Banshuharu

In the morning, a high school friend sent a box of packages to the address Xu Xiuyuan gave, most of which contained some clothes he often wore and two comic books.Before leaving home, Xu Xiuyuan didn't make much preparations to prevent Pingqiu from getting suspicious, but now that he was sure to stay for a long time, he asked his friend to send the package he had prepared earlier.In addition, a friend also enclosed a letter.The envelope was very thin, and it fell in the palm of my hand. There was only a piece of orange non-adhesive post-it note.

Pingqiu probably won't end the breakup meal too early this time, but Xu Xiuyuan didn't expect to enter the house, the hallway was quiet, and there was an unfinished glass of boiled water on the kitchen counter.

Ping Qiu returned home some time ago, lying on his side in the bedroom with his back to the door, wrapped in an air-conditioning quilt all over his body.The temperature in the room was adjusted around 25 degrees, but he was so hot that he was sweating, and then buried his head in the quilt, crying vaguely.

Xu Xiuyuan reached out to touch his forehead, but Pingqiu quickly turned over and said, "I'm sleepy, sleep for a while."

In the evening, the sky was slightly dark, and the blackout curtains were drawn in the room. Xu Xiuyuan could only see a shadow protruding from the back of Pingqiu's neck. It was like the back of the neck, and he didn't want to press or pinch, so he could only press his hands on the neck, so hard that it seemed that he wanted to press the whole head into the front chest.

It was not until he heard the sound of Xu Xiuyuan going out barefoot that Ping Qiu opened his closed eyes.He still couldn't get used to the side-lying position, and his shoulders were overwhelmed. When he adjusted to lying down, he was still aching.He pressed his left hand on his right shoulder, pinched it vigorously, and pinched the forearm all the way along the sore upper arm, and then repeated with the other arm.

Cycle like this twice, the muscle soreness is slightly relieved, and the whole body seems to enter a state of relaxation.Pingqiu had nothing else to do, so he could only continue staring at the ceiling in a daze, closing his eyes occasionally, and opening them again after a while, just staring at the chandelier on the ceiling. Big questions slipped through his mind.He had no problem to think about, so he started to pick his fingers, then put them into his mouth to bite, biting his nails and biting the dead skin until he tasted blood in his mouth.

At this time, Pingqiu found that he had unknowingly turned into a side-lying sleeping position again, leaving a large space behind him.He moved his body to the center of the bed while recovering from lying down, and slept soundly, with his hands and feet slightly spread, as if occupying the bed in an absolute posture.

There was a slight noise outside the bedroom, and Ping Qiu's soul flew to the sky, thinking that maybe Xu Xiuyuan was doing something he liked, maybe he was continuing to build the study, maybe he was playing on the computer, or maybe he was talking on the phone with one of his classmates and friends , otherwise there will be no voice.

Friend, Pingqiu had a sudden fantasy, assuming that there is a difficult problem in front of me, and I have to call a friend for help to solve it, then who should I call?Who will help me?who can help me?What kind of friend would he be?Are such friends useful?Do I have such a friend—do I have a friend?

Oh, no, Pingqiu thought again, I have no friends.

I don't have any friends, maybe I did.

In elementary school, Pingqiu was shy and not good at socializing. He was always the kind of good student who stood out in the class but was often ignored.Completely different from him, is Xu Ruiyang, who has a middle-level grades, but has been branded on the list of teachers and students' headaches because of troubles and troubles.He is often punished by the teacher to stand in the office with his ears in his hands, and Ping Qiu would always see him waving his arms in the direction of the classroom as he passed by holding the class workbook.The crowd of students watching the show seemed to be pleased and admired by Xu Ruiyang's indifferent attitude.

After getting acquainted with each other, Xu Ruiyang said that he just watched too much. Pingqiu ran to the office, always bowed his head and listened to the teacher's questions, and nodded his head when he heard a sentence. He behaved like a chicken pecking at rice. he.He couldn't bear the sight of all the little chicks who nodded and bowed to their teachers, so he thought of saving Pingqiu, making this little chicken a friend, and preventing him from burying his face in his chest to a group of decayed teachers.

