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The night wind rustled his ears, and the light voice made Xu Xie suspect for a moment that he had heard wrong, but the next second, Fang Zhi's voice sounded again.

"I saw them," he repeated.

Xu Xie exerted force on his wrist, trying to stop the uncomfortably trembling palm, and asked softly, "...who did you see?"

Fang Zhi didn't answer.He lowered his head, as if he had fallen into his own unspeakable emotions, and did not respond to any external stimuli. He murmured softly to himself: "Actually, I knew it when I was very young. What a family of four, say That's nice...do they treat me like family?"

"If you don't want to raise it, it's fine if you throw me away, so why bother me? I'm not a heartless thing..."

Most likely, the injured person will be more sensitive than usual and more likely to be affected. Fang Zhi thought that he would smile lightly when he saw Liu Yunyuan's family again, but the reality was that he couldn't bear the turmoil in his heart at all. Surging, the resentment and grievance that had been suppressed in his heart for many years spewed out, burning away his long-standing calm on the surface.

Xu Xie looked over Fang Zhi's shoulder and saw the young man's slender fingers start to entwine and pick each other. His heart tightened, and he circled Fang Zhi for half a circle, and reached out to clamp his hands in front of Fang Zhi: "Don't pick, Just say something, I'm listening."

Fang Zhi's hands were caught, and his fingers were curled up. Although he was uncomfortable, he didn't take it back after all, and obediently held hands with Xu Xie.

Time froze for a moment, just when Xu Xie thought Fang Zhi would continue, the young boy in front of him sniffed, "Forget it, I'm not in the mood to talk."

Xu Xie laughed: "I'm ready to comfort you, why don't you say anything? You don't care about the audience's emotions at all."

The young boy didn't speak, and it took a long time before he opened his mouth sullenly: "Xu Xie, how much do you know about me?"

Xu Xie weighed between lying and telling the truth, and chose the latter: "I probably have an understanding, after all, the incident was quite a big one back then, and it happened to be at an age when I could remember the incident, and I still remember it clearly now. "

"Then what do you want me to say when you know everything?"

After thinking for a moment, Xu Xie said, "Okay, in exchange, I'll tell you about my affairs."

Fang Zhi looked up at Xu Xie through the gap between his forehead and hair, with a momentary astonishment on his expression.

The other party didn't realize it, and pulled him to find a bench to sit down.

Xu Xie rested her neck on the backrest, looked up at the night sky, and revealed to the people around her the scars she hadn't touched for a long time: "I'm thinking about how to tell you..."

No matter how much it was difficult to say, it was blurted out leisurely following the night wind intermittently.

Brother Xu transformed into Xu Xiaoxie, without the halo of being a top student, without the admiration of everyone, the so-called baggage and hesitation also seemed not very important, and the emotions buried deep in the youth were vented.

"My mother is actually quite independent. When my father was alive, he listened to my father in everything." Xu Xie's voice was weak and tired, "I can understand her, but some of her behaviors really make me unbearable." ...Hey, Fang Zhi, do we have the same disease and pity for each other?"

Fang Zhi heard Lin Yufeng talk about the situation in Xu Xie's family. At that time, he felt that Lin Yufeng used strange words. He didn't expect the so-called "sticky" to be such a sticky method full of possessive and controlling desires.

"Probably." Fang Zhi blinked, touched Xu Xie's foot toe-to-toe, and then imitated Xu Xie's movement and looked up at the sky, "Anyway, it sounds like we're both miserable. "

After a moment of silence, Xu Xie suddenly turned his head to look at Fang Zhi: "Since the two of us have said that, we have established a revolutionary friendship, right?"

Fang Zhi felt the heat spraying from his ears, turned his head to look at Xu Xie, and said puzzledly, "Haven't we always had a revolutionary friendship in our studies?"

"In addition to studying, we should also build up other aspects." Xu Xie sat up a little bit, "I mean...we can be more intimate."

