Tang Daxia wrote a thousand original novels

There was a burst of ups and downs in my heart, the tongue coating seemed to be immersed in a very sweet bitterness first, and then the old sour delicacy was revealed, and I felt that Qi and blood gathered in the tendons of the heart, and my heart was pounding. Like a bellows, it seems that my heart wants to believe, but my reason refuses to be persuaded.

"Could it be Qiu Lianzheng who said this? Did you think it yourself?"

Liang Wan smiled wryly, pointed at the bowl of medicinal soup that was still hot, and said, "I think it's right, but I can see how Master Qiu has stayed up late these days and how he has improved the taste with all his heart. . I think what I said was what was on his mind."

After I listened, I picked up the lid and covered the medicinal soup heavily.

I only heard a crisp sound of "bang", the porcelain cover covered the aroma, heat and medicine, and I also removed the expression on my face, as if covering my inner emotions.

Then I looked at Liang Wan: "Do you know the grievances between us?"

Liang Wan's eyes sank, and he said frankly: "Master Qiu told me something."

I said with a smile, "You deliberately mentioned his good things in the hope that we can let go of our estrangement, so that when we go to save A'Du, we can be more united and united?"

Liang Wan was taken aback, but I went to pat him on the shoulder: "Actually, you don't have to make peace, I will also unite everyone to facilitate this rescue, you don't have to bother..."

Liang Wan was silent for a moment, but stretched out his hand to cover my hand on his shoulder.

I was startled, but saw his sincere eyes and said: "Hero Tang, what I'm talking about is what I saw, and this speculation is also sincere... And it's not for A'Du."

I stared at him for a while and then said: "Okay, I believe you."

Then I changed the subject and pretended to be slightly annoyed: "But if you still call me Daxia Tang like this, I won't drink the medicine you sent me anymore."

Liang Wan was taken aback for a moment, then smiled and said, "Okay, brother Tang."

He was about to leave, but I beckoned him to stay for a while. I wanted to ask Qiu Lianzheng more clearly about the situation of boiling the medicine.Liang Wan was also happy, closed the door, and I poured him some tea instead. While drinking the hot tea, he also talked to me about Qiu Lianzheng's recovery from his injuries.

After I finished listening, I casually asked: "You said you didn't say this for A'Du, what was that for?"

Liang Wan paused while drinking tea, thought for a moment, and rubbed his fingers against the edge of the cup for a while, then said: "He has feelings for you, but he doesn't say anything, and I feel uncomfortable watching him."

I was taken aback: "Are there feelings and thoughts?"

Liang Wan said with a smile: "Every time I make medicine for you, I don't see him being impatient. After I go back, I will tell you about your reaction after drinking the medicine. If you find it sweet, he will be happy all day. If you find it too bitter, even if he pinches his nose, he still has to sniff the dregs of the medicine, and then improve it next time. A rough and aggressive person like him can bear the temper to do this hard and boring thing, even for a while. I look forward to your reaction to taking the medicine every day...doesn't this prove anything?"

I was speechless for a moment.

Because Liang Wan's description is too graphic, I can't really imagine a Qiu Lianzheng who goes out early and returns late, cooks medicine silently, and then waits for Liang Wan to report back.

He really... Can he really enjoy making medicine for me and taking care of me?

Is this a feud?

Are you sure this isn't Qiu Qiu Mao who was kidnapped by the Trisolarans and reformed?

Seeing that I was so silent, Liang Wan frowned and said: "He can be so attentive to Brother Tang, but Brother Tang is still on guard against him... Presumably what happened in the past is very frightening to you. Even if A cheerful and open-minded person like Brother Tang dare not trust him any more..."

After all, he is Liang Wan.

He quickly noticed the hesitation and discomfort in my heart.

I didn't know what to think, I only took a sip of tea, but when I got to my mouth, I realized that the tea was already empty, and my teeth were silently biting down on the tea porcelain, as if I was taking a sip of empty hatred and fear.

So I simply put down the teacup and pushed it to the side of the bowl of soup that Qiu Lianzheng carefully cooked. Seeing them standing side by side, one big and one small, I seemed to see him and me back then.