Ping Qiu was full of admiration for his bold words and ambitions at the time, but when asked why he was willing to be friends with Xu Ruiyang, Ping Qiu smiled and said that they were both members of the guard of honor, and Xu Ruiyang played the trumpet the most lazily. See it at a glance.When Xu Ruiyang heard it, he put his arms around Pingqiu's shoulders and laughed straight, saying yes yes yes, you are the school flag raiser, why did I forget, it seems that we are destined to be together, and we are born to be friends.

As he said that, Ping Qiu couldn't remember how many promises Xu Ruiyang made.But that was the first time he was hugged and said to be friends, even though it was Tong Yan Wuxin, but Ping Qiu thought, I really wanted to be friends with him at that time.

While he was wandering, there was a knock on the bedroom door, Pingqiu immediately turned his head to one side, his eyelashes closed tightly.

Fortunately, Xu Xiuyuan didn't turn on the light, so he stood far away at the door and said, "It's past six o'clock, let's eat."

"I'm not hungry." Ping Qiu replied.

"Don't eat a bite?"

"I'm not very hungry, you can eat, don't worry about me. I'll sleep a little longer."

After being quiet for half a minute, Xu Xiuyuan closed the door again without saying a word.The light outside the house was gone, and Pingqiu sank into the darkness again.He was still lying on his side, with his left hand pinching his right shoulder—it was so sore that he couldn't let go of his hand.

Closing his eyes and rubbing his right shoulder, Pingqiu heard the door knock in a daze.Then came the sound of footsteps, and then the bed sank slightly, someone got on the bed, one arm was inserted into the gap between his neck and the mattress, and tightened, causing Pingqiu to shrink back uncontrollably, and then the waist and abdomen were squeezed by another arm. Being hugged tightly through the air conditioner.

In such a posture, Pingqiu seems to be locked, unable to move or struggle, every time he moves, the hands clasped on his chest will tighten a little, and Xu Xiuyuan's breathing on the back of his head will also follow, either quickly or quickly. gentle.

After struggling twice, Ping Qiu stopped moving.He silently accepted Xu Xiuyuan's sudden reliance, his eyes fixed in front of him, and suddenly his nose felt sore, he immediately buried his head and tried to block his throat from choking, but the tears rushed out of his eye sockets and slid over his eyelids, and his vision was suddenly blurred, just So silently crying.

He didn't want Xu Xiuyuan to find out that he was crying cowardly behind his back. After all, he had never had the ability to cry before, and only now that he thought of crying, Xu Xiuyuan would definitely laugh at him for being worthless.Pingqiu wants to be a qualified elder brother in front of him. Although he has never been very capable, at this time, he still wants to protect his poor self-esteem, so that he won't be like a child and suffer some inexplicable grievances. Can't help crying.

However, even though reason is shouting to stop loudly, emotion is choking the throat of reason at this time.Pingqiu covered his mouth with his palm, then covered his eyes, and finally covered his entire face.Although Xu Xiuyuan still just quietly locked his upper body, without any comfort, but this made Ping Qiu get a little comfort in self-spite.

After a long time, until Pingqiu was tired from crying, his eyelids were heavy and his nose was blocked.His thoughts were chaotic, and he breathed out with his mouth open. He was in a daze, as if he had fallen asleep.In the dream, he felt that his chest was tightened, and he was a little suffocated, but when he opened his eyes, he saw Xu Xiuyuan's face.

He thought it was a dream, so he just reached out to touch Xu Xiuyuan's cheek and went back to sleep. In a trance, he thought that he was back in middle school, and when he woke up from a nap, he often found Xu Xiuyuan squatting obediently in front of the bed, with bright eyes , lying on the edge of the bed, seeing Pingqiu wake up, would raise the exercise book in his hand, and ask Pingqiu how to write the first question.

