"

"No, it doesn't mean it won't happen." Wen Sui looked at him disdainfully, and said viciously, "I'm going to discuss with Manager Li about expanding the store."

"No, no matter how busy you are, I won't be able to see you anymore." Jiang An put his arms around his waist and coaxed, "Can you spare some time for brother?"

Wen Sui hooked his neck, with an expression like a vicious capitalist: "Okay, it's billed by the minute, and you pay me."

"Wen Suisui, have you lost money?" Jiang An almost laughed angrily.

Wen Sui shook his head and said, "I can also give you money for whoring and get rich together, isn't it fair?"

Jiang An gritted his back molars, couldn't hold back, grabbed his waist and turned him over, pressed him on the bed and spanked his buttocks twice.

The two still lived in 404 and did not move out. They moved slightly, and the iron frame bed was shaken and creaked. Wen Sui raised his eyelids and stared at him in fright.

They tacitly maintained the relationship between elder brother and younger brother at school. They had enough trouble with the family, and there were gossips. They didn't want to bring more criticism to each other, and they didn't bother to explain.

Once this kind of thing is made public, no matter whether you care about it or be malicious, it will inevitably come to ask a few words, and then spread the word.

But when someone noticed and asked cryptically, the two didn't deny it, but left a meaningful blank.

So following "Jiang An's Girlfriend" and "Wen Sui's Girlfriend", "What is the relationship between Jiang An and Wen Sui" was also included in the top ten unsolved mysteries of Peking University. Wang Qiyue and Jian Yingkuai are the only two who know the inside story I was suffocated.

Xie Mingzhi would send messages from time to time, probably because she was hit too hard at the beginning. She has softened a lot in the past two years, and is no longer as strong as before. Occasionally, she would ask about his and Jiang An's recent situation.

It's just that Wen Sui has completely inherited that stubbornness, and if he can't go back, he really never went back, and Xie Mingzhi is caught in the middle, in a dilemma.

Another year, on the eve of the Spring Festival, Wen Sui and his brother were busy buying furniture for their new house when their phone vibrated and received a WeChat message.

[Ming Zhi]: Years old, three years, you still refuse to come back this year to take a look?

[Do Not Disturb]: You can ask Mr. Wen first

From the moment he left home, he didn't even want to call his father anymore, and he seemed to hurt his enemy a thousand and hurt himself eight hundred.

[Mingzhi]: During this time, he occasionally mentions you inadvertently. The other night, I saw him reviewing the interview reports of your college entrance examination. I guess he still misses you.

[Do Not Disturb]: If you want to go back, you can go with my brother

Xie Mingzhi didn't send the next reply for a long time, and that silence actually explained everything.

Wen Sui still feels chilled every time this happens. After so many years, it has become a firm fact, but Wen Zhongqing still refuses to give them a way out, even if it is a tactful compromise, there is no half of it.

His eyes fell on a set of custom-made mahogany furniture, which was very similar to the sofa in the living room at home, and he was in a daze for a moment.

[Do Not Disturb]: Forget it, when I didn’t say

[Mingzhi]: When I went to your school before, you refused to see me. Mom really misses you

[Do Not Disturb]: Sorry

[Mingzhi]: Let’s not talk about this, I will graduate next semester, what are your plans

[Do Not Disturb]: My brother and I are both in the graduate school. We both registered a company before, and we are quite busy there.

[Ming Zhi]: Very good, then I can rest assured

[Mingzhi]: Can you open the permission of Moments?I can't even imagine what you look like now

Wen Sui's nose was sour, and he replied slowly with lowered eyelashes: They are all photos of the two of us, I'm afraid you will be confused if you look at them

Jiang An just finished paying the bill, turned to look at him, and asked softly, "What are you doing standing there motionless?"

Wen Sui pressed the lock screen of his phone, looked up and smiled at him: "A partner asked me for information, and I will send it back to him."

"I bought the sofa, and it could have been delivered today, but it was pushed to number four as you said." Jiang An pursed his lips, a little confused, "Did I forget which date? Why did it have to be number four?"

Wen Sui coughed lightly, and said vaguely: "I checked the date with Master, it is suitable for moving."

Jiang An laughed and teased, "Are you so superstitious now?"

"You, a person who goes to worship Buddha every year, have the nerve to talk about me?" Wen Sui pushed his shoulders and walked out, muttering, "It's only a few days anyway, let's go shopping and see what's missing."

Wen Sui has recently started to spend extravagantly again, thinking that after finally having a home that belongs to the two of them, of course they have to buy everything, and want to buy everything they see.