I just smiled and went to look at Liang Wan.

"Do you want to hear another story?"

Liang Wan's eyes brightened: "Of course!"

I told Ye Xiaoyan's story again.

But this time is different from the last time, when I talked to Gao Youyou, I was concerned about the situation, and I spoke concisely, but when I talked to Liang Wan, there was no danger, so I talked full and almost nothing Retained, and instilled every detail into him.

Liang Wan listened very seriously, and his emotions fluctuated greatly. He was inexplicably shocked at one moment, full of sadness at the other, worried and anxious at the other, and indignant at the other. In the end, these emotions were like streams converging into the sea, entrenched in his chest. Go, rich and multi-layered deposition, making his expression look very complicated.

I asked him, "You've heard his story, and you've heard my story, what do you think now?"

Liang Wan sighed for a long time: "When he loves you, you are caught off guard. When you love him, he has already hated you because of betrayal and deceit, but when you hate him, he fell in love with you again... ... between you, it seems that you met the right love and hate at the wrong time, how will this end?"

He actually thinks the same as me, and he can deeply understand my complicated and unspeakable emotions. It can be seen that he is a good friend who can really listen to what is on his mind.

I asked him, "I've been meaning to ask you a question."

Liang Wan said: "Please tell me."

My fingers hidden in my sleeves trembled slightly, and I gritted my teeth silently and dryly. I was somewhat at a loss as to how to ask the next question.

"What can I do to stop being afraid?"

Liang Wan looked at me suspiciously, but I just smiled bitterly and said, "I heard that you were betrayed before, but you didn't seem to be affected at all, and you were broken. When A'Du stabbed you from behind with the sword, , you are so sure that he will not really stab him? Like me, like Qiu Lianzheng, so many people are afraid...why can you not be afraid?"

After Liang Wan listened quietly, at first he didn't say a word like a statue, but then he thought of something, he just gently took my hand and smiled.

Smiles are different from smiles, A'Du's smile is cold and charming, Qiu Lianzheng's smile is ridiculed and ironic, and Gao Youyou's smile is often full of murderous intent.

But his smile has an inexplicable compassion and sympathy.

Especially after I showed my vulnerability, he became more firm and warm.

like a little sun.

Like a little Bodhisattva.

He said seriously: "It's not that I'm not afraid, but I think everyone will have unavoidable difficulties. Even if it's a betrayal, there may be some unknown reasons behind it. It's just that the person who was betrayed suffered a lot, and it is often difficult to get rid of it." Accept it, but you can't understand it."

He looked at me and smiled wryly, "Actually, betrayal, deception and abandonment are the most common things in this arena. If you have been betrayed once or twice, you will be afraid, and you will not give your sincerity, and you will not move forward." Now, what's the point of living?"

I didn't expect him to think so.

How can such gentle thoughts of sympathy and understanding, and such realistic thoughts of extreme pessimism appear in the same person?

Seeing that I was puzzled, Liang Wan smiled again: "I can think so because I am a lucky person. Although I have been betrayed several times, the people who betrayed me are not the ones I like and cherish the most. So I don't have an indelible shadow on my body, and I won't be so crushed that I don't dare to trust others. This should be different from Brother Tang and Master Qiu."

He spoke casually, as if those experiences were really just ordinary.

But the soul-stirring in it, how can it be brought over silently?

This guy is really a person who can forgive people and forget sorrow easily.

I asked him again: "I understand the truth, but I'm still afraid, what should I do?"

If people can change after hearing the truth, they will no longer be humans, but gods.

Liang Wan thought for a while and said, "Then learn to forgive."

As soon as I heard it, my heart turned cold, and I quickly withdrew my hand, as if I changed all my views on him in a second or two.

"You also think I want to forgive Qiu Lianzheng? Do you want to forgive everything he did to me!?"

Liang Wan said seriously: "I do hope you forgive, but not for him, but for yourself."

I immediately let go of my anger and disappointment, and said in confusion, "I forgive myself? What are you talking about?"