When Fang Zhi woke up the next day, Xu Xie who was on the bed didn't move at all.

In addition to the excessive wake-up time on the first day of living in school, a certain boss took good care of his roommates' emotions after knowing the work and rest time. He usually woke up 10 minutes before the bell to do listening and speaking practice.Fang Zhi made a calculation according to this, wrapped the quilt tightly and turned over, preparing to get sleepy again.

After closing his eyes for 5 minutes, he didn't feel drowsy, but Xu Xie's "be more intimate" last night popped up in his mind from time to time, making him more and more awake.

What does this mean?They all live in the same dormitory, eat and sleep together, isn't that intimate enough?

Fang Zhi turned over, feeling that what Xu Xie said was a little bit different from what he understood.

He couldn't figure it out, shook his head to shake away the weird thoughts, and thought to himself why Xu Xie's speech was always so unclear, it was weird, it aroused others' curiosity and didn't care about explaining it, which made people care.

After thinking about it, people slowly began to get confused.One second before he closed his eyes and fell asleep, Fang Zhi seemed to see Xu Xie lift the quilt.

When Fang Zhi woke up again, he was woken up by the wake-up bell.

I am used to being woken up by Xu Xie's gentle voice when he read English poems aloud every morning, so the soothing and gentle wake-up bell seems very harsh.

Fang Zhi irritably pulled the pillow over his ears, covered his ears for a minute, then sat up suddenly, turned his head to look at the opposite bed.

The quilt on Xu Xie's bed was bulging, and a human figure could be vaguely seen.

This was a novelty, but Fang Zhi didn't think much about it, and remembered that he vaguely saw Xu Xie getting up, so he thought he was going back to sleep.

He thought he still had time, so he didn't call Xu Xie, and walked to the bathroom to wash up.

When he came out of the bathroom, there was still no movement from Xu Xie.

Fang Zhi felt something was wrong, walked over and gently pushed the quilt up, "Xu Xie, it's time to get up."

The bulge squirmed twice, and a flushed face slowly poked out from the gap of the bulge.

Xu Xie drooped her eyelids, looked sleepy, and said hoarsely, "What time is it?"

Seeing his appearance, Fang Zhi immediately turned around and searched through his small medicine box, found the thermometer in it, and returned to Xu Xie's bedside: "Don't worry about the time, open your mouth."

Xu Xie blinked, glanced at Fang Zhi, then at the thermometer sticking out to his mouth, then at Fang Zhi again, suddenly bent his eyes, as if he was in a good mood and opened his mouth to hold the thermometer.

Fang Zhi glanced at him inexplicably, seeing that he was obedient, he took the kettle to the water room to fetch water.

It was the busiest time in the morning, when many people hurried downstairs, Fang Zhi's slowly dangling hot water bottle looked particularly arrogant.

"Hey! Brother Fang! Brother Fang! It's 25:[-]! Why are you still holding the kettle!"

When Li Xiao followed the crowd to the downstairs hall of the dormitory, he saw Fang Zhi walking unhurriedly to the boiling water room.With a shake of his shoulders, he straightened the school uniform jacket he had put on in a hurry in the morning, and squeezed people towards Fang Zhi.

Fang Zhi walked into the boiling water room, put the kettle under the faucet, and only then paid half of his attention to Li Xiao: "My roommate is sick, I'll bring some hot water."

"Roommate... oh, I know, you share a dormitory with Mr. Xu. Your dormitory is very famous, the dormitory of double masters, outstanding people." Li Xiao smiled and said enthusiastically, "Mr. Xu is sick? Is it a cold? Or what? I have some common medicines over there, if you need them, I can get them now."

As he spoke, there was movement under his feet.

Fang Zhi immediately stopped him: "It's no big problem, I have medicine over there... Isn't it time for class? You go first."

It happened that someone was calling Li Xiao's name at the other end of the gate.

Li Xiao turned his head and answered loudly, then turned back to Fang Zhi and said, "Okay, I'll go first, if you need help with anything, you can come to me... By the way, my dormitory is 422... Then I'll go first! Bye!"