But when Pingqiu woke up again, he had a splitting headache, as if there were mountains pressing on his eyes, he stretched out his hand and found that the eyelids were swollen badly.

Xu Xiuyuan beside him was fast asleep, and Ping Qiu carefully unwrapped his hands wrapped around his body, but Xu Xiuyuan clasped them tightly, and Ping Qiu was worried about waking him up, so he moved lightly and lightly, finally getting out of bed.When he walked into the bathroom and looked in the mirror, he was frightened by the two red eye bubbles on his face. He froze for a moment, bent over to wash his face, the cold water touched his eyelids, and there was still some slight pain.

The current time is 02:30 in the morning. I have cried enough before, and it is another matter to vent my emotions, but my stomach is protesting.Ping Qiu originally thought that Xu Xiuyuan would always leave some dinner in the refrigerator, but when he opened it, it was fruit yogurt, and there was no trace of food when he checked the trash can.

Take out the watermelon left in the refrigerator, cut it in half with a knife in Pingqiu's hand, leaving three quarters of the total, wrap it in plastic wrap and put it back in the refrigerator.The remaining quarter should be dealt with temporarily as supper.

Holding the spoon to keep it cold, Pingqiu pressed two spoons on the swollen eyelids and applied it. After the spoons were warmed up, he rinsed with cold water to cool down, and then pressed the upper eyelids to reduce the swelling.

Finding this method to reduce swelling was too laborious, he stuffed the spoon into the refrigerator, waited until half of the watermelon was wiped out, then took out the spoon and pressed it on his eyelids.Unexpectedly, the spoon cooled too much, the cold air hissed into his eyelids, he was shivering from the cold, and his eyelids seemed to be sticking to the spoon.Not daring to apply any more cold compresses, he had no choice but to concentrate on eating the watermelon, burying his head in one mouthful after another.

He was so hungry that he ate very quickly, so he didn't pay attention to the movement of Xu Xiuyuan walking barefoot.On the contrary, when he was holding the watermelon to drink the juice, he noticed a dark shadow on the side, looked up to see Xu Xiuyuan, Ping Qiu's throat constricted in shock, his nasal cavity hurt and he coughed repeatedly, unaware that a watermelon seed was sticking to his mouth.

Xu Xiuyuan's hair was disheveled and his eyes were sleepy. Regardless of Pingqiu's face turning pale from his fright, he hugged Pingqiu's neck from behind, put his lips on the top of his hair, and asked him, "Why do you wake up so early?" , Then take a glass from the counter and pour water to drink, gurgling is more than half of the glass.

The eyelids haven't subsided yet, Pingqiu didn't want Xu Xiuyuan to see his embarrassment, so he didn't look directly at him, but deliberately looked towards the balcony.It was late at night, and it was still pitch black outside. He asked, "It's not dawn yet, did I wake you up?"

"Turn around and see that you're not here, come out and have a look," Xu Xiuyuan leaned against the sink and drank the second glass of water, he seemed very thirsty, "By the way, drink a glass of water, you must wake up from thirst."

"Did you not eat last night? Are you hungry now? Let me cook you a bowl of wontons. There are quick-frozen ones in the refrigerator."

"Don't eat, sleep," Xu Xiuyuan drank the remaining water in one go, and threw the glass on the sink, "Let's go."

"I woke up, I'm not sleepy now, I just do school work for a while. If you're sleepy, go to sleep, don't worry about me." Pingqiu tried his best to stretch his eyes wide, but the eye circles were still swollen and uncomfortable.

"Then I won't sleep either." Xu Xiuyuan squinted his eyes, as if he was trying to adapt to the light, and brushed his hair twice.

Pingqiu couldn't hold him back, so he had to bring a computer to work in the living room.He sat cross-legged on the floor mat beside the coffee table, while Xu Xiuyuan sat on the sofa with his legs bent, with the computer hugged by his lap.Whether intentionally or not, his left leg was very close to Pingqiu.They have their own thoughts and do not disturb each other.