Liang Wan only said: "The reason why you let Qiu Lianzheng stay to listen to your story in the first place is to find out whether he likes your woman's side or your man's side, right?"

I nodded, but he said: "This sounds like an excuse for procrastination, but I think...you should really want to figure it out..."

"So what if I want to find out?"

Liang Wan looked at me helplessly: "You want to figure this out, isn't it because...you have been thinking over and over again, whether your decision was right?"

He asked me straight to the point: "Have you been thinking, if you approached him openly as a man and didn't lie to him, would your ending be different? Maybe he wouldn't hate you so much, Want to kill you? And you can still get the elixir?"

"Are you also hating yourself for believing in him, sacrificing for him, disregarding dignity and life for him, but being betrayed in the end?"

Then he smiled and said the strongest words in the lightest voice.

"It's true that you hated him this past year, but by doing this, aren't you also hating yourself?"

I froze completely.

It seemed that the thoughts that had been hidden for a whole year were revealed to the world.

Liang Wan's eyes are pitiful, but I can hardly stand his compassion.

He wanted to hold my hand to convey warmth, but I couldn't give him my hand.

I just couldn't help but said: "I'm really thinking over and over again... I pretended to be Ye Xiaoyan and approached him, did I do something wrong? Could it be that I approached him as Tang Yue, without those deliberate deceptions and seductions?" , he will also like me, and will help me open the door of Yunyin Palace?"

"What I thought later was...I lied to him, but in the end I softened my heart. I wanted to be forgiven and redeemed. Isn't this also a mistake? If I am wrong, I will be wrong to the end. If my heart is hardened to the end, Maybe I won't almost die, and I won't be so uncomfortable?"

Liang Wan smiled bitterly: "But if you change your identity in the early stage, or change your behavior in the later stage, will things really go as you want?"

He put a few teacups on the table, as if using them to represent several forces, then he pointed to these teacups, explained one by one, and immediately brought me back to the past.

"You are worried about those deceptions at the beginning, but if you approach him as Tang Yue, your identity background will be much more complicated than that of Ye Xiaoyan, and there is Xu Liangming behind you. Trust you in such a short period of time, do you like you?"

I laughed and said, "Maybe if I approach him as a man, he won't like me at all."

Liang Wan smiled lightly: "Brother Tang, don't underestimate yourself. Even if you don't have these clothes, you are still a graceful, exquisite and protruding beauty. I think Master Qiu will still like you, but I just want to trust you It's going to be a little longer."

I was ashamed, embarrassed and puzzled and said: "It takes a long time to trust me, I understand, but what is the word Linglong protruding?"

Liang Wan coughed and continued to analyze: "At that time, Master Snake had already arrived in Yunyin Palace, so no matter whether you went or not, civil strife would break out. If you approach Qiu Lianzheng as Tang Yue, you won't be able to get it in a short time. His trust. Then when the civil strife breaks out, he can only enter the Yunyin Palace alone. When the internal strife and foreign troubles intertwine, he can fight for only one person with the help of hatred. He can keep Yu Xingqi, protect those innocent palace people, and Can we deal with so many masters and traitors?"

I thought about it and said firmly, "No!"

His martial arts back then were far inferior to what he is now, and his eyesight was as good as that of a blind man.

And if I'm not around, not to mention Sheng Wanli will backstab him, that old man in black won't even kill the three killers at the Blood Forging Altar. The chances of getting down are greatly reduced.

Once he died, let alone Yu Xingqi, a big brother.Liu Wuxu's backstab, Sheng Wanli's betrayal, and all kinds of strange poisons from Master Snake, he can bear anything he wants.And if Yu Xingqi dies, the medicine I want to steal may not be able to keep, and even the strange poison on my body may not be able to be cured, and my life span will be lost by more than half.

After such an analysis, my heart suddenly brightened up, as if the skylight had been opened and all the light was in my arms.Liang Wan saw that my complexion had softened, so she made a conclusion.

"Fortune depends on misfortune, and misfortune depends on blessing. Of course, you have caused him to be deceived and betrayed, and you have paid a heavy price for it. But if you don't make him like and trust you in a short time, you will If he can't get the elixir, he will probably die, and Yu Xingqi and other innocent palace people will not be spared. Could this be what you want?"