If Jiang An hadn't dragged it away forcibly by pressing his head, he would probably have packed up the entire furniture city and brought it back together.

The day of the move was the fourth day of the Lunar New Year. I originally wanted to invite a few friends over to celebrate together, but Wang Qiyue complained about the time being too curious, and I couldn’t leave for dinner at home.

Jian Ying finally followed Ji Xiaoyu back to Wucheng to meet her parents, and after a round trip, they were the only ones left.

It's been like this for several years, and Wen Sui didn't think it mattered, he was still humming an out-of-tune song when he was working in the kitchen, and he looked in a good mood.

Jiang An stir-fried the chopped vegetables and glanced at him with a smile: "So happy?"

"Finally we have a home that belongs to both of us, aren't you happy?" Wen Sui clicked his tongue and complained, "Is it because we've been together for too long that you're getting tired of me. That's right, I watched it a dozen times back and forth. Years must be annoying."

Jiang An leaned over to bite him, and said speechlessly, "What's going on in your head all day long?"

Wen Sui picked things up on purpose, and said blankly, "Isn't it? There is indifference in your eyes."

"I was smoked." Jiang An pushed the man out of the kitchen, raised his hand to turn on the range hood, "Don't stand inside, lie down on the sofa for a while, it will be fine soon."

Wen Sui walked around the new home slowly on his slippers, as if he was touring the territory, he couldn't calm down at all.

A house of [-] square meters is not too small. Of course, it is far from the one in Wucheng, but it is enough for two people to live in.Looking at the clean and tidy appearance from the initial empty embryo, I was really moved.

He opened the wine cabinet and came out with a bottle of red wine to wake up. Feeling that the atmosphere was not enough, he lit a few more candles.

As soon as the headlights were turned off, the candle flickered slightly. Wen Sui propped his chin up and looked at the back of the slowly cooking in the kitchen, unable to move his eyes away.

Obviously wearing a very simple pullover sweater, the cuffs rolled up to the forearm, revealing a section of strong muscles.Below is a pair of gray trousers, which can't be more homely.Only a few years later, that mature man's breath became more and more intense, and his gestures could easily seduce people's hearts.

Watching him bring out the dishes, Wen Sui crossed his legs like a grandpa, and sighed, "It's great to marry a wife who can cook."

"What?" Jiang An put the dishes on the table, leaned on the table to look at people, and when his eyes fell, he felt a strong sense of oppression.

Wen Sui stared into his eyes, and repeated slowly: "Marry a wife who can cook..."

Before he finished speaking, his cheeks were pinched, and his voice became slurred: "Okay, okay, don't say anything."

Jiang secretly smiled, turned around and went into the kitchen to bring out the remaining dishes, neatly arranged like obsessive-compulsive disorder.

Wen Sui poured wine and handed over one, clinked glasses, and made a speech saying: "Celebrate the first day of Jiang Niannian and Wen Sui Sui's moving. After five years, change to a bigger one."

"I'm thinking about five years from now, aren't you walking a bit fast?" Jiang An raised his head and took a sip of wine, with a smile in his eyes.

Probably because the atmosphere was too good, Wen Sui felt a little drunk after not drinking much, and spoke very slowly: "Aren't years just a blink of an eye? Look at how fast time flies."

It seemed that the last second was still that snowy day. They sat together on the small balcony by the river, drinking beer and thinking about the future.After a little daze, fast forward to the present, and the scenes are almost seamlessly connected.

He stared at the person quietly for a while, then said slowly: "Brother, I have something for you, wait for me."

Jiang An hummed, playing with the goblet with his fingers: "Have you prepared a housewarming gift?"

Wen Sui didn't answer, just got up and went to the side of the sofa to open the backpack, took out a folder from it and handed it over: "It's in order, don't mess it up."

The moment he saw a stack of blank papers, Jiang An paused his fingers and said hesitantly, "Is this... a letter?"

"You taught me the method, so you can read it." Wen Sui pursed his lips, sat back down again, and his eyes started to get a little wet.

Jiang An's hands trembled, and he put the white paper next to the dancing candlelight, and writing slowly appeared on each paper.

"On February 2019, 2, the weather was cloudy

Today is the 19th day since we came out with our family. During this time, I suffered from insomnia. Just like you at that time, I wanted to fall asleep but couldn’t sleep, and I didn’t even dream.

It's been tough for both of us lately, and while we don't talk about each other, it's become a thorn that hurts when we touch it.

I am also embarrassed to choose this way to write to you.Because there are many emotions that I dare not reveal in person, for fear that you will be sad and think too much, but I don't want to hide something between us.Maybe, I will pick a time when you are in a good mood to take it out and read it later.