After a while, there was a noise outside the window.In less than half a minute, the wind started to grow louder, and the rain came down, shaking the glass of the balcony with a clatter, making the big pagoda tree in front tremble along with it.

When it rained at night, Pingqiu's attention was drawn away, and the lights in the room were on, making the wind and rain outside even more frightening.

Seeing that Xu Xiuyuan was concentrating on the computer, Pingqiu carefully got up and walked to the balcony, checking whether there was anything outside and whether the lock on the glass door was pressed.Finding that the glass door was cold and comfortable, he snuck away again and put his face against the door, trying to cool down his eyelids.

He thought that Xu Xiuyuan must have noticed his appearance, but he didn't say anything, pretended he didn't know, and gave Pingqiu enough face as a brother. , A few words are always unclear.What's more, Xu Xiuyuan's status is subtle, no matter if he wants to comfort him as a friend or considerate him as a younger brother, Pingqiu will feel uncomfortable, and simply pretend that he knows nothing, which will save Pingqiu the trouble of perfunctory.

Stupidly leaning against the glass door, Pingqiu looked at the torrential rain outside the window and was in a daze, so that he didn't notice that Xu Xiuyuan appeared behind him, or he noticed, but he was too lazy to move, and let Xu Xiuyuan imitate him in a similar posture. In front of the glass door.The same movement of palms against the door, they watched the same rain, heard the whistling of the wind, as if witnessing the mouth of a night swallowing everything up.

"I want to eat eggs." Xu Xiuyuan said suddenly.

"Eat eggs?" Ping Qiu stared at him blankly.

"Well, I want to eat two eggs. You can treat me to them tomorrow, I want two."

"...I asked you just now if you were hungry, and you said no."

"I wasn't hungry just now, but I'm hungry now."

"Then let me cook wontons for you. Quick-frozen ones will be ready soon."

"I don't want to eat wontons, I want to eat eggs."

"You're hungry, are you picky eaters?"

"I just want to eat eggs."

"Poached eggs?"

"Tea eggs."

"Aren't they all eggs?"

"I just want to eat tea eggs."

"... picky."

"I feel so too."

Xu Xiuyuan's expression of approval made Pingqiu laugh, but his facial features felt a little astringent.Avoiding Xu Xiuyuan's gaze, he lowered his head, rubbed his face and eyes, and before turning around, he kicked the foot of the sofa with his knee.Enduring the pain and pretending it was all right, Ping Qiu sat back in his seat and said nonchalantly: "I don't know if it will rain in the morning, but if it doesn't, I'll buy it for you."

"Two tea eggs?"

"Don't you want two?"

"Nothing else?"

"What else do you want?"

"Glutinous rice siu mai, you need two."

"You didn't like glutinous rice and siu mai before. You said that the outer layer of skin is very thick, and eating it is like eating paper."

"not me."

"what?"

"It was Xu Ruiyang who said it." Xu Xiuyuan turned over the sofa and sat directly behind Pingqiu. Because one leg was bent, he seemed to wrap Pingqiu between his legs, "Did you remember wrong?"

"……I do not remember."

"Well, don't tell me if you don't remember. But he called me again today, the same old way, asking where I am, urging me to go home, and using my parents as a shield, saying that I won't listen to him anymore , I will go to college in the future, and my family will not give me a penny.”

Ping Qiu was concentrating on working on the system, and responded perfunctorily: "Really?"

"Honestly, I think he's jealous of me."

"..."

"He's jealous of my ability, in every sense." Xu Xiuyuan looked into Pingqiu's ear and said.Pingqiu's fortune is thin, and the earlobe meat seems to have been slashed from the bottom to the top by a knife, so it is pitifully small.

"You have always been great, there is no need to compare with him, you are you, have your own strengths and shining points, don't be influenced by him, I believe you will do better than him, you are so good, right? ?” Ping Qiu turned to look at him and said sincerely.