I said: "This is indeed a bad ending, but I hate more than this."

Liang Wan was silent for a moment, then pointed out: "You also hate yourself for being soft-hearted, for trusting him and loving him?"

I asked him word by word: "I believe in him, love him, and almost die for it, how can I not hate him?"

Liang Wan said with a wry smile: "But to love someone is the same as making true friends. It's a gamble and a risk. It's all about giving your life to the other party. Anyway, it's a risk. You're not afraid of making friends anymore. Why bother?" Afraid to love someone?"

I said in a strange tone, "Can these two... be the same?"

Liang Wan said with a wry smile: "It's all about giving sincerity, it's just about depth."

He looked at me and said seriously: "For those you care about, you have done too much, too much, before forgiving others, you should forgive yourself first?"

My heart ached.

I tell stories to everyone and they end up asking me - was it worth it?Stupid or not?

There is only one Liang Wan, who advises me not to regret it, not to think about whether I could have done better in the first place, to do it, to forgive myself regardless of right or wrong.

To love yourself.

At the heart of loving others—is really loving yourself.

The prerequisite for all forgiveness is to forgive yourself.

Don't be afraid of what you did wrong or what you judged wrong, I know it's all worth it!

I seemed to have finally let go of a part of my heavy burden, stood up briskly, and looked at Liang Wan.

"Listening to what you have to say is better than listening to what you have to say! I am enlightened."

Liang Wan laughed out loud: "Then what have you realized?"

I smiled knowingly: "Whenever you do something wrong, you should bravely blame others and sincerely forgive yourself! This way you will be happy and stay away from suffering."

Liang Wan's smile froze.

He then frowned and said, "I...I didn't mean that..."

I looked at him more happily, patted his shoulder vigorously, and said: "Don't worry, I know how to get along with Qiu Lian, next time you deliver medicine, you can let him come over!"

the next day.

An expressionless Mao Maoqiu.

A Qiu Lianzheng with a body as straight as a pine tree and a face as white as frost and snow.

A gate master who is as beautiful as the stars last night and as handsome as the twilight tonight.

He put the medicinal soup in front of my room door with arrogance, and then left immediately.

I rushed out of the room immediately and called him to a stop with lightning speed: "Stop! Don't go!"

Qiu Lian turned around.

Look at me without squinting.

"The medicine soup has been delivered, is there anything else?"

I just said seriously: "You are not allowed to avoid me."

Qiu Lianzheng frowned: "Didn't you tell me not to like you? Do you think I'm hiding from you?"

I glared at him: "I told you not to like me, but it's not impossible to talk to each other when we meet."

Qiu Lianzheng only looked at me, and asked carefully: "Why do we still have to meet?"

I smiled and said, "Because meeting you and me will help me heal my wounds."

Qiu Lianzheng raised his eyebrows, he couldn't believe it: "What did you say?"

I laughed even more wickedly: "I have already figured out what happened at the beginning, so every time I meet and see you, I will scold you severely and humiliate you, and then I will be happy. Doesn't this help you?" Is my injury recovered?"

Qiu Lianzheng was silent for a while, then suddenly said: "I understand."

His eyes changed, and he affirmed seriously: "You will be happy when you see me!"

I was stunned: "Why do you listen to others? I want to see you, but I will be happy only if I scold you and insult you!"

Qiu Lianzheng actually laughed: "I just heard it, you will be happy when you see me!"

He smiled so strangely, as if he was convinced that I was thinking like this, and then drew a series of great and miraculous conclusions. I wanted to scold him a few more words, but when this person said me, his head went numb. Go back and leave easily.

On the way, he hummed a little song, as if he was really happy.

I watched this guy leave with a high spirit, but I shook my head helplessly, looking at the hot soup on the ground, I moved my nose, and I smelled the ever-changing sweet fragrance full of heart.

Somehow I laughed too.

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Another day of life and death, I finally got out of this chapter 0 minute before 1 o'clock XD I don't know if I can update it earlier tomorrow