Brother, you know, I am actually quite a loveless person. From the moment I leave home, I am very, very scared.

I was afraid that I would not be able to grasp anything with my left hand and right hand, and I would be left alone in the end, just like being thrown in an amusement park that year.

So don't leave me, I really can't bear to be separated. "

"The weather was fine on March 2019, 3

School life is still the same as usual, there is not much difference, today Ji Xiaoyu asked about my family situation, I was silent.

I don't know how to explain to others why the two people who are clearly in love can only be made things difficult by their parents.

During the Spring Festival, he mentioned Jian Ying to his parents, and he came out of the closet without much opposition from his family.Comparing the two, I actually feel quite sour.

Probably out of envy and helplessness, in the same situation, we can only end up in an ending where we never see each other again.

I used to think it was great to have an older brother, but now I didn't expect that this identity would become the biggest obstacle, but after thinking about it carefully, what would I do if I didn't have you by my side when I was young.

Probably because you are so kind, so God must take something away from me in exchange.

The first thing I learned when I grew up is not to be too greedy. "

……

"The weather was fine on March 2019, 8

Today is my 19th birthday. After four years, you helped me celebrate my birthday again. We flew back to Fog City.When standing by the river, there is always a feeling that things are right and people are wrong.

I used to go to the river to wait for you every year at this time, although I was the only one every time, and the river was always cold when I stepped in with bare feet.

I hold your hand very tightly, afraid that you will disappear again this time, but you comfort me and say no.

I have never found myself crying so much, probably because I am heartless, or because you are always around.Now it's easy to get sore eyes because of a word, but I have to hold back, or you'll call me Wen Jiaojiao again.

I went to the temple with you, and we knelt before the Buddha and prayed devoutly and wrote down our prayers.

I'm sorry, can you modify your wish, we broke our promise, we want to stay together forever, and grow old forever.

We knelt for a long, long time until the twilight was low, for fear that the Buddha would feel that we were not sincere enough and our wishes would come to nothing.

Seeing that I am a birthday star, I should agree.Anyway, we will come again next year, kneel once a year, and it will always come true. "

……

"On February 2020, 1, the weather was cloudy

This year's Spring Festival came really early, the school dormitory was closed, and the two of us found a short-term rental to move there.Every time I go on vacation, I start to stay in different residences, and I also think about when we will have a home that really belongs to us, you said soon.

You will never lie to me, you say soon, then it shouldn't be too far away.

Ms. Xie Mingzhi is actually very soft-hearted. She sent me a big red envelope during the Chinese New Year and asked me to keep it, fearing that I would suffer.

I didn't ask for it, and wanted to ask if I could take you back with me, so I typed half of the words and deleted them.

Forget it, there was already a lot of trouble last year, this year let them live a good year with peace of mind, it is the last filial piety.

It's just that I didn't spend New Year's Eve with my parents for the first time. I suddenly felt how sad you must have been when you ate noodles alone in the rental house.

You were afraid that I would be unhappy, so you told me several jokes with a blank face, which were not very funny.

I'm actually not that sad, but it's probably because I smiled so ugly that it kept you silent for a long time.

I have grown up, it doesn't matter brother, really you are enough. "

"The weather was fine on March 2020, 3

A few days ago, I took a group photo that I was very satisfied with. I specially posted the group photo in Moments, only parents can see it.

After waiting for several days, I didn't wait for comments or likes. I comforted myself and said that Mr. Wen was too busy to pay attention to it, and Ms. Xie Mingzhi was too. She was probably overwhelmed by the chicken soup for the soul of those bosses.

But you know I'm a rebellious person, I like to do stupid things when I'm unhappy, so I turned off their viewing permissions.

Don't look down, anyway, every time I post a post, I can get a lot of likes, but these two are not bad.

It's still a bit annoying to think about it, you look so good-looking, why don't they like it?

I feel wronged for you, but I refrained from telling you, lest you will be unhappy if you find out. "

.........

"On February 2020, 11, the weather was cloudy

The Weiming Lake was frozen again, and a group of freshmen who had just entered the school came in and wanted to try to jump off. They were just as stupid as I was then, probably because of those rumors.

I swear I was just going to watch the excitement, but probably I was so lucky that I stepped into the ice hole within two steps, shivering from the cold.

Thinking that they are all wet anyway, it is better to get completely wet, so the heart dragged you and fell together.

The lake is still very shallow, and the height has not changed after two years. Many people around are booing, as if I want to propose to you.

To be honest, I have thought about the scene where I will propose to you one day, but after thinking about it a lot, I feel that it is too tacky and not worthy of you.