"I admit that I have wanted to compare with him in everything since I was a child. If his grades are poor, I will study hard; if he is doing nothing, I will take the lead in everything. But I don't know why, I always seem to be behind him. The specific difference is in Where, I can't tell."

"You are already very good," Pingqiu said, "at least better than him, better than me. You are still so young, you can't say anything about the future, now it's all temporary, maybe in a year or two, you will be Find out that everything you're worrying about right now really doesn't matter."

"If it were you, how long would it take?" Xu Xiuyuan asked.

"Aren't we talking about you?" Ping Qiu evaded his question and turned his body back to the front, "What does this have to do with me?"

"I told you, don't laugh. I think we are in the same situation. You get a sense of security by getting rid of Lu Yang. I just want to prove to you that I am no worse than Xu Ruiyang. To some extent, our common enemy is Xu Ruiyang, right?"

"I'm not--"

"Don't be in a hurry to deny it. You tell me you've forgotten my brother, yes, I'll agree with you, but what's the use? It's one thing whether I believe you or not; whether you've really forgotten him, that's It's another matter. I'm not the judge of your feelings. I can't judge whether you are guilty or not. What does it matter? Throw it away if you want to, isn't it still something you can't get? "

"I don't know what you're talking about," Ping Qiu's face tensed, "If you want to talk about Lu Yang and me, it has nothing to do with you. Even if there is a mistake, it's because I have always had reservations about him, yes I'm sorry for him, it's my problem - if you want to talk about your brother, it's even more meaningless, it's all in the past, there is no possibility for me and him anymore, so don't talk about it."

"Then why are you crying? You're so useless, you just hide in the quilt and cry?"

"..." Xu Xiuyuan's tone was flat, but it made Ping Qiu feel ashamed for a moment.

"Even Lu Yang knows that you haven't let go of Xu Ruiyang at all. He is the biggest reason you broke up. You still dare not admit it. You may not love Xu Ruiyang anymore, but there is always hatred. You liked him so much back then, He is your lover, but also your friend, you give him all your feelings, and in exchange for this result, you don't hate him, is it possible?

"It's not so much that you dumped Lu Yang, it's better to say that you became angry from embarrassment, or your conscience realized that you can no longer deceive innocent people like this, so you dumped him, as if the bad guy finally did a good thing, so you will feel at ease A little, right?"

Ping Qiu was pressed by him step by step: "...I don't understand you more and more. Don't always act like you know me very well, as if you can guess all my thoughts. I don't like this. And I think, I think you are very fickle, Xiu Yuan, do you hate me?"

"No," Xu Xiuyuan said, "I don't hate you, I like you."

Ping Qiu was taken aback for a moment, and made a hasty monotone: "Ah?"

"I like you very much," Xu Xiuyuan moved closer, looking into Pingqiu's eyes, "I like you for my brother, and I also like you as a man, otherwise why do you think I came to you without telling Xu Ruiyang?"

"Are you serious?"

"Do I look serious?"

"No, no," Pingqiu stammered, "I like you, I like——no, you are my younger brother, the younger brother I like very much, I really like you, no, no, it's not that I like you, I am--"

"I lied to you." Xu Xiuyuan interrupted suddenly.

"...What lied to me?"

"you guess."

Xu Xiuyuan was so cunning, Ping Qiu seemed to be forced to spin around by the braid on his head, and finally realized that he was not Xu Xiuyuan's opponent at all, and he didn't know which of his words was true and which was true. Fake.Pingqiu's face changed again and again, but in Xu Xiuyuan's eyes, it became a joke to amuse him.

Xu Xiuyuan held back appropriately, and took half a step back: "You are too stupid, you can't tell the truth from the lie, aren't you just waiting to be deceived?"

As soon as the words were finished, Xu Xiuyuan didn't give Pingqiu time to react, he bent down and dragged a cardboard box from one side, opened it, and took out a pair of earphones from inside.Then one leg hooked Pingqiu's lower abdomen, Xu Xiuyuan skillfully pulled Pingqiu back.Ping Qiu fell onto the sofa, just sitting between his legs.Xu Xiuyuan leaned on Pingqiu's back and put the headset on for him.

