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The night was getting darker, and there was silence in the small dormitory space.

Xu Xie lay motionless on his side in such silence. He didn't put on his clothes slowly and carefully until he heard the shallow breathing of the lower berth gradually stabilized.

After putting on his clothes, he breathed a sigh of relief, and as soon as his nerves relaxed, something that he hadn't noticed just now wrapped around his senses.

For example, the faint scent of lime wafting up from the lower bunk, for example the slight vibration of the bed board when the young boy turned over, for example the small friction sound when the other party's clothes rubbed against each other... everything was magnified countless times in the silence, Xu Xie did not At any moment, Fang Zhi's presence can be felt more than at this moment, as if everything about him, whether it's the smell of his breath or his voice, is grabbing, pulling, enveloping and infiltrating himself.

Out of nowhere, Xu Xie thought of He Jing's words.

— You are not him either.

The implication is, don't presumptuously use your own way of thinking to speculate on Fang Zhi's thoughts.Without communication, just guessing, sometimes you think you have guessed the truth, but in fact, you may be getting farther and farther away.

and so……

Xu Xie bent her fingers and tapped on the bed board lightly, not very loudly, the voice was as weak as a gentle reminder.

But the person in the lower berth seemed to have been disturbed by something, and turned over in a big movement.

So, what the hell do you think of me?

With heavy thoughts, Xu Xie slept very restlessly this time. He woke up at one o'clock in the morning vaguely. After staring at the white ceiling for a few seconds, his consciousness passed out again. When he woke up again, Xu Xie touched it. I glanced at my phone, and it was only 04:30 in the morning.

The dawn of this season is very early, and at this point, the sky light softly shines in through the curtains, illuminating the outline of the desk by the window.

Because he didn't sleep well, Xu Xie's consciousness was a little chaotic, and his brain went blank for a while before successfully restarting.

When he restarted his ears, he heard noises from the bathroom.

Who?So early……

Xu Xie rubbed her messy sleeping hair, looked at the lower bunk in a daze——

The thin quilt was piled up at the foot of the bed, and the pillows were lying in a crooked manner in the middle of the bed, and the owner of the bed was nowhere to be found.

Just as he was thinking dully about where Fang Zhi would go, the bathroom door opened.

The person who was thinking about it just now came out of it, and there was an irregular water stain on the neckline of the white T-shirt, as if he had just washed himself.He noticed Xu Xie who was sitting up, looked over with eyes that were getting darker after being soaked in water, and asked softly, "Why did you wake up so early?"

Xu Xie got out of bed and walked up to Fang Zhi: "What about you? Why did you wake up so early?"

The person in front of him seemed a little embarrassed, his eyes drifted randomly for a while, and finally fell to the ground: "...It's hot, I can't sleep."

This is strange.Xu Xie knew that Fang Zhi wasn't too afraid of the heat, so it didn't make sense that he didn't feel the heat in the dormitory, but Fang Zhi couldn't sleep because of the heat.

... What's more, the young boy's guilty conscience made it look like an excuse to cover up the truth.

So why on earth can't sleep?

Is it the same as myself, entangled by some thoughts that have been thinking about for a long time but are boring, so I can't sleep?

Xu Xie felt that he had probably been brainwashed by He Jing. The possibility that he had never dared to think about before suddenly occupied all his thoughts in this blue-white morning.

The light that penetrated into the window was gradually dyed orange, and the birds resting on the edge of the window felt the sunrise, fluttered their wings, and made a crisp "ding" when they hit the railing of the anti-theft window.

As if startled by this sound, Fang Zhi, who had not moved for a long time, suddenly turned around, wanting to retreat to the bathroom.

He didn't know what was going on with the current atmosphere.Perhaps it was because of his lame reasons that he didn't seem to have gained the other party's trust, or maybe it was because Xu Xie standing in front of him was too quiet. It was just an ordinary morning, and he was facing familiar people, but he instinctively felt a little flustered.

...I don't want to face Xu Xie like this, and I don't want to be forced to ask the reason for my insomnia last night. If I ask——

The wrist was suddenly grabbed by someone.

Fang Zhi froze for a moment when he turned around.

The bird chirped and left, until the last sound dissipated in the ears, Xu Xie spoke, with a hoarse voice when he got up early: "Brother Fang, why can't you sleep?"

Fang Zhi: "..."

He was silent, but the absurd scenes in last night's dream flashed through his mind like a horse watching flowers.The protagonists of the dream are him and Xu Xie, and the content of the dream is endless entanglement.

In fact, it's normal to have this kind of dream at this age. It's not like he hasn't had it before as a product of adolescence restlessness. Even the other protagonist of the dream is an old acquaintance.

The last time he had this kind of dream, he hid home and calmed down for several days. This time he struggled to wake up from the dream, staring at the upper bunk bed and thinking about what he would say to Xu Xie until the day of graduation.