You are too good at falling in love, or because you put too much thought on me and put all your attention on me, it makes me appear insincere in everything I do.

Just wait a little longer, one day I will stand in front of everyone with you, announce that we will be together for the rest of our lives, and then see their jaw-dropping expressions.

As for blessings, do you care if you give love or not, I don't care. "

……

On June 2021, 1, the weather was cloudy

This year passed so quickly, probably because I was too busy, and it was your birthday again in a flash.This time I dare not exaggerate and spend money on fireworks.But the suit I gave you is really exciting to wear.

It obviously feels like you were still wearing the school uniform of No. [-] Middle School at school for a second, sitting under the rotating electric fan and writing questions, why did you put on your tie and go out to socialize in a blink of an eye?

Time is passing by uncontrollably, and every time I am in a daze, I can still easily recall some old memories, the longer and more profound.

The story of the two of us seems to have become a separate timeline. I moved back and forth to look through it, for fear that I would forget some details after a while.

In the past, you said that you were the only one holding on to the memories and refusing to let them go. In fact, I was the one who was trapped inside.

It seems that our previous relationship was not equal from the beginning. You have so many years more than me, and you are destined to be heavier than me when calculating the weight of love.

So I have to remember how good you are to me, and love you more every day than yesterday. "

……

"The weather is rainy on April 2021, 4

It really rains every year during the Qingming Festival. We bought a few bunches of white chrysanthemums and went back to Wucheng to see Uncle Jiang and Grandma.I often feel very sorry that I was too young when Uncle Jiang left, and I hardly have any memory of him, but I know that he must be a very good father.

Otherwise, when you were a child, why would you cry secretly during so many sleepless nights?

You said that if Dad was still there, he would definitely agree to us being together. I took it seriously, and silently called him Dad Jiang in my heart.

Your family members are really very good, that's why you exist as good as you.If they were alive, there would be someone standing behind us.

Not under the wind and rain, we can only hold umbrellas for each other. "

……

"The weather was fine on March 2021, 6

Ms. Xie Mingzhi came to Beijing University secretly without saying hello, and only sent me a message when she arrived at the door.

I was falling asleep in the dormitory and woke up by the vibration. I tried to pretend I didn't see it, but she called me.

I haven't heard her voice for a long time, and I didn't know what to say for a while, and there was only endless silence between each other, as if they were a lot stranger.

She said she wanted to see me, but I didn't dare to see her. I was afraid that if I met her, I wouldn't be able to hold back the emotions that I had managed to clean up for so long.

She seemed to be crying, her voice sounded a little choked, I didn't know what to do, I'm still not very good at comforting people.

It seems that I always easily let others fall into this kind of sad mood. It was you before, and now it is her, but I am also quite aggrieved.

I want to cry too, the quilt is wet, come back and hug me. "

"The weather was fine on March 2021, 8

I have followed you to this temple for three consecutive years on your birthday, and it seems to have become a habit. The Buddha probably thinks we are bored to death.

You knelt down for seven years before, and in the three years we have been together, there are so many people who come and go who can't ask for it. He should be the most impressed with us, will he treat us a little better.

The peace talisman on my neck can't hold any more prayers, so we prayed for another one, and this one hangs around your neck, making it a pair with me.

Let's write the same sentence for the past three years together: I hope we will stay together forever and be safe every year

I knelt in front of the Buddha and secretly said in my heart that I won't change it this time, really.

If three years is not enough, then five years, seven years, until we can't walk anymore. "

……

"The weather was fine on March 2022, 1

After many days of blizzards, finally a rare sunny day, the two of us wrapped up in two bear-like costumes, went downstairs to build a snowman.

There are too many brats, there are always disobedient brats hitting me with snowballs, do I really need to be beaten?They're jealous of how handsome I am, aren't they?

I couldn't be more angry, so I called Jian Ying and the others to join the battle. It's a shame that five men can't beat eight children.

I see that you are covered in snow and your hair is messy, but you are smiling happily. Thinking about it, it is not too bad.

I used to be very possessive, I didn't like to let you talk to others, and I would get angry if I said a word, it's really naive.

Now I hope you have more friends, and it is best that all the laughter surrounds you, and the excitement in the world belongs to you. "

"The weather was fine on March 2022, 2

It has been 1095 days since we confessed to our family. This is the last time I write to you. At the beginning, you spent three years experiencing the pain of parting. Now I spend three years re-walking the path you walked. To some extent, we are even.

So in the days to come, let's stop standing still, starting from moving into a new home, and start a new life together, okay? "

Wen Sui leaned over, kissed the corners of his moist eyes, and said softly, "Brother, here are the 36 letters I owe you."

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