This person came and went like the wind, and disappeared in the blink of an eye.

Fang Zhi stayed there for a moment, until the hot water overflowed the bottle and the back of his hand was scalded by the splashing water droplets, then he regained his senses and turned off the water.

The more people he knew, the more Fang Zhi realized that some of his previous thoughts were too narrow.

He made generalizations, experienced and seen the dark side of human nature, and thought that everyone harbored malice.

He repulses, even loathes the approach of others.He thinks that staying away from the crowd is self-protection.

It's just that no one likes to be alone.

That's why he privately included Xu Dai among his friends, and he didn't refuse Jiang An's instigated approach.

But he still felt alone.

It's an indescribable feeling.To roughly describe it, you know that you have a connection with them, but that connection is too weak, even dispensable, so ethereal that it seems to dissipate in the next second.

This feeling lasted until he met Xu Xie.

Mr. Xu has the ability to get closer to him without anyone noticing, and brought him to know Yu You's group and the people in the aspiring youth group, which made him gradually realize that there are many, many other things besides malice. Substantial enthusiasm, warmth and liveliness are worth feeling.

Fang Zhi slowly felt a strange sense of security.

Probably just being in the warmth, the indifference is fading away, the so-called loneliness is self-deception and worrying, there is nothing to be afraid of.

When Fang Zhi returned to the dormitory with the kettle in hand, Xu Xie was holding the thermometer with his arms up, squinting hard to see the mercury scale.

"If you can see clearly, there is a ghost." Fang Zhi passed by Xu Xie's bed, and took the thermometer in his hand, "... 37.8 degrees, it's not bad, I won't go to the hospital... With your arms back, I'll find I'll give you some antipyretics."

Brother Xu obediently retracted his arms under the bed, only his head was exposed, his gaze quietly followed Fang Zhi, watching him pour boiling water, look through the medicine box, and then went to the balcony to make a call with his mobile phone.

The distance was a bit far, but the boy's voice came in indistinctly: "Hey, teacher... I have a fever, but it's not serious... The phone number of his head teacher... Ah? Tell me... Okay, thank you teacher."

Consciousness was drowsy, Xu Xie closed his tired eyelids, trying to close his senses to increase his hearing.However, the effect was not good. When he closed his eyes, he felt drowsy. It didn't take long for him to fall asleep in a daze.

Xu Xie, who was ill, was a little clingy.

During the big break at the end of the second class, Fang Zhi took out his phone that vibrated from time to time throughout the class, looked at the 24 WeChat messages from Xu Xie, and thought helplessly.

There are 24 messages, some of which are panda emoticons, and the words on them include "Are you there", "Panda knocks on the door" and other similar words and sentences, a total of six messages.

The other [-] items are meaningless pictures and behavior reports.

[Brother Xu]: Are you there.jpg

[Big brother Xu]: [picture]

[Brother Xu]: The porridge is finished.

[Big brother Xu]: [picture]

[Brother Xu]: I also took the medicine.

……

[Big brother Xu]: Panda knocks on the door.jpg

[Big Brother Xu]: When are you coming back?

Fang Zhi tapped twice on the last sentence "When will you come back", thought for a moment and answered two words.

[FZ.]: Now.

Student Fang escaped the morning exercises between classes, walked around half of the school to avoid the teachers and students gathered on the playground, and made up a reason to go back to the dormitory to get the textbooks to trick the dormitory building management teacher, and slipped to the gate of 314 smoothly.

The moment Fang Zhi opened the door, Fang Zhi saw Xu Xie who was sitting at the desk, wearing earphones and apparently doing a quiz.

Fang Zhi stepped forward with a frown, and pulled off the earphones from Xu Xie's ears: "What?"

The other party's movements obviously froze, and after a while, he tidied up the things on the table with a guilty conscience: "...do the listening."

Fang Zhi's eyes were cold: "Brother Xu studied while sick, and his spirit moved China."