Fang Zhi has a rich imagination, and while thinking about it, he imagined the scene of the conversation between the two of them that day.Based on his own understanding of Xu Xie, he imitated every expression and every reaction of Xu Xie in the scene, overthrowing and rebuilding countless times. Want to wake up.

Unable to sleep around, Fang Zhi turned over and got up, ready to write two sets of test papers to get rid of distracting thoughts, but just after washing up and walking out of the bathroom, he saw Xu Xie sitting in the dim light of the morning.

What happened next was beyond Fang Zhi's control.

He instinctively wanted to escape, but the man held his wrist, which was obviously not very hot, but it was faintly hot against his skin that had just touched the cold water.

What happened in reality seemed to overlap with a successful scenario imagined last night.

Fang Zhi's heart suddenly beat fast, pounding on his chest, and his whole body trembled slightly.

...Then, the strength on the wrist increased a little.

It seemed to stop his shaking, and it seemed to be a deliberate way to keep him.

Fang Zhi turned his head, and at this moment, the golden morning light broke into the room overwhelmingly, covering the two of them in a warm color.Xu Xie raised his eyes at the right time, so Fang Zhi was able to see the bright color in his eyes, and what was about to come out inside was highly coincident with that scene.

The two looked at each other for a while, and at last Xu Xie seemed unable to stand the long silence, and asked the previous question again: "Brother Fang...why can't you fall asleep?"

Fang Zhi blinked lightly, the gleam in his eyes disappeared for a moment, and then reappeared quickly.He didn't answer, but threw the question back: "What about you? Why did you wake up so early?"

Their eyes met, like confrontation and entanglement, like temptation and determination.

So they looked at each other like this for a while, and Xu Xie lowered his eyes first.

The courage accumulated in the middle of the night can only support him so far, and then he should step back, back into the shadow behind him, together with the emotions that will soon be uncontrollable.

He moved slightly, and the hand holding Fang Zhi slid down, and then, his movements stopped——

With the fingertips resting on the pulse, I felt the agitation that seemed to burst out of the skin.

Xu Xie suddenly raised her eyes and looked at Fang Zhi in disbelief.

——Those impulses, those emotions, and those specious ambiguities all got their final destination in this time of looking at each other.

His self-righteous thoughts were shattered by the reality. The young man who he thought would never want to hear him tell his feelings in this life turned around when he held his wrists, and looked straight at him with light brown eyes that looked like glass in the sunlight. His voice was even hoarse than he thought: "I can't sleep because I'm thinking about you."

Xu Xie's Adam's apple rolled twice.

"...Or maybe I was thinking about you." Fang Zhi didn't dare to look into Xu Xie's eyes anymore, so he could only lower his eyes and set his eyes on the place where the two were holding each other.

Xu Xie could no longer see his eyes, only Fang Zhi's long and drooping eyelashes could be seen from his angle.He waited for the next sentence, but after waiting for more than ten seconds, the other party didn't say anything.

He seemed embarrassed to continue, but also seemed to be waiting for someone to ask a question.

At this moment, no worries and restraints could compare to the blush on the tips of Shang Zhi's ears, so Xu Xie heard himself say, "What do you mean?"

He wanted to hear the young boy's answer, and wanted him to confirm his guess, but the moment the other party raised his eyes again, Xu Xie suddenly couldn't care about anything.

The entangled and violent heartbeat has long since betrayed everything.

It is hard to say who met whom first, they were bathed in the golden light, their breaths intertwined and intertwined, warm and quiet.

The boy's heartbeat couldn't be concealed, so they heard each other's heartbeat.

The mobile phone that was discarded on the bed popped up a push message with a "buzz", which was a news that the temperature will continue to rise in the next few days, reminding everyone to pay attention to heatstroke prevention——

Midsummer is approaching.

Fang Zhi wrote "counseling" on the draft paper.

After thinking about it, he crossed out the word viciously, and wrote a "stupid ×" under the black ink blot.

Both words are scorn for oneself.

It was morning reading, the time that should have been spent memorizing words and poems, but Fang Zhi used it to reminisce about the kiss in the early morning without stopping for a second.

The soft and cool touch on his lips, the warm breath that fell on the tip of his nose, and then Xu Xie slightly moved away, panting lightly and asking himself to stick out his tongue.

...What was your reaction at that time?

Pushing away the other party, staggering to escape, falling back to the bed, getting into the bed, covering the quilt tightly, shrinking back and pretending to be dead.

Four-character summary, capitalized counseling.

However, a certain hooligan surnamed Xu did not let him go easily.He hid under the blanket, listening to the sound of someone's footsteps getting closer, and then, even the blanket led him into a warm and hard environment.Across the thin quilt that had almost no blocking effect, the man didn't know how to find his ear, the hot breath sprayed on the pinna, followed by a hoarse voice: "It's okay if you don't stretch, come out and let me kiss you again." Take a bite."

...What was your reaction at that time?

He lifted the quilt, avoided Xu Xie, and hid in the bathroom under the surprised eyes of the other party.