Pingqiu could only hear his vague voice: "Don't talk about that, you will get angry if you talk too much. This earphone is noise-canceling. You have insomnia problems. You can use this to listen to two songs at night before falling asleep."

He opened his mouth to speak, but even his own voice was sticky. Ping Qiu felt uncomfortable and wanted to take off the earphones, but Xu Xiuyuan restrained his wrist.Pingqiu didn't understand why he always repeated it, like stringing him on a bamboo stick, setting it on fire, roasting him back and forth, and occasionally opening his mouth to force him some sweet dates.Such a hot and cold attitude made Pingqiu extremely uneasy, he was not capable of dealing with Xu Xiuyuan, but his resisting hands were still restrained by his side, and he couldn't move them, let alone pull them away.

Immediately after the sound of music came from the earphones, Ping Qiu looked at Xu Xiuyuan. He was adjusting the volume of the headset, pointing up and down with his free hand, probably asking him whether the volume should be louder or lower.

Pingqiu couldn't refuse Xu Xiuyuan at this time, his overflowing sympathy was always defeated when facing Xu Xiuyuan who was as well-behaved as a child, so he just sulked in silence for a while, forgave Xu Xiuyuan's uncertainty again, shook his head, It means that the volume is just right and there is no need to adjust it.

As for which songs or tunes they listened to that night, Ping Qiu has no idea.He fell asleep after listening to three or two songs, leaning against Xu Xiuyuan's bent leg, and then lying on the sofa again.In a daze, he vaguely responded to Xu Xiuyuan's two words, only remembering that he seemed very happy, and Ping Qiu felt the same way, so he had a simple good dream.

He dreamed that Xu Xiuyuan, who was in elementary school, had grown very tall, and he was riding a bicycle along the long street in the old town.The long street was very deserted, there was no one on the side of the road, Ping Qiu stood at the end of the long street and waved to him, calling him excitedly to come quickly.Unexpectedly, the pressure on his shoulders was getting heavier and heavier at this time, his arms could no longer swing, and fell heavily, and then even his shoulders, neck, and head seemed to be pressed down hard.

Turning his head with difficulty, Pingqiu only saw a dark shadow against the light sitting on his right shoulder, and another one on his left shoulder, but he couldn't make out who it was.But instinctive fear made him yell forward.He yelled to tell Xu Xiuyuan not to come, to go back, not to come, to go back, but Xu Xiuyuan was still approaching here constantly.

Ping Qiu was afraid that he would suffer too, so he desperately propped his head up, trying to shake off the heavy weight on his shoulders.However, the pressure on his shoulders was too heavy, he failed again and again, and finally he could only prop up his head a little.Gradually, Xu Xiuyuan's figure got closer and closer, and the strange thing was that Pingqiu suddenly couldn't tell who he was until the tire of the tire ran over his head.

Probably because the nightmare last night was too weird, the next day, Pingqiu was still in a trance when he went to work.Colleague Liu Chenchen's eyes are vicious, seeing him at work the first time he saw something was wrong, she came to his office to inquire about the situation, seeing Pingqiu in a daze, she pointed her eyes and asked him in a low voice if he was dumped.

Pingqiu prevaricates her concern, looks in the mirror secretly, his eyelids are indeed a little swollen, but fortunately it's not as obvious as last night, it can be perfunctory because of staying up late.

After noon, around four o'clock in the afternoon, Pingqiu was receiving students in the office.Liu Chenchen was strolling outside, knocked on his door suddenly, pointed out: "Someone has been wandering outside for a long time, it seems to be looking for you."

"Looking for me?" Pingqiu was puzzled, "No one told me."

"I'm a little familiar with that man. I seem to have seen him come to you before, but he hasn't come in, so I'm not sure. Why don't you go out and have a look?"