... After the calf, I got angry.

Xu Xie stopped talking, lowered her head and moved silently to the side of the bed, then shrank into the bed and pretended that she hadn't come out.

Mr. Xu has figured out Fang Xiaoyao's temper, showing weakness very naturally: "I'm dizzy."

"You deserve it, don't get dizzy."

"..."

If one move fails, another move will be made: "How is your hand? Does it hurt?"

Fang Zhi started to pour a cup of hot water: "You should take care of yourself, it's not me who can't go to class in bed."

"..."

Fang Zhi returned with a cold face, and Xu Xie shut his mouth embarrassingly.

Fang saw that he was wilting after a while, and after a while, he handed him the hot water that was just poured on the table: "Drink it."

Xu Xie jumped out of the bed immediately, and returned to that little grinning look: "Okay."

It makes sense for teenagers to be regarded as male gods by most girls.Xu Xie is good-looking, and has an elegant and bookish air in his gestures. Even if he drinks a glass of water like now, he looks calm and beautiful, and it will always make people feel a sense of satisfaction that has passed through the years.

Fang Zhi stared at Xu Xie's Adam's apple rolling, gulped down a whole glass of water, feeling thirsty for no reason.

He took the water glass that Xu Xie emptied and asked him, "Do you still drink?"

After drinking the water, the other party obediently shrank back under the blanket, shaking his head: "I won't drink."

Fang Zhi made himself a glass of warm water, pulled the chair over and sat beside Xu Xie's bed, sipping, "Still dizzy? Do you want to go to the infirmary?"

"I lied to you, I'm not dizzy." Xu Xie shrank back into the quilt a little bit, leaving only a pair of eyes outside the quilt, wantonly looking at the little boy with drooping eyelashes beside the bed, "Don't worry."

"I'm not worried, I just think it's a waste of time for you to lie down like this. There's a competition on Saturday." Fang Zhi insisted.

Xu Xie pointed it out: "I didn't waste my time. Didn't I just do my audition? You were the one who frightened me back to bed."

Fang Zhi continued to speak stiffly: "I didn't bluff you, you have a guilty conscience."

Xu Xie: "..."

Fine.

After class exercise was over, there was a commotion, various voices, noises, and laughter rumbled into the 314 dormitory, interrupting the sudden silence between the two.

Fang Zhi knew he had to go.He drank the water in the glass: "I'm leaving, I'll bring you lunch at noon."

Xu Xie blinked: "Okay."

Fang Zhi smacked his lips and asked again, "What do you want to eat?"

Mr. Xu is easy to support: "Anything is fine, I will eat whatever you bring, I don't pick."

"Okay." The hustle and bustle downstairs gradually faded away. According to experience, the class bell should ring in 5 minutes, but Fang Zhi still inexplicably wanted to delay for a while, "Then you have a good rest."

"it is good."

"...Don't study if you don't get dizzy, it's not too late."

Xu Xie rolled her eyes: "Okay, I see... Boss Fang, if you don't leave, you will be late."

Fang Zhi pursed his lips, sucked the remaining water on his lips into his mouth, then slowly put the chair back to the desk: "Okay, let's go."

"Ah."

The door opened with a creak, and then closed with a bang. A few seconds later, the sound of footsteps outside the door faded away, and the room returned to silence.

Xu Xie was stunned for a while, then suddenly pulled the quilt with a howl, and buried herself in it.

The surrounding temperature rose, and he tried to hide the red tide that rose to the tips of his ears because of his heartbeat.

But the heart beats like a drum, telling unnecessary self-deception.

Spending time with Fang Zhi every day, Xu Xie became more and more aware that he had no way to suppress his emotions.

So there will be the phrase "be more intimate" last night, so there will be dreams of Fang Zhi this morning when the fever is so faint, and then get up and study to suppress those crazy and restless thoughts.

The 17-year-old's emotions are so impulsive that the burning person almost loses his mind.