...Silly x behavior.

Fang Zhi recalled this series of silly x behaviors several times with shame and joy. He kept on writing, back and forth on the draft paper and drew countless small smiley faces with blush on the draft paper, until they were put in the desk pocket and adjusted into The vibrating phone buzzed lightly, and he stopped writing to pick up the phone.

The small white box that popped up on the screen showed that it was a message from Mr. Xu.

Fang Zhi felt a little nervous for no reason, and the tips of his ears felt slightly warm.He bit the dead skin on his lips and clicked on the message, and the small white frame instantly enlarged into the WeChat chat interface between him and Xu Xie.

[Brother Xu]: After self-study, I will have breakfast with you, remember to wait for me.

It was a reminder message that was sent every day, but because of the kiss in the early morning, it became particularly ambiguous and tender.

Fang Zhi tapped Xu Xie's head with his fingertips, and suddenly thought of a very important thing.

Although they...well, kissed, neither of them seemed to have a reasonable explanation for the kiss.

No wonder Fang Zhi was sensitive, he at least expressed his thoughts, but Xu Xie didn't say anything from the beginning to the end.After the unclear kiss in the morning, the wake-up bell rang, and then went to their respective classes for self-study, and there was no time to speak clearly.

Fang Zhi, who had been dizzy and dizzy since the kiss, suddenly calmed down.

... So what exactly is Xu Xie thinking?Was the behavior of the ambiguous boss at that moment impulsive?

From the beginning to the end, it seems that I am the only one who is in chaos.And what about Xu Xie?After flirting with him with ease, he was able to calmly say good morning to Peng Jin who got up afterwards.

It seems that it doesn't matter.

People who fall in love seem to have a common problem, that is, they are prone to overthinking, either deceiving themselves or others, or worrying about nothing.What's more, Fang Zhiqing's opening of Dou Chukai was a special case, and he was so full of thoughts that he didn't know who to explain to.

He struggled with his mobile phone for a long time, until the bell rang for the end of get out of class, he suddenly came back to his senses, then raised his eyes, and saw Xu Xie walking towards him from the back door.

The young man was tall and tall, walking towards the bright light coming in from the door, and finally stood in front of Fang Zhi, looking at him with half-cast eyes: "Don't look... go have breakfast."

Only then did Fang Zhi realize that his gaze had been following Xu Xie.He and Xu Xie stared blankly at each other for a few seconds, then turned his head abruptly, and began to tidy up the desk with a dull head, and those disturbing and entangled thoughts were interrupted for a short time by this interruption.

The little boy's annoyance and panic were almost written all over his face. Xu Xie wanted to laugh a little, but considering someone's thin-skinned, he forced himself to hold it back.

After Fang Zhi tidied up the desk indiscriminately and stood up, Xu Xie suddenly reached out and grabbed his wrist.

This posture is simply magical, Fang Zhi felt his heart beat a lot faster just as his body temperature was balanced.

Xu Xie looked down from Fang Zhi's reddish ear tips, and paused when he touched the corners of his tightly pursed lips. A few images of the early morning flashed through his mind quickly, making his heart beat wildly.

He licked the corner of his mouth restrainedly, his eyes continued to look down, and fell on Fang Zhi's hand with slightly curled fingers. After staring at it for a few seconds, he turned his gaze back to Fang Zhi's eyes.He called him, with a deep voice: "Brother Fang."

Ever since Xu Xie's eyes fell on him, Fang Zhi's gaze has been darting around, here and there, and finally there is nowhere to look, so he turned back again. This time, he happened to be opposite Xu Xie. eyeballed.

Then, I couldn't bear to move away.

It was not easy to get to the meal time, and now all the people in the teaching building ran to have breakfast.The teaching building and the cafeteria on the North Campus were close, and the noise from that side made the classroom seem quieter.

They were in this quiet place, their intertwined gazes were ambiguous, and something seemed to fill the entire space at once.

After an unknown amount of time, Xu Xie blinked lightly, and his eyes fell, stopping at the position below Fang Zhi's nose.

After pausing for a few seconds, he suddenly leaned over.

It's no better than the close contact in the early morning, and they retreat after just touching each other.Then, the hand holding Fang Zhi's wrist moved, the fingertips of the five fingers pressed against the warm skin all the way down, brushing the pulse, the palm, and finally inserting them between the other's fingers one by one, and fastened them tightly.

The fingers of Fang Zhi's hand that was held were half-bent, and he lightly rested on the back of the opponent's hand. He paused for a while, and then hesitantly exerted some force.

Xu Xie suddenly chuckled.Because of the close distance, Fang Zhi could feel the heat sprayed on his face and the tremor in his chest.

He was flustered by his laughter, and in order not to look too disappointing, he preemptively asked, "What are you laughing at?"

"It's nothing." Xu Xie said, clasping the other party more tightly in his hands, "I just want to ask my boyfriend if he can go with me to a place where no one is there after breakfast?"

"I want you to hear my confession."