"Oh, let me take a look." Ping Qiu signaled to the students on the side to wait a moment, and hurried out of the main door to look outside. The person leaning against the car door with a hesitant face turned out to be Zhou Chuan.

Liu Chenchen followed the probe: "I'm looking for you, I remember correctly?"

"It's my friend. It should come to me. But I still have students here. I'll ask him to wait for a while. I'll go there after I'm done."

"Don't, you leave the students to me, it's the same anyway," Liu Chenchen said, "It's your friend, he has been waiting for a long time, the weather is so boring today, how uncomfortable, you go to him, here I am .”

"Then thank you, Chenchen. I'll buy you something later." Pingqiu apologized.

"It's a small matter, you can go." Liu Chenchen waved his hand casually.

Looking up and seeing Pingqiu trotting over, Zhou Chuan immediately stood up straight, raised his arm in embarrassment, waved it twice, and put it down resentfully.He felt abrupt about his uninvited arrival: "I wanted to wait for you to get off work, but who knew you came out first. Or tell me in the car, I'll turn on the air conditioner, it's hot outside."

Pingqiu followed and got into the car, and waited for Zhou Chuan to sit still before he said: "It was my colleague who said he saw you outside and said that you had been waiting for a long time. Why didn't you come in and look for me? Do you have something to say to me?"

"After all, it's your unit, so I can't rush in to find you out of nowhere. Anyway, I'm free in the afternoon, so you'll be fine waiting."

"What do you find me for?"

"Actually, it's not a big deal." Zhou Chuan pondered for a moment, "I heard from Lu Yang that you two broke up?"

"Yes, we're divided." Ping Qiu responded very simply, which surprised Zhou Chuan.

He tentatively asked, "Is there no room left?"

"No."

"Did he do something wrong to make you unhappy? Or is it related to me getting involved with you two? I know, I'm just a bystander. Regarding your affairs, I have no position to accuse you or Lu Yang at all. If the bunch of nonsense I said before made you feel uncomfortable, I apologize, I didn't mean it, I didn't mean you and your ex, you two—"

"It has nothing to do with you," Ping Qiu interrupted, "really, it has nothing to do with you at all. You don't have to blame yourself, it's our own problem and has nothing to do with you."

"Are you sure? Lu Yang asked me to come out some time ago, he seemed to mind this very much," Zhou Chuan looked at Pingqiu's face, and hurriedly explained, "I had a lot of conflicts at home at the time. Hearing what Lu Yang said, I might just I became emotional, and I didn't talk through my brain, Lu Yang may be influenced by me, so I said a lot of things to you that shouldn't be said, are you angry because of this, and then broke up with him?"

"No, really not."

"...No?" Zhou Chuan hesitated, "It's really not because of this?"

"I understand why we separated. It's not because of you. Lu Yang and I are not suitable for each other. It might be better to separate."

"So," Zhou Chuan forced a smile, "I thought there was something wrong with me. If it was because of my two stupid words that caused you to break up, then I would probably lose face to see Lu Yang in the future."

"Yes, so you don't have to worry." Ping Qiu also smiled.

"But you split up so suddenly—seriously?"

"seriously."

"Is there no possibility of reconciliation? Not at all?"

"No."

Pingqiu answered quickly, Zhou Chuan had held a sliver of hope for Lu Yang, but now he was completely disappointed like a spark that was extinguished by cold water.He couldn't tell what it was like in his heart, he seemed to regret: "I was still thinking, you might just fight for two days. But seeing how decisive you are, it should be impossible."

It stands to reason that Pingqiu should say some good things about Zhou Chuan as a friend to persuade Lu Yang at this time, but Pingqiu didn't say anything when the words came to his lips.Maybe it was because he thought it was too perfunctory, or maybe it was too hurtful. In short, he was silent for a while, said goodbye to Zhou Chuan, opened the car door, and ran back to school in the light rain.After entering the main gate and looking back, Zhou Chuan's car was still parked in place, and it took 2 minutes before he slowly left.

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The next chapter begins to fall in love (.